Entire PG Edition of The Works of William Dean Howells by William Dean Howells (page 73)

“You may believe just half of that, Alice,” cried Dan.

“Then believe the best half, or the half you like best,” said Mrs. Mavering. “There must be something good in him if you like him. Have they welcomed you home, my dear?”

We’ve all made a stagger at it,” said Dan, while Alice was faltering over the words which were so slow to come.

“Don’t try to answer my formal stupidities. You are welcome, and that’s enough, and more than enough of speeches. Did you have a comfortable journey up?”

“Oh, very.”

“Was it cold?”

“Not at all. The cars were very hot.”

“Have you had any snow yet at Boston?”

“No, none at all yet.”

“Now I feel that we’re talking sense. I hope you found everything in your room?” I can’t look after things as I would like, and so I inquire.”

“There’s everything,” said Alice. “We’re very comfortable.”

“I’m very glad. I had Dan look, he’s my housekeeper; he understands me better than my girls; he’s like me, more. That’s what makes us so fond of each other; it’s a kind of personal vanity. But he has his good points, Dan has. He’s very amiable, and I was too, at his age–and till I came here. But I’m not going to tell you of his good points; I dare say you’ve found them out. I’ll tell you about his bad ones. He says you’re very serious. Are you?” She pressed the girl’s hand, which she had kept in hers, and regarded her keenly.

Alice dropped her eyes at the odd question. “I don’t know,” she faltered. “Sometimes.”

“Well, that’s good. Dan’s frivolous.”

“Oh, sometimes–only sometimes!” he interposed.

“He’s frivolous, and he’s very light-minded; but he’s none the worse for that.”

“Oh, thank you,” said Dan; and Alice, still puzzled, laughed provisionally.

“No; I want you to understand that. He’s light-hearted too, and that’s a great thing in this world. If you’re serious you’ll be apt to be heavyhearted, and then you’ll find Dan of use. And I hope he’ll know how, to turn your seriousness to account too. he needs something to keep him down–to keep him from blowing away. “Yes, it’s very well for people to be opposites. Only they must understand each other, If they do that, then they get along. Light-heartedness or heavy-heartedness comes to the same thing if they know how to use it for each other. You see, I’ve got to be a great philosopher lying here; nobody dares contradict me or interrupt me when I’m constructing my theories, and so I get them perfect.”

“I wish I could hear them all,” said Alice, with sincerity that made Mrs. Mavering laugh as light-heartedly as Dan himself, and that seemed to suggest the nest thing to her.

“You can for the asking, almost any time. Are you a very truthful person, my dear? Don’t take the trouble to deny it if you are,” she added, at Alice’s stare. “You see, I’m not at all conventional and you needn’t be. Come! tell the truth for once, at any rate. Are you habitually truthful?”

“Yes, I think I am,” said Alice, still staring.

“Dan’s not,” said his mother quietly.

“Oh, see here, now, mother! Don’t give me away!”

“He’ll tell the truth in extremity, of course, and he’ll tell it if it’s pleasant, always; but if you don’t expect much more of him you won’t be disappointed; and you can make him of great use.”

“You see where I got it, anyway, Alice,” said Dan, laughing across the bed at her.

“Yes, you got it from me: I own it. A great part of my life was made up of making life pleasant to others by fibbing. I stopped it when I came here.”

“Oh, not altogether, mother!” urged her son. “You mustn’t be too hard on yourself.”

She ignored his interruption: “You’ll find Dan a great convenience with that agreeable habit of his. You can get him to make all your verbal excuses for you (he’ll, do it beautifully), and dictate all the thousand and one little lying notes you’ll have to write; he won’t mind it in the least, and it will save you a great wear-and-tear of conscience.”

“Go on, mother, go on,” said Dan, with delighted eyes, that asked of Alice if it were not all perfectly charming.

“And you can come in with your habitual truthfulness where Dan wouldn’t know what to do, poor fellow. You’ll have the moral courage to come right to the point when he would like to shillyshally, and you can be frank while he’s trying to think how to make y-e-s spell no.”

“Any other little compliments, mother?” suggested Dan.

“No,” said Mrs. Mavering; “that’s all. I thought I’d better have it off my mind; I knew you’d never get it off yours, and Alice had better know the worst. It is the worst, my dear, and if I talked of him till doomsday I couldn’t say any more harm of him. I needn’t tell you how sweet he is; you know that, I’m sure; but you can’t know yet how gentle and forbearing he is, how patient, how full of kindness to every living soul, how unselfish, how–“

She lost her voice. “Oh, come now, mother,” Dan protested huskily.

Alice did not say anything; she bent over, without repugnance, and gathered the shadowy shape into her strong young arms, and kissed the wasted face whose unearthly coolness was like the leaf of a flower against her lips. “He never gave me a moment’s trouble,” said the mother, “and I’m sure he’ll make you happy. How kind of you not to be afraid of me–“

“Afraid!” cried the girl, with passionate solemnity. “I shall never feel safe away from you!”

The door opened upon the sound of voices, and the others came in.

Mrs. Pasmer did not wait for an introduction, but with an affectation of impulse which she felt Mrs. Mavering would penetrate and respect, she went up to the bed and presented herself. Dan’s mother smiled hospitably upon her, and they had some playful words about their children. Mrs. Pasmer neatly conveyed the regrets of her husband, who had hoped up to the last moment that the heavy cold he had taken would let him come with her; and the invalid made her guest sit down on the right hand of her bed, which seemed to be the place of honour, while her husband took Dan’s place on the left, and admired his wife’s skill in fence. At the end of her encounter with Mrs. Pasmer she called out with her strong voice, “Why don’t you get your banjo, Molly, and play something?”

“A banjo? Oh, do!” cried Mrs. Pasmer. “It’s so picturesque and interesting! I heard that young ladies had taken it up, and I should so like to hear it!” She had turned to Mrs. Mavering again, and she now beamed winningly upon her.

Alice regarded the girl with a puzzled frown as she brought her banjo in from another room and sat down with it. She relaxed the severity of her stare a little as Molly played one wild air after another, singing some of them with an evidence of training in her naive effectiveness. There were some Mexican songs which she had learned in a late visit to their country, and some Creole melodies caught up in a winter’s sojourn to Louisiana. The elder sister accompanied her on the piano, not with the hard, resolute proficiency which one might have expected of Eunice Mavering, but with a sympathy which was perhaps the expression of her share of the family kindliness.

“Your children seem to have been everywhere,” said Mrs. Pasmer, with a sigh of flattering envy. “Oh, you’re not going to stop!” she pleaded, turning from Mrs. Mavering to Molly.

“I think Dan had better do the rheumatic uncle now,” said Eunice, from the piano.

“Oh yes! the rheumatic uncle–do,” said Mrs. Pasmer. “We know the rheumatic uncle,” she added, with a glance at Alice. Dan looked at her too, as if doubtful of her approval; and then he told in character a Yankee story which he had worked up from the talk of his friend the foreman. It made them all laugh.

Mrs. Pasmer was the gayest; she let herself go, and throughout the evening she flattered right and left, and said, in her good-night to Mrs. Mavering, that she had never imagined so delightful a time. “O Mrs. Mavering, I don’t wonder your children love their home. It’s a revelation.”

XXXIV.

“She’s a cat, Dan,” said his mother quietly, and not without liking, when he looked in for his goodnight kiss after the rest were gone; “a perfect tabby. But your Alice is sublime.”

“O mother–“

“She’s a little too sublime for me. But you’re young, and you can stand it.”

Dan laughed with delight. “Yes, I think I can, mother. All I ask is the chance.”

“Oh, you’re very much in love, both of you; there’s no doubt about that. What I mean is that she’s very high strung, very intense. She has ideals- -any one can see that.”

Dan took it all for praise. “Yes,” he said eagerly, “that’s what I told you. And that will be the best thing about it for me. I have no ideals.”

“Well, you must find out what hers are, and live up to them.”

“Oh, there won’t be any trouble about that,” said Dan buoyantly.

“You must help her to find them out too.” He looked puzzled. “You mustn’t expect the child to be too definite at first, nor to be always right, even when she’s full of ideals. You must be very patient with her, Dan.”

“Oh, I will, mother! You know that. How could I ever be impatient with Alice?”

“Very forbearing, and very kind, and indefatigably forgiving. Ask your father how to behave.”

Dan promised to do so, with a laugh at the joke. It had never occurred to him that his father was particularly exemplary in these things, or that his mother idolised him for what seemed to Dan simply a matter-of-course endurance of her sick whims and freaks and moods. He broke forth into a vehement protest of his good intentions, to which his mother did not seem very attentive. After a while she asked–

“Is she always so silent, Dan?”

“Well, not with me, mother. Of course she was a little embarrassed; she didn’t know exactly what to say, I suppose–“

“Oh, I rather liked that. At least she isn’t a rattle-pate. And we shall get acquainted; we shall like each other. She will understand me when you bring her home here to live with us, and–“

“Yes,” said Dan, rising rather hastily, and stooping over to his mother. “I’m not going to let you talk any more now, or we shall have to suffer for it to-morrow night.”

He got gaily away before his mother could amplify a suggestion which spoiled a little of his pleasure in the praises–he thought they were unqualified and enthusiastic praises–she had been heaping upon Alice. He wished to go to bed with them all sweet and unalloyed in his thought, to sleep, to dream upon his perfect triumph.

Mrs. Pasmer was a long time in undressing, and in calming down after the demands which the different events of the evening had made upon her resources.

“It has certainly been a very mixed evening, Alice,” she said, as she took the pins out of her back hair and let it fall; and she continued to talk as she went back and forth between their rooms. “What do you think of banjo-playing for young ladies? Isn’t it rather rowdy? Decidedly rowdy, I think. And Dan’s Yankee story! I expected to see the old gentleman get up and perform some trick.”

“I suppose they do it to amuse Mrs. Mavering,” said Alice, with cold displeasure.

“Oh, it’s quite right,” tittered Mrs. Pasmer. “It would be as much as their lives are worth if they didn’t. You can see that she rules them with a rod of iron. What a will! I’m glad you’re not going to come under her sway; I really think you couldn’t be safe from her in the same hemisphere; it’s well you’re going abroad at once. They’re a very self- concentrated family, don’t you think–very self-satisfied? Of course that’s the danger of living off by themselves as they do: they get to thinking there’s nobody else in the world. You would simply be absorbed by them: it’s a hair-breadth escape.

“How splendidly Dan contrasts with the others! Oh, he’s delightful; he’s a man of the world. Give me the world, after all! And he’s so considerate of their rustic conceit! What a house! It’s perfectly baronial–and ridiculous. In any other country it would mean something–society, entertainments, troops of guests; but here it doesn’t mean anything but money. Not that money isn’t a very good thing; I wish we had more of it. But now you see how very little it can do by itself. You looked very well, Alice, and behaved with great dignity; perhaps too much. You ought to enter a little more into the spirit of things, even if you don’t respect them. That oldest girl isn’t particularly pleased, I fancy, though it doesn’t matter really.”

Alice replied to her mother from time to time with absent Yeses and Noes; she sat by the window looking out on the hillside lawn before the house; the moon had risen, and poured a flood of snowy light over it, in which the cold statues dimly shone, and the firs, in clumps and singly, blackened with an inky solidity. Beyond wandered the hills, their bare pasturage broken here and there by blotches of woodland.

After her mother had gone to bed she turned her light down and resumed her seat by the window, pressing her hot forehead against the pane, and losing all sense of the scene without in the whirl of her thoughts.

After this, evening of gay welcome in Dan’s family, and those moments of tenderness with him, her heart was troubled. She now realised her engagement as something exterior to herself and her own family, and confronted for the first time its responsibilities, its ties, and its claims. It was not enough to be everything to Dan; she could not be that unless she were something to his family. She did not realise this vividly, but with the remoteness which all verities except those of sensation have for youth.

Her uneasiness was full of exultation, of triumph; she knew she had been admired by Dan’s family, and she experienced the sweetness of having pleased them for his sake; his happy eyes shone before her; but she was touched in her self-love by what her mother had coarsely characterised in them. They had regarded her liking them as a matter of course; his mother had ignored her even in pretending to decry Dan to her. But again this was very remote, very momentary. It was no nearer, no more lasting on the surface of her happiness, than the flying whiff’s of thin cloud that chased across the moon and lost themselves in the vast blue around it.

XXXV.

People came to the first of Mrs. James Bellingham’s receptions with the expectation of pleasure which the earlier receptions of the season awaken even in the oldest and wisest. But they tried to dissemble their eagerness in a fashionable tardiness. “We get later and later,” said Mrs. Brinkley to John Munt, as she sat watching the slow gathering of the crowd. By half-past eleven it had not yet hidden Mrs. Bellingham, where she stood near the middle of the room, from the pleasant corner they had found after accidentally arriving together. Mr. Brinkley had not come; he said he might not be too old for receptions, but he was too good; in either case he preferred to stay at home. “We used to come at nine o’clock, and now we come at I’m getting into a quotation from Mother Goose, I think.”

“I thought it was Browning,” said Munt, with his witticism manner. Neither he nor Mrs. Brinkley was particularly glad to be together, but at Mrs. James Bellingham’s it was well not to fling any companionship away till you were sure of something else. Besides, Mrs. Brinkley was indolent and good-natured, and Munt was active and good-natured, and they were well fitted to get on for ten or fifteen minutes. While they talked she kept an eye out for other acquaintance, and he stood alert to escape at the first chance. “How is it we are here so early–or rather you are?” she pursued irrelevantly.

“Oh, I don’t know,” said Munt, accepting the implication of his superior fashion with pleasure. “I never mind being among the first. It’s rather interesting to see people come in–don’t you think?”

“That depends a good deal on the people. I don’t find a great variety in their smirks and smiles to Mrs. Bellingham; I seem to be doing them all myself. And there’s a monotony about their apprehension and helplessness when they’re turned adrift that’s altogether too much like my own. No, Mr. Munt, I can’t agree with you that it’s interesting to see people come in. It’s altogether too autobiographical. What else have you to suggest?”

“I’m afraid I’m at the end of my string,” said Munt. “I suppose we shall see the Pasmers and young Mavering here to-night.”

Mrs. Brinkley turned and looked sharply at him.

“You’ve heard of the engagement?” he asked.

“No, decidedly, I haven’t. And after his flight from Campobello it’s the last thing I expected to hear of. When did it come out?”

“Only within a few days. They’ve been keeping it rather quiet. Mrs. Pasmer told me herself.”

Mrs. Brinkley gave herself a moment for reflection. “Well, if he can stand it, I suppose I can.”

“That isn’t exactly what people are saying to Mrs. Pasmer, Mrs. Brinkley,” suggested Munt, with his humorous manner.

“I dare say they’re trying to make her believe that her daughter is sacrificed. That’s the way. But she knows better.”

“There’s no doubt but she’s informed herself. She put me through my catechism about the Maverings the day of the picnic down there.”

“Do you know them?”

“Bridge Mavering and I were at Harvard together.”

“Tell me about them.” Mrs. Brinkley listened to Munt’s praises of his old friend with an attention superficially divided with the people to whom she bowed and smiled. The room was filling up. “Well,” she said at the end, “he’s a sweet young fellow. I hope he likes his Pasmers.”

“I guess there’s no doubt about his liking one of them–the principal one.”

“Yes, if she is the principal one.” There was an implication in everything she said that Dan Mavering had been hoodwinked by Mrs. Pasmer. Mature ladies always like to imply something of the sort in these cases. They like to ignore the prime agency of youth and love, and pretend that marriage is a game that parents play at with us, as if we were in an old comedy; it is a tradition. “Will he take her home to live?”

“No. I heard that they’re all going abroad–for a year, or two at least.”

“Ah! I thought so,” cried Mrs. Brinkley. She looked up with whimsical pleasure in the uncertainty of an old gentleman who is staring hard at her through his glasses. “Well,” she said with a pleasant sharpness, “do you make me out?”

“As nearly as my belief in your wisdom will allow,” said the old gentleman, as distinctly as his long white moustache and an apparent absence of teeth behind it would let him. John Munt had eagerly abandoned the seat he was keeping at Mrs. Brinkley’s side, and had launched himself into the thickening crowd. The old gentleman, who was lank and tall, folded himself down into it, He continued as tranquilly as if seated quite alone with Mrs. Brinkley, and not minding that his voice, with the senile crow in it, made itself heard by others. “I’m always surprised to find sensible people at these things of Jane’s. They’re most extraordinary things. Jane’s idea of society is to turn a herd of human beings loose in her house, and see what will come of it. She has no more sense of hospitality or responsibility than the Elements or Divine Providence. You may come here and have a good time–if you can get it; she won’t object; or you may die of solitude and inanition; she’d never know it. I don’t know but it’s rather sublime in her. It’s like the indifference of fate; but it’s rather rough on those who don’t understand it. She likes to see her rooms filled with pretty dresses, but she has no social instincts and no social inspiration whatever. She lights and heats and feeds her guests, and then she leaves them to themselves. She’s a kind woman–Jane is a very good-natured woman, and I really think she’d be grieved if she thought any one went away unhappy, but she does nothing to make them at home in her house–absolutely nothing.”

“Perhaps she does all they deserve for them. I don’t know that any one acquires merit by coming to an evening party; and it’s impossible to be personally hospitable to everybody in such a crowd.”

Yes, I’ve sometimes taken that view of it. And yet if you ask a stranger to your house, you establish a tacit understanding with him that you won’t forget him after you have him there. I like to go about and note the mystification of strangers who’ve come here with some notion of a little attention. It’s delightfully poignant; I suffer with them; it’s a cheap luxury of woe; I follow them through all the turns and windings of their experience. Of course the theory is that, being turned loose here with the rest, they may speak to anybody; but the fact is, they can’t. Sometimes I should like to hail some of these unfriended spirits, but I haven’t the courage. I’m not individually bashful, but I have a thousand years of Anglo-Saxon civilisation behind me. There ought to be policemen, to show strangers about and be kind to them. I’ve just seen two pretty women cast away in a corner, and clinging to a small water-colour on the wall with a show of interest that would melt a heart of stone. Why do you come, Mrs. Brinkley? I should like to know. You’re not obliged to.”

“No,” said Mrs. Brinkley, lowering her voice instinctively, as if to bring his down. “I suppose I come from force of habit I’ve been coming a long time, you know. Why do you come?”

“Because I can’t sleep. If I could sleep, I should be at home in bed.” A weariness came into his thin face and dim eyes that was pathetic, and passed into a whimsical sarcasm. “I’m not one of the great leisure class, you know, that voluntarily turns night into day. Do you know what I go about saying now?”

“Something amusing, I suppose.”

“You’d better not be so sure of that. I’ve discovered a fact, or rather I’ve formulated an old one. I’ve always been troubled how to classify people here, there are so many exceptions; and I’ve ended by broadly generalising them as women and men.”

Mrs. Brinkley was certainly amused at this. “It seems to me that there you’ve been anticipated by nature–not to mention art.”

“Oh, not in my particular view. The women in America represent the aristocracy which exists everywhere else in both sexes. You are born to the patrician leisure; you have the accomplishments and the clothes and manners and ideals; and we men are a natural commonalty, born to business, to newspapers, to cigars, and horses. This natural female aristocracy of ours establishes the forms, usages, places, and times of society. The epicene aristocracies of other countries turn night into day in their social pleasures, and our noblesse sympathetically follows their example. You ladies, who can lie till noon next day, come to Jane’s reception at eleven o’clock, and you drag along with you a herd of us brokers, bankers, merchants, lawyers, and doctors, who must be at our offices and counting- rooms before nine in the morning. The hours of us work-people are regulated by the wholesome industries of the great democracy which we’re a part of; and the hours of our wives and daughters by the deleterious pleasures of the Old World aristocracy. That’s the reason we’re not all at home in bed.”

“I thought you were not at home in bed because you couldn’t sleep.”

“I know it. And you’ve no idea how horrible a bed is that you can’t sleep in.” The old man’s voice broke in a tremor. “Ah, it’s a bed of torture! I spend many a wicked hour in mine, envying St. Lawrence his gridiron. But what do you think of my theory?”

“It’s a very pretty theory. My only objection to it is that it’s too flattering. You know I rather prefer to abuse my sex; and to be set up as a natural aristocracy–I don’t know that I can quite agree to that, even to account satisfactorily for being at your sister-in-law’s reception.”

“You’re too modest, Mrs. Brinkley.”

“No, really. There ought to be some men among us–men without morrows. Now, why don’t you and my husband set an example to your sex? Why don’t you relax your severe sense of duty? Why need you insist upon being at your offices every morning at nine? Why don’t you fling off these habits of lifelong industry, and be gracefully indolent in the interest of the higher civilisation?”

Bromfield Corey looked round at her with a smile of relish for her satire. Her husband was a notoriously lazy man, who had chosen to live restrictedly upon an inherited property rather than increase it by the smallest exertion.

“Do you think we could get Andy Pasmer to join us?”

“No, I can’t encourage you with that idea. You must get on without Mr. Pasmer; he’s going back to Europe with his son-in-law.”

“Do you mean that their girl’s married?”

“No-engaged. It’s just out.”

“Well, I must say Mrs. Pasmer has made use of her time.” He too liked to imply that it was all an effect of her manoeuvring, and that the young people had nothing to do with it; this survival from European fiction dies hard. “Who is the young man?”

Mrs. Brinkley gave him an account of Dan Mavering as she had seen him at Campobello, and of his family as she just heard of them. “Mr. Munt was telling me about them as you came up.”

“Why, was that John Munt?”

“Yes; didn’t you know him?”

“No,” said Corey sadly. “I don’t know anybody nowadays. I seem to be going to pieces every way. I don’t call sixty-nine such a very great age.”

“Not at all!” cried Mrs. Brinkley. “I’m fifty-four myself, and Brinkley’s sixty.”

“But I feel a thousand years old. I don’t see people, and when I do I don’t know ’em. My head’s in a cloud.” He let it hang heavily; then he lifted it, and said: “He’s a nice, comfortable fellow, Munt is. Why didn’t he stop and talk a bit?”

“Well, Munt’s modest, you know; and I suppose he thought he might be the third that makes company a crowd. Besides, nobody stops and talks a bit at these things. They’re afraid of boring or being bored.”

“Yes, they’re all in as unnatural a mood as if they were posing for a photograph. I wonder who invented this sort of thing? Do you know,” said the old man, “that I think it’s rather worse with us than with any other people? We’re a simple, sincere folk, domestic in our instincts, not gregarious or frivolous in any way; and when we’re wrenched away from our firesides, and packed in our best clothes into Jane’s gilded saloons, we feel vindictive; we feel wicked. When the Boston being abandons himself– or herself–to fashion, she suffers a depravation into something quite lurid. She has a bad conscience, and she hardens her heart with talk that’s tremendously cynical. It’s amusing,” said Corey, staring round him purblindly at the groups and files of people surging and eddying past the corner where he sat with Mrs. Brinkley.

“No; it’s shocking,” said his companion. “At any rate, you mustn’t say such things, even if you think them. I can’t let you go too far, you know. These young people think it heavenly, here.”

She took with him the tone that elderly people use with those older than themselves who have begun to break; there were authority and patronage in it. At the bottom of her heart she thought that Bromfield Corey should not have been allowed to come; but she determined to keep him safe and harmless as far as she could.

From time to time the crowd was a stationary mass in front of them; then it dissolved and flowed away, to gather anew; there were moments when the floor near them was quite vacant; then it was inundated again with silken trains. From another part of the house came the sound of music, and most of the young people who passed went two and two, as if they were partners in the dance, and had come out of the ball-room between dances. There was a good deal of nervous talk, politely subdued among them; but it was not the note of unearthly rapture which Mrs. Brinkley’s conventional claim had implied; it was self-interested, eager, anxious; and was probably not different from the voice of good society anywhere.

XXXVI.

“Why, there’s Dan Mavering now!” said Mrs. Brinkley, rather to herself than to her companion. “And alone!”

Dan’s face showed above most of the heads and shoulders about him; it was flushed, and looked troubled and excited. He caught sight of Mrs. Brinkley, and his eyes brightened joyfully. He slipped quickly through the crowd, and bowed over her hand, while he stammered out, without giving her a chance for reply till the end: “O Mrs. Brinkley, I’m so glad to see you! I’m going–I want to ask a great favour of you, Mrs. Brinkley. I want to bring–I want to introduce some friends of mine to you–some ladies, Mrs. Brinkley; very nice people I met last summer at Portland. Their father–General Wrayne–has been building some railroads down East, and they’re very nice people; but they don’t know any one–any ladies–and they’ve been looking at the pictures ever since they came. They’re very good pictures; but it isn’t an exhibition!” He broke down with a laugh.

“Why, of course, Mr. Mavering; I shall be delighted,” said Mrs. Brinkley, with a hospitality rendered reckless by her sympathy with the young fellow. “By all means!”

“Oh; thanks!–thank you aver so much!” said Dan. “I’ll bring them to you –they’ll understand!” He slipped into the crowd again.

Corey made an offer of going. Mrs. Brinkley stopped him with her fan. “No–stay, Mr. Corey. Unless you wish to go. I fancy it’s the people you were talking about, and you must help me through with them.”

“I ask nothing better,” said the old man, unresentful of Dan’s having not even seemed to see him, in his generous preoccupation. “I should like to see how you’ll get on, and perhaps I can be of use.”

“Of course you can–the greatest.”

“But why hasn’t he introduced them to his Pasmers? What? Eh? Oh!” Corey made these utterances in response to a sharper pressure of Mrs. Brinkley’s fan on his arm.

Dan was opening a way through the crowd before them for two ladies, whom he now introduced. “Mrs. Frobisher, Mrs. Brinkley; and Miss Wrayne.”

Mrs. Brinkley cordially gave her hand to the ladies, and said, “May I introduce Mr. Corey? Mr. Mavering, let me introduce you to Mr. Corey.” The old man rose and stood with the little group.

Dan’s face shone with flattered pride and joyous triumph. He bubbled out some happy incoherencies about the honour and pleasure, while at the same time he beamed with tender gratitude upon Mrs. Brinkley, who was behaving with a gracious, humorous kindliness to the aliens cast upon her mercies. Mrs. Frobisher, after a half-hour of Boston society, was not that presence of easy gaiety which crossed Dan’s path on the Portland pavement the morning of his arrival from Campobello; but she was still a handsome, effective woman, of whom you would have hesitated to say whether she was showy or distinguished. Perhaps she was a little of both, with an air of command bred of supremacy in frontier garrisons; her sister was like her in the way that a young girl may be like a young matron. They blossomed alike in the genial atmosphere of Mrs. Brinkley and of Mr. Corey. He began at once to make bantering speeches with them both. The friendliness of an old man and a stout elderly woman might not have been their ideal of success at an evening party, used as they were to the unstinted homage of young captains and lieutenants, but a brief experience of Mrs. Bellingham’s hospitality must have taught them humility; and when a stout, elderly gentleman, whose baldness was still trying to be blond, joined the group, the spectacle was not without its points of resemblance to a social ovation. Perhaps it was a Boston social ovation.

“Hallo, Corey!” said this stout gentleman, whom Mrs. Brinkley at once introduced as Mr. Bellingham, and whose salutation Corey returned with “Hallo, Charles!” of equal intimacy.

Mr. Bellingham caught at the name of Frobisher. “Mrs. Major Dick Frobisher?”

“Mrs. Colonel now, but Dick always,” said the lady, with immediate comradery. “Do you know my husband?”

“I should think so!” said Bellingham; and a talk of common interest and mutual reminiscence sprang up between them. Bellingham graphically depicted his meeting with Colonel Frobisher the last time he was out on the Plains, and Mrs. Frobisher and Miss Wrayne discovered to their great satisfaction that he was the brother of Mrs. Stephen Blake, of Omaba, who had come out to the fort once with her husband, and captured the garrison, as they said. Mrs. Frobisher accounted for her present separation from her husband, and said she had come on for a while to be with her father and sister, who both needed more looking after than the Indians. Her father had left the army, and was building railroads.

Miss Wrayne, when she was not appealed to for confirmation or recollection by her sister, was having a lively talk with Corey and Mrs. Brinkley; she seemed to enter into their humour; and no one paid much attention to Dan Mavering. He hung upon the outskirts of the little group; proffering unrequited sympathy and applause; and at last he murmured something about having to go back to some friends, and took himself off. Mrs. Frobisher and Miss Wrayne let him go with a certain shade–the lightest, and yet evident–of not wholly satisfied pique: women know how to accept a reparation on account, and without giving a receipt in full.

Mrs. Brinkley gave him her hand with an effect of compassionate intelligence and appreciation of the sacrifice he must have made in leaving Alice. “May I congratulate you?” she murmured.

“Oh yes, indeed; thank you, Mrs. Brinkley,” he gushed tremulously; and he pressed her hand hard, and clung to it, as if he would like to take her with him.

Neither of the older men noticed his going. They were both taken in their elderly way with these two handsome young women, and they professed regret –Bellingham that his mother was not there, and Corey that neither his wife nor daughters had come, whom they might otherwise have introduced. They did not offer to share their acquaintance with any one else, but they made the most of it themselves, as if knowing a good thing when they had it. Their devotion to Mrs. Frobisher and her sister heightened the curiosity of such people as noticed it, but it would be wrong to say that it moved any in that self-limited company with a strong wish to know the ladies. The time comes to every man, no matter how great a power he may be in society, when the general social opinion retires him for senility, and this time had come for Bromfield Corey. He could no longer make or mar any success; and Charles Bellingham was so notoriously amiable, so deeply compromised by his inveterate habit of liking nearly every one, that his notice could not distinguish or advantage a newcomer.

He and Corey took the ladies down to supper. Mrs. Brinkley saw them there together, and a little later she saw old Corey wander off; forgetful of Miss Wrayne. She saw Dan Mavering, but not the Pasmers, and then, when Corey forgot Miss Wrayne, she saw Dan, forlorn and bewildered looking, approach the girl, and offer her his arm for the return to the drawing- room; she took it with a bright, cold smile, making white rings of ironical deprecation around the pupils of her eyes.

“What is that poor boy doing, I wonder?” said Mrs. Brinkley to herself.

XXXVII.

The next morning Dan Mavering knocked at Boardman’s door before the reporter was up. This might have been any time before one o’clock, but it was really at half-past nine. Boardman wanted to know who was there, and when Mavering had said it was he, Boardman seemed to ponder the fact awhile before Mavering heard him getting out of bed and coming barefooted to the door. He unlocked it, and got back into bed; then he called out, “Come in,” and Mavering pushed the door open impatiently. But he stood blank and silent, looking helplessly at his friend. A strong glare of winter light came in through the naked sash–for Boardman apparently not only did not close his window-blinds, but did not pull down his curtains, when he went to bed–and shone upon his gay, shrewd face where he lay, showing his pop-corn teeth in a smile at Mavering.

“Prefer to stand?” he asked by and by, after Mavering had remained standing in silence, with no signs of proposing to sit down or speak. Mavering glanced at the only chair in the room: Boardman’s clothes dripped and dangled over it. “Throw ’em on the bed,” he said, following Mavering’s glance.

“I’ll take the bed myself,” said Mavering; and he sat down on the side of it, and was again suggestively silent.

Boardman moved his head on the pillow, as he watched Mavering’s face, with the agreeable sense of personal security which we all feel in viewing trouble from the outside: “You seem balled up about something.”

Mavering sighed heavily. “Balled up? It’s no word for it. Boardman, I’m done for. Yesterday I was the happiest fellow in the world, and now–Yes, it’s all over with me, and it’s my own fault, as usual. Look; at that!” He jerked Boardman a note which he had been holding fast in his band, and got up and went to look himself at the wide range of chimney-pots and slated roofs which Boardman’s dormer-window commanded.

“Want me to read it?” Boardman asked; and Mavering nodded without glancing round. It dispersed through the air of Boardman’s room, as he unfolded it, a thin, elect perfume, like a feminine presence, refined and strict; and Boardman involuntarily passed his hand over his rumpled hair, as if to make himself a little more personable before reading the letter.

“DEAR MR. MAVERING,–I enclose the ring you gave me the other day, and I release you from the promise you gave with it. I am convinced that you wronged yourself in offering either without your whole heart, and I care too much for your happiness to let you persist in your sacrifice.

“In begging that you will not uselessly attempt to see me, but that you will consider this note final, I know you will do me the justice not to attribute an ungenerous motive to me. I shall rejoice to hear of any good that may befall you; and I shall try not to envy any one through whom it comes.–Yours sincerely,” “ALICE PASMER.”

“P.S.–I say nothing of circumstances or of persons; I feel that any comment of mine upon them would be idle.”

Mavering looked up at the sound Boardman made in refolding the letter. Boardman grinned, with sparkling eyes. “Pretty neat,” he said.

“Pretty infernally neat,” roared Mavering.

“Do you suppose she means business?”

“Of course she means business. Why shouldn’t she?”

“I don’t know. Why should she?”

“Well, I’ll tell you, Boardman. I suppose I shall have to tell you if I’m going to get any good out of you; but it’s a dose.” He came away from the window, and swept Boardman’s clothes off the chair preparatory to taking it.

Boardman lifted his head nervously from the pillow.

“Oh; I’ll put them on the bed, if you’re so punctilious!” cried Mavering.

“I don’t mind the clothes,” said Boardman. “I thought I heard my watch knock on the floor in my vest pocket. Just take it out, will you, and see if you’ve stopped it?”

“Oh, confound your old Waterbury! All the world’s stopped; why shouldn’t your watch stop too?” Mavering tugged it out of the pocket, and then shoved it back disdainfully. “You couldn’t stop that thing with anything short of a sledgehammer; it’s rattling away like a mowing-machine. You know those Portland women–those ladies I spent the day with when you were down there at the regatta–the day I came from Campobello–Mrs. Frobisher and her sister?” He agglutinated one query to another till he saw a light of intelligence dawn in Boardman’s eye. “Well, they’re at the bottom of it, I suppose. I was introduced to them on Class Day, and I ought to have shown them some attention there; but the moment I saw Alice–Miss Pasmer– I forgot all about ’em. But they didn’t seem to have noticed it much, and I made it all right with ’em that day at Portland; and they came up in the fall, and I made an appointment with them to drive out to Cambridge and show them the place. They were to take me up at the Art Museum; but that was the day I met Miss Pasmer, and I–I forgot about those women again.”

Boardman was one of those who seldom laugh; but his grin expressed all the malicious enjoyment he felt. He said nothing in the impressive silence which Mavering let follow at this point.

“Oh, you think it was funny?” cried Mavering. “I thought it was funny too; but Alice herself opened my eyes to what I’d done, and I always intended to make it all right with them when I got the chance. I supposed she wished me too.”

Boardman grinned afresh.

“She told me I must; though she seemed to dislike my having been with them the day after she’d thrown me over. But if”–Mavering interrupted himself to say, as the grin widened on Boardman’s face–“if you think it was any case of vulgar jealousy, you’re very much mistaken, Boardman. She isn’t capable of it, and she was so magnanimous about it that I made up my mind to do all I could to retrieve myself. I felt that it was my duty to her. Well, last night at Mrs. Jim Bellingham’s reception–“

A look of professional interest replaced the derision in Boardman’s eyes. “Any particular occasion for the reception? Given in honour of anybody?”

“I’ll contribute to your society notes some other time, Boardman,” said Mavering haughtily. “I’m speaking to a friend, not an interviewer. Well, whom should I see after the first waltz–I’d been dancing with Alice, and we were taking a turn through the drawing-room, and she hanging on my arm, and I knew everybody saw how it was, and I was feeling well–whom should I see but these women. They were in a corner by themselves, looking at a picture, and trying to look as if they were doing it voluntarily. But I could see at a glance that they didn’t know anybody; and I knew they had better be in the heart of the Sahara without acquaintances than where they were; and when they bowed forlornly across the room to me, my heart was in my mouth, I felt so sorry for them; and I told Alice who they were; and I supposed she’d want to rush right over to them with me–“

“And did she rush?” asked Boardman, filling up a pause which Mavering made in wiping his face.

“How infernally hot you have it in here!” He went to the window and threw it up; and then did not sit down again, but continued to walk back and forth as he talked. “She didn’t seem to know who they were at first, and when I made her understand she hung back, and said, ‘Those showy things?’ and I must say I think she was wrong; they were dressed as quietly as nine-tenths of the people there; only they are rather large, handsome women. I said I thought we ought to go and speak to them, they seemed stranded there; but she didn’t seem to see it; and, when I persisted, she said, ‘Well, you go if you think best; but take me to mamma.’ And I supposed it was all right; and I told Mrs. Pasmer I’d be back in a minute, and then I went off to those women. And after I’d talked with them a while I saw Mrs. Brinkley sitting with old Bromfield Corey in another corner, and I got them across and introduced them; after I’d explained to Mrs. Brinkley who they were; and they began to have a good time, and I– didn’t.”

“Just so,” said Boardman.

“I thought I hadn’t been gone any while at all from Alice; but the weather had changed by the time I had got back. Alice was pretty serious, and she was engaged two or three dances deep; and I could see her looking over the fellows’ shoulders, as she went round and round, pretty pale. I hung about till she was free; but then she couldn’t dance with me; she said her head ached, and she made her mother take her home before supper; and I mooned round like my own ghost a while, and then I went home. And as if that wasn’t enough, I could see by the looks of those other women–old Corey forgot Miss Wrayne in the supper-room, and I had to take her back– that I hadn’t made it right with them, even; they were as hard and smooth as glass. I’d ruined myself, and ruined myself for nothing.”

Mavering flung Boardman’s chair over, and seated himself on its rungs.

“I went to bed, and waited for the next thing to happen. I found my thunderbolt waiting for me when I woke up. I didn’t know what it was going to be, but when I felt a ring through the envelope of that note I knew what it was. I mind-read that note before I opened it.”

“Give it to the Society for Psychical Research,” suggested Boardman. “Been to breakfast?”

“Breakfast!” echoed Mavering. “Well, now, Boardman, what use do you suppose I’ve got for breakfast under the circumstances?”

“Well, not very much; but your story’s made me pretty hungry. Would you mind turning your back, or going out and sitting on the top step of the stairs’ landing, or something, while I get up and dress?”

“Oh, I can go, if you want to get rid of me,” said Mavering, with unresentful sadness. “But I hoped you might have something to suggest, Boardy.’

“Well, I’ve suggested two things, and you don’t like either. Why not go round and ask to see the old lady?”

“Mrs. Pasmer?”

“Yes.”

“Well, I thought of that. But I didn’t like to mention it, for fear you’d sit on it. When would you go?”

“Well, about as quick as I could get there. It’s early for a call, but it’s a peculiar occasion, and it’ll show your interest in the thing. You can’t very well let it cool on your hands, unless you mean to accept the situation.”

“What do you mean?” demanded Mavering, getting up and standing over Boardman. “Do you think I could accept the situation, as you call it, and live?”

“You did once,” said Boardman. “You couldn’t, unless you could fix it up with Mrs. Frobisher’s sister.”

Mavering blushed. “It was a different thing altogether then. I could have broken off then, but I tell you it would kill me now. I’ve got in too deep. My whole life’s set on that girl. You can’t understand, Boardman, because you’ve never been there; but I couldn’t give her up.”

“All right. Better go and see the old lady without loss of time; or the old man, if you prefer.”

Mavering sat down on the edge of the bed again. “Look here, Boardman, what do you mean?”

“By what?”

“By being so confoundedly heartless. Did you suppose that I wanted to pay those women any attention last night from an interested motive?”

“Seems to have been Miss Pasmer’s impression.”

“Well, you’re mistaken. She had no such impression. She would have too much self-respect, too much pride–magnanimity. She would know that after such a girl as she is I couldn’t think of any other woman; the thing is simply impossible.”

“That’s the theory.”

“Theory? It’s the practice!”

“Certain exceptions.”

“There’s no exception in my case. No, sir! I tell you this thing is for all time–for eternity. It makes me or it mars me, once for all. She may listen to me or she may not listen, but as long as she lives there’s no other woman alive for me.”

“Better go and tell her so. You’re wasting your arguments on me.”

“Why?”

“Because I’m convinced already. Because people always marry their first and only loves. Because people never marry twice for love. Because I’ve never seen you hit before, and I know you never could be again. Now go and convince Miss Pasmer. She’ll believe you, because she’ll know that she can never care for any one but you, and you naturally can’t care for anybody but her. It’s a perfectly clear case. All you’ve got to do is to set it before her.”

“If I were you, I wouldn’t try to work that cynical racket, Boardman,” said Mavering. He rose, but he sighed drearily, and regarded Boardman’s grin with lack-lustre absence. But he went away without saying anything more; and walked mechanically toward the Cavendish. As he rang at the door of Mrs. Pasmer’s apartments he recalled another early visit he had paid there; he thought how joyful and exuberant he was then, and how crushed and desperate now. He was not without youthful satisfaction in the disparity of his different moods; it seemed to stamp him as a man of large and varied experience.

XXXVIII.

Mrs. Pasmer was genuinely surprised to see Mavering, and he pursued his advantage–if it was an advantage–by coming directly to the point. He took it for granted that she knew all about the matter, and he threw himself upon her mercy without delay.

“Mrs. Pasmer, you must help me about this business with Alice,” he broke out at once. “I don’t know what to make of it; but I know I can explain it. Of course,” he added, smiling ruefully, “the two statements don’t hang together; but what I mean is that if I can find out what the trouble is, I can make it all right, because there’s nothing wrong about it; don’t you see?”

Mrs. Pasmer tried to keep the mystification out of her eye; but she could not even succeed in seeming to do so, which she would have liked almost as well.

“Don’t you know what I mean?” asked Dan.

Mrs. Pasmer chanced it. “That Alice was a little out of sorts last night?” she queried leadingly.

“Yes,” said Mavering fervently. “And about her–her writing to me.”

“Writing to you?” Mrs. Pasmer was going to ask, when Dan gave her the letter.

“I don’t know whether I ought to show it, but I must. I must have your help, and I can’t, unless you understand the case.”

Mrs. Pasmer had begun to read the note. It explained what the girl herself had refused to give any satisfactory reason for–her early retirement from the reception, her mysterious disappearance into her own room on reaching home, and her resolute silence on the way. Mrs. Pasmer had known that there must be some trouble with Dan, and she had suspected that Alice was vexed with him on account of those women; but it was beyond her cheerful imagination that she should go to such lengths in her resentment. She could conceive of her wishing to punish him, to retaliate her suffering on him; but to renounce him for it was another thing; and she did not attribute to her daughter any other motive than she would have felt herself. It was always this way with Mrs. Pasmer: she followed her daughter accurately up to a certain point; beyond that she did not believe the girl knew herself what she meant; and perhaps she was not altogether wrong. Girlhood is often a turmoil of wild impulses, ignorant exaltations, mistaken ideals, which really represent no intelligent purpose, and come from disordered nerves, ill-advised reading, and the erroneous perspective of inexperience. Mrs. Pasmer felt this, and she was tempted to break into a laugh over Alice’s heroics; but she preferred to keep a serious countenance, partly because she did not feel the least seriously. She was instantly resolved not to let this letter accomplish anything more than Dan’s temporary abasement, and she would have preferred to shorten this to the briefest moment possible. She liked him, and she was convinced that Alice could never do better, if half so well. She would now have preferred to treat him with familiar confidence, to tell him that she had no idea of Alice’s writing him that nonsensical letter, and he was not to pay the least attention to it; for of course it meant nothing; but another principle of her complex nature came into play, and she silently folded the note and returned it to Dan, trembling before her.

“Well?” he quavered.

“Well,” returned Mrs. Pasmer judicially, while she enjoyed his tremor, whose needlessness inwardly amused her–“well, of course, Alice was–“

“Annoyed, I know. And it was all my fault–or my misfortune. But I assure you, Mrs. Pasmer, that I thought I was doing something that would please her–in the highest and noblest way. Now don’t you know I did?”

Mrs. Pasmer again wished to laugh, but in the face of Dan’s tragedy she had to forbear. She contented herself with saying: “Of course. But perhaps it wasn’t the best time for pleasing her just in that way.”

“It was then or never. I can see now–why, I could see all the time–just how it might look; but I supposed Alice wouldn’t care for that, and if I hadn’t tried to make some reparation then to Mrs. Frobisher and her sister, I never could. Don’t you see?”

“Yes, certainly. But–“

“And Alice herself told me to go and look after them,” interposed Mavering. He suppressed, a little uncandidly, the fact of her first reluctance.

“But you know it was the first time you had been out together?”

“Yes.”

“And naturally she would wish to have you a good deal to herself, or at least not seeming to run after other people.”

“Yes, yes; I know that.”

“And no one ever likes to be taken at their word in a thing like that.”

“I ought to have thought of that, but I didn’t. I wish I had gone to you first, Mrs. Pasmer. Somehow it seems to me as if I were very young and inexperienced; I didn’t use to feel so. I wish you were always on hand to advise me, Mrs. Pasmer.” Dan hung his head, and his face, usually so gay, was blotted with gloom.

“Will you take my advice now?” asked Mrs. Pasmer.

“Indeed I will!” cried the young fellow, lifting his head. “What is it?”

“See Alice about this.”

Dan jumped to his feet, and the sunshine broke out over his face again. “Mrs. Pasmer, I promised to take your advice, and I’ll do it. I will see her. But how? Where? Let me have your advice on that point too.”

They began to laugh together, and Dan was at once inexpressibly happy. Those two light natures thoroughly comprehended each other.

Mrs. Pasmer had proposed his seeing Alice with due seriousness, but now she had a longing to let herself go; she felt all the pleasure that other people felt in doing Dan Mavering a pleasure, and something more, because he was so perfectly intelligible to her. She let herself go.

“You might stay to breakfast.”

“Mrs. Pasmer, I will–I will do that too. I’m awfully hungry, and I put myself in your hands.”

“Let me see,” said Mrs. Pasmer thoughtfully, “how it can be contrived.”

“Yes;” said Mavering, ready for a panic. “How? She wouldn’t stand a surprise?”

“No; I had thought of that.”

“No behind-a-screen or next-room business?”

“No,” said Mrs. Pasmer, with a light sigh. “Alice is peculiar. I’m afraid she wouldn’t like it.”

“Isn’t there any little ruse she would like?”

“I can’t think of any. Perhaps I’d better go and tell her you’re here and wish to see her.”

“Do you think you’d better?” asked Dan doubtfully. “Perhaps she won’t come.”

“She will come,” said Mrs. Pasmer confidently.

She did not say that she thought Alice would be curious to know why he had come, and that she was too just to condemn him unheard.

But she was right about the main point. Alice came, and Dan could see with his own weary eyes that she had not slept either.

She stopped just inside the portiere, and waited for him to speak. But he could not, though a smile from his sense of the absurdity of their seriousness hovered about his lips. His first impulse was to rush upon her and catch her in his arms, and perhaps this might have been well, but the moment for it passed, and then it became impossible.

“Well?” she said at last, lifting her head, and looking at him with impassioned solemnity. “You wished to see me? I hoped you wouldn’t. It would have spared me something. But perhaps I had no right to your forbearance.”

“Alice, how can you say such things to me?” asked the young fellow, deeply hurt.

She responded to his tone. “I’m sorry if it wounds you. But I only mean what I say.”

“You’ve a right to my forbearance, and not only that, but to my–my life; to everything that I am,” cried Dan, in a quiver of tenderness at the sight of her and the sound of her voice. “Alice, why did you write me that letter?–why did you send me back my ring?”

“Because,” she said, looking him seriously in the face–“because I wished you to be free, to be happy.”

“Well, you’ve gone the wrong way about it. I can never be free from you; I never can be happy without you.”

“I did it for your good, then, which ought to be above your happiness. Don’t think I acted hastily. I thought it over all night long. I didn’t sleep–“

“Neither did I,” interposed Dan.

“And I saw that I had no claim to you; that you never could be truly happy with me–“

“I’ll take the chances,” he interrupted. “Alice, you don’t suppose I cared for those women any more than the ground under your feet, do you? I don’t suppose I should ever have given them a second thought if you hadn’t seemed to feel so badly about my neglecting them; and I thought you’d be pleased to have me try to make it up to them if I could.”

“I know your motive was good–the noblest. Don’t think that I did you injustice, or that I was vexed because you went away with them.”

“You sent me.”

“Yes; and now I give you up to them altogether. It was a mistake, a crime, for me to think we could he anything to each other when our love began with a wrong to some one else.”

“With a wrong to some one else?”

“You neglected them on Class Day after you saw me.”

“Why, of course I did. How could I help it?”

A flush of pleasure came into the girl’s pale face; but she banished it, and continued gravely, “Then at Portland you were with them all day.”

“You’d given me up–you’d thrown me over, Alice,” he pleaded.

“I know that; I don’t blame you. But you made them believe that you were very much interested in them.”

“I don’t know what I did. I was perfectly desperate.”

“Yes; it was my fault. And then, when they came to meet you at the Museum, I had made you forget them; I’d made you wound them and insult them again. No. I’ve thought it all out, and we never could be happy. Don’t think that I do it from any resentful motive.”

“Alice? how could I think that?–Of you!”

“I have tried–prayed–to be purified from that, and I believe that I have been.”

“You never had a selfish thought.”

“And I have come to see that you were perfectly right in what you did last night. At first I was wounded.”

“Oh, did I wound you, Alice?” he grieved.

“But afterward I could see that you belonged to them, and not me, and–and I give you up to them. Yes, freely, fully.”

Alice stood there, beautiful, pathetic, austere; and Dan had halted in the spot to which he had advanced, when her eye forbade him to approach nearer. He did not mean to joke, and it was in despair that he cried out: “But which, Alice? There are two of them.”

“Two?” she repeated vaguely.

“Yes; Mrs. Frobisher and Miss Wrayne. You can’t give me up to both of them.”

“Both?” she repeated again. She could not condescend to specify; it would be ridiculous, and as it was, she felt her dignity hopelessly shaken. The tears came into her eyes.

“Yes. And neither of them wants me–they haven’t got any use for me. Mrs. Frobisher is married already, and Miss Wrayne took the trouble last night to let me feel that, so far as she was concerned, I hadn’t made it all right, and couldn’t. I thought I had rather a cold parting with you, Alice, but it was quite tropical to what you left me to.” A faint smile, mingled with a blush of relenting, stole into her face, and he hurried on. “I don’t suppose I tried very hard to thaw her out. I wasn’t much interested. If you must give me up, you must give me up to some one else, for they don’t want me, and I don’t want them.” Alice’s head dropped lover, and he could come nearer now without her seeming to know it. “But why need you give me up? There’s really no occasion for it, I assure you.”

“I wished,” she explained, “to show you that I loved you for something above yourself and myself–far above either–“

She stopped and dropped the hand which she had raised to fend him off; and he profited by the little pause she made to take her in his arms without seeming to do so. “Well,” he said, “I don’t believe I was formed to be loved on a very high plane. But I’m not too proud to be loved for my own sake; and I don’t think there’s anything above you, Alice.”

“Oh yes, there is! I don’t deserve to be happy, and that’s the reason why I’m not allowed to be happy in any noble way. I can’t bear to give you up; you know I can’t; but you ought to give me up–indeed you ought. I have ideals, but I can’t live up to them. You ought to go. You ought to leave me.” She accented each little sentence by vividly pressing herself to his heart, and he had the wisdom or the instinct to treat their reconciliation as nothing settled, but merely provisional in its nature.

“Well, we’ll see about that. I don’t want to go till after breakfast, anyway; your mother says I may stay, and I’m awfully hungry. If I see anything particularly base in you, perhaps I sha’n’t come back to lunch.”

Dan would have liked to turn it alt off into a joke, now that the worst was apparently over; but Alice freed herself from him, and held him off with her hand set against his breast. “Does mamma know about it?” she demanded sternly.

“Well, she knows there’s been some misunderstanding,” said Dan, with a laugh that was anxious, in view of the clouds possibly gathering again.

“How much?”

“Well, I can’t say exactly.” He would not say that he did not know, but he felt that he could truly say that he could not say.

She dropped her hand, and consented to be deceived. Dan caught her again to his breast; but he had an odd, vague sense of doing it carefully, of using a little of the caution with which one seizes the stem of a rose between the thorns.

“I can bear to be ridiculous with you,” she whispered, with an implication which he understood.

“You haven’t been ridiculous, dearest,” he said; and his tension gave way in a convulsive laugh, which partially expressed his feeling of restored security, and partly his amusement in realising how the situation would have pleased Mrs. Pasmer if she could have known it.

Mrs. Pasmer was seated behind her coffee biggin at the breakfast-table when he came into the room with Alice, and she lifted an eye from its glass bulb long enough to catch his flying glance of exultation and admonition. Then, while she regarded the chemical struggle in the bulb, with the rapt eye of a magician reading fate in his crystal ball, she questioned herself how much she should know, and how much she should ignore. It was a great moment for Mrs. Pasmer, full of delicious choice. “Do you understand this process, Mr. Mavering?” she said, glancing up at him warily for farther instruction.

“I’ve seen it done,” said Dan, “but I never knew how it was managed. I always thought it was going to blow up; but it seemed to me that if you were good and true and very meek, and had a conscience void of offence, it wouldn’t.”

“Yes, that’s what it seems to depend upon,” said Mrs. Pasmer, keeping her eye on the bulb. She dodged suddenly forward, and put out the spirit- lamp. “Now have your coffee!” she cried, with a great air of relief. “You must need it by this time,” she said with a low cynical laugh–” both of you!”

“Did you always make coffee with a biggin in France, Mrs. Pasmer?” asked Dan; and he laughed out the last burden that lurked in his heart.

Mrs. Pasmer joined him. “No, Mr. Mavering. In France you don’t need a biggin. I set mine up when we went to England.”

Alice looked darkly from one of these light spirits to the other, and then they all shrieked together.

They went on talking volubly from that, and they talked as far away from what they were thinking about as possible. They talked of Europe, and Mrs. Pasmer said where they would live and what they would do when they all got back there together. Dan abetted her, and said that they must cross in June. Mrs. Pasmer said that she thought June was a good month. He asked if it were not the month of the marriages too, and she answered that he must ask Alice about that. Alice blushed and laughed her sweet reluctant laugh, and said she did not know; she had never been married.

It was silly, but it was delicious; it made them really one family. Deep in his consciousness a compunction pierced and teased Dan. But he said to himself that it was all a joke about their European plans, or else his people would consent to it if he really wished it.

XXXIX.

A period of entire harmony and tenderness followed the episode which seemed to threaten the lovers with the loss of each other. Mavering forbore to make Alice feel that in attempting a sacrifice which consulted only his good and ignored his happiness, and then failing in it so promptly, she had played rather a silly part. After one or two tentative jokes in that direction he found the ground unsafe, and with the instinct which served him in place of more premeditated piety he withdrew, and was able to treat the affair with something like religious awe. He was obliged, in fact, to steady Alice’s own faith in it, and to keep her from falling under dangerous self-condemnation in that and other excesses of uninstructed self-devotion. This brought no fatigue to his robust affection, whatever it might have done to a heart more tried in such exercises. Love acquaints youth with many things in character and temperament which are none the less interesting because it never explains them; and Dan was of such a make that its revelations of Alice were charming to him because they were novel. He had thought her a person of such serene and flawless wisdom that it was rather a relief to find her subject to gusts of imprudence, to unexpected passions and resentments, to foibles and errors, like other people. Her power of cold reticence; which she could employ at will, was something that fascinated him almost as much as that habit of impulsive concession which seemed to came neither from her will nor her reason. He was a person himself who was so eager to give other people pleasure that he quivered with impatience to see them happy through his words or acts; he could not bear to think that any one to whom he was speaking was not perfectly comfortable in regard to him; and it was for this reason perhaps that he admired a girl who could prescribe herself a line of social conduct, and follow it out regardless of individual pangs–who could act from ideals and principles, and not from emotions and sympathies. He knew that she had the emotions and sympathies, for there were times when she lavished them on him; and that she could seem without them was another proof of that depth of nature which he liked to imagine had first attracted him to her. Dan Mavering had never been able to snub any one in his life; it gave him a great respect for Alice that it seemed not to cost her an effort or a regret, and it charmed him to think that her severity was part of the unconscious sham which imposed her upon the world for a person of inflexible design and invariable constancy to it. He was not long in seeing that she shared this illusion, if it was an illusion, and that perhaps the only person besides himself who was in the joke was her mother. Mrs. Pasmer and he grew more and more into each other’s confidence in talking Alice over, and he admired the intrepidity of this lady, who was not afraid of her daughter even in the girl’s most topping moments of self-abasement. For his own part, these moods of hers never failed to cause him confusion and anxiety. They commonly intimated themselves parenthetically in the midst of some blissful talk they were having, and overcast his clear sky with retrospective ideals of conduct or presentimental plans for contingencies that might never occur. He found himself suddenly under condemnation for not having reproved her at a given time when she forced him to admit she had seemed unkind or cold to others; she made him promise that even at the risk of alienating her affections he would make up for her deficiencies of behaviour in such matters whenever he noticed them. She now praised him for what he had done for Mrs. Frobisher and her sister at Mrs. Bellingham’s reception; she said it was generous, heroic. But Mavering rested satisfied with his achievement in that instance, and did not attempt anything else of the kind. He did not reason from cause to effect in regard to it: a man’s love is such that while it lasts he cannot project its object far enough from him to judge it reasonable or unreasonable; but Dan’s instincts had been disciplined and his perceptions sharpened by that experience. Besides, in bidding him take this impartial and even admonitory course toward her, she stipulated that they should maintain to the world a perfect harmony of conduct which should be an outward image of the union of their lives. She said that anything less than a continued self-sacrifice of one to the other was not worthy of the name of love, and that she should not be happy unless he required this of her. She said that they ought each to find out what was the most distasteful thing which they could mutually require, and then do it; she asked him to try to think what she most hated, and let her do that for him; as for her, she only asked to ask nothing of him.

Mavering could not worship enough this nobility of soul in her, and he celebrated it to Boardman with the passionate need of imparting his rapture which a lover feel. Boardman acquiesced in silence, with a glance of reserved sarcasm, or contented himself with laconic satire of his friend’s general condition, and avoided any comment that might specifically apply to the points Dan made. Alice allowed him to have this confidant, and did not demand of him a report of all he said to Boardman. A main fact of their love, she said, must be their utter faith in each other. She had her own confidante, and the disparity of years between her and Miss Cotton counted for nothing in the friendship which their exchange of trust and sympathy cemented. Miss Cotton, in the freshness of her sympathy and the ideality of her inexperience, was in fact younger than Alice, at whose feet, in the things of soul and character, she loved to sit. She never said to her what she believed: that a girl of her exemplary principles, a nature conscious of such noble ideals, so superior to other girls, who in her place would be given up to the happiness of the moment, and indifferent to the sense of duty to herself and to others, was sacrificed to a person of Mavering’s gay, bright nature and trivial conception of life. She did not deny his sweetness; that was perhaps the one saving thing about him; and she confessed that he simply adored Alice; that counted for everything, and it was everything in his favour that he could appreciate such a girl. She hoped, she prayed, that Alice might never realise how little depth he had; that she might go through life and never suspect it. If she did so, then they might be happy together to the end, or at least Alice might never know she was unhappy.

Miss Cotton never said these things in so many words; it is doubtful if she ever said them in any form of words; with her sensitive anxiety not to do injustice to any one, she took Dan’s part against those who viewed the engagement as she allowed it to appear only to her secret heart. She defended him the more eagerly because she felt that it was for Alice’s sake, and that everything must be done to keep her from knowing how people looked at the affair, even to changing people’s minds. She said to all who spoke to her of it that of course Alice was superior to him, but he was devoted to her, and he would grow into an equality with her. He was naturally very refined, she said, and, if he was not a very serious person, he was amiable beyond anything. She alleged many little incidents of their acquaintance at Campobello in proof of her theory that he had an instinctive appreciation of Alice, and she was sure that no one could value her nobleness of character more than he. She had seen them a good deal together since their engagement, and it was beautiful to see his manner with her. They were opposites, but she counted a good deal upon that very difference in their temperaments to draw them to each other.

It was an easy matter to see Dan and Alice together. Their engagement came out in the usual way: it had been announced to a few of their nearest friends, and intelligence of it soon spread from their own set through society generally; it had been published in the Sunday papers while it was still in the tender condition of a rumour, and had been denied by some of their acquaintance and believed by all.

The Pasmer cousinship had been just in the performance of the duties of blood toward Alice since the return of her family from Europe, and now did what was proper in the circumstances. All who were connected with her called upon her and congratulated her; they knew Dan, the younger of them, much better than they knew her; and though he had shrunk from the nebulous bulk of social potentiality which every young man is to that much smaller nucleus to which definite betrothal reduces him, they could be perfectly sincere in calling him the sweetest fellow that ever was, and too lovely to live.

In such a matter Mr. Pasmer was naturally nothing; he could not be less than he was at other times, but he was not more; and it was Mrs. Pasmer who shared fully with her daughter the momentary interest which the engagement gave Alice with all her kindred. They believed, of course, that they recognised in it an effect of her skill in managing; they agreed to suppose that she had got Mavering for Alice, and to ignore the beauty and passion of youth as factors in the case. The closest of the kindred, with the romantic delicacy of Americans in such things, approached the question of Dan’s position and prospects, and heard with satisfaction the good accounts which Mrs. Pasmer was able to give of his father’s prosperity. There had always been more or less apprehension among them of a time when a family subscription would be necessary for Bob Pasmer, and in the relief which the new situation gave them some of them tried to remember having known Dan’s father in College, but it finally came to their guessing that they must have heard John Munt speak of him.

Mrs. Pasmer had a supreme control in the affair. She believed with the rest–so deeply is this delusion seated–that she had made the match; but knowing herself to have used no dishonest magic in the process, she was able to enjoy it with a clean conscience. She grew fonder of Dan; they understood each other; she was his refuge from Alice’s ideals, and helped him laugh off his perplexity with them. They were none the less sincere because they were not in the least frank with each other. She let Dan beat about the bush to his heart’s content, and waited for him at the point which she knew he was coming to, with an unconsciousness which he knew was factitious; neither of them got tired of this, or failed freshly to admire the other’s strategy.

XL.

It cannot be pretended that Alice was quite pleased with the way her friends took her engagement, or rather the way in which they spoke of Dan. It seemed to her that she alone, or she chiefly, ought to feel that sweetness and loveliness of which every one told her, as if she could not have known it. If he was sweet and lovely to every one, how was he different to her except in degree? Ought he not to be different in kind? She put the case to Miss Cotton, whom it puzzled, while she assured Alice that he was different in kind to her, though he might not seem so; the very fact that he was different in degree proved that he was different in kind. This logic sufficed for the moment of its expression, but it did not prevent Alice from putting the case to Dan himself. At one of those little times when she sat beside him alone and rearranged his necktie, or played with his watch chain, or passed a critical hand over his cowlick, she asked him if he did not think they ought to have an ideal in their engagement. “What ideal?” he asked. He thought it was all solid ideal through and through. “Oh,” she said, “be more and more to each other.” He said he did not see how that could be; if there was anything more of him, she was welcome to it, but he rather thought she had it all. She explained that she meant being less to others; and he asked her to explain that.

“Well, when we’re anywhere together, don’t you think we ought to show how different we are to each other from what we are to any one else.”

Dan laughed. “I’m afraid we do, Alice; I always supposed one ought to hide that little preference as much as possible. You don’t want me to be dangling after you every moment?”

“No-o-o. But not–dangle after others.”

Dan sighed a little–a little impatiently. “Do I dangle after others?”

“Of course not. But show that we’re thoroughly united in all our tastes and feelings, and–like and dislike the same persons.”

“I don’t think that will be difficult,” said Dan.

She was silent a moment, and then she said; “You don’t like to have me bring up such things?”

“Oh yes, I do. I wish to be and do just what you wish.”

“But I can see, I can understand, that you would sooner pass the time without talking of them. You like to be perfectly happy, and not to have any cares when–when you’re with me this way?”

“Well, yes, I suppose I do,” said Dan, laughing again. “I suppose I rather do like to keep pleasure and duty apart. But there’s nothing you can wish, Alice, that isn’t a pleasure to me.”

“I’m very different,” said the girl. “I can’t be at peace unless I know that I have a right to be so. But now, after this, I’m going to do your way. If it’s your way, it’ll be the right way–for me.” She looked sublimely resolved, with a grand lift of the eyes, and Dan caught her to him in a rapture, breaking into laughter.

“Oh, don’t! Mine’s a bad way–the worst kind of a way,” he cried.

“It makes everybody like you, and mine makes nobody like me.”

“It makes me like you, and that’s quite enough. I don’t want other people to like you!”

“Yes, that’s what I mean!” cried Alice; and now she flung herself on his neck, and the tears came. “Do you suppose it can be very pleasant to have everybody talking of you as if everybody loved you as much–as much as I do?” She clutched him tighter and sobbed.

“O Alice! Alice! Alice! Nobody could ever be what you are to me!” He soothed and comforted her with endearing words and touches; but before he could have believed her half consoled she pulled away from him, and asked, with shining eyes, “Do you think Mr. Boardman is a good influence in your life?”

“Boardman!” cried Mavering, in astonishment. “Why, I thought you liked Boardman?”

“I do; and I respect him very much. But that isn’t the question. Don’t you think we ought to ask ourselves how others influence us?”

“Well, I don’t see much of Boardy nowadays; but I like to drop down and touch earth in Boardy once in a while–I’m in the air so much. Board has more common-sense, more solid chunk-wisdom, than anybody I know. He’s kept me from making a fool of myself more times–“

“Wasn’t he with you that day with–with those women in Portland?”

Dan winced a little, and then laughed. “No, he wasn’t. That was the trouble. Boardman was off on the press boat. I thought I told you. But if you object to Boardman–“

“I don’t. You mustn’t think I object to people when I ask you about them. All that I wished was that you should think yourself what sort of influence he was. I think he’s a very good influence.”

“He’s a splendid fellow, Boardman is, Alice!” cried Dan. “You ought to have seen how he fought his way through college on such a little money, and never skulked or felt mean. He wasn’t appreciated for it; the men don’t notice these things much; but he didn’t want to have it noticed; always acted as if it was neither here nor there; and now I guess he sends out home whatever he has left after keeping soul and body together every week.”

He spoke, perhaps, with too great an effect of relief. Alice listened, as it seemed, to his tone rather than his words, and said absently–

“Yes, that’s grand. But I don’t want you to act as if you were afraid of me in such things.”

” Afraid?” Dan echoed.

“I don’t mean actually afraid, but as if you thought I couldn’t be reasonable; as if you supposed I didn’t expect you to make mistakes or to be imperfect.”

“Yes, I know you’re very reasonable, and you’re more patient with me than I deserve; I know all that, and it’s only my wish to come up to your standard, I suppose, that gives me that apprehensive appearance.”

“That was what vexed me with you there at Campobello, when you–asked me–“

“Yes, I know.”

“You ought to have understood me better. You ought to know now that I don’t wish you to do anything on my account, but because it’s something we owe to others.”

“Oh, excuse me! I’d much rather do it for you,” cried Dan; but Alice looked so grave, so hurt, that he hastened on: “How in the world does it concern others whether we are devoted or not, whether we’re harmonious and two-souls-with-but-a-single-thought, and all that?” He could not help being light about it.

“How?” Alice repeated. “Won’t it give them an idea of what–what–of how much–how truly–if we care for each other–how people ought to care? We don’t do it for ourselves. That would be selfish and disgusting. We do it because it’s something that we owe to the idea of being engaged–of having devoted our lives to each other, and would show–would teach–“

“Oh yes! I know what you mean,” said Dan, and he gave way in a sputtering laugh. “But they wouldn’t understand. They’d only think we were spoons on each other; and if they noticed that I cooled off toward people I’d liked, and warmed up toward those you liked, they’d say you made me.”

“Should you care?” asked Alice sublimely, withdrawing a little from his arm.

“Oh no! only on your account,” he answered, checking his laugh.

“You needn’t on my account,” she returned. “If we sacrifice some little preferences to each other, isn’t that right? I shall be glad to sacrifice all of mine to you. Isn’t our–marriage to be full of such sacrifices? I expect to give up everything to you.” She looked at him with a sad severity.

He began to laugh again. “Oh no, Alice! Don’t do that! I couldn’t stand it. I want some little chance at the renunciations myself.”

She withdrew still further from his side, and said, with a cold anger, “It’s that detestable Mrs. Brinkley.”

“Mrs. Brinkley!” shouted Dan.

“Yes; with her pessimism. I have heard her talk. She influences you. Nothing is sacred to her. It was she who took up with those army women that night.”

“Well, Alice, I must say you can give things as ugly names as the next one. I haven’t seen Mrs. Brinkley the whole winter, except in your company. But she has more sense than all the other women I know.”

“Oh, thank you!”

“You know I don’t mean you,” he pushed on. “And she isn’t a pessimist. She’s very kindhearted, and that night she was very polite and good to those army women, as you call them, when you had refused to say a word or do anything for them.”

“I knew it had been rankling in your mind all along,” said the girl “I expected it to coma out sooner or later. And you talk about renunciation! You never forget nor forgive the slightest thing. But I don’t ask your forgiveness.”

“Alice!”

“No. You are as hard as iron. You have that pleasant outside manner that makes people think you’re very gentle and yielding, but all the time you’re like adamant. I would rather die than ask your forgiveness for anything, and you’d rather let me than give it.”

“Well, then, I ask your forgiveness, Alice, and I’m sure you won’t let me die without it.”

They regarded each other a moment. Then the tenderness gushed up in their hearts, a passionate tide, and swept them into each other’s arms.

“O Dan,” she cried, “how sweet you are! how good! how lovely! Oh, how wonderful it is! I wanted to hate you, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t do anything but love you. Yes, now I understand what love is, and how it can do everything, and last for ever.”

XLI.

Mavering came to lunch the next day, and had a word with Mrs. Pasmer before Alice came in. Mr. Pasmer usually lunched at the club.

“We don’t see much of Mrs. Saintsbury nowadays,” he suggested.

“No; it’s a great way to Cambridge,” said Mrs. Pasmer, stifling, in a little sigh of apparent regret for the separation, the curiosity she felt as to Dan’s motive in mentioning Mrs. Saintsbury. She was very patient with him when he went on.

“Yes, it is a great way. And a strange thing about it is that when you’re living here it’s a good deal further from Boston to Cambridge than it is from Cambridge to Boston.”

“Yes,” said Mrs. Pasmer; “every one notices that.”

Dan sat absently silent for a time before he said, “Yes, I guess I must go out and see Mrs. Saintsbury.”

“Yes, you ought. She’s very fond of you. You and Alice ought both to go.”

“Does Mrs. Saintsbury like me?” asked Dan. “Well, she’s awfully nice. Don’t you think she’s awfully fond of formulating people?”

“Oh, everybody in Cambridge does that. They don’t gossip; they merely accumulate materials for the formulation of character.”

“And they get there just the same!” cried Dan. “Mrs. Saintsbury used to think she had got me down pretty fine,” he suggested.

“Yes!” said Mrs. Pasmer, with an indifference which they both knew she did not feel.

“Yes. She used to accuse me of preferring to tack, even in a fair wind.”

He looked inquiringly at Mrs. Pasmer; and she said, “How ridiculous!”

“Yes, it was. Well, I suppose I am rather circuitous about some things.”

“Oh, not at all!”

“And I suppose I’m rather a trial to Alice in that way.”

He looked at Mrs. Pasmer again, and she said: “I don’t believe you are, in the least. You can’t tell what is trying to a girl.”

“No,” said Dan pensively, “I can’t.” Mrs. Pasmer tried to render the interest in her face less vivid. “I can’t tell where she’s going to bring up. Talk about tacking!”

“Do you mean the abstract girl; or Alice?”

“Oh, the abstract girl,” said Dan, and they laughed together. “You think Alice is very straightforward, don’t you?”

“Very,” said Mrs. Pasmer, looking down with a smile–“for a girl.”

“Yes, that’s what I mean. And don’t you think the most circuitous kind of fellow would be pretty direct compared with the straight-forwardest kind of girl?”

There was a rueful defeat and bewilderment in Dan’s face that made Mrs. Pasmer laugh. “What has she been doing now?” she asked.

“Mrs. Pasmer,” said Dan, “you and I are the only frank and open people I know. Well, she began to talk last night about influence–the influence of other people on us; and she killed off nearly all the people I like before I knew what she was up to, and she finished with Mrs. Brinkley. I’m glad she didn’t happen to think of you, Mrs. Pasmer, or I shouldn’t be associating with you at the present moment.” This idea seemed to give Mrs. Pasmer inexpressible pleasure. Dan went on: “Do you quite see the connection between our being entirely devoted to each other and my dropping Mrs. Brinkley?”

“I don’t know,” said Mrs. Pasmer. “Alice doesn’t like satirical people.”

“Well, of course not. But Mrs. Brinkley is such an admirer of hers.”

“I dare say she tells you so.”

“Oh, but she is!”

“I don’t deny it,” said Mrs. Pasmer. “But if Alice feels something inimical–antipatico–in her atmosphere, it’s no use talking.”

“Oh no, it’s no use talking, and I don’t know that I want to talk.” After a pause, Mavering asked, “Mrs. Pasmer, don’t you think that where two people are going to be entirely devoted to each other, and self- sacrificing to each other, they ought to divide, and one do all the devotion, and the other all the self-sacrifice?”

Mrs. Pasmer was amused by the droll look in Dan’s eyes. “I think they ought to be willing to share evenly,” she said.

“Yes; that’s what I say–share and share alike. I’m not selfish about those little things.” He blew off a long sighing breath. “Mrs. Pasmer, don’t you think we ought to have an ideal of conduct?”

Mrs. Pasmer abandoned herself to laughter. “O Dan! Dan! You will be the death of me.”

“We will die together, then, Mrs. Pasmer. Alice will kill me.” He regarded her with a sad sympathy in his eye as she laughed and laughed with delicious intelligence of the case. The intelligence was perfect, from their point of view; but whether it fathomed the girl’s whole intention or aspiration is another matter. Perhaps this was not very clear to herself. At any rate, Mavering did not go any more to see Mrs. Brinkley, whose house he had liked to drop into. Alice went several times, to show, she said, that she had no feeling in the matter; and Mrs. Brinkley, when she met Dan, forbore to embarrass him with questions or reproaches; she only praised Alice to him.

There were not many other influences that Alice cut him off from; she even exposed him to some influences that might have been thought deleterious. She made him go and call alone upon certain young ladies whom she specified, and she praised several others to him, though she did not praise them for the same things that he did. One of them was a girl to whom Alice had taken a great fancy, such as often buds into a romantic passion between women; she was very gentle and mild, and she had none of that strength of will which she admired in Alice. One night there was a sleighing party to a hotel in the suburbs, where they had dancing and then supper. After the supper they danced “Little Sally Waters” for a finale, instead of the Virginia Reel, and Alice would not go on the floor with Dan; she said she disliked that dance; but she told him to dance with Miss Langham. It became a gale of fun, and in the height of it Dan slipped and fell with his partner. They laughed it off, with the rest, but after a while the girl began to cry; she had received a painful bruise. All the way home, while the others laughed and sang and chattered, Dan was troubled about this poor girl; his anxiety became a joke with the whole sleighful of people.

When he parted with Alice at her door, he said, “I’m afraid I hurt Miss Langham; I feel awfully about it.”

“Yes; there’s no doubt of that. Good night!”

She left him to go off to his lodging, hot and tingling with indignation at her injustice. But kindlier thoughts came to him before he slept, and he fell asleep with a smile of tenderness for her on his lips. He could see how he was wrong to go out with any one else when Alice said she disliked the dance; he ought not to have taken advantage of her generosity in appointing him a partner; it was trying for her to see him make that ludicrous tumble, of course; and perhaps he had overdone the attentive sympathy on the way home. It flattered him that she could not help showing her jealousy–that is flattering, at first; and Dan was able to go and confess all but this to Alice. She received his submission magnanimously, and said that she was glad it had happened, because his saying this showed that now they understood each other perfectly. Then she fixed her eyes on his, and said, “I’ve just been round to see Lilly, and she’s as well as ever; it was only a nervous shock.”

Whether Mavering was really indifferent to Miss Langham’s condition, or whether the education of his perceptions had gone so far that he consciously ignored her, he answered, “That was splendid of you, Alice.”

“No,” she said; “it’s you that are splendid; and you always are. Oh, I wonder if I can ever be worthy of you!”

Their mutual forgiveness was very sweet to them, and they went on praising each other. Alice suddenly broke away from this weakening exchange of worship, and said, with that air of coming to business which he lad learned to recognise and dread a little, “Dan, don’t you think I ought to write to your mother?”

“Write to my mother?” Why, you have written to her. You wrote as soon as you got back, and she answered you.”

“Yes; but write regularly?–Show that I think of her all the time?” When I really think I’m going to take you from her, I seem so cruel and heartless!”

“Oh, I don’t look at it in that light, Alice.”

“Don’t joke! And when I think that we’re going away to leave her, for several years, perhaps, as soon as we’re married, I can’t make it seem right. I know how she depends upon your being near her, and seeing her every now and then; and to go off to Europe for years, perhaps–Of course you can be of use to your father there; but do you think it’s right toward your mother? I want you to think.”

Dan thought, but his thinking was mainly to the effect that he did not know what she was driving at. Had she got any inkling of that plan of his mother’s for them to come and stay a year or two at the Falls after their marriage? He always expected to be able to reconcile that plan with the Pasmer plan of going at once; to his optimism the two were not really incompatible; but he did not wish them prematurely confronted in Alice’s mind. Was this her way of letting him know that she knew what his mother wished, and that she was willing to make the sacrifice? Or was it just some vague longing to please him by a show of affection toward his family, an unmeditated impulse of reparation? He had an impulse himself to be frank with Alice, to take her at her word, and to allow that he did not like the notion of going abroad. This was Dan’s notion of being frank; he could still reserve the fact that he had given his mother a tacit promise to bring Alice home to live, but he postponed even this. He said: “Oh, I guess that’ll be all right, Alice. At any rate, there’s no need to think about it yet awhile. That can be arranged.”

“Yes,” said Alice; “but don’t you think I’d better get into the habit of writing regularly to your mother now, so that there needn’t be any break when we go abroad?” He could see now that she had no idea of giving that plan up, and he was glad that he had not said anything. “I think,” she continued, “that I shall write to her once a week, and give her a full account of our life from day to day; it’ll be more like a diary; and then, when we get over there, I can keep it up without any effort, and she won’t feel so much that you’ve gone.”

She seemed to refer the plan to him, and he said it was capital. In fact, he did like the notion of a diary; that sort of historical view would involve less danger of precipitating a discussion of the two schemes of life for the future. “It’s awfully kind of you, Alice, to propose such a thing, and you mustn’t make it a burden. Any sort of little sketchy record will do; mother can read between the lines, you know.”

“It won’t be a burden,” said the girl tenderly. “I shall seem to be doing it for your mother, but I know I shall be doing it for you. I do everything for you. Do you think it’s right?”

“Oh; it must be,” said Dan, laughing. “It’s so pleasant.”

“Oh,” said the girl gloomily; “that’s what makes me doubt it.”

XLII.

Eunice Mavering acknowledged Alice’s first letter. She said that her mother read it aloud to them all, and had been delighted with the good account she gave of Dan, and fascinated with all the story of their daily doings and sayings. She wished Eunice to tell Alice how fully she appreciated her thoughtfulness of a sick old woman, and that she was going to write herself and thank her. But Eunice added that Alice must not be surprised if her mother was not very prompt in this, and she sent messages from all the family, affectionate for Alice, and polite for her father and mother.

Alice showed Dan the letter, and he seemed to find nothing noticeable in it. “She says your mother will write later,” Alice suggested.

“Yes. You ought to feel very much complimented by that. Mother’s autographs are pretty uncommon,” he said, smiling.

“Why, doesn’t she write? Can’t she? Does it tire her?” asked Alice.

“Oh yes, she can write, but she hates to. She gets Eunice or Minnie to write usually.”

“Dan,” cried Alice intensely, “why didn’t you tell me?”

“Why, I thought you knew it,” he explained easily. “She likes to read, and likes to talk, but it bores her to write. I don’t suppose I get more than two or three pencil scratches from her in the course of a year. She makes the girls write. But you needn’t mind her not writing. You may be sure she’s glad of your letters.”

“It makes me seem very presumptuous to be writing to her when there’s no chance of her answering,” Alice grieved. “It’s as if I had passed over your sisters’ heads. I ought to have written to them.”

“Oh, well, you can do that now,” said Dan soothingly.

“No. No, I can’t do it now. It would be ridiculous.” She was silent, and presently she asked, “Is there anything else about your mother that I ought to know?” She looked at him with a sort of impending discipline in her eyes which he had learned to dread; it meant such a long course of things, such a very great variety of atonement and expiation for him, that he could not bring himself to confront it steadily.

His heart gave a feeble leap; he would have gladly told her all that was in it, and he meant to do so at the right time, but this did not seem the moment. “I can’t say that there is,” he answered coldly.

In that need of consecrating her happiness which Alice felt, she went a great deal to church in those days. Sometimes she felt the need almost of defence against her happiness, and a vague apprehension mixed with it. Could it be right to let it claim her whole being, as it seemed to do? Than was the question which she once asked Dan, and it made him laugh, and catch her to him in a rapture that served for the time, and then left her to more morbid doubts. Evidently he could not follow her in them; he could not even imagine them; and while he was with her they seemed to have no verity or value. But she talked them over very hypothetically and impersonally with Miss Cotton, in whose sympathy they resumed all their import, and gained something more. In the idealisation which the girl underwent in this atmosphere all her thoughts and purposes had a significance which she would not of herself, perhaps, have attached to them. They discussed them and analysed them with a satisfaction in the result which could not be represented without an effect of caricature. They measured Alice’s romance together, and evolved from it a sublimation of responsibility, of duty, of devotion, which Alice found it impossible to submit to Dan when he came with his simple-hearted, single-minded