gits off too far again he might make something out of it. I couldn’t seem to find much sense in what plantchette done to-night; we couldn’t either of us; but she has her spells when you can’t make head or tail of her. But mebbe she’s just leadin’ up to something, the way she did about that broken shaft when Jeff come home. We ha’n’t ever made out exactly what she meant by that yet.”
Whitwell paused, and Cynthia seized the advantage of his getting round to Jeff again. “He wanted to give up going to Harvard this last year, but I wouldn’t let him.”
“Jeff did?” asked her father. “Well, you done a good thing that time, anyway, Cynthy. His mother ‘d never get over it.”
“There’s something else she’s got to get over, and I don’t know how she ever will. He’s going to give up the law.”
“Give up the law!”
“Yes. Don’t tease, father! He says he’s never cared about it, and he wants to keep a hotel. I thought that I’d ought to tell him how we felt about Jackson’s having a rest and going off somewhere; and he wanted to begin at once. But I said if he left off the last year at Harvard I wouldn’t have anything to do with him.”
Whitwell put his hand in his pocket for his knife, and mechanically looked down for a stick to whittle. In default of any, he scratched his head. “I guess she’ll make it warm for him. She’s had her mind set on his studyin’ law so long, ‘t she won’t give up in a hurry. She can’t see that Jackson ain’t fit to help her run the hotel any more–till he’s had a rest, anyway–and I believe she thinks her and Frank could run it–and you. She’ll make an awful kick,” said Whitwell, solemnly. “I hope you didn’t encourage him, Cynthy?”
“I should encourage him,” said the girl. “He’s got the right to shape his own life, and nobody else has got the right to do it; and I should tell his mother so, if she ever said anything to me about it.”
“All right,” said Whitwell. “I suppose you know what you’re about.”
“I do, father. Jeff would make a good landlord; he’s got ideas about a hotel, and I can see that they’re the right ones. He’s been out in the world, and he’s kept his eyes open. He will make Lion’s Head the best hotel in the mountains.”
“It’s that already.”
“He doesn’t think it’s half as good as he can make it.”
“It wouldn’t be half what it is now, if it wa’n’t for you and Frank.”
“I guess he understands that,” said Cynthia. “Frank would be the clerk.”
“Got it all mapped out!” said Whitwell, proudly, in his turn. “Look out you don’t slip up in your calculations. That’s all.”
“I guess we cha’n’t slip up.”
XIII.
Jeff came into the ugly old family parlor, where his mother sat mending by the kerosene-lamp which she had kept through all the household changes, and pushed enough of her work aside from the corner of the table to rest his arm upon it.
“Mother, I want you to listen to me, and to wait till I get done. Will you?”
She looked up at him over her spectacles from the stocking she was darning; the china egg gleamed through the frayed place. “What notion have you got in your head, now?”
“It’s about Jackson. He isn’t well. He’s got to leave off work and go away.”
The mother’s hand dropped at the end of the yarn she had drawn through the stocking heel, and she stared at Jeff. Then she resumed her work with the decision expressed in her tone. “Your father lived to be sixty years old, and Jackson a’n’t forty! The doctor said there wa’n’t any reason why he shouldn’t live as long as his father did.”
“I’m not saying he won’t live to a hundred. I’m saying he oughtn’t to stay another winter here,” Jeff said, decisively.
Mrs. Durgin was silent for a time, and then she said. “Jeff, is that your notion about Jackson, or whose is it?”
“It’s mine, now.”
Mrs, Durgin waited a moment. Then she began, with a feeling quite at variance with her words:
“Well, I’ll thank Cynthy Whit’ell to mind her own business! Of course,” she added, and in what followed her feeling worked to the surface in her words, “I know ‘t she thinks the world of Jackson, and he does of her; and I presume she means well. I guess she’d be more apt to notice, if there was any change, than what I should. What did she say?”
Jeff told, as nearly as he could remember, and he told what Cynthia and he had afterward jointly worked out as to the best thing for Jackson to do. Mrs. Durgin listened frowningly, but not disapprovingly, as it seemed; though at the end she asked: “And what am I going to do, with Jackson gone?”
Jeff laughed, with his head down. “Well, I guess you and Cynthy could run it, with Frank and Mr. Whitwell.”
“Mr. Whit’ell!” said Mrs. Durgin, concentrating in her accent of his name the contempt she could not justly pour out on the others.
“Oh,” Jeff went on, “I did think that I could take hold with you, if you could bring yourself to let me off this last year at Harvard.”
“Jeff!” said his mother, reproachfully. “You know you don’t mean that you’d give up your last year in college?”
“I do mean it, but I don’t expect you to do it; and I don’t ask it. I suggested it to Cynthy, when we got to talking it over, and she saw it wouldn’t do.”
“Well, she showed some sense that time,” Mrs. Durgin said.
“I don’t know when Cynthy hasn’t shown sense; except once, and then I guess it was my fault.”
“What do you mean?”
“Why, this afternoon I asked her to marry me some time, and she said she would.” He looked at his mother and laughed, and then he did not laugh. He had expected her to be pleased; he had thought to pave the way with this confession for the declaration of his intention not to study law, and to make his engagement to Cynthia serve him in reconciling his mother to the other fact. But a menacing suspense followed his words.
His mother broke out at last: “You asked Cynthy Whit’ell to marry you! And she said she would! Well, I can tell her she won’t, then!”
“And I can tell you she will!” Jeff stormed back. He rose to his feet and stood over his mother.
She began steadily, as if he had not spoken. “If that designin’–“
“Look out, mother! Don’t you say anything against Cynthia! She’s been the best girl to you in the world, and you know it. She’s been as true to you as Jackson has himself. She hasn’t got a selfish bone in her body, and she’s so honest she couldn’t design anything against you or any one, unless she told you first. Now you take that back! Take it back! She’s no more designing than–than you are!”
Mrs. Durgin was not moved by his storming, but she was inwardly convinced of error. “I do take it back. Cynthy is all right. She’s all you say and more. It’s your fault, then, and you’ve got yourself to thank, for whosever fault it is, she’ll pack–“
“If Cynthy packs, I pack!” said Jeff. “Understand that. The moment she leaves this house I leave it, too, and I’ll marry her anyway. Frank ‘d leave and–and–Pshaw! What do you care for that? But I don’t know what you mean! I always thought you liked Cynthy and respected her. I didn’t believe I could tell you a thing that would please you better than that she had said she would have me. But if it don’t, all right.”
Mrs. Durgin held her peace in bewilderment; she stared at her son with dazed eyes, under the spectacles lifted above her forehead. She felt a change of mood in his unchanged tone of defiance, and she met him half- way. “I tell you I take back what I called Cynthia, and I told you so. But–but I didn’t ever expect you to marry her.”
“Why didn’t you? There isn’t one of the summer folks to compare with her. She’s got more sense than all of ’em. I’ve known her ever since I can remember. Why didn’t you expect it?”
“I didn’t expect it.”
“Oh, I know! You thought I’d see somebody in Boston–some swell girl. Well, they wouldn’t any of them look at me, and if they would, they wouldn’t look at you.”
“I shouldn’t care whether they looked at me or not.”
“I tell you they wouldn’t look at me. You don’t understand about these things, and I do. They marry their own kind, and I’m not their kind, and I shouldn’t be if I was Daniel Webster himself. Daniel Webster! Who remembers him, or cares for him, or ever did? You don’t believe it? You think that because I’ve been at Harvard–Oh, can’t I make you see it? I’m what they call a jay in Harvard, and Harvard don’t count if you’re a jay.”
His mother looked at him without speaking. She would not confess the ambition he taxed her with, and perhaps she had nothing so definite in her mind. Perhaps it was only her pride in him, and her faith in a splendid future for him, that made her averse to his marriage in the lot she had always known, and on a little lower level in it that her own. She said at last:
“I don’t know what you mean by being a jay. But I guess we better not say anything more about this to-night.”
“All right,” Jeff returned. There never were any formal good-nights between the Durgins, and he went away now without further words.
His mother remained sitting where he left her. Two or three times she drew her empty darning-needle through the heel of the stocking she was mending.
She was still sitting there when Jackson passed on his way to bed, after leaving the office in charge of the night porter. He faltered, as he went by, and as he stood on the threshold she told him what Jeff had told her.
“That’s good,” he said, lifelessly. “Good for Jeff,” he added, thoughtfully, conscientiously.
“Why a’n’t it good for her, too?” demanded Jeff’s mother, in quick resentment of the slight put upon him.
“I didn’t say it wa’n’t,” said Jackson. “But it’s better for Jeff.”
“She may be very glad to get him!”
“I presume she is. She’s always cared for him, I guess. She’ll know how to manage him.”
“I don’t know,” said Mrs. Durgin, “as I like to have you talk so, about Jeff. He was here, just now, wantin’ to give up his last year in Harvard, so ‘s to let you go off on a vacation. He thinks you’ve worked yourself down.”
Jackson made no recognition of Jeff’s professed self-sacrifice. “I don’t want any vacation. I’m feeling first-rate now. I guess that stuff I had from the writin’ medium has begun to take hold of me. I don’t know when I’ve felt so well. I believe I’m going to get stronger than ever I was. Jeff say I needed a rest?”
Something like a smile of compassion for the delusion of his brother dawned upon the sick man’s wasted face, which was blotched with large freckles, and stared with dim, large eyes from out a framework of grayish hair, and grayish beard cut to the edges of the cheeks and chin.
XXIV.
Mrs. Durgin and Cynthia did not seek any formal meeting the next morning. The course of their work brought them together, but it was not till after they had transacted several household affairs of pressing importance that Mrs. Durgin asked: “What’s this about you and Jeff?”
“Has he been telling you?” asked Cynthia, in her turn, though she knew he had.
“Yes,” said Mrs. Durgin, with a certain dryness, which was half humorous. “I presume, if you two are satisfied, it’s all right.”
“I guess we’re satisfied,” said the girl, with a tremor of relief which she tried to hide.
Nothing more was said, and there was no physical demonstration of affection or rejoicing between the women. They knew that the time would come when they would talk over the affair down to the bone together, but now they were content to recognize the fact, and let the time for talking arrive when it would. “I guess,” said Mrs. Durgin, “you’d better go over to the helps’ house and see how that youngest Miller girl’s gittin’ along. She’d ought to give up and go home if she a’n’t fit for her work.”
“I’ll go and see her,” said Cynthia. “I don’t believe she’s strong enough for a waitress, and I have got to tell her so.”
“Well,” returned Mrs. Durgin, glumly, after a moment’s reflection, “I shouldn’t want you should hurry her. Wait till she’s out of bed, and give her another chance.”
“All right.”
Jeff had been lurking about for the event of the interview, and he waylaid Cynthia on the path to the helps’ house.
“I’m going over to see that youngest Miller girl,” she explained.
“Yes, I know all about that,” said Jeff. “Well, mother took it just right, didn’t she? You can’t always count on her; but I hadn’t much anxiety in this case. She likes you, Cynthia.”
“I guess so,” said the girl, demurely; and she looked away from him to smile her pleasure in the fact.
“But I believe if she hadn’t known you were with her about my last year in Harvard–it would have been different. I could see, when I brought it in that you wanted me to go back, her mind was made up for you.”
“Why need you say anything about that?”
“Oh, I knew it would clinch her. I understand mother. If you want something from her you mustn’t ask it straight out. You must propose something very disagreeable. Then when she refuses that, you can come in for what you were really after and get it.”
“I don’t know,” said Cynthia, “as I should like to think that your mother had been tricked into feeling right about me.”
“Tricked!” The color flashed up in Jeff’s face.
“Not that, Jeff,” said the girl, tenderly. “But you know what I mean. I hope you talked it all out fully with her.”
“Fully? I don’t know what you mean.”
“About your not studying law, and–everything.”
“I don’t believe in crossing a river till I come to it,” said Jeff. “I didn’t say anything to her about that.”
“You didn’t!”
“No. What had it got to do with our being engaged?”
“What had your going back to Harvard to do with it? If your mother thinks I’m with her in that, she’ll think I’m with her in the other. And I’m not. I’m with you.” She let her hand find his, as they walked side by side, and gave it a little pressure.
“It’s the greatest thing, Cynthy,” he said, breathlessly, “to have you with me in that. But, if you said I ought to study law, I should do it.”
“I shouldn’t say that, for I believe you’re right; but even if I believed you were wrong, I shouldn’t say it. You have a right to make your life what you want it; and your mother hasn’t. Only she must know it, and you must tell her at once.”
“At once?”
“Yes–now. What good will it do to put it off? You’re not afraid to tell her!”
“I don’t like you to use that word.”
“And I don’t like to use it. But I know how it is. You’re afraid that the brunt of it will come on ME. She’ll think you’re all right, but I’m all wrong because I agree with you.”
“Something like that.”
“Well, now, I’m not afraid of anything she can say; and what could she do? She can’t part us, unless you let her, and then I should let her, too.”
“But what’s the hurry? What’s the need of doing it right off?”
“Because it’s a deceit not to do it. It’s a lie!”
“I don’t see it in that light. I might change my mind, and still go on and study law.”
“You know you never will. Now, Jeff! Why do you act so?”
Jeff did not answer at once. He walked beside her with a face of trouble that became one of resolve in the set jaws. “I guess you’re right, Cynthy. She’s got to know the worst, and the sooner she knows it the better.”
“Yes!”
He had another moment of faltering. “You don’t want I should talk it over with Mr. Westover?”
“What has he got to do with it?”
“That’s true!”
“If you want to see it in the right light, you can think you’ve let it run on till after you’re out of college, and then you’ve got to tell her. Suppose she asked you how long you had made up your mind against the law, how should you feel? And if she asked me whether I’d known it all along, and I had to say I had, and that I’d supported and encouraged you in it, how should I feel?”
“She mightn’t ask any such question,” said Jeff, gloomily. Cynthia gave a little impatient “Oh!” and he hastened to add: “But you’re right; I’ve got to tell her. I’ll tell her to-night–“
“Don’t wait till to-night; do it now.”
“Now?”
“Yes; and I’ll go with you as soon as I’ve seen the youngest Miller girl.” They had reached the helps’ house now, and Cynthia said: “You wait outside here, and I’ll go right back with you. Oh, I hope it isn’t doing wrong to put it off till I’ve seen that girl!” She disappeared through the door, and Jeff waited by the steps outside, plucking up one long grass stem after another and biting it in two. When Cynthia came out she said: “I guess she’ll be all right. Now come, and don’t-lose another second.”
“You’re afraid I sha’n’t do it if I wait any longer!”
“I’m afraid I sha’n’t.” There was a silence after this.
“Do you know what I think of you, Cynthy?” asked Jeff, hurrying to keep up with her quick steps. “You’ve got more courage–“
“Oh, don’t praise me, or I shall break down!”
“I’ll see that you don’t break down,” said Jeff, tenderly. “It’s the greatest thing to have you go with me!”
“Why, don’t you SEE?” she lamented. “If you went alone, and told your mother that I approved of it, you would look as if you were afraid, and wanted to get behind me; and I’m not going to have that.”
They found. Mrs. Durgin in the dark entry of the old farmhouse, and Cynthia said, with involuntary imperiousness: “Come in here, Mrs. Durgin; I want to tell you something.”
She led the way to the old parlor, and she checked Mrs. Durgin’s question, “Has that Miller girl–“
“It isn’t about her,” said Cynthy, pushing the door to. “It’s about me and Jeff.”
Mrs. Durgin became aware of Jeff’s presence with an effect of surprise. “There a’n’t anything more, is there?”
“Yes, there is!” Cynthia shrilled. “Now, Jeff!”
“It’s just this, mother: Cynthy thinks I ought to tell you–and she thinks I ought to have told you last night–she expected me to–that I’m not going to study law.”
“And I approve of his not doing it,” Cynthia promptly followed, and she put herself beside Jeff where he stood in front of his mother’s rocking- chair.
She looked from one to the other of the faces before her. “I’m sorry a son of mine,” she said, with dignity, “had to be told how to act with his mother. But, if he had, I don’t know as anybody had a better right to do it than the girl that’s going to marry him. And I’ll say this, Cynthia Whitwell, before I say anything else: you’ve begun right. I wish I could say Jeff had.”
There was an uncomfortable moment before Cynthia said: “He expected to tell you.”
“Oh Yes! I know,” said his mother, sadly. She added, sharply: “And did be expect to tell me what he intended to do for a livin’?”
“Jeff took the word. “Yes, I did. I intend to keep a hotel.”
“What hotel?” asked Mrs. Durgin, with a touch of taunting in her tone.
“This one.”
The mother of the bold, rebellious boy that Jeff had been stirred in Mrs. Durgin’s heart, and she looked at him with the eyes, that used to condone his mischief. But she said: “I guess you’ll find out that there’s more than one has to agree to that.”
“Yes, there are two: you and Jackson; and I don’t know but what three, if you count Cynthy, here.”
His mother turned to the girl. “You think this fellow’s got sense enough to keep a hotel?”
“Yes, Mrs. Durgin, I do. I think he’s got good ideas about a hotel.”
“And what’s he goin’ to do with his college education?”
Jeff interposed. “You think that all the college graduates turn out lawyers and doctors and professors? Some of ’em are mighty glad to sweep out banks in hopes of a clerkship; and some take any sort of a place in a mill or a business house, to work up; and some bum round out West ‘on cattle ranches; and some, if they’re lucky, get newspaper reporters’ places at ten dollars a week.”
Cynthia followed with the generalization: “I don’t believe anybody can know too much to keep a hotel. It won’t hurt Jeff if he’s been to Harvard, or to Europe, either.”
“I guess there’s a pair of you,” said Mrs. Durgin, with superficial contempt. She was silent for a time, and they waited. “Well, there!” she broke out again. “I’ve got something to chew upon for a spell, I guess. Go along, now, both of you! And the next time you’ve got to face your mother, Jeff, don’t you come in lookin’ round anybody’s petticoats! I’ll see you later about all this.”
They went away with the joyful shame of children who have escaped punishment.
“That’s the last of it, Cynthy,” said Jeff.
“I guess so,” the girl assented, with a certain grief in her voice. “I wish you had told her first!”
“Oh, never mind that now!” cried Jeff, and in the dim passageway he took her in his arms and kissed her.
He would have released her, but she lingered in his embrace. “Will you promise that if there’s ever anything like it again, you won’t wait for me to make you?”
“I like your having made me, but I promise,” he said.
Then she tightened her arms round his neck and kissed him.
XXV.
The will of Jeff’s mother relaxed its grip upon the purpose so long held, as if the mere strain of the tenacity had wearied and weakened it. When it finally appeared that her ambition for her son was not his ambition for himself and would never be, she abandoned it. Perhaps it was the easier for her to forego her hopes of his distinction in the world, because she had learned before that she must forego her hopes of him in other ways. She had vaguely fancied that with the acquaintance his career at Harvard would open to him Jeff would make a splendid marriage. She had followed darkling and stumbling his course in society as far as he would report it to her, and when he would not suffer her to glory in it, she believed that he was forbidding her from a pride that would not recognize anything out of the common in it. She exulted in his pride, and she took all his snubbing reserves tenderly, as so many proofs of his success.
At the bottom of her heart she had both fear and contempt of all towns- people, whom she generalized from her experience of them as summer folks of a greater or lesser silliness. She often found herself unable to cope with them, even when she felt that she had twice their sense; she perceived that they had something from their training that with all her undisciplined force she could never hope to win from her own environment. But she believed that her son would have the advantages which baffled her in them, for he would have their environment; and she had wished him to rivet his hold upon those advantages by taking a wife from among them, and by living the life of their world. Her wishes, of course, had no such distinct formulation, and the feeling she had toward Cynthia as a possible barrier to her ambition had no more definition. There had been times when the fitness of her marriage with Jeff had moved the mother’s heart to a jealousy that she always kept silent, while she hoped for the accident or the providence which should annul the danger. But Genevieve Vostrand had not been the kind of accident or the providence that she would have invoked, and when she saw Jeff’s fancy turning toward her, Mrs. Durgin had veered round to Cynthia. All the same she kept a keen eye upon the young ladies among the summer folks who came to Lion’s Head, and tacitly canvassed their merits and inclinations with respect to Jeff in the often-imagined event of his caring for any one of them. She found that her artfully casual references to her son’s being in Harvard scarcely affected their mothers in the right way. The fact made them think of the head waiters whom they had met at other hotels, and who were working their way through Dartmouth or Williams or Yale, and it required all the force of Jeff’s robust personality to dissipate their erroneous impressions of him. He took their daughters out of their arms and from under their noses on long drives upon his buckboard, and it became a convention with them to treat his attentions somewhat like those of a powerful but faithful vassal.
Whether he was indifferent, or whether the young ladies were coy, none of these official flirtations came to anything. He seemed not to care for one more than another; he laughed and joked with them all, and had an official manner with each which served somewhat like a disparity of years in putting them at their ease with him. They agreed that he was very handsome, and some thought him very talented; but they questioned whether he was quite what you would call a gentleman. It is true that this misgiving attacked them mostly in the mass; singly, they were little or not at all troubled by it, and they severally behaved in an unprincipled indifference to it.
Mrs. Durgin had the courage of her own purposes, but she had the fear of Jeff’s. After the first pang of the disappointment which took final shape from his declaration that he was going to marry Cynthia, she did not really care much. She had the habit of the girl; she respected her, she even loved her. The children, as she thought of them, had known each other from their earliest days; Jeff had persecuted Cynthia throughout his graceless boyhood, but he had never intimidated her; and his mother, with all her weakness for him, felt that it was well for him that his wife should be brave enough to stand up against him.
She formulated this feeling no more than the others, but she said to Westover, whom Jeff bade her tell of the engagement: “It a’n’t exactly as I could ‘a’ wished it to be. But I don’t know as mothers are ever quite suited with their children’s marriages. I presume it’s from always kind of havin’ had her round under my feet ever since she was born, as you may say, and seein’ her family always so shiftless. Well, I can’t say that of Frank, either. He’s turned out a fine boy; but the father! Cynthy is one of the most capable girls, smart as a trap, and bright as a biscuit. She’s masterful, too! she NEED to have a will of her own with Jeff.”
Something of the insensate pride that mothers have in their children’s faults, as their quick tempers, or their wastefulness, or their revengefulness, expressed itself in her tone; and it was perhaps this that irritated Westover.
“I hope he’ll never let her know it. I don’t think a strong will is a thing to be prized, and I shouldn’t consider it one of Cynthia’s good points. The happiest life for her would be one that never forced her to use it.”
“I don’t know as I understand you exactly,” said Mrs. Durgin, with some dryness. “I know Jeff’s got rather of a domineering disposition, but I don’t believe but she can manage him without meetin’ him on his own ground, as you may say.”
“She’s a girl in a thousand,” Westover returned, evasively.
“Then you think he’s shown sense in choosin’ of her?” pursued Jeff’s mother, resolute to find some praise of him in Westover’s words.
“He’s a very fortunate man,” said the painter.
“Well, I guess you’re right,” Mrs. Durgin acquiesced, as much to Jeff’s advantage as she could. “You know I was always afraid he would make a fool of himself, but I guess he’s kept his eyes pretty well open all the while. Well!” She closed the subject with this exclamation. “Him and Cynthy’s been at me about Jackson,” she added, abruptly. “They’ve cooked it up between ’em that he’s out of health or run down or something.”
Her manner referred the matter to Westover, and he said: “He isn’t looking so well this summer. He ought to go away somewhere.”
“That’s what they thought,” said Mrs. Durgin, smiling in her pleasure at having their opinion confirmed by the old and valued friend of the family.
Whereabouts do you think he’d best go?”
“Oh, I don’t know. Italy–or Egypt–“
“I guess, if you could get Jackson to go away at all, it would be to some of them old Bible countries,” said Mrs. Durgin. “We’ve got to have a fight to get him off, make the best of it, and I’ve thought it over since the children spoke about it, and I couldn’t seem to see Jackson willin’ to go out to Californy or Colorady, to either of his brothers. But I guess he would go to Egypt. That a good climate for the–his complaint?”
She entered eagerly into the question, and Westover promised to write to a Boston doctor, whom he knew very well, and report Jackson’s case to him, and get his views of Egypt.
“Tell him how it is,” said Mrs. Durgin, “and the tussle we shall have to have anyway to make Jackson believe he’d ought to have a rest. He’ll go to Egypt if he’ll go anywheres, because his mind keeps runnin’ on Bible questions, and it ‘ll interest him to go out there; and we can make him believe it’s just to bang around for the winter. He’s terrible hopeful.” Now that she began to speak, all her long-repressed anxiety poured itself out, and she hitched her chair nearer to Westover and wistfully clutched his sleeve. “That’s the worst of Jackson. You can’t make him believe anything’s the matter. Sometimes I can’t bear to hear him go on about himself as if he was a well young man. He expects that medium’s stuff is goin’ to cure him!”
“People sick in that way are always hopeful,” said Westover.
“Oh, don’t I know it! Ha’n’t I seen my children and my husband–Oh, do ask that doctor to answer as quick as he can!”
XXVI.
Westover had a difficulty in congratulating Jeff which he could scarcely define to himself, but which was like that obscure resentment we feel toward people whom we think unequal to their good fortune. He was ashamed of his grudge, whatever it was, and this may have made him overdo his expressions of pleasure. He was sensible of a false cordiality in them, and he checked himself in a flow of forced sentiment to say, more honestly: “I wish you’d speak to Cynthia for me. You know how much I think of her, and how much I want to see her happy. You ought to be a very good fellow, Jeff!”
“I’ll tell her that; she’ll like that,” said Jeff. “She thinks the world of you.”
“Does she? Well!”
“And I guess she’ll be glad you sent word. She’s been wondering what you would say; she’s always so afraid of you.”
“Is she? You’re not afraid of me, are you? But perhaps you don’t think so much of me.”
“I guess Cynthia and I think alike on that point,” said Jeff, without abating Westover’s discomfort.
There was a stress of sharp cold that year about the 20th of August. Then the weather turned warm again, and held fine till the beginning of October, within a week of the time when Jackson was to sail. It had not been so hard to make him consent when he knew where the doctor wished him to go, and he had willingly profited by Westover’s suggestions about getting to Egypt. His interest in the matter, which he tried to hide at first under a mask of decorous indifference, mounted with the fire of Whitwell’s enthusiasm, and they held nightly councils together, studying his course on the map, and consulting planchette upon the points at variance that rose between them, while Jombateeste sat with his chair tilted against the wall, and pulled steadily at his pipe, which mixed its strong fumes with the smell of the kerosene-lamp and the perennial odor of potatoes in the cellar under the low room where the companions forgathered.
Toward the end of September Westover spent the night before he went back to town with them. After a season with planchette, their host pushed himself back with his knees from the table till his chair reared upon its hind legs, and shoved his hat up from his forehead in token of philosophical mood.
“I tell you, Jackson,” he said, “you’d ought to get hold o’ some them occult devils out there, and squeeze their science out of ’em. Any Buddhists in Egypt, Mr. Westover?”
“I don’t think there are,” said Westover. “Unless Jackson should come across some wandering Hindu. Or he might push on, and come home by the way of India.”
“Do it, Jackson!” his friend conjured him. “May cost you something more, but it ‘ll be worth the money. If it’s true, what some them Blavetsky fellers claim, you can visit us here in your astral body–git in with ’em the right way. I should like to have you try it. What’s the reason India wouldn’t be as good for him as Egypt, anyway?” Whitwell demanded of Westover.
“I suppose the climate’s rather too moist; the heat would be rather trying to him there.”
“That so?”
“And he’s taken his ticket for Alexandria,” Westover pursued.
“Well, I guess that’s so.” Whitwell tilted his backward sloping hat to one side, so as to scratch the northeast corner of his bead thoughtfully.
“But as far as that is concerned,” said Westover, “and the doctrine of immortality generally is concerned, Jackson will have his hands full if he studies the Egyptian monuments.”
“What they got to do with it?”
“Everything. Egypt is the home of the belief in a future life; it was carried from Egypt to Greece. He might come home by way of Athens.”
“Why, man!” cried Whitwell. “Do you mean to say that them old Hebrew saints, Joseph’s brethren, that went down into Egypt after corn, didn’t know about immortality, and them Egyptian devils did?”
“There’s very little proof in the Old Testament that the Israelites knew of it.”
Whitwell looked at Jackson. “That the idee you got?”
“I guess he’s right,” said Jackson. “There’s something a little about it in Job, and something in the Psalms: but not a great deal.”
“And we got it from them Egyptian d—-“
“I don’t say that,” Westover interposed. “But they had it before we had. As we imagine it, we got it though Christianity.”
Jombateeste, who had taken his pipe out of his mouth in a controversial manner, put it back again.
Westover added, “But there’s no question but the Egyptians believed in the life hereafter, and in future rewards and punishments for the deeds done in the body, thousands of years before our era.”
“Well, I’m dumned,” said Whitwell.
Jombateeste took his pipe out again. “Hit show they got good sense. They know–they feel it in their bone–what goin’ ‘appen–when you dead. Me, I guess they got some prophet find it hout for them; then they goin’ take the credit.”
“I guess that’s something so, Jombateeste,” said Whitwell. “It don’t stand to reason that folks without any alphabet, as you may say, and only a lot of pictures for words, like Injuns, could figure out the immortality of the soul. They got the idee by inspiration somehow. Why, here! It’s like this. Them Pharaohs must have always been clawin’ out for the Hebrews before they got a hold of Joseph, and when they found out the true doctrine, they hushed up where they got it, and their priests went on teachin’ it as if it was their own.”
“That’s w’at I say. Got it from the ‘Ebrew.”
“Well, it don’t matter a great deal where they got it, so they got it,” said Jackson, as he rose.
“I believe I’ll go with you,” said Westover.
“All there is about it,” said the sick man, solemnly, with a frail effort to straighten himself, to which his sunken chest would not respond, “is this: no man ever did figure that out for himself. A man sees folks die, and as far as his senses go, they don’t live again. But somehow he knows they do; and his knowledge comes from somewhere else; it’s inspired–“
“That’s w’at I say,” Jombateeste hastened to interpose. “Got it from the ‘Ebrew. Feel it in ‘is bone.”
Out under the stars Jackson and Westover silently mounted the hill-side together. At one of the thank-you-marms in the road the sick man stopped, like a weary horse, to breathe. He took off his hat and wiped the sweat of weakness that had gathered upon his forehead, and looked round the sky, powdered with the constellations and the planets. “It’s sightly,” he whispered.
“Yes, it is fine,” Westover assented. “But the stars of our Northern nights are nothing to what you’ll see in Egypt.”
Jackson repeated, vaguely: “Egypt! Where I should like to go is Mars.” He fixed his eyes on the flaming planets, in a long stare. “But I suppose they have their own troubles, same as we do. They must get sick and die, like the rest of us. But I should like to know more about ’em. You believe it’s inhabited, don’t you?”
Westover’s agnosticism did not, somehow, extend to Mars. “Yes, I’ve no doubt of it.”
Jackson seemed pleased. “I’ve read everything I can lay my hands on about it. I’ve got a notion that if there’s any choosin’, after we get through here, I should like to go to Mars for a while, or as long as I was a little homesick still, and wanted to keep as near the earth as I could,” he added, quaintly.
Westover laughed. “You could study up the subject of irrigation, there; they say that’s what keeps the parallel markings green on Mars; and telegraph a few hints to your brother in Colorado, after the Martians perfect their signal code.”
Perhaps the invalid’s fancy flagged. He drew a long, ragged breath. “I don’t know as I care to leave home, much. If it wa’n’t a kind of duty, I shouldn’t.” He seemed impelled by a sudden need to say, “How do you think Jefferson and mother will make it out together?”
“I’ve no doubt they’ll manage,” said Westover.
“They’re a good deal alike,” Jackson suggested.
Westover preferred not to meet his overture. You’ll be back, you know, almost as soon as the season commences, next summer.”
“Yes,” Jackson assented, more cheerfully. “And now, Cynthy’s sure to be here.”
“Yes, she will be here,” said Westover, not so cheerfully.
Jackson seemed to find the opening he was seeking, in Westover’s tone. “What do you think of gettin’ married, anyway, Mr. Westover?” he asked.
“We haven’t either of us thought so well of it as to try it, Jackson,” said the painter, jocosely.
“Think it’s a kind of chance?”
“It’s a chance.”
Jackson was silent. Then, “I a’n’t one of them,” he said, abruptly, “that think a man’s goin’ to be made over by marryin’ this woman or that. If he a’n’t goin’ to be the right kind of a man himself, he a’n’t because his wife’s a good woman. Sometimes I think that a man’s wife is the last person in the world that can change his disposition. She can influence him about this and about that, but she can’t change him. It seems as if he couldn’t let her if he tried, and after the first start-off he don’t try.”
“That’s true,” Westover assented. “We’re terribly inflexible. Nothing but something like a change of heart, as they used to call it, can make us different, and even then we’re apt to go back to our old shape. When you look at it in that light, marriage seems impossible. Yet it takes place every day!”
“It’s a great risk for a woman,” said Jackson, putting on his hat and stirring for an onward movement. “But I presume that if the man is honest with her it’s the best thing she can have. The great trouble is for the man to be honest with her.”
“Honesty is difficult,” said Westover.
He made Jackson promise to spend a day with him in Boston, on his way to take the Mediterranean steamer at New York. When they met he yielded to an impulse which the invalid’s forlornness inspired, and went on to see him off. He was glad that he did that, for, though Jackson was not sad at parting, he was visibly touched by Westover’s kindness.
Of course he talked away from it. “I guess I’ve left ’em in pretty good shape for the winter at Lion’s Head,” he said. “I’ve got Whitwell to agree to come up and live in the house with mother, and she’ll have Cynthy with her, anyway; and Frank and Jombateeste can look after the bosses easy enough.”
He had said something like this before, but Westover could see that it comforted him to repeat it, and he encouraged him to do so in full. He made him talk about getting home in the spring, after the frost was out of the ground, but he questioned involuntarily, while the sick man spoke, whether he might not then be lying under the sands that had never known a frost since the glacial epoch. When the last warning for visitors to go ashore came, Jackson said, with a wan smile, while he held Westover’s hand: “I sha’n’t forget this very soon.”
“Write to me,” said Westover.
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THE LANDLORD AT LION’S HEAD
By William Dean Howells
Part II.
XXVII.
Jackson kept his promise to write to Westover, but he was better than his word to his mother, and wrote to her every week that winter.
“I seem just to live from letter to letter. It’s ridic’lous,” she said to Cynthia once when the girl brought the mail in from the barn, where the men folks kept it till they had put away their horses after driving over from Lovewell with it. The trains on the branch road were taken off in the winter, and the post-office at the hotel was discontinued. The men had to go to the town by cutter, over a highway that the winds sifted half full of snow after it had been broken out by the ox-teams in the morning. But Mrs. Durgin had studied the steamer days and calculated the time it would take letters to come from New York to Lovewell; and, unless a blizzard was raging, some one had to go for the mail when the day came. It was usually Jombateeste, who reverted in winter to the type of habitant from which he had sprung. He wore a blue woollen cap, like a large sock, pulled over his ears and close to his eyes, and below it his clean-shaven brown face showed. He had blue woollen mittens, and boots of russet leather, without heels, came to his knees; he got a pair every time he went home on St. John’s day. His lean little body was swathed in several short jackets, and he brought the letters buttoned into one of the innermost pockets. He produced the letter from Jackson promptly enough when Cynthia came out to the barn for it, and then he made a show of getting his horse out of the cutter shafts, and shouting international reproaches at it, till she was forced to ask, “Haven’t you got something for me, Jombateeste?”
“You expec’ some letter?” he said, unbuckling a strap and shouting louder.
“You know whether I do. Give it to me.”
“I don’ know. I think I drop something on the road. I saw something white; maybe snow; good deal of snow.”
“Don’t plague! Give it here!”
“Wait I finish unhitch. I can’t find any letter till I get some time to look.”
“Oh, now, Jombateeste! Give me my letter!”
“W’at you want letter for? Always same thing. Well! ‘Old the ‘oss; I goin’ to feel.”
Jombateeste felt in one pocket after another, while Cynthia clung to the colt’s bridle, and he was uncertain till the last whether he had any letter for her. When it appeared she made a flying snatch at it and ran; and the comedy was over, to be repeated in some form the next week.
The girl somehow always possessed herself of what was in her letters before she reached the room where Mrs. Durgin was waiting for hers. She had to read that aloud to Jackson’s mother, and in the evening she had to read it again to Mrs. Durgin and Whitwell and Jombateeste and Frank, after they had done their chores, and they had gathered in the old farm- house parlor, around the air-tight sheet-iron stove, in a heat of eighty degrees. Whitwell listened, with planchette ready on the table before him, and he consulted it for telepathic impressions of Jackson’s actual mental state when the reading was over.
He got very little out of the perverse instrument. “I can’t seem to work her. If Jackson was here–“
“We shouldn’t need to ask planchette about him,” Cynthia once suggested, with the spare sense of humor that sometimes revealed itself in her.
“Well, I guess that’s something so,” her father candidly admitted. But the next time he consulted the helpless planchette as hopefully as before. “You can’t tell, you can’t tell,” he urged.
“The trouble seems to be that planchette can’t tell,” said Mrs. Durgin, and they all laughed. They were not people who laughed a great deal, and they were each intent upon some point in the future that kept them from pleasure in the present. The little Canuck was the only one who suffered himself a contemporaneous consolation. His early faith had so far lapsed from him that he could hospitably entertain the wild psychical conjectures of Whitwell without an accusing sense of heresy, and he found the winter of northern New England so mild after that of Lower Canada that he experienced a high degree of animal comfort in it, and looked forward to nothing better. To be well fed, well housed, and well heated; to smoke successive pipes while the others talked, and to catch through his smoke-wreaths vague glimpses of their meanings, was enough. He felt that in being promoted to the care of the stables in Jackson’s absence he occupied a dignified and responsible position, with a confidential relation to the exile which justified him in sending special messages to him, and attaching peculiar value to Jackson’s remembrances.
The exile’s letters said very little about his health, which in the sense of no news his mother held to be good news, but they were full concerning the monuments and the ethnological interest of life in Egypt.
They were largely rescripts of each day’s observations and experiences, close and full, as his mother liked them in regard to fact, and generously philosophized on the side of politics and religion for Whitwell. The Eastern question became in the snow-choked hills of New England the engrossing concern of this speculative mind, and he was apt to spring it upon Mrs. Durgin and Cynthia at mealtimes and other defenceless moments. He tried to debate it with Jombateeste, who conceived of it as a form of spiritualistic inquiry, and answered from the hay-loft, where he was throwing down fodder for the cattle to Whitwell, volubly receiving it on the barn floor below, that he believed, him, everybody got a hastral body, English same as Mormons.
“Guess you mean Moslems,” said Whitwell, and Jombateeste asked the difference, defiantly.
The letters which came to Cynthia could not be made as much a general interest, and, in fact, no one else cared so much for them as for Jackson’s letters, not even Jeff’s mother. After Cynthia got one of them, she would ask, perfunctorily, what Jeff said, but when she was told there was no news she did not press her question.
“If Jackson don’t get back in time next summer,” Mrs. Durgin said, in one of the talks she had with the girl, “I guess I shall have to let Jeff and you run the house alone.”
“I guess we shall want a little help from you,” said Cynthia, demurely. She did not refuse the implication of Mrs. Durgin’s words, but she would not assume that there was more in them than they expressed.
When Jeff came home for the three days’ vacation at Thanksgiving, he wished again to relinquish his last year at Harvard, and Cynthia had to summon all her forces to keep him to his promise of staying. He brought home the books with which he was working off his conditions, with a half- hearted intention of study, and she took hold with him, and together they fought forward over the ground he had to gain. His mother was almost willing at last that he should give up his last year in college.
“What is the use?” she asked. “He’s give up the law, and he might as well commence here first as last, if he’s goin’ to.”
The girl had no reason to urge against this; she could only urge her feeling that he ought to go back and take his degree with the rest of his class.
“If you’re going to keep Lion’s Head the way you pretend you are,” she said to him, as she could not say to his mother, “you want to keep all your Harvard friends, don’t you, and have them remember you? Go back, Jeff, and don’t you come here again till after you’ve got your degree. Never mind the Christmas vacation, nor the Easter. Stay in Cambridge and work off your conditions. You can do it, if you try. Oh, don’t you suppose I should like to have you here?” she reproached him.
He went back, with a kind of grudge in his heart, which he confessed in his first letter home to her, when he told her that she was right and he was wrong. He was sure now, with the impulse which their work on them in common had given him, that he should get his conditions off, and he wanted her and his mother to begin preparing their minds to come to his Class Day. He planned how they could both be away from the hotel for that day. The house was to be opened on the 20th of June, but it was not likely that there would be so many people at once that they could not give the 21st to Class Day; Frank and his father could run Lion’s Head somehow, or, if they could not, then the opening could be postponed till the 24th. At all events, they must not fail to come. Cynthia showed the whole letter to his mother, who refused to think of such a thing, and then asked, as if the fact had not been fully set before her: “When is it to be?”
“The 21st of June.”
“Well, he’s early enough with his invitation,” she grumbled.
“Yes, he is,” said Cynthia; and she laughed for shame and pleasure as she confessed, “I was thinking he was rather late.”
She hung her head and turned her face away. But Mrs. Durgin understood. “You be’n expectin’ it all along, then.”
“I guess so.”
“I presume,” said the elder woman, “that he’s talked to you about it. He never tells me much. I don’t see why you should want to go. What’s it like?”
“Oh, I don’t know. But it’s the day the graduating class have to themselves, and all their friends come.”
“Well, I don’t know why anybody should want to go,” said Mrs. Durgin. “I sha’n’t. Tell him he won’t want to own me when he sees me. What am I goin’ to wear, I should like to know? What you goin’ to wear, Cynthy?”
XXVIII.
Jeff’s place at Harvard had been too long fixed among the jays to allow the hope of wholly retrieving his condition now. It was too late for him to be chosen in any of the nicer clubs or societies, but he was not beyond the mounting sentiment of comradery, which begins to tell in the last year among college men, and which had its due effect with his class. One of the men, who had always had a foible for humanity, took advantage of the prevailing mood in another man, and wrought upon him to ask, among the fellows he was asking to a tea at his rooms, several fellows who were distinctly and almost typically jay. The tea was for the aunt of the man who gave it, a very pretty woman from New York, and it was so richly qualified by young people of fashion from Boston that the infusion of the jay flavor could not spoil it, if it would not rather add an agreeable piquancy. This college mood coincided that year with a benevolent emotion in the larger world, from which fashion was not exempt. Society had just been stirred by the reading of a certain book, which had then a very great vogue, and several people had been down among the wretched at the North End doing good in a conscience-stricken effort to avert the millennium which the book in question seemed to threaten. The lady who matronized the tea was said to have done more good than you could imagine at the North End, and she caught at the chance to meet the college jays in a spirit of Christian charity. When the man who was going to give the tea rather sheepishly confessed what the altruistic man had got him in for, she praised him so much that he went away feeling like the hero of a holy cause. She promised the assistance and sympathy of several brave girls, who would not be afraid of all the jays in college.
After all, only one of the jays came. Not many, in fact, had been asked, and when Jeff Durgin actually appeared, it was not known that he was both the first and the last of his kind. The lady who was matronizing the tea recognized him, with a throe of her quickened conscience, as the young fellow whom she had met two winters before at the studio tea which Mr. Westover had given to those queer Florentine friends of his, and whom she had never thought of since, though she had then promised herself to do something for him. She had then even given him some vague hints of a prospective hospitality, and she confessed her sin of omission in a swift but graphic retrospect to one of her brave girls, while Jeff stood blocking out a space for his stalwart bulk amid the alien elegance just within the doorway, and the host was making his way toward him, with an outstretched hand of hardy welcome.
At an earlier period of his neglect and exclusion, Jeff would not have responded to the belated overture which had now been made him, for no reason that he could divine. But he had nothing to lose by accepting the invitation, and he had promised the altruistic man, whom he rather liked; he did not dislike the giver of the tea so much as some other men, and so he came.
The brave girl whom the matron was preparing to devote to him stood shrinking with a trepidation which she could not conceal at sight of his strange massiveness, with his rust-gold hair coming down toward his thick yellow brows and mocking blue eyes in a dense bang, and his jaw squaring itself under the rather insolent smile of his full mouth. The matron felt that her victim teas perhaps going to fail her, when a voice at her ear said, as if the question were extorted, “Who in the world is that?”
She instantly turned, and flashed out in a few inspired syllables the fact she had just imparted to her treacherous heroine. “Do let me introduce him, Miss Lynde. I must do something for him, when he gets up to me, if he ever does.”
“By all means,” said the girl, who had an impulse to laugh at the rude force of Jeff’s face and figure, so disproportioned to the occasion, and she vented it at the matron’s tribulation. The matron was shaking hands with people right and left, and exchanging inaudible banalities with them. She did not know what the girl said in answer, but she was aware that she remained near her. She had professed her joy at seeing Jeff again, when he reached her, and she turned with him and said, “Let me present you to Miss Lynde, Mr. Durgin,” and so abandoned them to each other.
As Jeff had none of the anxiety for social success which he would have felt at an earlier period, he now left it to Miss Lynde to begin the talk, or not, as she chose. He bore himself with so much indifference that she was piqued to an effort to hold his eyes, that wandered from her to this face and that in the crowd.
“Do you find many people you know, Mr. Durgin?”
“I don’t find any.”
“I supposed you didn’t from the way you looked at them.”
“How did I look at them?”
“As if you wanted to eat them, and one never wants to eat one’s friends.”
“Why?”
“Oh, I don’t know. They wouldn’t agree with one.”
Jeff laughed, and he now took fuller note of the slender girl who stood before him, and swayed a little backward, in a graceful curve. He saw that she had a dull, thick complexion, with liquid eyes, set wide apart and slanted upward slightly, and a nose that was deflected inward from the straight line; but her mouth was beautiful and vividly red like a crimson blossom.
“Couldn’t you find me some place to sit down, Mr. Durgin?” she asked.
He had it on his tongue to say, “Well, not unless you want to sit down on some enemy,” but he did not venture this: when it comes to daring of that sort, the boldest man is commonly a little behind a timid woman.
Several of the fellows had clubbed their rooms, and lent them to the man who was giving the tea; he used one of the apartments for a cloak-room, and he meant the other for the social overflow from his own. But people always prefer to remain dammed-up together in the room where they are received, and Miss Lynde looked between the neighboring heads, and over the neighboring shoulders, and saw the borrowed apartment quite empty. At the moment of this discovery the host came fighting his way up to make sure that Jeff had been provided for in the way of introductions. He promptly introduced him to Miss Lynde. She said: “Oh, that’s been done! Can’t you think of something new?” Jeff liked the style of this. “I don’t mind it, but I’m afraid Mr. Durgin must find it monotonous.”
“Oh, well, do something original yourself, then, Miss Lynde!” said the host. “Start a movement for that room across the passage; that’s mine, too, for the occasion; and save some of these people’s lives. It’s suffocating in here.”
“I don’t mind saving Mr. Durgin’s,” said the girl, “if he wants it saved.”
“Oh, I know he’s just dying to have you save it,” said the host, and he left them, to inspire other people to follow their example. But such as glanced across the passage into the overflow room seemed to think it now the possession solely of the pioneers of the movement. At any rate, they made no show of joining them; and after Miss Lynde and Jeff had looked at the pictures on the walls and the photographs on the mantel of the room where they found themselves, they sat down on chairs fronting the open door and the door of the room they had left. The window-seat would have been more to Jeff’s mind, and he had proposed it, but the girl seemed not to have heard him; she took the deep easy-chair in full view of the company opposite, and left him to pull up a chair beside her.
“I always like to see the pictures in a man’s room,” she said, with a little sigh of relief from their inspection and a partial yielding of her figure to the luxury of the chair. “Then I know what the man is. This man–I don’t know whose room it is–seems to have spent a good deal of his time at the theatre.”
“Isn’t that where most of them spend their time?” asked Jeff.
“I’m sure I don’t know. Is that where you spend yours?”
“It used to be. I’m not spending my time anywhere just now.” She looked questioningly, and he added, “I haven’t got any to spend.”
“Oh, indeed! Is that a reason? Why don’t you spend somebody else’s?”
“Nobody has any, that I know.”
“You’re all working off conditions, you mean?”
“That’s what I’m doing, or trying to.”
“Then it’s never certain whether you can do it, after all?”
“Not so certain as to be free from excitement,” said Jeff, smiling.
“And are you consumed with the melancholy that seems to be balling up all the men at the prospect of having to leave Harvard and go out into the hard, cold world?”
“I don’t look it, do I? Jeff asked:
“No, you don’t. And you don’t feel it? You’re not trying concealment, and so forth?”
“No; if I’d had my own way, I’d have left Harvard before this.” He could see that his bold assumption of difference, or indifference, told upon her. “I couldn’t get out into the hard, cold world too soon.”
“How fearless! Most of them don’t know what they’re going to do in it.”
“I do.”
“And what are you going to do? Or perhaps you think that’s asking!”
“Oh no. I’m going to keep a hotel.”
He had hoped to startle her, but she asked, rather quietly, “What do you mean?” and she added, as if to punish him for trying to mystify her: “I’ve heard that it requires gifts for that. Isn’t there some proverb?”
“Yes. But I’m going to try to do it on experience.” He laughed, and he did not mind her trying to hit him, for he saw that be had made her curious.
“Do you mean that you have kept a hotel?”
“For three generations,” he returned, with a gravity that mocked her from his bold eyes.
“I’m sure I don’t know what you mean,” she said, indifferently. “Where is your hotel? In Boston–New York–Chicago?”
“It’s in the country–it’s a summer hotel,” he said, as before.
She looked away from him toward the other room. “There’s my brother. I didn’t know he was coming.”
“Shall I go and tell him where you are?” Jeff asked, following the direction of her eyes.
“No, no; he can find me,” said the girl, sinking back in her chair again. He left her to resume the talk where she chose, and she said: “If it’s something ancestral, of course–“
“I don’t know as it’s that, exactly. My grandfather used to keep a country tavern, and so it’s in the blood, but the hotel I mean is something that we’ve worked up into from a farm boarding-house.”
“You don’t talk like a country person,” the girl broke in, abruptly.
“Not in Cambridge. I do in the country.”
“And so,” she prompted, “you’re going to turn it into a hotel when you’ve got out of Harvard.”
“It’s a hotel already, and a pretty big one; but I’m going to make the right kind of hotel of it when I take hold of it.”
“And what is the right kind of a hotel?”
“That’s a long story. It would make you tired.”
“It might, but we’ve got to spend the time somehow. You could begin, and then if I couldn’t stand it you could stop.”
“It’s easier to stop first and begin some other time. I guess I’ll let you imagine my hotel, Miss Lynde.”
“Oh, I understand now,” said the girl. “The table will be the great thing. You will stuff people.”
“Do you mean that I’m trying to stuff you?”
“How do I know? You never can tell what men really mean.”
Jeff laughed with mounting pleasure in her audacity, that imparted a sense of tolerance for him such as he had experienced very seldom from the Boston girls he had met; after all, he had met but few. It flattered him to have her doubt what he had told her in his reckless indifference; it implied that he was fit for better things than hotel-keeping.
“You never can tell how much a woman believes,” he retorted.
“And you keep trying to find out?”
“No, but I think that they might believe the truth.”
“You’d better try them with it!”
“Well, I will. Do you really want to know what I’m going to do when I get through?”
“Let me see!” Miss Lynde leaned forward, with her elbow on her knee and her chin in her hand, and softly kicked the edge of her skirt with the toe of her shoe, as if in deep thought. Jeff waited for her to play her comedy through. “Yes,” she said, “I think I did wish to know–at one time.”
“But you don’t now?”
“Now? How can I tell? It was a great while ago!”
“I see you don’t.”
Miss Lynde did not make any reply. She asked, “Do you know my aunt, Durgin?”
“I didn’t know you had one.”
“Yes, everybody has an aunt–even when they haven’t a mother, if you can believe the Gilbert operas. I ask because I happen to live with my aunt, and if you knew her she might–ask you to call.” Miss Lynde scanned Jeff’s face for the effect of this.
He said, gravely: “If you’ll introduce me to her, I’ll ask her to let me.”
“Would you, really?” said the girl. “I’ve half a mind to try. I wonder if you’d really have the courage.”
“I don’t think I’m easily rattled.”
“You mean that I’m trying to rattle you.”
“No–“
“I’m not. My aunt is just what I’ve said.”
“You haven’t said what she was. Is she here?”
“No; that’s the worst of it. If she were, I should introduce you, just to see if you’d dare. Well, some other time I will.”
“You think there’ll be some other time?” Jeff asked.
“I don’t know. There are all kinds of times. By-the-way, what time is it?”
Jeff looked at his watch. “Quarter after six.”
“Then I must go.” She jumped to her feet, and faced about for a glimpse of herself in the little glass on the mantel, and put her hand on the large pink roses massed at her waist. One heavy bud dropped from its stem to the floor, where, while she stood, the edge of her skirt pulled and pushed it. She moved a little aside to peer over at a photograph. Jeff stooped and picked up the flower, which he offered her.
“You dropped it,” he said, bowing over it.
“Did I?” She looked at it with an effect of surprise and doubt.
“I thought so, but if you don’t, I shall keep it.”
The girl removed her careless eyes from it. “When they break off so short, they won’t go back.”
“If I were a rose, I should want to go back,” said Jeff.
She stopped in one of her many aversions and reversions, and looked at him steadily across her shoulder. “You won’t have to keep a poet, Mr. Durgin.”
“Thank you. I always expected to write the circulars myself. I’ll send you one.”
“Do.”
“With this rose pressed between the leaves, so you’ll know.”
“That would, be very pretty. But you must take me to Mrs. Bevidge, now, if you can.”
“I guess I can,” said Jeff; and in a minute or two they stood before the matronizing hostess, after a passage through the babbling and laughing groups that looked as impossible after they had made it as it looked before.
Mrs. Bevidge gave the girl’s hand a pressure distinct from the official touch of parting, and contrived to say, for her hearing alone: “Thank you so much, Bessie. You’ve done missionary work.”
“I shouldn’t call it that.”
“It will do for you to say so! He wasn’t really so bad, then? Thank you again, dear!”
Jeff had waited his turn. But now, after the girl had turned away, as if she had forgotten him, his eyes followed her, and he did not know that Mrs. Bevidge was speaking to him. Miss Lynde had slimly lost herself in the mass, till she was only a graceful tilt of hat, before she turned with a distraught air. When her eyes met Jeff’s they lighted up with a look that comes into the face when one remembers what one has been trying to think of. She gave him a brilliant smile that seemed to illumine him from head to foot, and before it was quenched he felt as if she had kissed her hand to him from her rich mouth.
Then he heard Mrs. Bevidge asking something about a hall, and he was aware of her bending upon him a look of the daring humanity that had carried her triumphantly through her good works at the North End.
“Oh, I’m not in the Yard,” said Jeff, with belated intelligence.
“Then will just Cambridge reach you?”
He gave his number and street, and she thanked him with the benevolence that availed so much with the lower classes. He went away thrilling and tingling, with that girl’s tones in his ear, her motions in his nerves, and the colors of her face filling his sight, which he printed on the air whenever he turned, as one does with a vivid light after looking at it.
XXIX
When Jeff reached his room he felt the need of writing to Cynthia, with whatever obscure intention of atonement. He told her of the college tea he had just come from, and made fun of it, and the kind of people he had met, especially the affected girl who had tried to rattle him; he said he guessed she did not think she had rattled him a great deal.
While he wrote he kept thinking how this Miss Lynde was nearer his early ideal of fashion, of high life, which Westover had pretty well snubbed out of him, than any woman he had seen yet; she seemed a girl who would do what she pleased, and would not be afraid if it did not please other people. He liked her having tried to rattle him, and he smiled to himself in recalling her failure. It was as if she had laid hold of him with her little hands to shake him, and had shaken herself. He laughed out in the dark when this image came into his mind; its intimacy flattered him; and he believed that it was upon some hint from her that Mrs. Bevidge had asked his address. She must be going to ask him to her house, and very soon, for it was part of Jeff’s meagre social experience that this was the way swells did; they might never ask you twice, but they would ask you promptly.
The thing that Mrs. Bevidge asked Jeff to, when her note reached him the second day after the tea, was a meeting to interest young people in the work at the North End, and Jeff swore under his breath at the disappointment and indignity put upon him. He had reckoned upon an afternoon tea, at least, or even, in the flights of fancy which he now disowned to himself, a dance after the Mid-Years, or possibly an earlier reception of some sort. He burned with shame to think of a theatre- party, which he had fondly specialized, with a seat next Miss Lynde.
He tore Mrs. Bevidge’s note to pieces, and decided not to answer it at all, as the best way of showing how he had taken her invitation. But Mrs. Bevidge’s benevolence was not wanting in courage; she believed that Jeff should pay his footing in society, such as it was, and should allow himself to be made use of, the first thing; when she had no reply from him, she wrote him again, asking him to an adjourned meeting of the first convocation, which had been so successful in everything but numbers. This time she baited her hook, in hoping that the young men would feel something of the interest the young ladies had already shown in the matter. She expressed the fear that Mr. Durgin had not got her earlier letter, and she sent this second to the care of the man who had given the tea.
Jeff’s resentment was now so far past that he would have civilly declined to go to the woman’s house; but all his hopes of seeing that girl, as he always called Miss Lynde in his thought, were revived by the mention of the young ladies interested in the cause. He accepted, though all the way into Boston he laid wagers with himself that she would not be there; and up to the moment of taking her hand he refused himself any hope of winning.
There was not much business before the meeting; that had really been all transacted before; it was mainly to make sure of the young men, who were present in the proportion of one to five young ladies at least. Mrs. Bevidge explained that she had seen the wastefulness of amateur effort among the poor, and announced that hereafter she was going to work with the established charities. These were very much in want of visitors, especially young men, to go about among the applicants for relief, and inquire into their real necessities, and get work for them. She was hers self going to act as secretary for the meetings during the coming month, and apparently she wished to signalize her accession to the regular forces of charity by bringing into camp as large a body of recruits as she could.
But Jeff had not come to be made use of, or as a jay who was willing to work for his footing in society. He had come in the hope of meeting Miss Lynde, and now that he had met her he had no gratitude to Mrs. Bevidge as a means, and no regret for the defeat of her good purposes so far as she intended their fulfilment in him. He was so cool and self-possessed in excusing himself, for reasons that he took no pains to make seem unselfish, that the altruistic man who had got him asked to the college tea as a friendless jay felt it laid upon him to apologize for Mrs. Bevidge’s want of tact.
“She means well, and she’s very much in earnest, in this work; but I must say she can make herself very offensive–when she doesn’t try! She has a right to ask our help, but not to parade us as the captives of her bow and spear.”
“Oh, that’s all right,” said Jeff. He perceived that the amiable fellow was claiming for all an effect that Jeff knew really implicated himself alone. “I couldn’t load up with anything of that sort, if I’m to work off my conditions, you know.”
“Are you in that boat?” said the altruist, as if he were, too; and he put his hand compassionately on Jeff’s iron shoulder, and left him to Miss Lynde, whose side he had not stirred from since he had found her.
“It seems to me,” she said, “that where there are so many of you in the same boat, you might manage to get ashore somehow.”
“Yes, or all go down together.” Jeff laughed, and ate Mrs. Bevidge’s bread-and-butter, and drank her tea, with a relish unaffected by his refusal to do what she asked him. He was right, perhaps, and perhaps she deserved nothing better at his hands, but the altruist, when he glanced at him from the other side of the room, thought that he had possibly wasted his excuses upon Jeff’s self-complacence.
He went away in a halo of young ladies; several of the other girls grouped themselves in their departure; and it happened that Miss Lynde and Jeff took leave together. Mrs. Bevidge said to her, with the caressing tenderness of one in the same set, “Good-bye, dear!” To Jeff she said, with the cold conscience of those whom their nobility obliges, “I am always at home on Thursdays, Mr. Durgin.”
“Oh, thank you,” said Jeff. He understood what the words and the manner meant together, but both were instantly indifferent to him when he got outside and found that Miss Lynde was not driving. Something, which was neither look, nor smile, nor word, of course, but nothing more at most than a certain pull and tilt of the shoulder, as she turned to walk away from Mrs. Bevidge’s door, told him from her that he might walk home with her if he would not seem to do so.
It was one of the pink evenings, dry and clear, that come in the Boston December, and they walked down the sidehill street, under the delicate tracery of the elm boughs in the face of the metallic sunset. In the section of the Charles that the perspective of the street blocked out, the wrinkled current showed as if glazed with the hard color. Jeff’s strong frame rejoiced in the cold with a hale pleasure when he looked round into the face of the girl beside him, with the gray film of her veil pressed softly against her red mouth by her swift advance. Their faces were nearly on a level, as they looked into each other’s eyes, and he kept seeing the play of the veil’s edge against her lips as they talked.
“Why sha’n’t you go to Mrs. Bevidge’s Thursdays?” she asked. “They’re very nice.”
How do you know I’m not going?” he retorted.
“By the way you thanked her.”
“Do you advise me to go?”
“I haven’t got anything to do with it. What do mean by that?”
“I don’t know. Curiosity, I suppose.”
“Well, I do advise you to go,” said the girl. Shall you be there next Thursday?”
“I? I never go to Mrs. Bevidge’s Thursdays!”
“Touche,” said Jeff, and they both laughed. “Can you always get in at an enemy that way?”
“Enemy?”
“Well, friend. It’s the same thing.”
“I see,” said the girl. “You belong to the pessimistic school of Seniors.”
“Why don’t you try to make an optimist of me?”
“Would it be worth while?”
“That isn’t for me to say.”
“Don’t be diffident! That’s staler yet.”
“I’ll be anything you like.”
“I’m not sure you could.” For an instant Jeff did not feel the point, and he had not the magnanimity, when he did, to own himself touched again. Apparently, if this girl could not rattle him, she could beat him at fence, and the will to dominate her began to stir in him. If he could have thought of any sarcasm, no matter how crushing, he would have come back at her with it. He could not think of anything, and he walked at her side, inwardly chafing for the chance which would not come.
When they reached her door there was a young man at the lock with a latch-key, which he was not making work, for, after a bated blasphemy of his failure, he turned and twitched the bell impatiently.
Miss Lynde laughed provokingly, and he looked over his shoulder at her and at Jeff, who felt his injury increased by the disadvantage this young man put him at. Jeff was as correctly dressed; he wore a silk hat of the last shape, and a long frock-coat; he was properly gloved and shod; his clothes fitted him, and were from the best tailor; but at sight of this young man in clothes of the same design he felt ill-dressed. He was in like sort aware of being rudely blocked out physically, and coarsely colored as to his blond tints of hair and eye and cheek. Even the sinister something in the young man’s look had distinction, and there was style in the signs of dissipation in his handsome face which Jeff saw with a hunger to outdo him.
Miss Lynde said to Jeff, “My brother, Mr. Durgin,” and then she added to the other, “You ought to ring first, Arthur, and try your key afterward.”
“The key’s all right,” said the young man, without paying any attention to Jeff beyond a glance of recognition; he turned his back, and waited for the door to be opened.
His sister suggested, with an amiability which Jeff felt was meant in reparation to him, “Perhaps a night latch never works before dark–or very well before midnight.” The door was opened, and she said to Jeff, with winning entreaty, “Won’t you come in, Mr. Durgin?”
Jeff excused himself, for he perceived that her politeness was not so much an invitation to him as a defiance to her brother; he gave her credit for no more than it was worth, and he did not wish any the less to get even with her because of it.
XXX.
At dinner, in the absence of the butler, Alan Lynde attacked his sister across the table for letting herself be seen with a jay, who was not only a jay, but a cad, and personally so offensive to most of the college men that he had never got into a decent club or society; he had been suspended the first year, and if he had not had the densest kind of cheek he would never have come back. Lynde said he would like to know where she had picked the fellow up.
She answered that she had picked him up, if that was the phrase he liked, at Mrs. Bevidge’s; and then Alan swore a little, so as not to be heard by their aunt, who sat at the head of the table, and looked down its length between them, serenely ignorant, in her slight deafness, of what was going on between them. To her perception Alan was no more vehement than usual, and Bessie no more smilingly self-contained. He said he supposed that it was some more of Lancaster’s damned missionary work, then, and he wondered that a gentleman like Morland had ever let Lancaster work such a jay in on him; he had seen her ‘afficher’ herself with the fellow at Morland’s tea; he commanded her to stop it; and he professed to speak for her good.
Bessie returned that she knew how strongly he felt from the way he had misbehaved when she introduced him to Mr. Durgin, but that she supposed he had been at the club and his nerves were unstrung. Was that the reason, perhaps, why he could not make his latchkey work? Mr. Durgin might be a cad, and she would not say he was not a jay, but so far he had not sworn at her; and, if he had been suspended and come back, there were some people who had not been suspended or come back, either, though that might have been for want of cheek.
She ended by declaring she was used to going into society without her brother’s protection, or even his company, and she would do her best to get on without his advice. Or was it his conduct he wished her to profit by?
It had come to the fish going out by this time, and Alan, who had eaten with no appetite, and drunken feverishly of apollinaris, flung down his napkin and went out, too.
“What is the matter?” asked his aunt, looking after him.
Bessie shrugged, but she said, presently, with her lips more than her voice: “I don’t think he feels very well.”
“Do you think he–“
The girl frowned assent, and the meal went on to its end. Then she and her aunt went into the large, dull library, where they passed the evenings which Bessie did not spend in some social function. These evenings were growing rather more frequent, with her advancing years, for she was now nearly twenty-five, and there were few Seniors so old. She was not the kind of girl to renew her youth with the Sophomores and Freshmen in the classes succeeding the class with which she had danced through college; so far as she had kept up the old relation with students, she continued it with the men who had gone into the law-school. But she saw less and less of these without seeing more of other men, and perhaps in the last analysis she was not a favorite. She was allowed to be fascinating, but she was not felt to be flattering, and people would rather be flattered than fascinated. In fact, the men were mostly afraid of her; and it has been observed of girls of this kind that the men who are not afraid of them are such as they would do well to be afraid of. Whether that was quite the case with Bessie Lynde or not, it was certain that she who was always the cleverest girl in the room, and if not the prettiest, then the most effective, had not the best men about her. Her men were apt to be those whom the other girls called stupid or horrid, and whom it would not be easy, though it might be more just, to classify otherwise. The other girls wondered what she could see in them; but perhaps it was not necessary that she should see anything in them, if they could see all she wished them to see, and no more, in her.
The room where tea was now brought and put before her was volumed round by the collections of her grandfather, except for the spaces filled by his portrait and that of earlier ancestors, going back to the time when Copley made masterpieces of his fellow-Bostonians. Her aunt herself looked a family portrait of the middle period, a little anterior to her father’s, but subsequent to her great-grandfather’s. She had a comely face, with large, smooth cheeks and prominent eyes; the edges of her decorous brown wig were combed rather near their corners, and a fitting cap palliated but did not deny the wig. She had the quiet but rather dull look of people slightly deaf, and she had perhaps been stupefied by a life of unalloyed prosperity and propriety. She had grown an old maid naturally, but not involuntarily, and she was without the sadness or the harshness of disappointment. She had never known much of the world, though she had always lived in it. She knew that it was made up of two kinds of people–people who were like her and people who were not like her; and she had lived solely in the society of people who were like her, and in the shelter of their opinions and ideals. She did not contemn or exclude the people who were unlike her, but she had never had any more contact with them than she now had with the weather of the streets, as she sat, filling her large arm-chair full of her ladylike correctness, in the library of the handsome house her father had left her. The irruption of her brother’s son and daughter into its cloistered quiet had scarcely broken its invulnerable order. It was right and fit they should be there after his death, and it was not strange that in the course of time they should both show certain unregulated tendencies which, since they were not known to be Lynde tendencies, must have been derived from the Southwestern woman her brother had married during his social and financial periclitations in a region wholly inconceivable to her. Their mother was dead, too, and their aunt’s life closed about them with full acceptance, if not complacence, as part of her world. They had grown to manhood and womanhood without materially discomposing her faith in the old-fashioned Unitarian deity, whose service she had always attended.
When Alan left college in his Freshman year, and did not go back, but went rather to Europe and Egypt and Japan, it appeared to her myopic optimism that his escapades had been pretty well hushed up by time and distance. After he came home and devoted himself to his club, she could have wished that he had taken up some profession or business; but since there was money enough, she waited in no great disquiet until he showed as decided a taste for something else as he seemed for the present to have only for horses. In the mean while, from time to time, it came to her doctor’s advising his going to a certain retreat. But he came out the first time so much better and remained well so long that his aunt felt a kind of security in his going again and again, whenever he became at all worse. He always came back better. As she took the cup of tea that Bessie poured out for her, she recurred to the question that she had partly asked already:
“Do you think Alan is getting worse again?”
“Not so very much,” said the girl, candidly. “He’s been at the club, I suppose, but he left the table partly because I vexed him.”
“Because you what?”
“Because I vexed him. He was scolding me, and I wouldn’t stand it.”
Her aunt tasted her tea, and found it so quite what she liked that she said, from a natural satisfaction with Bessie, “I don’t see what he had to scold you about.”
“Well,” returned Bessie, and she got her pretty voice to the level of her aunt’s hearing, with some straining, and kept it there, “when he is in that state, he has to scold some one; and I had been rather annoying, I suppose.”
“What had you been doing?” asked her aunt, making out her words more from the sight than from the sound, after all.
“I had been walking home with a jay, and we found Alan trying to get in at the front door with his key, and I introduced him to the jay.”
Miss Louisa Lynde had heard the word so often from her niece and nephew, that she imagined herself in full possession of its meaning. She asked: “Where had you met him?”
“I met him first,” said the girl, “at Willie Morland’s tea, last week, and to-day I found him at Mrs. Bevidge’s altruistic toot.”
“I didn’t know,” said her aunt, after a momentary attention to her tea, “that jays were interested in that sort of thing.”
The girl laughed. “I believe they’re not. It hasn’t quite reached them, yet; and I don’t think it will ever reach my jay. Mrs. Bevidge tried to work him into the cause, but he refused so promptly, and so- intelligently, don’t you know–and so almost brutally, that poor Freddy Lancaster had to come and apologize to him for her want of tact.” Bessie enjoyed the fact, which she had colored a little, in another laugh, but she had apparently not possessed her aunt of the humor of it. She remained seriously-attentive, and the girl went on: “He was not the least abashed at having refused; he stayed till the last, and as we came out together and he was going my way, I let him walk home with me. He’s a jay, but he isn’t a common jay.” Bessie leaned forward and tried to implant some notion of Jeff’s character and personality in her aunt’s mind.
Miss Lynde listened attentively enough, but she merely asked, when all was said: “And why was Alan vexed with you about him?”
“Well,” said the girl, falling back into her chair, “generally because this man’s a jay, and particularly because he’s been rather a baddish jay, I believe. He was suspended in his first year for something or other, and you know poor Alan’s very particular! But Molly Enderby says Freddy Lancaster gives him the best of characters now.” Bessie pulled down her mouth, with an effect befitting the notion of repentance and atonement. Then she flashed out: “Perhaps he had been drinking when he got into trouble. Alan could never forgive him for that.”
“I think,” said her aunt, “it is to your brother’s credit that he is anxious about your associations.”
“Oh, very much!” shouted Bessie, with a burst of laughter. “And as he isn’t practically so, I ought to have been more patient with his theory. But when he began to scold me I lost my temper, and I gave him a few wholesome truths in the guise of taunts. That was what made him go away, I suppose.”
“But I don’t really see,” her aunt pursued,–“what occasion he had to be angry with you in this instance.”
“Oh, I do!” said Bessie. “Mr. Durgin isn’t one to inspire the casual beholder with the notion of his spiritual distinction. His face is so rude and strong, and he has such a primitive effect in his clothes, that you feel as if you were coming down the street with a prehistoric man that the barbers and tailors had put a ‘fin de siecle’ surface on.” At the mystification which appeared in her aunt’s face the girl laughed again. “I should have been quite as anxious, if I had been in Alan’s place, and I shall tell him so, sometime. If I had not been so interested in the situation I don’t believe I could have kept my courage. Whenever I looked round, and found that prehistoric man at my elbow, it gave me the creeps, a little, as if he were really carrying me off to his cave. I shall try to express that to Alan.”
XXXI.
The ladies finished their tea, and the butler came and took the cups away. Miss Lynde remained silent in her chair at her end of the library- table, and by-and-by Bessie got a book and began to read. When her aunt woke up it was half past nine. “Was that Alan coming in?” she asked.
“I don’t think he’s been out,” said the girl. “It isn’t late enough for him to come in–or early enough.”
“I believe I’ll go to bed,” Miss Lynde returned. “I feel rather drowsy.”
Bessie did not smile at a comedy which was apt to be repeated every evening that she and her aunt spent at home together; they parted for the night with the decencies of family affection, and Bessie delivered the elder lady over to her maid. Then the girl sank down again, and lay musing in her deep chair before the fire with her book shut on her thumb. She looked rather old and worn in her reverie; her face lost the air of gay banter which, after the beauty of her queer eyes and her vivid mouth, was its charm. The eyes were rather dull now, and the mouth was a little withered.
She was waiting for her brother to come down, as he was apt to do if he was in the house, after their aunt went to bed, to smoke a cigar in the library. He was in his house shoes when he shuffled into the room, but her ear had detected his presence before a hiccough announced it. She did not look up, but let him make several failures to light his cigar, and damn the matches under his breath, before she pushed the drop-light to him in silent suggestion. As he leaned over her chair-back to reach its chimney with his cigar in his mouth, she said, “You’re all right, Alan.”
He waited till he got round to his aunt’s easy-chair and dropped into it before he answered, “So are you, Bess.”
“I’m not so sure of that,” said the girl, “as I should be if you were still scolding me. I knew that he was a jay, well enough, and I’d just seen him behaving very like a cad to Mrs. Bevidge.”
“Then I don’t understand how you came to be with him.”
“Oh yes, you do, Alan. You mustn’t be logical! You might as well say you can’t understand how you came to be more serious than sober.” The brother laughed helplessly. “It was the excitement.”
“But you can’t give way to that sort of thing, Bess,” said her brother, with the gravity of a man feeling the consequences of his own errors.
“I know I can’t, but I do,” she returned. “I know it’s bad for me, if it isn’t for other people. Come! I’ll swear off if you will!”
“I’m always ready, to swear off,” said the young man, gloomily. He added, “But you’ve got brains, Bess, and I hate to see you playing the fool.”
“Do you really, Alan?” asked the girl, pleased perhaps as much by his reproach as by his praise. “Do you think I’ve got brains?”
“You’re the only girl that has.”
“Oh, I didn’t mean to ask so much as that! But what’s the reason I can’t do anything with them? Other girls draw, and play, and write. I don’t do anything but go in for the excitement that’s bad for me. I wish you’d explain it.”
Alan Lynde did not try. The question seemed to turn his thoughts back upon himself to dispiriting effect. “I’ve got brains, too, I believe,” he began.
“Lots of them!” cried his sister, generously. “There isn’t any of the men to compare with you. If I had you to talk with all the time, I shouldn’t want jays. I don’t mean to flatter. You’re a constant feast of reason; I don’t care for flows of soul. You always take right views of things when you’re yourself, and even when you’re somebody else you’re not stupid. You could be anything you chose.”