The Incomplete Amorist by E. Nesbit (page 2)

go away and he knew it. And his picture was not finished. Could he possibly leave that incomplete? The thought pricked sharply. He had not made much progress with the picture in these last days. It had been pleasanter to work at the portrait of Betty. If he moved to the next village? Yes, that must be thought over.

He spent the day thinking of that and of other things.

The Reverend Cecil Underwood stood where he was left till the man he had struck had passed out of sight. Then the cane slipped through his hand and fell rattling to the ground. He looked down at it curiously. Then he reached out both hands vaguely and touched the shaft of the plough. He felt his way along it, and sat down, where they had sat, staring dully before him at the shadows in the shed, and at the steady fall of the rain outside. Betty’s mackintosh was lying on the floor. He picked it up presently and smoothed out the creases. Then he watched the rain again.

An hour had passed before he got stiffly up and went home, with her cloak on his arm.

Yes, Miss Lizzie was in her room–had a headache. He sent up her breakfast, arranging the food himself, and calling back the maid because the tray lacked marmalade.

Then he poured out his own tea, and sat stirring it till it was cold.

She was in her room, waiting for him to send for her. He must send for her. He must speak to her. But what could he say? What was there to say that would not be a cruelty? What was there to ask that would not be a challenge to her to lie, as the serpent had lied?

“I am glad I struck him,” the Reverend Cecil told himself again and again; “_that_ brought it home to him. He was quite cowed. He could do nothing but bow and cringe away. Yes, I am glad.”

But the girl? The serpent had asked him to be gentle with her–had dared to ask him. He could think of no way gentle enough for dealing with this crisis. The habit of prayer caught him. He prayed for guidance.

Then quite suddenly he saw what to do.

“That will be best,” he said; “she will feel that less.”

He rang and ordered the fly from the Peal of Bells, went to his room to change his old coat for a better one, since appearances must be kept up, even if the heart be breaking. His thin hair was disordered, and his tie, he noticed, was oddly crumpled, as though strange hands had been busy with his throat. He put on a fresh tie, smoothed his hair, and went down again. As he passed, he lingered a moment outside her door.

Betty watching with red eyes and swollen lips saw him enter the fly, saw him give an order, heard the door bang. The old coachman clambered clumsily to his place, and the carriage lumbered down the drive.

“Oh, how cruel he is! He might have spoken to me _now_! I suppose he’s going to keep me waiting for days, as a penance. And I haven’t really done anything wrong. It’s a shame! I’ve a good mind to run away!”

Running away required consideration. In the meantime, since he was out of the house, there was no reason why she should not go downstairs. She was not a child to be kept to her room in disgrace. She bathed her distorted face, powdered it, and tried to think that the servants, should they see her, would notice nothing.

Where had he gone? For no goal within his parish would a hired carriage be needed. He had gone to Sevenoaks or to the station. Perhaps he had gone to Westerham–there was a convent there, a Protestant sisterhood. Perhaps he was going to make arrangements for shutting her up there! Never!–Betty would die first. At least she would run away first. But where could one run to?

The aunts? Betty loved the aunts, but she distrusted their age. They were too old to sympathise really with her. They would most likely understand as little as her step-father had done. An Inward Monitor told Betty that the story of the fortune-telling, of the seven stolen meetings with no love-making in them, would sound very unconvincing to any ears but those of the one person already convinced. But she would not be shut up in a convent–no, not by fifty aunts and a hundred step-fathers!

She would go to Him. He would understand. He was the only person who ever had understood. She would go straight to him and ask him what to do. He would advise her. He was so clever, so good, so noble. Whatever he advised would be _right_.

Trembling and in a cold white rage of determination, Betty fastened on her hat, found her gloves and purse. The mackintosh she remembered had been left in the shed. She pictured her step-father trampling fiercely upon it as he told Mr. Vernon what he thought of him. She took her golf cape.

At the last moment she hesitated. Mr. Vernon would not be idle. What would he be doing? Suppose he should send a note? Suppose he had watched Mr. Underwood drive away and should come boldly up and ask for her? Was it wise to leave the house? But perhaps he would be hanging about the church yard, or watching from the park for a glimpse of her. She would at least go out and see.

“I’ll leave a farewell letter,” she said, “in case I never come back.”

She found her little blotting-book–envelopes, but no paper. Of course! One can’t with dignity write cutting farewells on envelopes. She tore a page from her diary.

“You have driven me to this,” she wrote. “I am going away, and in time I shall try to forgive you all the petty meannesses and cruelties of all these years. I know you always hated me, but you might have had some pity. All my life I shall bear the marks on my soul of the bitter tyranny I have endured here. Now I am going away out into the world, and God knows what will become of me.”

She folded, enveloped, and addressed the note, stuck a long hat-pin fiercely through it, and left it, patent, speared to her pin-cushion, with her step-father’s name uppermost.

“Good-bye, little room,” she said. “I feel I shall never see you again.”

Slowly and sadly she crossed the room and turned the handle of the door. The door was locked.

Once, years ago, a happier man than the Reverend Cecil had been Rector of Long Barton. And in the room that now was Betty’s he had had iron bars fixed to the two windows, because that room was the nursery.

* * * * *

That evening, after dinner, Mr. Vernon sat at his parlour window looking idly along the wet bowling-green to the belt of lilacs and the pale gleams of watery sunset behind them. He had passed a disquieting day. He hated to leave things unfinished. And now the idyll was ruined and the picture threatened,–and Betty’s portrait was not finished, and never would be.

“Come in,” he said; and his landlady heavily followed up her tap on his door.

“A lady to see you, Sir,” said she with a look that seemed to him to be almost a wink.

“A lady? To see me? Good Lord!” said Vernon. Among all the thoughts of the day this was the one thought that had not come to him.

“Shall I show her in?” the woman asked, and she eyed him curiously.

“A lady,” he repeated. “Did she give her name?”

“Yes, Sir. Miss Desmond, Sir. Shall I shew her in?”

“Yes; shew her in, of course,” he answered irritably.

And to himself he said:

“The Devil!”

CHAPTER VI.

THE CRIMINAL.

If you have found yourself, at the age of eighteen, a prisoner in your own bedroom you will be able to feel with Betty. Not otherwise. Even your highly strung imagination will be impotent to present to you the ecstasy of rage, terror, resentment that fills the soul when locked door and barred windows say, quite quietly, but beyond appeal: “Here you are, and here, my good child, you stay.”

All the little familiar objects, the intimate associations of the furniture of a room that has been for years your boudoir as well as your sleeping room, all the decorations that you fondly dreamed gave to your room a _cachet_–the mark of a distinctive personality,–these are of no more comfort to you than would be strange bare stone walls and a close unfamiliar iron grating.

Betty tried to shake the window bars, but they were immovable. She tried to force the door open, but her silver buttonhook was an insufficient lever, and her tooth-brush handle broke when she pitted it in conflict against the heavy, old-fashioned lock. We have all read how prisoners, outwitting their gaolers, have filed bars with their pocket nail-scissors, and cut the locks out of old oak doors with the small blade of a penknife. Betty’s door was only of pine, but her knife broke off short; and the file on her little scissors wore itself smooth against the first unmoved bar.

She paced the room like a caged lioness. We read that did the lioness but know her strength her bars were easily shattered by one blow of her powerful paw. Betty’s little pink paws were not powerful like the lioness’s, and when she tried to make them help her, she broke her nails and hurt herself.

It was this moment that Letitia chose for rapping at the door.

“You can’t come in. What is it?” Betty was prompt to say.

“Mrs. Edwardes’s Albert, Miss, come for the Maternity bag.”

“It’s all ready in the school-room cupboard,” Betty called through the door. “Number three.”

She resisted an impulse to say that she had broken the key in the lock and to send for the locksmith. No: there should be no scandal at Long Barton,–at least not while she had to stay in it.

She did not cry. She was sick with fury, and anger made her heart beat as Vernon had never had power to make it.

“I will be calm. I won’t lose my head,” she told herself again and again. She drank some water. She made herself eat the neglected breakfast. She got out her diary and wrote in it, in a handwriting that was not Betty’s, and with a hand that shook like totter-grass.

“What will become of me? What has become of _him_? My step-father must have done something horrible to him. Perhaps he has had him put in prison; of course he couldn’t do that in these modern times, like in the French revolution, just for talking to some one he hadn’t been introduced to, but he may have done it for trespassing, or damage to the crops, or something. I feel quite certain something has happened to him. He would never have deserted me like this in my misery if he were free. And I can do nothing to help him–nothing. How shall I live through the day? How can I bear it? And this awful trouble has come upon him just because he was kind to another artist. The world is very, very, very cruel. I wish I were dead!” She blotted the words and locked away the book. Then she burnt that farewell note and went and sat in the window-seat to watch for her step-father’s return.

The time was long. At last he came. She saw him open the carriage door and reach out a flat foot, feeling for the carriage step. He stepped out, turned and thrust a hand back into the cab. Was he about to hand out a stern-faced Protestant sister, who would take her to Westerham, and she would never be heard of again? Betty set her teeth and waited anxiously to see if the sister seemed strong. Betty was, and she would fight for her liberty. With teeth and nails if need were.

It was no Protestant sister to whom the Reverend Cecil had reached his hand. It was only his umbrella. Betty breathed again.

Well, now at least he’ll come and speak to me: he must come himself; even _he_ couldn’t give the key to the servants and say: “Please go and unlock Miss Lizzie and bring her down!”

Betty would not move. “I shall just stay here and pretend I didn’t know the door was locked,” said she.

But her impatience drove her back to the caged-lioness walk and when at last she heard the key turn in the door she had only just time to spring to the window-seat and compose herself in an attitude of graceful defiance.

It was thrown away.

The door only opened wide enough to admit a dinner tray pushed in by a hand she knew. Then the door closed again.

The same thing happened with tea and supper.

It was not till after supper that Betty, gazing out on the pale watery sunset, found it blurred to her eyes. There was no more hope now. She was a prisoner. If He was not a prisoner he ought to be. It was the only thing that could excuse his silence. He might at least have gone by the gate or waved a handkerchief. Well, all was over between them, and Betty was alone in the world. She had not cried all day, but now she did cry.

* * * * *

Vernon always prided himself on having a heart for any fate, but this was one of the interviews that one would rather have avoided. All day he had schooled himself to resignation, had almost reconciled himself to the spoiling of what had promised to be a masterpiece. Explications with Betty would brush the bloom off everything. Yet he must play the part well. But what part? Oh, hang all meddlers!

“Miss Desmond,” said the landlady; and he braced his nerves to meet a tearful, an indignant or a desperate Betty.

But there was no Betty to be met; no Betty of any kind.

Instead, a short squarely-built middle-aged lady walked briskly into the room, and turned to see the door well closed before she advanced towards him.

He bowed with indescribable emotions.

“Mr. Eustace Vernon?” said the lady. She wore a sensible short skirt and square-toed brown boots. Her hat was boat-shaped and her abundant hair was screwed up so as to be well out of her way. Her face was square and sensible like her shoulders, and her boots. Her eyes dark, clear and near sighted. She wore gold-rimmed spectacles and carried a crutch-handled cane. No vision could have been less like Betty.

Vernon bowed, and moved a chair towards her.

“Thank you,” she said, and took it. “Now, Mr. Vernon, sit down too, and let’s talk this over like reasonable beings. You may smoke if you like. It clears the brain.”

Vernon sat down and mechanically took out a cigarette, but he held it unlighted.

“Now,” said the square lady, leaning her elbows on the table and her chin on her hands, “I am Betty’s aunt.”

“It is very good of you to come,” said Vernon helplessly.

“Not at all,” she briskly answered. “Now tell me all about it.”

“There’s nothing to tell,” said Vernon.

“Perhaps it will clear the ground a little if I say at once that I haven’t come to ask your intentions, because of course you haven’t any. My reverend brother-in-law, on the other hand, insists that you have, and that they are strictly dishonourable.”

Vernon laughed, and drew a breath of relief.

“I fear Mr. Underwood misunderstood,–” he said, “and–“

“He is a born misunderstander,” said Miss Julia Desmond. “Now, I’m not. Light your cigarette, man; you can give me one if you like, to keep you in countenance. A light–thanks. Now will you speak, or shall I?”

“You seem to have more to say than I, Miss Desmond.”

“Ah, that’s because you don’t trust me. In other words, you don’t know me. That’s one of the most annoying things in life: to be really an excellent sort, and to be quite unable to make people see it at the first go-off. Well, here goes. My worthy brother-in-law finds you and my niece holding hands in a shed.”

“We were not,” said Vernon. “I was telling her fortune–“

“It’s my lead now,” interrupted the lady. “Your turn next. He being what he is–to the pure all things are impure, you know–instantly draws the most harrowing conclusions, hits you with a stick.–By the way, you behaved uncommonly well about that.”

“Thank you,” said Vernon, smiling a little. It is pleasant to be appreciated.

“Yes, really very decently, indeed. I daresay it wouldn’t have hurt a fly, but if you’d been the sort of man he thinks you are–However that’s neither here nor there. He hits you with a stick, locks the child into her room–What did you say?”

“Nothing,” said Vernon.

“All right. I didn’t hear it. Locks her in her room, and wires to my sister. Takes a carriage to Sevenoaks to do it too, to avoid scandal. I happen to be at my sister’s, on my way from Cairo to Norway, so I undertake to run down. He meets me at the station, and wants me to go straight home and blackguard Betty. But I prefer to deal with principals.”

“You mean–“

“I mean that I know as well as you do that whatever has happened has been your doing and not that dear little idiot’s. Now, are you going to tell me about it?”

He had rehearsed already a form of words in which “Brother artists” should have loomed large. But now that he rose, shrugged his shoulders and spoke, it was in words that had not been rehearsed.

“Look here, Miss Desmond,” said he, “the fact is, you’re right. I haven’t any intentions–certainly not dishonourable ones. But I was frightfully bored in the country, and your niece is bored, too–more bored than I am. No one ever understands or pities the boredom of the very young,” he added pensively.

“Well?”

“Well, that’s all there is to it. I liked meeting her, and she liked meeting me.”

“And the fortune-telling? Do you mean to tell me you didn’t enjoy holding the child’s hand and putting her in a silly flutter?”

“I deny the flutter,” he said, “but–Well, yes, of course I enjoyed it. You wouldn’t believe me if I said I didn’t.”

“No,” said she.

“I enjoyed it more than I expected to,” he added with a frankness that he had not meant to use, “much more. But I didn’t say a word of love—only perhaps–“

“Only perhaps you made the idea of it underlie every word you did speak. Don’t I know?” said Miss Desmond. “Bless the man, I’ve been young myself!”

“Miss Betty is very charming,” said he, “and–and if I hadn’t met her–“

“If you hadn’t met her some other man would. True; but I fancy her father would rather it had been some other man.”

“I didn’t mean that in the least,” said Vernon with some heat. “I meant that if I hadn’t met her she would have gone on being bored, and so should I. Don’t think me a humbug, Miss Desmond. I am more sorry than I can say that I should have been the means of causing her any unhappiness.”

“‘Causing her unhappiness,’–poor little Betty, poor little trusting innocent silly little girl! That’s about it, isn’t it?”

It was so like it that he hotly answered:

“Not in the least.”

“Well, well,” said Miss Desmond, “there’s no great harm done. She’ll get over it, and more’s been lost on market days. Thanks.”

She lighted a second cigarette and sat very upright, the cigarette in her mouth and her hands on the handle of her stick.

“You can’t help it, of course. Men with your coloured eyes never can. That green hazel–girls ought to be taught at school that it’s a danger-signal. Only, since your heart’s not in the business any more than her’s is–as you say, you were both bored to death–I want to ask you, as a personal favour to me, just to let the whole thing drop. Let the girl alone. Go right away.”

“It’s an unimportant detail, and I’m ashamed to mention it,” said Vernon, “but I’ve got a picture on hand–I’m painting a bit of the Warren.”

“Well, go to Low Barton and put up there and finish your precious picture. You won’t see Betty again unless you run after her.”

“To tell the truth,” said Vernon, “I had already decided to let the whole thing drop. I’m ashamed of the trouble I’ve caused her and–and I’ve taken rooms at Low Barton.”

“Upon my word,” said Miss Desmond, “you are the coldest lover I’ve ever set eyes on.”

“I’m not a lover,” he answered swiftly. “Do you wish I were?”

“For Betty’s sake, I’m glad you aren’t. But I think I should respect you more if you weren’t quite so arctic.”

“I’m not an incendiary, at any rate,” said he, “and that’s something, with my coloured eyes, isn’t it?”

“Well,” she said, “whatever your temperature is, I rather like you. I don’t wonder at Betty in the least.”

Vernon bowed.

“All I ask is your promise that you’ll not speak to her again.”

“I can’t promise that, you know. I can’t be rude to her. But I’ll promise not to go out of my way to meet her again.” He sighed.

“As, yes–it is sad–all that time wasted and no rabbits caught.” Again Miss Desmond had gone unpleasantly near his thought. Of course he said:

“You don’t understand me.”

“Near enough,” said Miss Desmond; “and now I’ll go.”

“Let me thank you for coming,” said Vernon eagerly; “it was more than good of you. I must own that my heart sank when I knew it was Miss Betty’s aunt who honoured me with a visit. But I am most glad you came. I never would have believed that a lady could be so reasonable and–and–“

“And gentlemanly?” said the lady. “Yes,–it’s my brother-in-law who is the old woman, poor dear! You see, Mr. Vernon, I’ve been running round the world for five and twenty years, and I’ve kept my eyes open. And when I was of an age to be silly, the man I was silly about had your coloured eyes. He married an actress, poor fellow,–or rather, she married him, before he could say ‘knife.’ That’s the sort of thing that’ll happen to you, unless you’re uncommonly careful. So that’s settled. You give me your word not to try to see Betty?”

“I give you my word. You won’t believe in my regret–“

“I believe in that right enough. It must be simply sickening to have the whole show given away like this. Oh, I believe in your regret!”

“My regret,” said Vernon steadily, “for any pain I may have caused your niece. Do please see how grateful I am to you for having seen at once that it was not her fault at all, but wholly mine.”

“Very nicely said: good boy!” said Betty’s aunt. “Well, my excellent brother-in-law is waiting outside in the fly, gnashing his respectable teeth, no doubt, and inferring all sorts of complications from the length of our interview. Good-bye. You’re just the sort of young man I like, and I’m sorry we haven’t met on a happier footing. I’m sure we should have got on together. Don’t you think so?”

“I’m sure we should,” said he truly. “Mayn’t I hope–“

She laughed outright.

“You have indeed the passion for acquaintance without introduction,” she said. “No, you may _not_ call on me in town. Besides, I’m never there. Good-bye. And take care of yourself. You’re bound to be bitten some day you know, and bitten badly.”

“I wish I thought you forgave me.”

“Forgive you? Of course I forgive you! You can no more help making love, I suppose–no, don’t interrupt: the thing’s the same whatever you call it–you can no more help making love than a cat can help stealing cream. Only one day the cat gets caught, and badly beaten, and one day you’ll get caught, and the beating will be a bad one, unless I’m a greater fool than I take myself for. And now I’ll go and unlock Betty’s prison and console her. Don’t worry about her. I’ll see that she’s not put upon. Good night. No, in the circumstances you’d better _not_ see me to my carriage!”

She shook hands cordially, and left Vernon to his thoughts.

Miss Desmond had done what she came to do, and he knew it. It was almost a relief to feel that now he could not try to see Betty however much he wished it,–however much he might know her to wish it. He shrugged his shoulders and lighted another cigarette.

* * * * *

Betty, worn out with crying, had fallen asleep. The sound of wheels roused her. It seemed to rain cabs at the Rectory to-day.

There were voices in the hall, steps on the stairs. Her door was unlocked and there entered no tray of prisoner’s fare, no reproachful step-father, no Protestant sister, but a brisk and well-loved aunt, who shut the door, and spoke.

“All in the dark?” she said. “Where are you, child?”

“Here,” said Betty.

“Let me strike a light. Oh, yes, there you are!”

“Oh, aunt,–has he sent for you?” said Betty fearfully. “Oh, don’t scold me, auntie! I am so tired. I don’t think I can bear any more.”

“I’m not going to scold you, you silly little kitten,” said the aunt cheerfully. “Come, buck up! It’s nothing so very awful, after all. You’ll be laughing at it all before a fortnight’s over.”

“Then he hasn’t told you?”

“Oh, yes, he has; he’s told me everything there was to tell, and a lot more, too. Don’t worry, child. You just go straight to bed and I’ll tuck you up, and we’ll talk it all over in the morning.”

“Aunty,” said Betty, obediently beginning to unfasten her dress, “did he say anything about _Him_?”

“Well, yes–a little.”

“He hasn’t–hasn’t done anything to him, has he?”

“What could he do? Giving drawing lessons isn’t a hanging matter, Bet.”

“I haven’t heard anything from him all day,–and I thought–“

“You won’t hear anything more of him, Betty, my dear. I’ve seen your Mr. Vernon, and a very nice young man he is, too. He’s frightfully cut up about having got you into a row, and he sees that the only thing he can do is to go quietly away. I needn’t tell you, Betty, though I shall have to explain it very thoroughly to your father, that Mr. Vernon is no more in love with you than you are with him. In fact he’s engaged to another girl. He’s just interested in you as a promising pupil.”

“Yes,” said Betty, “of course I know that.”

CHAPTER VII.

THE ESCAPE.

“It’s all turned out exactly like what I said it was going to, exactly to a T,” said Mrs. Symes, wrapping her wet arms in her apron and leaning them on the fence; “if it wasn’t that it’s Tuesday and me behindhand as it is, I’d tell you all about it.”

“Do the things good to lay a bit in the rinse-water,” said Mrs. James, also leaning on the fence, “sorter whitens them’s what I always say. I don’t mind if I lend you a hand with the wringing after. What’s turned out like you said it was going to?”

“Miss Betty’s decline.” Mrs. Symes laughed low and huskily. “What did I tell you, Mrs. James?”

“I don’t quite remember not just at the minute,” said Mrs. James; “you tells so many things.”

“And well for some people I do. Else they wouldn’t never know nothing. I told you as it wasn’t no decline Miss Betty was setting down under. I said it was only what’s natural, her being the age she is. I said what she wanted was a young man, and I said she’d get one. And what do you think?”

“I don’t know, I’m sure.”

“She did get one,” said Mrs. Symes impressively, “that same week, just as if she’d been a-listening to my very words. It was as it might be Friday you and me had that little talk. Well, as it might be the Saturday, she meets the young man, a-painting pictures in the Warren–my Ernest’s youngest saw ’em a-talking, and told his mother when he come home to his dinner.”

“To think of that, and me never hearing a word!” said Mrs. James with frank regret.

“I knew it ud be ‘Whistle and I’ll come to you, my lad,'” Mrs. Symes went on with cumbrous enjoyment, “and so it was. They used to keep their rondyvoos in the wood–six o’clock in the morning. Mrs. Wilson’s Tom used to see ’em reg’lar every day as he went by to his work.”

“Lor,” said Mrs. James feebly.

“Of course Tom he never said nothing, except to a few friends of his over a glass. They enjoyed the joke, I promise you. But old George Marbould–he ain’t never been quite right in his head, I don’t think, since his Ruby went wrong. Pity, I always think. A great clumsy plain-faced girl like her might a kept herself respectable. She hadn’t the temptation some of us might have had in our young days.”

“No indeed,” said Mrs. James, smoothing her hair, “and old George–what silliness was he up to this time?”

“Why he sees the two of ’em together one fine morning and ‘stead of doing like he’d be done by he ups to the Vicarage and tells the old man. ‘You come alonger me, Sir,’ says he, ‘and have a look at your daughter a-kissin’ and huggin’ up in Beale’s shed, along of a perfect stranger.’ So the old man he says, ‘God bless you,’–George is proud of him saying that–and off he goes, in a regular fanteague, beats the young master to a jelly, for all he’s an old man and feeble, and shuts Miss up in her room. Now that wouldn’t a been _my_ way.”

“No, indeed,” said Mrs. James.

“I should a asked him in,” said Mrs. Symes, “if it had been a gell of mine, and give him a good meal with a glass of ale to it, and a tiddy drop of something to top up with, and I’d a let him light his nasty pipe,–and then when he was full and contented I’d a up and said, ‘Now my man, you’ve ‘ad time to think it over, and no one can’t say as I’ve hurried you nor flurried you. But it’s time as we began talking. So just you tell me what you’re a-goin to do about it. If you ‘ave the feelings of a man,’ I’d a said ‘you’ll marry the girl.'”

“Yes, indeed,” said Mrs. James with emotion.

“Instead of which, bless your ‘art, he beats the young man off with a stick, like as if he was a mad dog; and young Miss is a goin’ to be sent to furrin parts to a strick boardin’ school, to learn her not to have any truck with young chaps.”

“‘Ard, I call it,” said Mrs. James.

“An’ well you may–crooil ‘ard. How’s he expect the girl to get a husband if he drives the young fellers away with walking-sticks? Pore gell! I shouldn’t wonder but what she lives and dies a maid, after this set-out.”

“We shall miss ‘er when she goes,” said Mrs. James.

“I don’t say we shan’t. But there ain’t no one as you can’t get on without if you’re put to it And whether or not, she’s going to far foreign parts where there ain’t no young chaps.”

“Poor young thing,” said Mrs. James, very sympathetic. “I think I’ll drop in as I’m passing, and see how she takes it”

“If you do,” said Mrs. Symes, unrolling her arms, white and wrinkled with washing, to set them aggressively on her lips, “it’s the last word as passes between us, Mrs. James, so now you know.”

“Lord, Maria, don’t fly out at me that way.” Mrs. James shrank back: “How was I to know you’d take it like that?”

“Do you suppose,” asked Mrs. Symes, “as no one ain’t got no legs except you? _I’m_ a going up, soon as I’ve got the things on the line and cleaned myself. I only heard it after I’d got every blessed rag in soak, or I’d a gone up afore.”

“Mightn’t I step up with you for company?” Mrs. James asked.

“No, you mightn’t. But I don’t mind dropping in as I come home, to tell you about it. One of them Catholic Nunnery schools, I expect, which it’s sudden death to a man but to set his foot into.”

“Poor young thing,” said Mrs. James again.

* * * * *

Betty was going to Paris.

There had been “much talk about and about” the project. Now it was to be.

There had been interviews.

There was the first in which the elder Miss Desmond told her brother-in-law in the plain speech she loved exactly what sort of a fool he had made of himself in the matter of Betty and the fortune-telling.

When he was convinced of error–it was not easily done–he would have liked to tell Betty that he was sorry, but he belonged to a generation that does not apologise to the next.

The second interview was between the aunt and Betty. That was the one in which so much good advice was given.

“You know,” the aunt wound up, “all young women want to be in love, and all young men too. I don’t mean that there was anything of that sort between you and your artist friend. But there might have been. Now look here,–I’m going to speak quite straight to you. Don’t you ever let young men get monkeying about with your hands; whether they call it fortune-telling or whether they don’t, their reason for doing so is always the same–or likely to be. And you want to keep your hand–as well as your lips–for the man you’re going to marry. That’s all, but don’t you forget it. Now what’s this I hear about your wanting to go to Paris?”

“I did want to go,” said Betty, “but I don’t care about anything now. Everything’s hateful.”

“It always is,” said the aunt, “but it won’t always be.”

“Don’t think I care a straw about not seeing Mr. Vernon again,” said Betty hastily. “It’s not that.”

“Of course not,” said the aunt sympathetically.

“No,–but Father was so hateful–you’ve no idea. If I’d–if I’d run away and got married secretly he couldn’t have made more fuss.”

“You’re a little harsh–just a little. Of course you and I know exactly how it was, but remember how it looked to him. Why, it couldn’t have looked worse if you really _had_ been arranging an elopement.”

“He _hadn’t_ got his arm around me,” insisted Betty; “it was somewhere right away in the background. He was holding himself up with it.”

“Don’t I tell you I understand all that perfectly? What I want to understand is how you feel about Paris. Are you absolutely off the idea?”

“I couldn’t go if I wasn’t.”

“I wonder what you think Paris is like,” mused the aunt. “I suppose you think it’s all one wild razzle-dazzle–one delirious round of–of museums and picture galleries.”

“No, I don’t,” said Betty rather shortly.

“If you went you’d have to work.”

“There’s no chance of my going.”

“Then we’ll put the idea away and say no more about it. Get me my Continental Bradshaw out of my dressing-bag: I’m no use here. Nobody loves me, and I’ll go to Norway by the first omnibus to-morrow morning.”

“Don’t,” said Betty; “how can you say nobody loves you?”

“Your step-father doesn’t, anyway. That’s why I can make him do what I like when I take the trouble. When people love you they’ll never do anything for you,–not even answer a plain question with a plain yes or no. Go and get the Bradshaw. You’ll be sorry when I’m gone.”

“Aunt Julia, you don’t really mean it.”

“Of course not. I never mean anything except the things I don’t say. The Bradshaw!”

Betty came and sat on the arm of her aunt’s chair.

“It’s not fair to tease me,” she said, “and tantalise me. You know how mizzy I am.”

“No. I don’t know anything. You won’t tell me anything. Go and get–“

“Dear, darling, pretty, kind, clever Aunt,” cried Betty, “I’d give my ears to go.”

“Then borrow a large knife from cook, and sharpen it on the front door-step! No–I don’t mean to use it on your step-father. I’ll have your pretty ears mummified and wear them on my watch-chain. No–mind my spectacles! Let me go. I daresay it won’t come to anything.”

“Do you really mean you’d take me?”

“I’d take you fast enough, but I wouldn’t keep you. We must find a dragon to guard the Princess. Oh, we’ll get a nice tame kind puss-cat of a dragon,–but that dragon will not be your Aunt Julia! Let me go, I say. I thought you didn’t care about anything any more?”

“I didn’t know there could be anything to care for,” said Betty honestly, “especially Paris. Well, I won’t if you hate it so, but oh, aunt–” She still sat on the floor by the chair her aunt had left, and thought and thought. The aunt went straight down to the study.

“Now, Cecil,” she said, coming briskly in and shutting the door, “you’ve made that poor child hate the thought of you and you’ve only yourself to thank.”

“I know you think so,” said he, closing the heavy book over which he had been stooping.

“I don’t mean,” she added hastily, for she was not a cruel woman, “that she really hates you, of course. But you’ve frightened her, and shaken her nerves, locking her up in her room like that. Upon my word, you are old enough to know better!”

“I was so alarmed, so shaken myself–” he began, but she interrupted him.

“I didn’t come in and disturb your work just to say all that, of course,” she said, “but really, Cecil, I understand things better than you think. I know how fond you really are of Betty.”

The Reverend Cecil doubted this; but he said nothing.

“And you know that I’m fond enough of the child myself. Now, all this has upset you both tremendously. What do you propose to do?”

“I–I–nothing I thought. The less said about these deplorable affairs the better. Lizzie will soon recover her natural tone, and forget all about the matter.”

“Then you mean to let everything go on in the old way?”

“Why, of course,” said he uneasily.

“Well, it’s your own affair, naturally,” she spoke with a studied air of detachment which worried him exactly as it was meant to do.

“What do you mean?” he asked anxiously. He had never been able wholly to approve Miss Julia Desmond. She smoked cigarettes, and he could not think that this would have been respectable in any other woman. Of course, she was different from any other woman, but still–. Then the Reverend Cecil could not deem it womanly to explore, unchaperoned, the less well-known quarters of four continents, to penetrate even to regions where skirts were considered improper and side-saddles were unknown. Even the nearness of Miss Desmond’s fiftieth birthday hardly lessened at all the poignancy of his disapproval. Besides, she had not always been fifty, and she had always, in his recollection of her, smoked cigarettes, and travelled alone. Yet he had a certain well-founded respect for her judgment, and for that fine luminous common-sense of hers which had more than once shewn him his own mistakes. On the rare occasions when he and she had differed he had always realized, later, that she had been in the right. And she was “gentlemanly” enough never once to have said: “I told you so!”

“What do you mean?” he asked again, for she was silent, her hands in the pockets of her long coat, her sensible brown shoes sticking straight out in front of her chair.

“If you really want to know, I’ll tell you,” she said, “but I hate to interfere in other people’s business. You see, I know how deeply she has felt this, and of course I know you have too, so I wondered whether you hadn’t thought of some little plan for–for altering the circumstances a little, so that everything will blow over and settle down, so that when you and she come together again you’ll be better friends than ever.”

“Come together again,” he repeated, and the paper-knife was still restless, “do you want me to let her go away? To London?”

Visions of Lizzie, in unseemly low-necked dresses surrounded by crowds of young men–all possible Vernons–lent a sudden firmness to his voice, a sudden alertness to his manner.”

“No, certainly not,” she answered the voice and the manner as much as the words. “I shouldn’t dream of such a thing. Then it hadn’t occurred to you?”

“It certainly had not.”

“You see,” she said earnestly, “it’s like this–at least this is how I see it: She’s all shaken and upset, and so are you, and when I’ve gone–and I must go in a very little time–you’ll both of you simply settle down to thinking over it all, and you’ll grow farther and farther apart!”

“I don’t think so,” said he; “things like this always right themselves if one leaves them alone. Lizzie and I have always got on very well together, in a quiet way. We are neither of us demonstrative.”

“Now Heaven help the man!” was the woman’s thought. She remembered Betty’s clinging arms, her heartfelt kisses, the fervency of the voice that said, “Dear darling, pretty, kind, clever Aunt! I’d give my ears to go.” Betty not demonstrative! Heaven help the man!

“No,” she said, “I know. But when people are young these thinks rankle.”

“They won’t with her,” he said. “She has a singularly noble nature, under that quiet exterior.”

Miss Desmond drew a long breath and began afresh.

“Then there’s another thing. She’s fretting over this–thinks now that it was something to be ashamed of; she didn’t think so at the time, of course.”

“You mean that it was I who–“

This was thin ice again. Miss Desmond skated quickly away from it with, “Well, you see, I’ve been talking to her. She really _is_ fretting. Why she’s got ever so much thinner in the last week.”

“I could get a locum,” he said slowly, “and take her to a Hydropathic Establishment for a fortnight.”

“Oh dear, oh dear!” said Miss Desmond to herself. Aloud she said: “That _would_ be delightful, later. But just now–well, of course it’s for you to decide,–but it seems to me that it would be better for you two to be apart for a while. If you’re here alone together–well, the very sight of you will remind each other–That’s not grammar, as you say, but–“

He had not said anything. He was thinking, fingering the brass bosses on the corners of the divine Augustine, and tracing the pattern on the stamped pigskin.

“Of course if you care to risk it,” she went on still with that fine air of detachment,–“but I have seen breaches that nothing could heal arise in just that way.”

Two people sitting down together and thinking over everything they had against each other.”

“But I’ve nothing against Lizzie.”

“I daresay not,” Miss Desmond lost patience at last, “but she has against you, or will have if you let her stay here brooding over it. However if you like to risk it–I’m sorry I spoke.” She got up and moved to the door.

“No, no,” he said hastily, “do not be sorry you spoke. You have given me food for reflection. I will think it all over quietly and–and–” he did not like to talk about prayers to Miss Desmond somehow, “and–calmly and if I see that you are right–I am sure you mean most kindly by me.”

“Indeed I do,” she said heartily, and gave him her hand in the manly way he hated. He took it, held it limply an instant, and repeated:

“Most kindly.”

He thought it over for so long that the aunt almost lost hope.

“I have to hold my tongue with both hands to keep it quiet. And if I say another word I shall spoil the song,” she told Betty. “I’ve done my absolute best. If that doesn’t fetch him, nothing will!”

It had “fetched him.” At the end of two interminable days he sent to ask Miss Desmond to speak to him in the study. She went.

“I have been thinking carefully,” he said, “most carefully. And I feel that you are right. Perhaps I owe her some amends. Do you know of any quiet country place?”

Miss Desmond thought Betty had perhaps for the moment had almost enough of quiet country places.

“She is very anxious to learn drawing,” he said, “and perhaps if I permitted her to do so she might understand it as a sign that I cherish no resentment on account of what has passed. But–“

“I know the very thing,” said the Aunt, and went on to tell of Madame Gautier, of her cloistral home in Paris where she received a few favoured young girls, of the vigilant maid who conducted them to and from their studies, of the quiet villa on the Marne where in the summer an able master–at least 60 or 65 years of age–conducted sketching parties, to which the students were accompanied either by Madame herself, or by the dragon-maid.

“I’ll stand the child six months with her,” she said, “or a year even. So it won’t cost you anything. And Madame Gautier is in London now. You could run up and talk to her yourself.”

“Does she speak English?” he asked, anxiously, and being reassured questioned further.

“And you?” he asked. And when he heard that Norway for a month and then America en route for Japan formed Miss Desmond’s programme for the next year he was only just able to mask, with a cough, his deep sigh of relief. For, however much he might respect her judgment, he was always easier when Lizzie and her Aunt Julia were not together.

He went up to town, and found Madame Gautier, the widow of a French pastor, established in a Bloomsbury boarding-house. She was a woman after his own heart–severe, simple, earnest. If he had to part with his Lizzie, he told himself in the returning train, it could be to no better keeper than this.

He himself announced his decision to Betty.

“I have decided,” he said, and he spoke very coldly because it was so very difficult to speak at all, “to grant you the wish you expressed some time ago. You shall go to Paris and learn drawing.”

“Do you really mean it?” said Betty, as coldly as he.

“I am not in the habit of saying things which I do not mean.”

“Thank you very much,” said Betty. “I will work hard, and try that the money shan’t be wasted.”

“Your aunt has kindly offered to pay your expenses.”

“When do I go?” asked Betty.

“As soon as your garments can be prepared. I trust that I shall not have cause to regret the confidence I have decided to place in you.”

His phrasing was seldom well-inspired. Had he said, “I trust you, my child, and I know I shan’t regret it,” which was what he meant, she would have come to meet him more than half-way. As it was she said, “Thank you!” again, and left him without more words. He sighed.

“I don’t believe she is pleased after all; but she sees I am doing it for her good. Now it comes to the point her heart sinks at the idea of leaving home. But she will understand my motives.”

The one thought Betty gave him was:

“He can’t bear the sight of me at all now! He’s longing to be rid of me! Well, thank Heaven I’m going to Paris! I will have a grass-lawn dress over green, with three rows of narrow lace insertion, and a hat with yellow roses and–oh, it can’t be true. It’s too good to be true. Well, it’s a good thing to be hated sometimes, by some people, if they only hate you enough!”

* * * * *

“‘So you’re going to foreign parts, Miss,’ says I.”

Mrs. Symes had flung back her bonnet strings and was holding a saucerful of boiling tea skilfully poised on the fingers of one hand. “‘Yes, Mrs. Symes,’ says she, ‘don’t you wish you was going too?’ she says. And she laughed, but I’m not easy blinded, and well I see as she only laughed to ‘ide a bleedin’ ‘art. ‘Not me, Miss,’ says I; ‘nice figure I should look a-goin’ to a furrin’ boardin’ school at my time of life.’

“‘It ain’t boardin’ school,’ says she. ‘I’m a-going to learn to paint pictures. I’ll paint your portrait when I come home,’ says she, and laughs again–I could see she done it to keep the tears back.

“‘I’m sorry for you, Miss, I’m sure,’ I says, not to lose the chance of a word in season, ‘but I hope it’ll prove a blessing to you–I do that.'”

“‘Oh, it’ll be a blessing right enough,’ says she, and keeps on laughing a bit wild like. When the art’s full you can’t always stop yourself. She’d a done better to ‘ave a good cry and tell me ‘er troubles. I could a cheered her up a bit p’raps. You know whether I’m considered a comfort at funerals and christenings, Mrs. James.”

“I do,” said Mrs. James sadly; “none don’t know it better.”

“You’d a thought she’d a bin glad of a friend in need. But no. She just goes on a-laughing fit to bring tears to your eyes to hear her, and says she, ‘I hope you’ll all get on all right without me.'”

“I hope you said as how we should miss her something dreadful,” said Mrs. James anxiously, “Have another cup.”

“Thank you, my dear. Do you take me for a born loony? Course I did. Said the parish wouldn’t be the same without her, and about her pretty reading and all. See here what she give me.”

Mrs. James unrolled a violet petticoat.

“Good as new, almost,” she said, looking critically at the hem. “Specially her being taller’n me. So what’s not can be cut away, and no loss. She kep’ on a-laughing an’ a-smiling till the old man he come in and he says in his mimicking way, ‘Lizzie,’ says ‘e, ‘they’re a-waitin’ to fit on your new walkin’ costoom,’ he says. So I come away, she a-smiling to the last something awful to see.”

“Dear, dear,” said Mrs. James.

“But you mark my words–she don’t deceive _me_. If ever I see a bruised reed and a broken ‘art on a young gell’s face I see it on hers this day. She may laugh herself black in the face, but she won’t laugh me into thinking what I knows to be far otherwise.”

“Ah,” said Mrs. James resignedly, “we all ‘as it to bear one time or another. Young gells is very deceitful though, in their ways, ain’t they?”

Book 2.–The Man

CHAPTER VIII.

THE ONE AND THE OTHER.

“Some idiot,” remarked Eustace Vernon, sipping Vermouth at a little table, “insists that, if you sit long enough outside the Cafe de la Paix, you will see everyone you have ever known or ever wanted to know pass by. I have sat here for half-an-hour–and–_voila_.”

“You met me, half an hour ago,” said the other man.

“Oh, _you_!” said Vernon affectionately.

“And your hat has gone off every half minute ever since,” said the other man.

“Ah, that’s to the people I’ve known. It’s the people I’ve wanted to know that are the rarity.”

“Do you mean people you have wanted to know and not known?”

“There aren’t many of those,” said Vernon; “no it’s–Jove, that’s a sweet woman!”

“I hate the type,” said the other man briefly: “all clothes–no real human being.”

The woman was beautifully dressed, in the key whose harmonies are only mastered by Frenchwomen and Americans. She turned her head as her carriage passed, and Vernon’s hat went off once more.

“I’d forgotten her profile,” said Vernon, “and she’s learned how to dress since I saw her last. She’s quite human, really, and as charming as anyone ought to be.”

“So I should think,” said the other man. “I’m sorry I said that, but I didn’t know you knew her. How’s trade?”

“Oh, I did a picture–well, but a picture! I did it in England in the Spring. Best thing I’ve done yet. Come and see it.”

“I should like to look you up. Where do you hang out?”

“Eighty-six bis Rue Notre Dame des Champs,” said Vernon. “Everyone in fiction lives there. It’s the only street on the other side that authors seem ever to have dreamed of. Still, it’s convenient, so I herd there with all sorts of blackguards, heroes and villains and what not. Eighty-six bis.”

“I’ll come,” said the other man, slowly. “Do you know, Vernon, I’d like awfully to get at your point of view–your philosophy of life?”

“Haven’t you got one, my dear chap!–‘sufficient unto’ is my motto.”

“You paint pictures,”, the other went on, “so very much too good for the sort of life you lead.”

Vernon laughed.

“My dear Temple,” he said, “I live, mostly, the life of a vestal virgin.”

“You know well enough I’m not quarrelling with the way you spend your evenings,” said his dear Temple; “it’s your whole outlook that doesn’t match your work. Yet there must be some relation between the two, that’s what I’d like to get at.”

There is a bond stronger than friendship, stronger than love–a bond that cannot be forged in any other shop than the one–the bond between old schoolfellows. Vernon had sometimes wondered why he “stood so much” from Temple. It is a wonder that old schoolfellows often feel, mutually.

“The subject you’ve started,” said he, “is of course, to me, the most interesting. Please develop your thesis.”

“Well then, your pictures are good, strong, thorough stuff, with sentiment–yes, just enough sentiment to keep them from the brutality of Degas or the sensualism of Latouche. Whereas you, yourself, seem to have no sentiment.”

“I? No sentiment! Oh, Bobby, this is too much! Why, I’m a mass of it! Ask–“

“Yes, ask any woman of your acquaintance. That’s just it–or just part of it. You fool them into thinking–oh, I don’t know what; but you don’t fool me.”

“I haven’t tried.”

“Then you’re not brutal, except half a dozen times in the year when you–And I’ve noticed that when your temper goes smash your morals go at the same time. Is that cause or effect? What’s the real you like, and where do you keep it?”

“The real me,” said Vernon, “is seen in my pictures, and–and appreciated by my friends; you for instance, are, I believe, genuinely attached to me.”

“Oh, rot!” said Bobby.

“I don’t see,” said Vernon, moving his iron chair to make room for two people at the next table, “why you should expect my pictures to rhyme with my life. A man’s art doesn’t rhyme with his personality. Most often it contradicts flatly. Look at musicians–what a divine art, and what pigs of high priests! And look at actors–but no, one can’t; the spectacle is too sickening.”

“I sometimes think,” said Temple, emptying his glass, “that the real you isn’t made yet. It’s waiting for–“

“For the refining touch of a woman’s hand, eh? You think the real me is–Oh, Temple, Temple, I’ve no heart for these childish imaginings! The real me is the man that paints pictures, damn good pictures, too, though I say it.”

“And is that what all the women think?

“Ask them, my dear chap; ask them. They won’t tell you the truth.”

“They’re not the only ones who won’t. I should like to know what you really think of women, Vernon.”

“I don’t think about them at all,” lied Vernon equably. “They aren’t subjects for thought but for emotion–and even of that as little as may be. It’s impossible seriously to regard a woman as a human being; she’s merely a dear, delightful, dainty–“

“Plaything?”

“Well, yes–or rather a very delicately tuned musical instrument. If you know the scales and the common chords, you can improvise nice little airs and charming variations. She’s a sort of–well, a penny whistle, and the music you get depends not on her at all, but on your own technique.”

“I’ve never been in love,” said Temple; “not seriously, I mean,” he hastened to add, for Vernon was smiling, “not a life or death matter, don’t you know; but I do hate the way you talk, and one of these days you’ll hate it too.”

Miss Desmond’s warning floated up through the dim waters of half a year.

“So a lady told me, only last Spring,” he said. “Well, I’ll take my chance. Going? Well, I’m glad we ran across each other. Don’t forget to look me up.”

Temple moved off, and Vernon was left alone. He sat idly smoking cigarette after cigarette, and watched the shifting crowd. It was a bright October day, and the crowd was a gay one.

Suddenly his fingers tightened on his cigarette,–but he kept the hand that held it before his face, and he bent his head forward.

Two ladies were passing, on foot. One was the elder Miss Desmond–she who had warned him that one of these days he would be caught–and the other, hanging lovingly on her aunt’s arm, was, of course, Betty. But a smart, changed, awakened Betty! She was dressed almost as beautifully as the lady whose profile he had failed to recognise, but much more simply. Her eyes were alight, and she was babbling away to her aunt. She was even gesticulating a little, for all the world like a French girl. He noted the well-gloved hand with which she emphasized some point in her talk.

“That’s the hand,” he said, “that I held when we sat on the plough in the shed and I told her fortune.”

He had risen, and his feet led him along the road they had taken. Ten yards ahead of him he saw the swing of the aunt’s serviceable brown skirt and beside it Betty’s green and gray.

“I am not breaking my word,” he replied to the Inward Monitor. “Who’s going out of his way to speak to the girl?”

He watched the brown gown and the green all the way down the Boulevard des Capucines, saw them cross the road and go up the steps of the Madeleine. He paused at the corner. It was hard, certainly, to keep his promise; yet so far it was easy, because he could not well recall himself to the Misses Desmond on the ground of his having six months ago involved the one in a row with her relations, and discussed the situation afterwards with the other.

“I do wonder where they’re staying, though,” he told himself. “If one were properly introduced–?” But he knew that the aunt would consider no introduction a proper one that should renew his acquaintance with Betty.

“Wolf, wolf,” he said, “let the fold alone! There’s no door for you, and you’ve pledged your sacred word as an honourable wolf not to jump any more hurdles.”

And as he stood musing, the elder Miss Desmond came down the church steps and walked briskly away.

Some men would, doubtless, have followed her example, if not her direction. Vernon was not one of these. He found himself going up the steps of the great church. He had as good a right to go into the Madeleine as the next man. He would probably not see the girl. If he did he would not speak. Almost certainly he would not even see her.

But Destiny had remembered Mr. Vernon once more. Betty was standing just inside the door, her face upturned, and all her soul in her eyes. The mutterings of the organ and the voices of boys filled the great dark building.

He went and stood close by her. He would not speak. He would keep his word. But she should have a chance of speaking. His eyes were on her face. The hymn ended. She exhaled a held breath, started and spoke.

“You?” she said, “_you_?” The two words are spelled alike. Spoken, they are capable of infinite variations. The first “you” sent Vernon’s blood leaping. The second froze it to what it had been before he met her. For indeed that little unfinished idyll had been almost forgotten by the man who sat drinking Vermouth outside the Cafe de la Paix.

“How are you?” he whispered. “Won’t you shake hands?”

She gave him a limp and unresponsive glove.

“I had almost forgotten you,” she said, “but I am glad to see you–because–Come to the door. I don’t like talking in churches.”

They stood on the steps behind one of the great pillars.

“Do you think it is wise to stand here?” he said. “Your aunt might see us.”

“So you followed us in?” said Betty with perfect self-possession. “That was very kind. I have often wished to see you, to tell you how much obliged I am for all your kindness in the Spring. I was only a child then, and I didn’t understand, but now I quite see how good it was of you.”

“Why do you talk like that?” he said. “You don’t think–you can’t think it was my fault?”

“Your fault! What?”

“Why, your father finding us and–“

“Oh, _that_!” she said lightly. “Oh, I had forgotten that! Ridiculous, wasn’t it? No, I mean your kindness in giving so many hours to teaching a perfect duffer. Well, now I’ve seen you and said what I had to say, I think I’ll go back.”

“No, don’t go,” he said. “I want to know–oh, all sorts of things! I can see your aunt from afar, and fly if she approaches.”

“You don’t suppose,” said Betty, opening her eyes at him, “that I shan’t tell her I’ve seen you?”

He had supposed it, and cursed his clumsiness.

“Ah, I see,” she went on, “you think I should deceive my aunt now because I deceived my step-father in the Spring. But I was a child then,–and besides, I’m fond of my aunt.”

“Did you know that she came to see me?”

“Of course. You seem to think we live in an atmosphere of deceit, Mr. Vernon.”

“What’s the matter with you?” he said bluntly, for finer weapons seemed useless. “What have I done to make you hate me?”

“I hate you? Oh, no–not in the least,” said Betty spitefully. I am very grateful to you for all your kindness.”

“Where are you staying?” he asked.

“Hotel Bete,” said Betty, off her guard, “but–“

The “but” marked his first score.

“I wish I could have called to see your aunt,” he said carelessly, “but I am off to Vienna to-morrow.”

Betty believed that she did not change countenance by a hair’s breadth.

“I hope you’ll have a delightful time,” she said politely.

“Thanks. I am sure I shall. The only consolation for leaving Paris is that one is going to Vienna. Are you here for long?”

“I don’t know.” Betty was on her guard again.

“Paris is a delightful city, isn’t it?”

“Most charming.”

“Have you been here long?”

“No, not very long.”

“Are you still working at your painting? It would be a pity to give that up.”

“I am not working just now.”

“I see your aunt,” he said hurriedly. “Are you going to send me away like this? Don’t be so unjust, so ungenerous. It’s not like you–my pupil of last Spring was not unjust.”

“Your pupil of last Spring was a child and a duffer, Mr. Vernon, as I said before. But she is grateful to you for one thing–no, two.”

“What’s the other?” he asked swiftly.

“Your drawing-lessons,” she demurely answered.

“Then what’s the one?”

“Good-bye,” she said, and went down the steps to meet her aunt. He effaced himself behind a pillar. In spite of her new coldness, he could not believe that she would tell her aunt of the meeting. And he was right, though Betty’s reasons were not his reasons.

“What’s the good?” she asked herself as she and her aunt walked across to their hotel. “He’s going away to-morrow, and I shall never see him again. Well, I behaved beautifully, that’s one thing. He must simply loathe me. So that’s all right! If he were staying on in Paris, of course I would tell her.”

She believed this fully.

He waited five minutes behind that pillar, and then had himself driven to the Rue Notre Dame des Champs, choosing as driver a man with a white hat, in strict accordance with the advice in Baedeker, though he had never read any of the works of that author.

This new Betty, with the smart gown and the distant manner, awoke at the same time that she contradicted his memories of the Betty of Long Barton. And he should not see her again. Of course he was not going to Vienna, but neither was he going to hang round the Hotel Bete, or to bribe Franz or Elise to smuggle notes to Miss Betty.

“It’s never any use trying to join things on again,” he told himself. “As well try to mend a spider’s web when you have put your boot through it.”

‘No diver brings up love again
Dropped once
In such cold seas!’

“But what has happened? Why does she hate me so? You acted very nicely, dear, but that wasn’t indifference. It was hatred, if ever I’ve seen it. I wonder what it means? Another lover? No–then she’d be sorry for me. It’s something that belongs to me–not another man’s shadow. But what I shall never know. And she’s prettier than ever, too. Oh, hang it!”

His key turned in the lock, and on the door-mat shewed the white square of an envelope–a note from the other woman, the one whose profile he had not remembered. She was in Paris for a time. She had seen him at the Paix, had wondered whether he had his old rooms, had driven straight up on the chance of being able to leave this–wasn’t that devotion?–and would he care to call for her at eight and they could dine somewhere and talk over old times? One familiar initial, that of her first name, curled in the corner and the card smelt of jasmine–not of jasmine-scent in bottles, but of the real flower. He had never known how she managed it.

Vernon was not fond of talking over old times, but Betty would be dining at the Hotel Bete–some dull hole, no doubt; he had never heard of it. Well, he could not dine at the Bete, and after all one must dine somewhere. And the other woman had never bored him. That is a terrible weapon in the hands of a rival. And Betty had been most unjust. And what was Betty to him, anyway? His thoughts turned to the American girl who had sketched with him in Brittany that Summer. Ah, if she had not been whisked back to New York by her people, it would not now be a question of Betty or of the Jasmine lady. He took out Miss Van Tromp’s portrait and sat looking at it: it was admirable, the fearless poise of the head, the laughing eyes, the full pouting lips. Then Betty’s face and the face of the Jasmine lady came between him and Miss Van Tromp.

“Bah,” he said, “smell, kiss, wear–at last throw away. Never keep a rose till it’s faded.” A little tide of Breton memories swept through him.

“Bah,” he said again, “she was perfectly charming, but what is the use of charm, half the world away?”

He pulled his trunk from the front of the fire-place, pushed up the iron damper, and made a little fire. He burned all Miss Van Tromp’s letters, and her photograph–but, from habit, or from gratitude, he kissed it before he burned it.

“Now,” said he as the last sparks died redly on the black embers, “the decks are cleared for action. Shall I sentimentalise about Betty–cold, cruel, changed Betty–or shall I call for the Jasmine lady?”

He did both, and the Jasmine lady might have found him dull. As it happened, she only found him _distrait_, and that interested her.

“When we parted,” she said, “it was I who was in tears. Now it’s you. What is it?”

“If I am in tears,” he roused himself to say, “it is only because everything passes, ‘tout lasse, tout passe, tout casse.'”

“What’s broken now?” she asked; “another heart? Oh, yes! you broke mine all to little, little bits. But I’ve mended it. I wanted frightfully to see you to thank you!

“This is a grateful day for women,” thought Vernon, looking the interrogatory.

“Why, for showing me how hearts are broken,” she explained; “it’s quite easy when you know how, and it’s a perfectly delightful game. I play it myself now, and I can’t imagine how I ever got on before I learned the rules.”

“You forget,” he said, smiling. “It was you who broke my heart. And it’s not mended yet.”

“That’s very sweet of you. But really, you know, I’m very glad it was you who broke my heart, and not anyone else. Because, now it’s mended, that gives us something to talk about. We have a past. That’s really what I wanted to tell you. And that’s such a bond, isn’t it? When it really _is_ past–dead, you know, no nonsense about cataleptic trances, but stone dead.”

“Yes,” he said, “it is a link. But it isn’t the past for me, you know. It can never–“

She held up a pretty jewelled hand.

“Now, don’t,” she said. “That’s just what you don’t understand. All that’s out of the picture. I know you too well. Just realize that I’m the only nice woman you know who doesn’t either expect you to make love to her in the future or hate you for having done it in the past, and you’ll want to see me every day. Think of the novelty of it.”

“I do and I do,” said he, “and I won’t protest any more while you’re in this mood. Bear with me if I seem idiotic to-night–I’ve been burning old letters, and that always makes me like a funeral.”

“Old letters–mine?”

“I burned yours long ago.”

“And it isn’t two years since we parted! How many have there been since?”

“Is this the Inquisition or is it Durand’s?”

“It’s somewhere where we both are,” she said, without a trace of sentiment; “that’s good enough for me. Do you know I’ve been married since I saw you last? _And_ left a widow–in a short three months it all happened. And–well I’m not very clever, as you know, but–can you imagine what it is like to be married to a man who doesn’t understand a single word you say, unless it’s about the weather or things to eat? No, don’t look shocked. He was a good fellow, and very happy till the motor accident took him and left me this.”

She shewed a scar on her smooth arm.

“What a woman it is for surprises! So he was very happy? But of course he was.”

“Yes, of course, as you say. I was a model wife. I wore black for a whole year too!”

“Why did you marry him?”

“Well, at the time I thought you might hear of it and be disappointed, or hurt, or something.”

“So I am,” said Vernon with truth.

“You needn’t be,” said she. “You’ll find me much nicer now I don’t want to disappoint you or hurt you, but only to have a good time, and there’s no nonsense about love to get in the way, and spoil everything.”

“So you’re–But this isn’t proper! Here am I dining with a lady and I don’t even know her name!”

“I know–I wouldn’t put it to the note. Didn’t that single initial arouse your suspicions? Her name? Her title if you please! I married Harry St. Craye. You remember how we used to laugh at him together.”

“That little–I beg your pardon, Lady St. Craye.”

“Yes,” she said, “De mortuis nil nisi bonum: of the dead nothing but the bones. If he had lived he would certainly have beaten me. Here’s to our new friendship!”

“Our new friendship!” he repeated, raising his glass and looking in her eyes. Lady St. Craye looked very beautiful, and Betty was not there. In fact, just now there was no Betty.

He went back to his room humming a song of Yvette Guilbert’s. There might have been no flowering May, no buttercup meadows in all the world, for any thought of memory that he had of them. And Betty was a thousand miles away.

That was at night. In the morning Betty was at the Hotel Bete, and the Hotel Bete was no longer a petty little hotel which he did not know and never should know. For the early post brought him a letter which said:

“I am in Paris for a few days and should like to see you if you can make it convenient to call at my hotel on Thursday.”

This was Tuesday.

The letter was signed with the name of the uncle from whom Vernon had expectations, and at the head of the letter was the address:

“Hotel Bete,
Cite de Retraite,
Rue Boissy d’Anglais.”

“Now bear witness!” cried Vernon, appealing to the Universe, “bear witness that this is _not_ my fault!”

CHAPTER IX.

THE OPPORTUNITY.

Vernon in those two days decided that he did not wish to see Betty again. She was angry with him, and, though he never for an instant distrusted his power to dissipate the cloud, he felt that the lifting of it would leave him and her in that strong light wherein the frail flower of sentiment must wither and perish. Explications were fatal to the delicate mystery, the ethereal half-lights, that Vernon loved. Above all things he detested the _trop dit_.

Already a mood of much daylight was making him blink and shrink. He saw himself as he was–or nearly–and the spectacle did not please him. The thought of Lady St. Craye was the only one that seemed to make for any sort of complacency. The thought of Temple rankled oddly.

“He likes me, and he dislikes himself for liking me. Why does he like me? Why does anyone like me? I’m hanged if I know!”

This was the other side of his mood of most days, when the wonder seemed that everyone should not like him. Why shouldn’t they? Ordinarily he was hanged if he knew that.

He had expected a note from Lady St. Craye to follow up his dinner with her. He knew how a woman rarely resists the temptation to write to the man in whom she is interested, even while his last words are still ringing in her ears. But no note came, and he concluded that Lady St. Craye was not interested. This reassured while it piqued.

The Hotel Bete is very near the Madeleine, and very near the heart of Paris–of gay Paris, that is,–yet it might have been a hundred miles from anywhere. You go along the Rue Boissy, and stopping at a gateway you turn into a dreary paved court, which is the Cite de la Retraite. Here the doors of the Hotel Bete open before you like the portals of a mausoleum. There is no greeting from the Patronne; your arrival gives rise to no pleasant welcoming bustle. The concierge receives you, and you see at once that her cheerful smile is assumed. No one could really be cheerful at the Hotel Bete.

Vernon felt as though he was entering a family vault of the highest respectability when he passed through its silent hall and enquired for Mr. James Vernon.

Monsieur Vernon was out. No, he had charged no one with a billet for monsieur. Monsieur Vernon would doubtless return for the dejeuner; it was certain that he would return for the diner. Would Monsieur wait?

Monsieur waited, in a little stiff salon with glass doors, prim furniture, and an elaborately ornamental French clock. It was silent, of course. One wonders sometimes whether ornamental French Ormolu clocks have any works, or are solid throughout. For no one has ever seen one of them going.

There were day-old English papers on the table, and the New York Herald. Through the glass doors he could see everyone who came in or went out. And he saw no one. There was a stillness as of the tomb.

Even the waiter, now laying covers for the dejeuner, wore list slippers and his movements were silent as a heron’s ghost-gray flight.

He came to the glass door presently.

“Did Monsieur breakfast?”

Vernon was not minded to waste two days in the pursuit of uncles. Here he was, and here he stayed, till Uncle James should appear.

Yes, decidedly, Monsieur breakfasted.

He wondered where the clients of the hotel had hidden themselves. Were they all dead, or merely sight-seeing? As his watch shewed him the approach of half-past twelve he found himself listening for the tramp of approaching feet, the rustle of returning skirts. And still all was silent as the grave.

The sudden summoning sound of a bell roused him from a dreamy wonder as to whether Betty and her aunt had already left. If not, should he meet them at dejeuner? The idea of the possible meeting amused more than it interested him. He crossed the hall and entered the long bare salle a manger.

By Heaven–he was the only guest! A cover was laid for him only–no, at a distance of half the table for another. Then Betty and her aunt had gone. Well, so much the better.

He unfolded his table-napkin. In another moment, doubtless, Uncle James would appear to fill the vacant place.

But in another moment the vacant place was filled–and by Betty–Betty alone, unchaperoned, and bristling with hostility. She bowed very coldly, but she was crimson to the ears. He rose and came to her holding out his hand.

With the waiter looking on, Betty had to give hers, but she gave it in a way that said very plainly:

“I am very surprised and not at all pleased to see you here.”

“This is a most unexpected pleasure,” he said very distinctly, and added the truth about his uncle.

“Has Monsieur Vernon yet returned?” he asked the waiter who hovered anxiously near.

“No, Monsieur was not yet of return.”

“So you see,” his look answered the speech of her hand, “it is not my doing in the least.”

“I hope your aunt is well,” he went on, the waiter handing baked eggs the while.

“Quite well, thank you,” said Betty. “And how is your wife? I ought to have asked yesterday, but I forgot.”

“My wife?”

“Oh, perhaps you aren’t married yet. Of course my father told me of your engagement.”

She crumbled bread and smiled pleasantly.

“So _that’s_ it,” thought Vernon. “Fool that I was to forget it!”

“I am not married,” he said coldly, “nor have I ever been engaged to be married.”

And he ate eggs stolidly wondering what her next move would be. It was one that surprised him. For she leaned towards him and said in a perfectly new voice:

“Couldn’t you get Franz to move you a little more this way? One can’t shout across these acres of tablecloth, and I’ve heaps of things to tell you.”

He moved nearer, and once again he wronged Betty by a mental shrinking. Was she really going to own that she had resented the news of his engagement? She was really hopeless. He began to bristle defensively.

[Illustration: “‘Ah, don’t be cross!’ she said”]

“Anything you care to tell me will of course be of the greatest possible interest,” he was beginning, but Betty interrupted him.

“_Ah, don’t be cross_!” she said. “I know I was perfectly horrid yesterday, but I own I was rather hurt.”

“Hold back,” he adjured her, inwardly, “for Heaven’s sake, hold back!”

“You see,” she went on, “you and I were such good friends–you’d been so kind–and you told me–you talked to me about things you didn’t talk of to other people,–and when I thought you’d told my step-father a secret of yours that you’d never told me, of course I felt hurt–anyone would have.”

“I see,” said he, beginning to.

“Of course I never dreamed that he’d lied, and even now I don’t see–” Then suddenly she did see and crimsoned again.

“He didn’t lie,” said Vernon carefully, “it was I. But I would never have told him anything that I wouldn’t have told you–nor half that I did tell you.”

The waiter handed pale meat.

“Yes, the scenery in Brittany is most charming; I did some good work there. The people are so primitive and delightful too.”

The waiter withdrew, and Betty said:

“How do you mean–he didn’t lie?”

“The fact is,” said Vernon, “he–he did not understand our friendship in the least. I imagine friendship was not invented when he was young. It’s a tiresome subject, Miss Desmond; let’s drop it–shall we?”

“If you like,” said she, chilly as December.

“Oh, well then, just let me say it was done for your sake, Miss Desmond. He had no idea that two people should have any interests in common except–except matters of the heart, and the shortest way to convince him was to tell him that my heart was elsewhere. I don’t like lies, but there are some people who insist on lies–nothing else will convince them of the truth. Here comes some abhorrent preparation of rice. How goes it with art?”

“I have been working very hard,” she said, “but every day I seem to know less and less.”

“Oh, that’s all right! It’s only that every day one knows more and more–of how little one does know. You’ll have to pass many milestones before you pass out of that state. Do they always feed you like this here?”

“Some days it’s custard,” said Betty, “but we’ve only been here a week.”

“We’re friends again now, aren’t we?” he questioned suddenly.

“Yes–oh, yes!”

“Then I may ask questions. I want to hear what you’ve been doing since we parted, and where you’ve been, and how you come to Paris–and where your aunt is, and what she’ll say to me when she comes in.”

“She likes you,” said Betty, “and she won’t come in, but Madame Gautier will. Aunt Julia went off this morning–she couldn’t delay any longer because of catching the P. & O. at Brindisi; and I’m to wait here till Madame Gautier comes at three. Auntie came all the way back from America to see whether I was happy here. She _is_ a dear!”

“And who is Madame Gautier? Is she also a dear? But let’s have our coffee in the salon–and tell me everything from the beginning.”

“Yes,” said Betty, “oh, yes!”

But the salon window was darkened by a passing shape.

“My uncle, bless him!” said Vernon. “I must go. See, here’s my card! Won’t you write and tell me all about everything? You will, won’t you?”

“Yes, but you musn’t write to me. Madame Gautier opens all our letters, and friendships weren’t invented when she was young either. Good-bye.”

Vernon had to go towards the strong English voice that was filling the hall with its inquiries for “Ung Mossoo–ung mossoo Anglay qui avoir certainmong etty icy ce mattan.”

Five minutes later Betty saw two figures go along the pavement on the other side of the decorous embroidered muslin blinds which, in the unlikely event of any happening in the Cite de la Retraite, ensure its not being distinctly seen by those who sojourn at the Hotel Bete.

Betty instantly experienced that feminine longing which makes women write to lovers or friends from whom they have but now parted, and she was weaker than Lady St. Craye. There was nothing to do. Her trunks were packed. She had before her two hours, or nearly, of waiting for Madame Gautier. So she wrote, and this is the letter, erasures and all. Vernon, when he got it, was most interested in the erasures here given in italics.

Dear Mr. Vernon:

I am very glad we are good friends again, and I should like to tell you everything that has happened. (_After you, after he–when my step-father_). After the last time I saw you (_I was very unhappy because I wanted to go to Paris_) I was very anxious to go to Paris because of what you had said. My aunt came down and was very kind. (_She told me_) She persuaded my step-father to let me go. I think (_we_) he was glad to get rid of me, for (_somehow_) he never did care about me, any more than I did about him. There are a great many (_other_) things that he does not understand. Of course I was wild with joy and thought of nothing but (_what you_) work, and my aunt brought me over. But I did not see anything of Paris then. We went straight on to Joinville where Madame Gautier has a villa, and (_we_) my aunt left me there, and went to Norway. It was all very strange at first, but I liked it. Madame Gautier is very strict; it was like being at school. Sometimes I almost (_forgot_) fancied that I was at school again. There were three other girls besides me, and we had great fun. The Professor was very nice and encouraging. He is very old. So is everybody who comes to the house–(_but_) it (_was_) is jolly, because when there are four of you everything is so interesting. We used to have picnics in the woods, and take it in turn to ride in the donkey-cart. And there were musical evenings with the Pastor and the Avocat and their wives. It was very amusing sometimes. Madame Gautier had let her Paris flat, so we stayed at Joinville till a week ago, and then my Aunt walked in one day and took me to Paris for a week. I did enjoy that. And now aunt has gone, and Madame Gautier is taking the inventory and getting the keys, and presently she will come for me, I shall go with her to the Rue Vaugirard, Number 62. It will be very nice seeing the other girls again and telling them all about (_everything_) my week in Paris. I am so sorry that I shall not have the pleasure of seeing you again, but I am glad we met–because I do not like to think my friends do not trust me.

Yours sincerely,

Betty Desmond.

That was the letter which Betty posted. But the first letter she wrote was quite different. It began:

“You don’t know, you never will know what it is to me to know that you did not deceive me. My dear friend, my only friend! And how I treated you yesterday! And how nobly you forgave me. I shall see you again. I must see you again. No one else has ever understood me.” And so on to the “True and constant friend Betty.”

She burned this letter.

“The other must go,” she said, “that’s the worst of life. If I sent the one that’s really written as I feel he’d think I was in love with him or some nonsense. But a child who was just in two syllables might have written the other. So _that’s_ all right.”

She looked at her watch. The same silver watch with which she had once crossed the hand of one who told her fortune.

“How silly all that was!” she said. “I have learned wisdom now. Nearly half-past three. I never knew Madame late before.”

And now Betty began to watch the windows for the arrival of her chaperone; and four o’clock came, and five, but no Madame Gautier.

She went out at last and asked to see the Patronne, and to her she explained in a French whose fluency out-ran its correctness, that a lady was to have called for her at three. It was now a quarter past five. What did Madame think she should do?

Madame was lethargic and uninterested. She had no idea. She could not advise. Probably Mademoiselle would do well to wait always.

The concierge was less aloof.

But without doubt Madame, Mademoiselle’s friend had forgotten the hour. She would arrive later, certainly. If not, Mademoiselle could stay the night at the hotel, where a young lady would be perfectly well, and go to Madame her friend in the morning.

But Betty was not minded to stay the night alone at the Hotel Bete. For one thing she had very little money,–save that in the fat envelope addressed to Madame Gautier which her aunt had given her. It contained, she knew, the money to pay for her board and lessons during the next six months,–for the elder Miss Desmond was off to India, Japan and Thibet, and her horror of banks and cheques made her very downright in the matter of money. That in the envelope was all Betty had, and that was Madame Gautier’s. But the other part of the advice–to go to Madame Gautier’s in the morning? If in the morning, why not now?

She decided to go now. No one opposed the idea much. Only Franz seemed a little disturbed and the concierge tepidly urged patience.

But Betty was fretted by waiting. Also she knew that Vernon and his uncle might return at any moment. And it would perhaps be awkward for him to find her there–she would not for the world cause him a moment’s annoyance. Besides he might think she had waited on the chance of seeing him again. That was not to be borne.

“I will return and take my trunks,” she said; and a carriage was called.

There was something very exhilarating in driving through the streets of Paris, alone, in a nice little carriage with fat pneumatic tires. The street lamps were alight, and the shops not yet closed. Almost every house seemed to be a shop.

“I wonder where all the people live,” said Betty.

The Place de la Concorde delighted her with its many lamps and its splendid space.