it over that which had been called Sister Anita; I heard Father Josef’s voice of music repeating the “Ashes to ashes, and dust to dust.” And then we turned away and left the spot, as men turn every day to the common affairs of life.
Four days later Little Blue Flower came to me as I, still numb and cold and blankly unthinking, sat beside Fort Marcy and looked out with unseeing eyes at the glory of a New-Mexican sunset.
“I come from Eloise.” The sadness of her face and voice even the Indian’s self-control could not conceal.
“She is sad, but brave, and her mother loves her and calls her ‘Little One.’ She will never grow up to her mother. But”–Little Blue Flower’s voice faltered and she gazed out at the far Sandia peaks wrapped in the rich purple folds of twilight, with the scarlet of the afterglow beyond them–“Eloise loves Beverly. She will always love him. Heaven meant him for her.” There were some other broken sentences, but I did not grasp them clearly then.
The world was full of gray shadows. The finishing touches had been put on life for me. I looked out at the dying glow in the west, and wondered vaguely if the sun would ever cross the Gloriettas again, or ever the Sangre-de-Christo grow radiant with the scarlet stain of that ineffable beauty that uplifts and purifies the soul of him who looks on it.
XVII
SWEET AND BITTER WATERS
Trust me, it is something to be cast Face to face with one’s self at last,
To be taken out of the fuss and strife, The endless clatter of plate and knife, The bore of books, and the bores of the street, And to be set down on one’s own two feet So nigh to the great warm heart of God, You almost seem to feel it beat
Down from the sunshine, and up from the sod.
JAMES RUSSELL LOWELL.
My hair is very white now, and my fingers hold a pen more easily than they could hold the ox-goad or the rifle, and mine to-day is all the backward look. Which look is evermore a satisfying thing because it takes in all of life behind in its true proportion, where the forward look of youth sees only what comes next and nothing more. And looking back to-day it seems that, of the many times I walked the long miles of that old Santa Fe Trail, no journey over it stands out quite so clear-cut in my memory as the home trip after I had watched the going away of Eloise, and witnessed the flight of Ferdinand Ramero, and listened to the story of Jondo’s life.
When Little Blue Flower left me sitting beside Fort Marcy’s wall my mind went back in swift review over the flight of days since Beverly Clarenden and I had come from Cincinnati. I recalled the first meeting of Eloise with my cousin. How easily they had renewed acquaintance. I had been surprised and embarrassed and awkward when I found her and Little Blue Flower down by the Flat Rock below St. Ann’s, in the Moon of the Peach Blossom. I remembered how I had monopolized all of her time in the days that followed, leaving good-natured Bev to look after the little Indian girl who never really seemed like an Indian to him. And keen-piercing as an arrow came now the memory of that midnight hour when I had seen the two in the little side porch of the Clarenden home, and again I heard the sorrowful words:
“Oh, Beverly, it breaks my heart.”
Eloise had just seen Beverly kiss Little Blue Flower in the shadows of the porch. And all the while, good-hearted, generous boy that he was, he had never tried to push his suit with her, had made her love him more, no doubt, by letting me have full command of all of her time, while he forgot himself in showing courtesy to the Indian girl, because Bev was first of all a gentleman. I thought of that dear hour in the church of San Miguel. Of course, Eloise was glad to find me there–poor, hunted, frightened child! She would have been as glad, no doubt, to have found big Bill Banney or Rex Krane, and I had thought her eyes held something just for me that night. She had not seen Beverly at the chapel beside the San Christobal River, and to me she had not given even a parting glance when she went away. If she had cared for me at all she would not have left me so. And I had climbed the tortuous trail with her and stood beside her in the zone of sanctuary safety that Father Josef had thrown about us two.
These things were clear enough to me, but when I tried to think again of all that Little Blue Flower had said an hour ago my mind went numb:
“Her mother knew her, but only as the little Eloise long lost and never missed till now. The mother, too, was very beautiful, and young in face, and child-like in her helplessness. The lonely ranch-house, old, and strong as a fort, girt round by tall canon walls, nestled in a grassy open place; and not a comfort had been denied the woman there. For Gloria Ramero, Ferdinand’s wife, had governed that. And Eloise had entered there to stay. This much was clear enough. But that which followed seemed to twist and writhe about in my mind with only one thing sure–Eloise loved Beverly, would always love him. And he could not love any one else. He could be kind to any girl, but he would not be happy. Some day when he was older–a real man–then he would long for the girl of his heart and his own choice, and he would find her and love her, too, and she would love him and those who stood between them they both would hate. And Eloise loved Beverly. She could not send Gail any words herself, but he would understand.”
So came the Indian girl’s interpretation of the case, but the conclusion was the message meant for me. I wondered vaguely, as I sat there, if the vision had come to Beverly years ago as it had come to me: three men–the soldier on his cavalry mount, Jondo, the plainsman, on his big black horse, and between the two, Esmond Clarenden, neither mounted nor on foot, but going forward somehow, steady and sure. And beyond these three, this side of misty mountain peaks, the cloud of golden hair, the sweet face, with dark eyes looking into mine. I had not been a dreamer, I had been a fool.
Through Beverly I learned the next day that Ferdinand Ramero had come into Santa Fe late at night and had left early the next morning. Marcos Ramero, faultlessly dressed, lounged about the gambling-halls, and strolled through the sunny Plaza, idly and insolently, as was his custom. But Gloria Ramero, to whom Marcos long ago ceased to be more than coldly courteous, had left the city at once for the San Christobal Valley, to devote herself to the care of the beautiful woman whom her brother Felix Narveo in his college days had admired so much.
As for Jondo, years ago when we had met Father Josef out by the sandy arroyo, he had left us to follow the good man somewhere, and had not come back to the Exchange Hotel until nightfall. Something had come into his face that day that never left it again. And now that something had deepened in the glance of his eye and the firm-set mouth. It was through that meeting with Father Josef that he had first heard of the supposed death of Mary Marchland St. Vrain, and it was through the priest in the chapel he had heard that she was still alive.
Neither Beverly nor Bill Banney nor Rex Krane knew what I had heard in the church concerning Jondo’s early career, and I never spoke of it to them. But to all of us, outside of that intensified something indefinable in his face, he was unchanged. He met my eye with the open, frank glance with which he met the gaze of all men. His smile was no less engaging and his manner remained the same–fearless, unsuspicious, definite in serious affairs, good-natured and companionable in everything. I could not read him now, by one little line, but back of everything lay that withering, grievous thought–he was a murderer. Heaven pity the boy when his idol falls, and if he be a dreaming idealist the hurt is tenfold deeper.
And yet–the trail was waiting there to teach me many things, and Jondo’s words rang through the aisles of my brain:
“If you ever have a real cross, Gail, thank the Lord for the open plains and the green prairies, and the danger stimulus of the old Santa Fe Trail. They will seal up your wounds, and soften your hard, rebellious heart, and make you see things big, and despise the little crooks in your path.”
Our Conestoga wagons, with their mule-teams, and the few ponies for scout service, followed the old trail out of the valley of the Rio Grande to the tablelands eastward, up the steep sidling way into the passes of the Glorietta Mountains, down through lone, wind-swept canons, and on between wild, scarred hills, coming, at last, beyond the picturesque ridges, snow-crowned and mesa-guarded, into the long, gray, waterless lands of the Cimmarron country. Here we journeyed along monotonous levels that rose and fell unnoted because of lack of landmarks to measure by, only the broad, beaten Santa Fe Trail stretched on unbending, unchanging, uneffaceable.
As the distance from spring to spring decreased, every drop of water grew precious, and we pushed on, eager to reach the richer prairies of the Arkansas Valley. Suddenly in the monotony of the way, and the increasing calls of thirst, there came a sense of danger, the plains-old danger of the Comanche on the Cimarron Trail. Bill Banney caught it first–just a faint sign of one hostile track. All the next day Jondo scouted far, coming into camp at nightfall with a grave report.
“The water-supply is failing,” he told us, “and there is something wrong out there. The Comanches are hovering near, that’s certain, and there is a single trail that doesn’t look Comanche to me that I can’t account for. All we can do is to ‘hold fast,'” he added, with his cheery smile that never failed him.
That night I could not sleep, and the stars and I stared long at each other. They were so golden and so far away. And one, as I looked, slipped from its place and trailed wide across the sky until it vanished, leaving a stream of golden light that lingered before my eyes. I thought of the trail in the San Christobal Valley, and again I saw the sunlight on golden hair as Eloise with Little Blue Flower passed out of sight around the shoulder of a great rock beside the way. At last came sleep, and in my dreams Eloise was beside me as she had been in the church of San Miguel, her dark eyes looking up into mine. I knew, in my dream, that I was dreaming and I did not want to waken. For, “Eloise loved Beverly, would always love him.” Little Blue Flower had said it. The face was far away, this side of misty mountain peaks, and farther still. I could see only the eyes looking at me. I wakened to see only the stars looking at me. I slept again deeply and dreamlessly, and wakened suddenly. We were far and away from the Apache country, but there, for just one instant, a face came close to mine–the face of Santan–the Apache. It vanished instantly as it had come. The night guard passed by me and crossed the camp. The stars held firm above me. I had had another dream. But after that I did not sleep till dawn.
The day was very hot, with the scorching breeze of the plains that sears the very eyeballs dry. Through the dust and glare we pressed on over long, white, monotonous miles. Hovering near us somewhere were the Comanches–waiting; with us was burning thirst; ahead of us ran the taunting mirage–cool, sparkling water rippling between green banks–receding as we approached, maddening us by the suggestion of its refreshing picture, the while we knew it was only a picture. For it is Satan’s own painting on the desert to let men know that Dante’s dream is mild compared to the real art of torment. Men and animals began to give way under the day’s burden, and we moved slowly. In times like these Jondo stayed with the train, sending Bill Banney and Beverly scouting ahead. That was the longest day that I ever lived on the Santa Fe Trail, although I followed its miles many times in the best of its freighting years.
The weary hours dragged at last toward evening, and a dozen signs in plains lore told us that water must be near. As we topped a low swell at the bottom of whose long slide lay the little oasis we were seeking, we came upon Bill Banney’s pony lying dead across the trail. And near it Bill himself, with bloated face and bleared eyes, muttering half-coherently:
“Water-hole! Poison! Don’t drink!”
And then he babbled of the muddy Missouri, and the Kentucky blue grass, and cold mountain springs in the passes of the Gloriettas, warning us thickly of “death down there.”
“Down there,” beside the little spring shelved in by shale at the lower edge of the swell, we found a tiny cairn built of clumps of sod and bits of shale. Fastened on it was a scrap from Bill’s note-book with the words
Spring poisoned. Bev gone for water not very far on.–BILL.
So Bill had drunk the poisoned water and had tried to reach us. But for fear he might not do it, he had scrawled this warning and left it here. Brave Bill! How madly he had staggered round the place and threshed the ground in agony when he tried to mount his poisoned pony, and his first thought was for us. The plains made men see big. Jondo had told me they could do it. Poor Bill, moaning for water now and tossing in agony in Jondo’s wagon! The Comanches had been cunning in their malice. How we hated them as we stood looking at the waters of that poisoned spring!
Rex Krane’s big, gentle hands were holding Bill’s. Rex always had a mother’s heart; while Jondo read the ground with searching glance.
“We will wait here a little while. Bev will report soon, I hope. Come, Gail,” he said to me. “Here is something we will follow now.”
A single trail led far away from the beaten road toward a stretch of coarse dry yucca and loco-weeds that hid a little steep-sided draw across the plains. At the bottom of it a man lay face downward beside a dead pony. We scrambled down, shattering the dry earth after us as we went. Jondo gently lifted the body and turned it face upward. It was Ferdinand Ramero.
The big plainsman did not cry out, nor drop his hold, but his face turned gray, and only the dying man saw the look in the blue eyes gazing into his. Ramero tried to draw away, fear, and hate, and the old dominant will that ruled his life, strong still in death. As he lay at the feet of the man whose life hopes he had blasted, he expected no mercy and asked for none.
“You have me at last. I didn’t put the poison in that spring. I would not have drunk it if I had. It was the one below I fixed for you. And I’m in your power now. Be quick about it.”
For one long minute Jondo looked down at his enemy. Then he lifted his eyes to mine with the victory of “him that overcometh” shining in their blue depths.
“If I could make you live, I’d do it, Fred. If you have any word to say, be quick about it now. Your time is short.”
The sweetness of that gentle voice I hear sometimes to-day in the low notes of song-birds, and the gentle swish of refreshing summer showers.
Ferdinand Ramero lifted his cold blue eyes and looked at the man bending over him.
“Leave me here–forgotten–“
“Not of God. His Mercy endureth forever,” Jondo replied.
But there was no repentance, no softening of the hard, imperious heart.
We left him there, pulling down the loose earth from the steep sides of the draw to cover him from all the frowning elements of the plains. And when we went back to the waiting train Jondo reported, grimly:
“_No enemy in sight.”_
We laid Bill Banney beside the poisoned spring, from whose bitter waters he had saved our lives. So martyrs filled the unknown graves that made the milestones of the way in the days of commerce-building on the old Santa Fe Trail.
The next spring was not far ahead, as Bill’s note had said, but the stars were thick above us and the desolate land was full of shadows before we reached it–a thirst-mad, heart-sore crowd trailing slowly on through the gloom of the night.
Beverly was waiting for us and the refreshing moisture of the air above a spring seemed about him.
“I thought you’d never come. Where’s Bill? There’s water here. I made the spring myself,” he shouted, as we came near.
The spring that he had digged for us was in the sandy bed of a dry stream, with low, earth-banks on either side. It was full of water, hardly clear, but plentiful, and slowly washing out a bigger pool for itself as it seeped forth.
“There is poison in the real spring down there.” Beverly pointed toward the diminished fountain we had expected to find. “I’ve worked since noon at this.”
We drank, and life came back to us. We pitched camp, and then listened to Beverly’s story of the sweet and bitter waters of the trail that day. And all the while it seemed as if Bill Banney was just out of sight and might come galloping in at any moment.
“You know what happened up the trail,” my cousin said, sadly. “Bill was ahead of me and he drank first, and galloped back to warn me and beg me to come on for water. I thought I could get down here and take some water back to Bill in time. It’s all shale up there. No place to dig above, nor below, even if one dared to dig below that poison. But I found a dead coyote that had just left here, and all springs began to look Comanche to me. I lariated my pony and crept down under the bank there to think and rest. Everything went poison-spotted before my eyes.”
“Where’s your pony now, Bev?” Jondo asked.
“I don’t know sure, but I expect he is about going over the Raton Pass by this time,” Beverly replied. “Down there things seemed to swim around me like water everywhere and I knew I’d got to stir. Just then an Indian came slipping up from somewhere to the spring to drink. He didn’t look right to me at all, but I couldn’t sit still and see him kill himself. If he needed killing I could have done it for him, for he never saw me. Just as he stooped I saw his face. It was that Apache–Santan–the wander-foot, for I never heard of an Apache getting so far from the mountains. I ought to have kept still, Jondo”–Beverly’s ready smile came to his face–“but I’d made that fellow swear he’d let me eternally alone when we had our little fracas up by the San Christobal Arroyo, so something like conscience, mean as the stomach-ache, made me call out:
“‘Don’t drink there; it’s poison.’
“He stopped and stared at me a minute, or ten minutes–I didn’t count time on him–and then he said, slow-like:
“‘It’s the spring west that is poisoned. I put it there for you. You will not see your men again. They will drink and die. Who put this poison here?’
“‘Lord knows. I didn’t,’ I told him. ‘Two of you carrying poison are two too many for the Cimarron country.’
“And I hadn’t any more conscience after that, but I was faint and slow, and my aim was bad for eels. He could have fixed me right then, but for some reason he didn’t.”
Beverly’s face grew sad.
“He made six jumps six ways, and caught my pony’s lariat. I can hear his yell still as he tore a hole in the horizon and jumped right through. Then I began on that spring. ‘Dig or die. Dig or die.’ I said over and over, and we are all here but Bill. I wish I’d got that Apache, though.”
Jondo and I looked at each other.
“The thing is clear now,” he said, aside to me. “That single trail I found back yonder day before yesterday was Santan’s running on ahead of us to poison the water for us and then steal a horse and make his way back to the mountains. An Apache can live on this cactus-covered sand the same as a rattlesnake. He fixed the upper spring and came down here to drink. Only Beverly’s conscience saved him here. Heaven knows how Fred Ramer got out here. He may have come with some Mexicans on ahead of us and left them here to drop his poison in this lower spring. Then he turned back toward Santa Fe and found his doom up there at Santan’s spring.
“I’m like Bev. I wish he had gotten the Apache, now. I don’t know yet how I was fooled in him, for he has always been Fred Ramer’s tool, and Father Josef never trusted him. And to think that Bill Banney, in no way touching any of our lives, should have been martyred by the crimes of Fred and this Apache! But that’s the old, old story of the trail. Poor Bill! I hope his sleep will be sweet out in this desolate land. We’ll meet him later somewhere.”
The winds must have carried the tale of poisoned water across the Cimarron country, for the Comanches’ trail left ours from that day. Through threescore and ten miles to the Arkansas River we came, and there was not a well nor spring nor sign of water in all that distance. What water we had we carried with us from the Cimarron fountains. But the sturdy endurance of the days was not without its help to me. And the wide, wind-swept prairies of Kansas taught me many things. In the lonely, beautiful land, through long bright days and starlit nights, I began to see things bigger than my own selfish measure had reckoned. I thought of Esmond Clarenden and his large scheme of business; Felix Narveo, the true-hearted friend; and of Father Josef and his life of devotion. And I lived with Jondo every day. I could not forget the hour in the little ruined chapel in the San Christobal Valley, and how he himself had made no effort to clear his own name. But I remembered, too, that Father Josef, mercilessly just to Ferdinand Ramero, had not even asked Jondo to defend himself from the black charge against him.
The sunny Kansas prairies, the far open plains, and the wild mountain trails beyond, had brought their blessing to Jondo, whose life had known so much of tragedy. And my cross was just my love for a girl who could not love me. That was all. Jondo had never forgotten nor ceased to love the mother of Eloise St. Vrain. I should be like Jondo in this. But the world is wide. Life is full of big things. Henceforth, while I would not forget, I, too, would be big and strong, and maybe, some time, just as sunny-faced as my big Jondo.
The trail life, day by day, did bring its blessing to me. The clear, open land, the far-sweeping winds, the solitude for thought, the bravery and gentleness of the rough men who walked the miles with me, the splendor of the day-dawn, the beauty of the sunset, the peace of the still starlit night, sealed up my wounds, and I began to live for others and to forget myself; to dream less often, and to work more gladly; to measure men, not by what had been, but by how they met what was to be done.
From all the frontier life, rough-hewn and coarse, the elements came that helped to make the big brave West to-day, and I know now that not the least of source and growth of power for these came out of the strength and strife of the things known only to the men who followed the Santa Fe Trail.
III
DEFENDING THE TRAIL
XVIII
WHEN THE SUN WENT DOWN
The mind hath a thousand eyes,
And the heart but one.
–BOURDILLON.
Busy years, each one a dramatic era all its own, made up the annals of the Middle West as the nation began to feel the thrill for expansion in its pulse-beat. The territorial days of Kansas were big with the tragic events of border warfare, and her birth into statehood marked the commencement of the four years of civil strife whose record played a mighty part in shaping human destiny.
Meanwhile the sunny Kansas prairies lay waiting for the hearthstone and the plow. And young men, trained in camp and battle-field, looked westward for adventure, fortune, future homes and fame. But the tribes, whose hunting-grounds had been the green and grassy plains, yielded slowly, foot by foot, their stubborn claim, marking in human blood the price of each acre of the prairie sod. The lonely homesteads were the prey of savage bands, and the old Santa Fe Trail, always a way of danger, became doubly perilous now to the men who drove the vans of commerce along its broad, defenseless miles. The frontier forts increased: Hays and Harker, Larned and Zarah, and Lyon and Dodge became outposts of power in the wilderness, whose half-forgotten sites to-day lie buried under broad pasture-lands and fields of waving grain.
One June day, as the train rolled through the Missouri woodlands along rugged river bluffs, Beverly Clarenden and I looked eagerly out of the car window, watching for signs of home. It was two years after the close of the Civil War. We had just finished six years of Federal service and were coming back to Kansas City. We were young men still, with all the unsettled spirit that follows the laying aside of active military life for the wholesome but uneventful life of peace.
The time of our arrival had been uncertain, and the Clarenden household had been taken by surprise at our coming.
“I wonder how it will seem to settle down in a store, Bev, after toting shooting-irons for six years,” I said to my cousin, as the train neared Kansas City.
“I don’t know,” Beverly replied, with a yawn, “but I’m thinking that after we see all the folks, and play with Mat’s little boys awhile, and eat Aunty Boone’s good stuff till we begin to get flabby-cheeked and soft-muscled, and our jaws crack from smiling so much when we just naturally want to get out and cuss somebody–about that time I’ll be ready to run away, if I have to turn Dog Indian to do it.”
“There’s a new Clarenden store at a place called Burlingame out in Kansas now, somewhere on the old trail. Maybe it will be far enough away to let you get tamed gradually to civil life there, if Uncle Esmond thinks you are worth it,” I suggested.
“Rex Krane is to take charge of that as soon as we get home. Yonder are the spires and minarets and domes of Kansas City. Put on your company grin, Gail,” Beverly replied, as we began to run by the huts and cabins forming the outworks of the little city at the Kaw’s mouth.
Six years had made many changes in the place, but the same old welcome awaited us, and we became happy-hearted boys again as we climbed the steep road up the bluff to the Clarenden house. On the wide veranda overlooking the river everybody except one–Bill Banney, sleeping under the wind-caressed sod beside the Cimarron spring–was waiting to greet us. There were Esmond Clarenden and Jondo, in the prime of middle life, the one a little bald, and more than a little stout; the other’s heavy hair was streaked with gray, but the erect form and tremendous physical strength told how well the plains life had fortified the man of fifty for the years before him. The prairies had long since become his home; but whether in scout service for the Government, or as wagon-master for a Clarenden train on the trail, he was the same big, brave, loyal Jondo.
And there was Rex Krane, tall, easy-going old Rex, with his wife beside him. Mat was a fair-faced young matron now, with something Madonna-like in her calm poise and kindly spirit. Two little boys, Esmond, and Rex, Junior, clinging to her gown, smiled a shy welcome at us.
In the background loomed the shining face and huge form of Aunty Boone. She had never seemed bigger to me, even in my little-boy days, when I considered her a giant. Her eyes grew dull as she looked at us.
“Clean faces and finger-nails now. Got to stain ’em up ’bout once more ‘fore you are through. Hungry as ever, I’ll bet. I’ll get your supper right away. Whoo-ee!”
As she turned away, Mat said:
“There is somebody else here, boys, that you will be glad to meet. She has just come and doesn’t even know that you are expected. It is ‘Little Lees.'”
A rustle of silken skirts, a faint odor of blossoms, a footfall, a presence, and Eloise St. Vrain stood before us. Eloise, with her golden hair, the girlish roundness of her fair face, her big dark eyes and their heavy lashes and clear-penciled brows, her dainty coloring, and beyond all these the beauty of womanly strength written in her countenance.
Her dress was a sort of pale heliotrope, with trimmings of a deeper shade, and in her hands she carried a big bunch of June roses. She stopped short, and the pink cheeks grew pale, but in an instant the rich bloom came back to them again.
“I tried to find you, Eloise. The boys have just come in almost unannounced,” Mat said.
“You didn’t mean to hide from us, of course,” Beverly broke in, as he took the girl’s hand, his face beaming with genuine joy at meeting her again.
Eloise met him with the same frank delight with which she always greeted him. Everything seemed so simple and easy for these two when they came together. Little Blue Flower was right about them. They seemed to fit each other.
But when she turned to me her eyes were downcast, save for just one glance. I feel it yet, and the soft touch of her hand as it lay in mine a moment.
I think we chatted all together for a while. I had a wound at Malvern Hill that used to make me dizzy. That, or an older wound, made my pulse frantic now. I know that it was a rare June day, and the breeze off the river came pouring caressingly over the bluff. I remember later that Uncle Esmond and Jondo and Rex Krane went to the Clarenden store, and that Mat was helping Aunty Boone inside, while Beverly let the two little Kranes take him down the slope to see some baby squirrels or something. And Eloise and I were left alone beneath the trees, where once we had sat together long ago in the “Moon of the Peach Blossom.” For me, all the strength of the years wherein I had built a wall around my longing love, all my manly loyalty to my cousin’s claims, were swept away, as I have seen the big Missouri floods, joined by the lesser Kaw, sweep out bridges, snapping like sticks before their power.
“Eloise, it seems a hundred years since I saw you and Little Blue Flower ride away up the San Christobal River trail out of my sight,” I said.
“It has been a long time, but we are not yet old. You seem the same. And as for me, I feel as if the clock had stopped awhile and had suddenly started to ticking anew.”
It was wonderful to sit beside her and hear her voice again. I did not dare to ask about her mother, but I am sure she read my thoughts, for she went on:
“My mother is gone now. She was as happy as a child and never had a sorrow on her mind after her dreadful fever, although the doctors say she might have been restored if I had only been with her then. But it is all ended now.”
Eloise paused with saddened face, and looked out toward the Missouri River, boiling with June rains and melted snows.
“It is all right now,” she went on, bravely. “Sister Gloria–you know who she was–stayed with me to the last. And I have a real mound of earth in the cemetery beside my father.” The last two words were spoken softly. “Sister Gloria is in the convent now. Marcos is a common gambler. His father disappeared and left him penniless. Esmond Clarenden says that his father died out on the plains somewhere.”
“And Father Josef?” I inquired.
“Is still the same strong friend to everybody. He spends much time among the Hopi people. I don’t know why, for they are hopelessly heathen. Their own religion has so many beautiful things to offset our faith that they are hard to convert.”
“And Little Blue Flower–what became of her?” I asked. “Is she a squaw in some hogan or pueblo, after all that the Sisterhood of St. Ann’s did for her?”
A shadow fell on the bright face beside me.
“Let’s not talk of her to-day.” There was a pleading note in Eloise’s voice. “Life has its tragedies everywhere, but I sometimes think that none of them–American, English, Spanish, French, Mexican, nor any others of our pale-faced people, have quite such bitter acts as the Indian tragedy among a gentle race like the people of Hopi-land.”
“I hope you will stay with us now.”
I didn’t know what I really did hope for. I was no longer a boy, but a young man in the very best of young manhood’s years. I had seen this girl ride away from me without one good-by word or glance. I had heard her message to me through Little Blue Flower. I had suffered and outgrown all but the scar. And now one touch of her hand, one smile, one look from her beautiful eyes, and all the barrier of the years fell down. I wondered vaguely now about Beverly’s wish to turn Dog Indian if things became too monotonous. I wondered about many things, but I could not think anything.
“I have no present plans. Father Josef and Esmond Clarenden thought it would be well for me to come up to Kansas and look at green prairies instead of red mesas for a while; to rest my eyes, and get my strength again–which I have never lost,” Eloise said, with a smile. “And Jondo says–“
She did not tell me what Jondo had said, for Beverly and Mat and the two rollicking boys joined us just then and we talked of many things of the earlier years.
I cannot tell how that June slipped by, nor how Eloise, in the full bloom of her young womanhood, with the burdens lifted from her heart and hands, was no more the clinging, crushed Eloise who had sat beside me in the church of San Miguel, but a self-reliant and deliciously companionable girl-woman. With Beverly she was always gay, matching him, mood for mood; and if sometimes I caught the fleeting edge of a shadow in her eyes, it was gone too soon to measure. I did not seek her company alone, because I knew that I could not trust myself. Over and over, Jondo’s words, when he had told me the story of Mary Marchland, came back to me:
“And although they loved each other always, they never saw each other again.”
Nobody, outside of those touched by it, knew Jondo’s story, except myself. He was Theron St. Vrain’s brother, yet Eloise never called him uncle, and, except for the one mention of her father’s grave, she did not speak of him. He was not even a memory to her. And both men’s names were forever stained with the black charge against them.
One evening in late June, Uncle Esmond called me into council.
“Gail, Rex leaves to-morrow for the new store at Burlingame, Kansas. It is two days out on the Santa Fe Trail. Bev will go with him and stay for a while. I want you to drive through with Mat and the children and Eloise a day or two later.”
“Eloise?” I looked up in surprise.
“Yes; she will visit with Mat for a while. She has had some trying years that have taxed her heavily. The best medicine for such is the song of the prairie winds,” Uncle Esmond replied.
“And after that?” I insisted.
“We will wait for ‘after that’ till it gets here,” my uncle smiled as he spoke. “There are more serious things on hand than where out Little Lees will eat her meals. She seems able to take care of herself anywhere. Wonderfully beautiful and charming young woman she is, and her troubles have strengthened her character without robbing her of her youth and happy spirits.”
Esmond Clarenden spoke reminiscently, and I stared at him in surprise until suddenly I remembered that Jondo had said, “We were all in love with Mary Marchland.” Eloise must seem to him and Jondo like the Mary Marchland they had known in their young manhood. But my uncle’s mood passed quickly, and his face was very grave as he said:
“The conditions out on the frontier are serious in every way right now. The Indians are on the war-path, leaving destruction wherever they set foot. Something must be done to protect the wagon-trains on the Santa Fe Trail. I have already lost part of two valuable loads this season, and Narveo has lost three. But the appalling loss of property is nothing compared to the terror and torture to human life. The settlers on the frontier claims are being massacred daily. The Governor of Kansas is doing all he can to get some action from the army leaders at Washington. But you haven’t been in military service for six years without finding out that some army leaders are flesh and blood, and some are only wood–plain wooden wood. Meantime, the story of one butchery doesn’t get to the Missouri River before the story of another catches up with it. It’s bad enough when it’s ruinous to just my own commercial business–but in cases like this, humanity is my business.”
What a man he was–that Esmond Clarenden! They still say of him in Kansas City that no sounder financier and no bigger-hearted humanitarian ever walked the streets of that “Gateway to the Southwest” than the brave little merchant-plainsman who builded for the generations that should follow him.
“What will be the outcome, Uncle Esmond? Are we to lose all we have gained out here?” I asked.
“Not if we are real Westerners. It’s got to be stopped. The question is, how soon,” my uncle replied.
That night in a half-waking dream I remembered Aunty Boone’s prophetic greeting a few days before, and how her eyes had narrowed and grown dull as she said, “One more stainin’ of your hands ‘fore you are through.”
I had given six good years to army service–the years which young men give to college and to establishing themselves in their life-work. But the vision of the three men whom I had seen under the elm-tree at Fort Leavenworth came back to me, and only one–the cavalry man–moved westward now. I knew that I was dreaming, but I did not want to waken till the vision of a fair face whose eyes looked into mine should come to make my dream sweet and restful.
But in my waking hours, in spite of the gravity of conditions that troubled Esmond Clarenden, in spite of the terrible tidings of daily killings on the unprotected plains, I forgot everything except the girl beside me as I went with her and Mat and the children to the new home in the village of Burlingame beside the Santa Fe Trail.
Eloise St. Vrain had come up to Kansas to let the green prairies shut out the memory of tall red mesas. About the little town of Burlingame the prairies were waiting for her eyes to see. It nestled beside a deep creek under the shelter of forest trees, with the green prairie lapping up to its edges on every side. The trail wound round the shoulder of a low hill, and, crossing the stream, it made the main street of the town, then wandered on westward to where a rim of ground shut the view of its way from the settlement under the trees by the creek. A stanch little settlement it was, and, like many Kansas towns of the ’60’s, with big, but never-to-be realized, ambition to become a city. Into its life and up-building Rex Krane was to throw his good-natured Yankee shrewdness, and Mat her calm, generous spirit; vanguards they were, among the home-makers of a great State.
My stay in the place was brief, and I saw little of Eloise until the evening before I was to return to Kansas City. I had meant to go away, as she had left me in the San Christobal Valley, without one backward look, but I couldn’t do it; and at the close of my last day I went to the Krane home, where I found her alone. It was the long after-sunset hour, with the refreshing evening breezes pouring in from all the green levels about us.
“Rex is at the store, and the others are all gone fishing,” Eloise said, in answer to my inquiry for the family.
“Mat and Bev always did go fishing on every occasion that I can remember, and they will make fishermen of little Esmond and Rex now. Would you like to go up to the west side of town and look into New Mexico?” I asked, wondering why Beverly should go fishing with Mat when Eloise was waiting for his smile.
But I was desperately lonely to-night, and I might not see Eloise again until after she and Beverly–I could not go farther. She smiled and said, lightly:
“I’m just honin’ for a walk, as Aunty Boone would say, but I’m not quite ready to see New Mexico yet.”
“Oh, it’s only a thing made of evening mists rising from the meadows, and bits of sunset lights left over when the day was finished,” I assured her.
So we left the shadow of the tall elms and strolled up the main street toward the west.
Where the one cross-street cut the trail in the center of the village there was a public well. The ground around it was trampled into mud by many hoofs. A Mexican train had just come in and was grouped about this well, drinking eagerly.
“What news of the plains?” I asked their leader as we passed.
“I cannot tell you with the lady here,” he replied, bowing courteously. “It is too awful. A spear hung with a scalp of pretty baby hair like hers. I see it yet. The plains are all _alive–alive_ with hostile red men; and the worst one of all–he that had the golden scalp–is but a half-breed Cheyenne Dog. Never the Apaches were so bad as he.”
The cattle horned about the well, with their drivers shouting and struggling to direct them, as we went wide to avoid the mud, then passed up to the rise beyond which lay the old trail’s westward route.
The mists were rising from the lowlands; along the creek the sunset sky was all a flaming glory, under whose deep splendor the June prairies lay tenderly green and still; down in the village the sounds of the Mexicans settling into camp; the shouting of children, romping late; and out across the levels, the mooing call of milking-time from some far-away settler’s barn-yard; a robin singing a twilight song in the elms; crickets chirping in the long grass; and the gentle evening breeze sweet and cool out of the west–such was the setting for us two. We paused on the crest of the ridge and sat down to watch the afterglow of a prairie twilight. We did not speak for a long time, but when our eyes met I knew the hour had been made for me. In such an hour we had sat beside the glistening Flat Rock down in the Neosho Valley. I was a whole-hearted boy when I went down there, full of eagerness for the life of adventure on the trail, and she a girl just leaving boarding-school. And now–life sweetens so with years.
“I think I can understand why your uncle thought it would be well for me to come to Kansas,” Eloise said at last. “There is an inspiration and soothing restfulness in a thing like this. Our mountains are so huge and tragical; and even their silences are not always gentle. And our plains are dry and gray. And yet I love the valley of the Santa Fe, and the old Ortiz and Sandia peaks, and the red sunset’s stain on the Sangre-de-Christo. Many a time I have lifted up my eyes to them for help, as the shepherd did to his Judean hills when he sang his psalms of hope and victory.”
“Yes, Nature is kind to us if we will let her be. Jondo told me that long ago, and I’ve proved it since. But I have always loved the prairies. And this ridge here belongs to me,” I replied.
Eloise looked up inquiringly.
“I’ll tell you why. When I was a little boy, years ago, a day-dreaming, eager-hearted little boy, we camped here one night. That was my first trip over the trail to Santa Fe. You haven’t forgotten it and what a big brown bob-cat I looked like when I got there. I grew like weeds in a Kansas corn-field on that trip.”
“Oh, I remember you. Go on,” Eloise said, laughingly.
“That night after supper, everybody had left camp–Mat and Bev were fishing–and I was alone and lonely, so I came up here to find what I could see of the next day’s trail. It was such an hour as this. And as I watched the twilight color deepen, my own horizon widened, and I think the soul of a man began, in that hour, to look out through the little boy’s eyes; and a new mile-stone was set here to make a landmark in my life-trail. The boy who went back slowly to the camp that night was not the same little boy that had run up here to spy out the way of the next day’s journey.”
The afterglow was deepening to purple; the pink cloud-flecks were turning gray in the east, and a kaleidoscope of softest rose and tender green and misty lavender filled the lengthening shadows of the twilight prairie.
“Eloise, I had a longing that night, still unfulfilled. I wish I dared to tell you what it was.”
I turned to look at the fair girl-woman beside me. In the twilight her eyes were always like stars; and the golden hair and the pink bloom of her cheeks seemed richer in their shadowy setting. To-night her gown was white–like the Greek dress she had worn at Mat’s wedding, on the night when she met Beverly in the little side porch at midnight. Why did I recall that here?
“What was your wish, Gail?” The voice was low and sweet.
I took her hand in mine and she did not draw away from me.
“That I might some day have a real home all my own down there among the trees. I was a little homesick boy that night, and I came up here to watch the sunset and see the open level lands that I have always loved. Eloise, Jondo told me once of three young college men who loved your beautiful mother, and because of that love they never married anybody, but they lived useful, happy lives. I can understand now why they should love her, and why, because they could not have her love, they would not marry anybody else. One was my uncle Esmond, and one was Father Josef.”
“And the third?” The voice was very low and a tremor shook the hand I held.
“He did not tell me. And I speak of it now only to show you that in what I want to say I am not altogether selfish and unkind. I love you, Eloise. I have loved you since the day, long ago, when your face came before me on the parade-ground at Fort Leavenworth. I told you of that once down on the bluff by the Clarenden home at Kansas City. I shall love you, as the Bedouin melody runs,
Til the sun grows cold,
And the stars are old,
And the leaves of the judgment
Book unfold!
“But I know that it will end as Uncle Esmond’s and Father Josef’s loving did, in my living my life alone.”
Eloise quickly withdrew her hand, and the pain in her white face haunts me still.
“I do not want to hurt you, oh, Eloise. I know I do wrong to speak, but to-night will be the last time. I thought that night in the church at San Miguel, and that next day when we rode for our lives together, that you cared for me who would have walked through fire for you. But in that hour in the little chapel a barrier came between us. You rode away without one word or glance. And I turned back feeling that my soul was falling into ruins like that half-ruined little pile of stone that some holy padre had built his heart into years and years ago. Then Little Blue Flower brought your message to me and I knew as I sat beside Fort Marcy’s wall that night, and saw the sun go down, that the light of my life was going out with it.”
“But, Gail,” Eloise exclaimed, “I said I could not send you any word, but you would understand. I–I couldn’t say any more than that.” Her voice was full of tears and she turned away from me and looked at the last radiant tints edging the little cloud-flecks above the horizon.
“Of course I understand you, Eloise, and I do not blame you. I never could blame you for anything.” I sprang to my feet. “You’ll hate me if I say another word,” I said, savagely.
She rose up, too, and put her hand on my arm. Oh, she was beautiful as she stood beside me. So many times I have pictured her face, I will not try to picture it as it looked now in this sweet, sacred moment of our lives.
“Gail, I could never hate you. You do not understand me. I cannot help what is past now. I hoped you might forget. And yet–” She paused.
All men are humanly alike. In spite of my strong love for Beverly and my sense of right, the presence of the woman whose image for so many years had been in the sacredest shrine of my heart, Eloise, in all her beauty and her womanly strength and purity, standing beside me, her hand still on my arm–all overpowered me.
I put my arms about her and held her close to me, kissing her forehead, her cheek, her lips. The world for one long moment was rose-hued like the sunset’s afterglow; and sky and prairie, lowlands along the winding creek, and tall elm-trees above the deepening shadows, were all engulfed in a mist of golden glory, shot through with amethyst and sapphire, the dainty coraline pink of summer dawns, and the iridescent shimmer of mother-of-pearl.
Heaven opens to us here and there such moments on the way of life. And the memory of them lingers like perfume through all the days that follow.
We turned our faces toward the darkening village street and the tall elms above the gathering shadows, and neither spoke a word until we reached the door where I must say good night.
“I cannot ask you to forgive me, Little Lees, because you let me have a bit of heaven up there. I shall go away a better man. And, remember, that no blessing in your life can be greater than I would wish for you to have.”
The brave white face was before my eyes and the low voice was in my ears long after I had left her door.
“Gail, I cannot help what has been, but I do not blame you. I should almost wish myself shut in again by the tall red mesas; but maybe, after all, the prairies are best for me. I am glad I have known you. Good night.”
“Goodnight,” I said, and turned away.
And that was all. The last light of day had gone from the sky, and the stars overhead were hidden by the thick leafage of the Burlingame elms.
XIX
A MAN’S PART
Don’t you guess that the things we’re seeing now will haunt us through the years;
Heaven and hell rolled into one, glory and blood and tears; Life’s pattern picked with a scarlet thread, where once we wove with a gray,
To remind us all how we played our part in the shock of an epic day?
–ROBERT W. SERVICE.
However darkly the sun may go down on hope and love, the real sun shines on, day after day, with its inexorable call to duty. In less than a week after I had left Eloise and the vague hope of a home of my own under the big elm-trees of Burlingame, Governor Crawford of Kansas sent forth a call for a battalion of four companies of soldiers, and I heard the call and answered it.
It was to be known as the Eighteenth Kansas Cavalry, with Col. Horace L. Moore, a veteran soldier of tried mettle, at the head. We were to go at once to Fort Harker, in the valley of the Smoky Hill River, to begin a campaign against the Indians, who were laying waste the frontier settlements and attacking wagon-trains on the Sante Fe Trail.
On the evening before I left home I sat on the veranda of the Clarenden house, waiting for Uncle Esmond to join me, when suddenly Beverly Clarenden strode over the edge of the hill. The sunny smile and the merry twinkle of his eye were Bev’s own, and there wasn’t a line on his face to show whether it belonged to the happy lover or the rejected suitor. I thought I could always read his moods when he had any. He had none to-night.
“I just got in from Burlingame. At what hour do you leave to-morrow? I’m going along to chaperon you, as usual,” he declared.
“Why, Beverly Clarenden, I thought you were fixed at Burlingame, selling molasses and calico by the gallon,” I exclaimed, but my real thought was not given to words.
“And let the Cheyennes, and Kiowas, and Arapahoes, and other desperadoes of the plains gnaw clear into the heart of us? Not your uncle Esmond Clarenden’s nephew. And, Gail, this won’t be anything like we have had since those six Kiowas staked you out on Pawnee Rock once. The thoroughbred Indians are bad enough, but there is a half-breed leader of a band of Dog Indians that’s worst of all. He’s of the yellow kind, with wolf’s fangs. A Mexican on the trail told me that this half-breed ties up with the worst of every tribe from the Coast Range mountains to Tecumseh, Kansas,” Beverly declared.
“I remember that Mexican. I saw him at the well in Burlingame,” I replied, turning to look at the Kaw winding far away, for the memory of everything in Burlingame was painful to me.
Aunty Boone’s huge form appearing around the corner of the house shut off my view of the river just then. Her face was glistening, but her eyes were dull as she looked us over.
“You stainin’ your hands again,” she purred. “Yes, Aunty. We are going to lick the redskins into ribbons,” Beverly replied.
“You never get that done. Lickin’ never settles nobody. You just hold ’em down till they strong enough to boost you off their heads again, and up they come. Whoo-ee!”
The black woman gave a chuckle.
“Well, I’d rather sit on their heads than have them sitting on mine, or yours, Aunty Boone,” Beverly returned, laughingly.
Aunty Boone’s eyes narrowed and there was a strange light in them as she looked at us, saying:
“You get into trouble, Mr. Bev, you see me comin’, hot streaks, to help you out. Whoo-ee!”
She breathed her weird, African whoop and turned away.
“I’ll depend on you.” Beverly’s face was bright, and there was no shadow in his eyes, as he called after her retreating form.
We chatted long together, and I hoped–and feared–to have him tell me the story of his suit with Eloise, and why in such a day, of all the days of his life, he should choose to run away to the warfare of the frontier. He could not have failed, I thought. Never a disappointed lover wore a smile like this. But Beverly had no story to tell me that night.
* * * * *
The mid-July sun was shining down on a treeless landscape, across which the yellow, foam-flecked Smoky Hill River wound its sinuous way. Beside this stream was old Fort Harker, a low quadrangle of quarters, for military man and beast, grouped about a parade-ground for companionship rather than for protection. The frontier fort had little need for defensive strength. About its walls the Indian crawled submissively, fearful of munitions and authority. It was not here, but out on lonely trails, in sudden ambush, or in overwhelming numbers, or where long miles, cut off from water, or exhausting distance banished safe retreat, that the savage struck in all his fury.
Eastward from Harker the scattered frontier homesteads crouched, defenseless, in the river valleys. Far to the northwest spread the desolate lengths of a silent land where the white man’s foot had hardly yet been set. Miles away to the southwest the Santa Fe Trail wound among the Arkansas sand-hills, never, in all its history, less safe for freighters than in that summer of 1867.
In this vast demesne the raiding Cheyenne, the cruel Kiowa, the blood-thirsty Arapahoe, with bands of Dog Indians and outlaws from every tribe, contested, foot by foot, for supremacy against the out-reaching civilization of the dominant Anglo-American. The lonely trails were measured off by white men’s graves. The vagrant winds that bear the odor of alfalfa, and of orchard bloom to-day, were laden often with the smoke of burning homes, and often, too, they bore that sickening smell of human flesh, once caught, never to be forgotten. The story of that struggle for supremacy is a tragic drama of heroism and endurance. In it the Eighteenth Kansas Cavalry played a stirring part.
It seems but yesterday to me now, that July day so many years ago, when our four companies, numbering fewer than four hundred men, detrained from the Union Pacific train at Fort Harker on the Smoky Hill. And the faces of the men who were to lead us are clear in memory. Our commander, Colonel Moore, always brave and able; and our captains, Henry Lindsay, and Edgar Barker, and George Jenness, and David Payne, with the shrewd, courageous scout, Allison Pliley, and the undaunted, clear-thinking, young lieutenant, Frank Stahl. Ours was not to be a record of unfading glory, as national military annals show, yet it may count mightily when the Great Records are opened for final estimates. Those men who marched two thousand miles, back and forth, upon the trackless plains in that four months’ campaign, have been forgotten in the debris of uneventful years. Our long-faded trails lie buried under wide alfalfa-fields and the paved streets of western Kansas towns. From the far springs that quenched our burning thirst comes water, trickling through a nickel faucet into a marble basin, now. Where the fierce sun seared our eyeballs, in a treeless, barren waste, green groves, atune with song-birds, cast long swaths of shade on verdant sod. The perils and the hardships of the Eighteenth Kansas Cavalry are now but as a tale that is told.
And yet of all the heroes whose life-trails cut my own, I account among the greatest those men under whose command, and with whose comradeship, I went out to serve the needs of my generation among the vanguards of the plains. And if in a sunset hour on the west ridge beyond the little town of Burlingame I had left a hopeless love behind me, I put a man’s best energy into the thing before me.
The battle-field alone is not the soldier’s greatest test. I had kept step with men who charge an enemy on an open plain or storm a high defense in the face of sure defeat. I had been ordered with my company to take redoubts against the flaming throats of bellowing cannon in the life-and-death grip before Richmond. I had felt the awful thrill of carnage as my division surged back and forth across the blood-soaked lengths of Gettysburg, and I never once fell behind my comrades. The battle-field breeds courage, and self-forgetfulness, and exaltation, from the sense of duty squarely met.
There were no battle-fields in 1867, where Greek met Greek in splendid gallantry, out on the Kansas plains. Over Fort Harker hung the pall of death, and in the July heat the great black plague of Asiatic cholera stalked abroad and scourged the land. Men were dying like rats, lacking everything that helps to drive death back. The volunteer who had offered himself to save the settlers from the scalping-knife had come here only to look into an open grave, and then, in agony, to drop into it. Such things test soldiers more than battle-fields. And our men turned back in fear, preferring the deserter’s shame to quick, inglorious martyrdom by Asiatic cholera. I had a battle of my own the first night at Fort Harker. There was a growing moon and the night breeze was cool after the heat of the day. Beverly Clarenden and I went down to the river, whose tawny waters hardly hid the tawny sands beneath them. The plains were silent, but from all the hospital tents about the fort came the sharp, agonized cries of pain that forerun the last collapse of the plague-stricken sufferers. To get away from the sound of it all we wandered down the stream to where the banks of soft, caving earth on the farther side were higher than a man’s head, and their shadow hid the current. We sat down and stared silently at the waters, scarcely whispering as they rolled along, and at the still shade of the farther bank upon them. The shadows thickened and moved a little, then grew still. We also grew still. Then they moved again just opposite us, and fell into three parts, as three men glided silently along under the bank’s protecting gloom. We waited until they had reached the edge of the moonlight, and saw three soldiers pass swiftly out across the unprotected sands to other shadowy places further on.
“Deserters!” Beverly said, half aloud. “You can stay here if you want to, Gail. I’d rather go up and listen to those poor wretches groan than stick down here and listen to the fiend inside of me to-night.”
He rose and stalked away, and I sat listening to myself. I could join those three men easily enough. The world is wide. I had no bond to hold me to one single place in it. I was young and strong, and life is sweet. Why let the black plague snuff me out of it? I had come here to serve the State. I should not serve it in a plague-marked grave. I rose to follow down the stream, to go to where the Smoky Hill joins the big Republican to make the Kaw, and on to where the Kaw reaches to the Missouri. But I would not stop there. I’d go until I reached the ocean somewhere.
Would I?
The memory of Jondo’s eyes when they looked into mine on Pawnee Rock came unbidden across my mind. Jondo had lived a nameless man. How strong and helpful all his years had been! How starved had been my life without his love! I would be another Jondo, somewhere on earth.
I stared after three faintly moving shadows down the stream. ‘Twas well I waited, for Esmond Clarenden came to me now, clean-cut, honest, everybody’s friend. How firm his life had been; and he had built into me a hatred of deceit and lies. And Jondo was another Uncle Esmond. In spite of the black shadow on his name, he walked the prairies like a prince always. I could not be like him if I were a deserter. Up-stream death was waiting for me; down-stream, disgrace. I turned and followed up the river’s course, but the strength that forced me to it was greater than that which made me brave on battle-fields. And ever since that night beside the Smoky Hill I have felt gentler toward the man who falls.
We were not idle long for Fort Harker had just been informed of an assault on a wagon-train on the Santa Fe Trail and our cavalry squadron hurried away at once to overtake and punish the assailants.
We came into camp on the bank of Walnut Creek, at the close of a long summer day of blazing light and heat over the barren trails where there was no water; a day of long hours in the saddle; a day of nerve-wearing watchfulness. But we believed that we had left the plague-cursed region behind us, so we were light-hearted and good-natured; and we ate, and drank, and took our lot cheerfully.
Among the men at mess that night I saw a new face which was nothing remarkable, except that something in it told me that I had already seen that face somewhere, some time. It is my gift never to forget a face, once seen, no matter how many years may pass before I see it twice. This soldier was a pleasant fellow, too, and, in a story he was telling, clever at imitating others.
“Who is that man, Bev? The third one over there?” I asked my cousin.
“Stranger to me. I don’t believe I ever saw him before. Who is the fellow with the smile, Captain?” Beverly asked the officer beside him.
“I don’t know. He’s not in my company. I’m finding new faces every day,” the captain replied.
As twilight fell I saw the man again at the edge of the camp. He smiled pleasantly as he passed me, turning to look at Beverly, who did not see him, and in a minute he was cantering down to the creek beside our camp. I saw him cross it and ride quickly out of sight. But that smile brought to the face the thing that had escaped me.
“I know that fellow now,” I said to Beverly and the officer who came up just then. “He’s Charlie Bent, the son of Colonel Bent. Don’t you remember the little sinner at old Fort Bent, Bev?”
“I do, and what a vicious little reptile he was,” Beverly replied. “But Uncle Esmond told me that his father took him away early and had him schooled like a gentleman in the best Saint Louis had to give. I wonder whose company he is in.”
The officer stared at us.
“You mean to say you know that cavalryman to be Charlie Bent?” he fairly gasped.
“Of course it’s Charlie. I never missed a face in all my life. That’s his own,” I replied.
“The worst Indian on the plains!” the captain declared. “He stirs up more fiendishness than a whole regiment of thoroughbred Cheyennes could ever think of. He’s led in every killing here since March.”
“Not Colonel Bent’s son!” I exclaimed.
“Yes, he’s the half-breed devil that we’ll have to fight, and here he comes and eats with us and rides away.”
“He must be the fellow that the Mexican told us about back at Burlingame, Gail. I remember now he did say the brute’s name was Bent, but I didn’t rope him up with our Fort Bent chum. Gail would have run him down in half a minute if he had heard the name. I never could remember anything,” Beverly said, in disgust. But the smile was peeping back of his frown, and he forgot the boy he was soon to have cause enough to remember.
“We must run that rascal down to-night,” the Captain declared, as he hurried away to consult with the other officers.
But Charlie Bent was not run down that night. Before we had time to get over our surprise a scream of pain rang through the camp. Another followed, and another, and when an hour had passed a third of our forces was writhing in the clutches of the cholera.
I shall never forget the long hours of that night beside the Walnut, nor Beverly Clarenden’s face as he bent over the suffering men. For all of us who were well worked mightily to save our plague-stricken comrades, whose couches were of prairie grass and whose hospital roof was the starlit sky. However forgetful Beverly might be of names and faces, his strong hand had that soothing firmness that eased the agony of cramping limbs. Dear Bev! He comforted the sick, and caught the dying words, and straightened the relaxed bodies of the dead, and smiled next day, and forgot that he had done it.
At last the night of horror passed, and day came, wan and hot and weary out of the east. But five of our comrades would see no earthly day again; and three dozen strong men of the day before lay stretched upon the ground, pulseless and shrunken and purple, with wrinkled skin and wide, unseeing eyes.
Before the sun had risen our dead, coffined only by their army blankets, lay in unmarked graves. Our helpless living were placed in commissary wagons, and we took the trail slowly and painfully toward the Arkansas River.
If Charley Bent had gathered up his band to strike that night there would have been a different chapter in the annals of the plains.
I cannot follow with my pen the long marches of that campaign, and there was no honorable nor glorious warfare in it. It is a story of skirmishes, not of battles; of attack and repulse; of ambush and pursuit and retreat. It is a story of long days under burning skies, by whose fierce glare our brains seemed shriveling up and the world went black before our heat-bleared eyes. A story of hard night-rides, when weary bodies fought with watchful minds the grim struggle that drowsiness can wage, though sleep, we knew, meant death. It is a story of fevered limbs and bursting pulse in hospitals whose walls were prairie distances. A story of hunger, and exhausted rations; of choking thirst, with only alkali water mocking at us. And never could the story all be told. There is no rest for cavalrymen in the field. We did not suffer heavy loss, but here and there our comrades fell, by ones, and twos, at duty’s post; and where they fell they lie, in wayside graves, waiting for glorious mention until the last reveille shall sound above the battlements of heaven.
And I was one among these vanguards of the plains, making the old Santa Fe Trail safe for the feet of trade; and the wide Kansas prairies safe for homes, and happiness, and hope, and power. I lived the life, and toughened in its grind. But in my dreams sometimes my other life returned to me, and a sweet face, with a cloud of golden hair, and dark eyes looking into mine, came like a benediction to me. Another face came sometimes now–black, big, and glistening, with eyes of strange, far vision looking at me, and I heard, over and over, the words of Esmond Clarenden’s cook:
“If you get into trouble, Mr. Bev, I’ll come, hot streaks, to help you.”
But trouble never stuck to “Mr. Bev,” because he failed to know it when it came.
Mid-August found us at Fort Hays on the Smoky Hill, beyond whose protecting guns the wilderness ruled. A wilderness checkered by faint trails of lawless feet, a wilderness set with bloody claws and poison stings and cruel fangs, and slow, agonizing death. And with all a wilderness of weird, fascinating distances and danger, charm and beauty. The thrill of the explorer of new lands possessed us as we looked far into the heart of it. Here in these August days the Cheyenne and Arapahoe and Kiowa bands were riding trails blood-stained by victims dragged from lonely homesteads, and butchered, here and there, to make an Indian holiday. The scenes along the valleys of the Sappa and the Beaver and the Prairie Dog creeks were far too brutal and revolting to belong to modern life. Against these our Eighteenth Kansas, with a small body of United States cavalry, struck northward from Fort Hays. We rested through the long, hot days and marched by night. The moon was growing toward the full, and in its clear, white splendor the prairies lay revealed for miles about us. Our command was small and meagerly equipped, and we were moving on to meet a foe of overwhelming numbers. Men took strange odds with Fate upon the plains.
Beyond the open, level lands lay a rugged region hemming in the valley of the Prairie Dog Creek. Here picturesque cliffs and deep, earth-walled canons split the hills, affording easy ambush for a regiment of red men. And here, in a triangle of a few miles area, a new Thermopylae, with no Leonidas but Kansas plainsmen, was staged through two long August days and nights. One hundred and fifty of us against fifteen hundred fighting braves.
In the early morning of a long, hot August day, we came to an open plain beyond the Prairie Dog Creek. Our supply-wagons and pack-mules were separated from us somewhere among the bluffs. We had had no food since the night before, and our canteens were empty–all on account of the blundering mismanagement of the United States officer who cammanded us. I was only a private, and a private’s business is not to question, but to obey. And that major over us, cashiered for cowardice later, was not a Kansas man. Thank heaven for that!
A score of us, including my cousin and myself, under a sergeant, and with good Scout Pliley, were suddenly ordered back among the hills.
“Where do we go, and why?” Beverly asked me as we rode along.
“I don’t know,” I replied. “But Captain Jenness and a file of men were lost out here somewhere last night. And Indian tracks step over one another all around here. I guess we are out to find what’s lost, maybe. It isn’t a twenty minutes’ job, I know that.”
“And all our canteens empty, too! Why cut off all visible means of support in a time like this? Look at these bluffs and hiding-places, will you! A handful of Indians could scoop our whole body up and pitch us into the Prairie Dog Creek, and not be missed from a set in a war-dance,” Beverly insisted. “Keep it strictly in the Clarenden family, Gail, but our honorable commander is a fool and a coward, if he is a United States major.”
“You speak as one expecting a promotion, Bev,” I suggested.
“I’d know how to use it if I got it,” he smiled brightly at me as we quickened our pace not to fall behind.
Every day of that campaign Beverly grew dearer to me. I am glad our lives ran on together for so many years.
The canons deepened and the whole region was bewildering, but still we struggled on, lost men searching for lost men. The sun blazed hotly, and the soft yellow bluffs of bone-dry earth reached down to the dry beds of one-time streams.
High noon, and still no food, no water, and no lost men discovered. We had pushed out to a little opening, ridged in on either side by high, brown bluffs, when a whoop came from the head of the line.
“Yonder they are! Yonder they are!”
Half a dozen men, led by Captain Jenness, were riding swiftly to join us and we shouted in our joy. For some among us that was the last joyous shout. At that moment a yell from savage throats filled the air, and the thunder of hoofs shook the ground. Over the west ridge, half a mile away, five hundred Indians came swooping like a hurricane down upon us. And we numbered, altogether, twenty-nine. I can see that charge to-day: the blinding, yellow sky, the ridge melting into a cloud of tawny dust, the surge of ponies with their riders bending low above them; fronting them, our little group of cavalrymen formed into a hollow square, on foot, about our mounts; the Indians riding, in a wide circle around us, with blankets flapping, and streamer-decked lances waving high. And as I see, I hear again that wild, unearthly shriek and taunting yell and fiendish laughter. From every point the riflle-balls poured in upon us, while out of buffalo wallow and from behind each prairie-dog hillock a surge of arrows from unmounted Indians swept up against us. I had been on battle-fields before, but this was a circle out of hell set ’round us there. And every man of of knew, as we sent back ball for ball, what capture here would mean for us before the merciful hand of death would seal our eyes.
Suddenly, as we moved forward, the frantic circle halted and a hundred braves came dashing in a fierce charge upon us. Their leader, mounted on a great, white horse, rode daringly ahead, calling his men to follow him, and taunting us with cowardice. He spoke good English, and his voice rang clear and strong above the din of that strange struggle. Straight on he came, without once looking back, a revolver in each hand, firing as he rode. A volley from our carbines made his fellows stagger, then waver, break, and run. Not so the rider of the splendid white horse, who dared us to strike him down as he dashed full at us.
“Come on, you coward Clarenden boys, and I’ll fight you both. I’ve waited all these years to do it. I dare you. Oh, I dare you!”
It was Charlie Bent.
Nine balls from Clarenden carbines flew at him. Beverly and I were listed among the cleverest shots in Kansas, but not one ball brought harm to the daring outlaw. A score of bullets sung about his insolent face, but his seemed a charmed life. Right on he forged, over our men, and through the square to the Indian’s circle on the other side, his mocking laughter ringing as he rode. A bloody scalp hung from his spear, and, turning ’round just out of range of our fire, shaking his trophy high, he shouted back:
“We got all of the balance of your men. We’ll get you yet.”
The sun glared fiercely on the bare, brown earth. A burning thirst began to parch our lips. We had had no food nor drink for more than twenty hours. Our horses, wounded with many arrows, were harder to care for than our brave, stricken men.
Night came upon the canons of the Prairie Dog, and with the darkness the firing ceased. Somewhere, not far away, there might be a wagon-train with food for us. And somewhere near there might be a hundred men or more of our command trying to reach us. But, whether the force and supplies were safe or the wagons were captured and all our comrades killed, as Charlie Bent had said, we could not know. We only knew that we had no food; that one man, and all but four of our cavalry horses lay dead out in the valley; that two men in our midst were slowly dying, and a dozen others suffering from wounds of battle, among these our captain and Scout Pliley; that we were in a wild, strange land, with Indians perching, vulture-like, on every hill-top, waiting for dawn to come to seize their starving prey.
We heard an owl hoot here and there, and farther off an answering hoot; a coyote’s bark, a late bird’s note, another coyote, and a fainter hoot, all as night settled. And we knew that owl and coyote and twilight song-bird were only imitations–sentinel signals from point to point, where Indian videttes guarded every height, watching the trail with shadow-piercing eyes.
The glossy cottonwood leaves, in the faint night breeze, rippled like pattering rain-drops on dry roofs in summertime, and the thin, willow boughs swayed gently over us. The full moon swept grandly up the heavens, pouring a flood of softened light over the valley of the Prairie Dog, whose steep bluffs were guarded by a host of blood-lusting savages, and whose canons locked in a handful of intrepid men.
If we could only slip out, undiscovered, in the dark we might find our command somewhere along the creek. It was a perilous thing to undertake, but to stay there was more perilous.
“Say, Gail,” Beverly whispered, when we were in motion, “somebody said once, ‘There have been no great nations without processions,’ but this is the darndest procession I ever saw to help to make a nation great. Hold on, comrade. There! Rest on my arm a bit. It makes it softer.”
The last words to a wounded soldier for whom Bev’s grip eased the ride.
It was a strange procession, and in that tragic gloom the boy’s light-hearted words were balm to me.
Silently and slowly we moved forward. The underbrush was thick on either side of the narrow, stony way that wound between sheer cliffs. We had torn up our blankets and shirts to muffle the horses’ feet, that no sound of hoofs, striking upon the rocky path, might reach the ears of the Cheyenne and his allies crouching watchfully above us. At the head marched Captain Jenness and Scout Pliley, each with his carbine for a crutch and leaning on each other for support. Followed five soldiers as front guard through the defile. And then four horses, led by careful hands, bearing nine suffering, silent men upon their backs. Two of the horses carried three, and one bore two, and the last horse, one–a dying boy, whispering into my ear a message for his mother, as I held his hand. Behind us came the sergeants with the remainder, for rear-guard. And so we passed, mile after mile, winding in and out, to find some sheltering spot where, sinking in exhaustion, we might sleep.
The midnight winds grew chill, and the tense strain of that slow march was maddening, but not a groan came from the wounded men. The vanguards of the plains knew how to take perilous trails and hold their peace.
When the sun rose on the second day the hills about us swarmed with savages, whose demoniac yells rent the air. Leonidas had his back against a rock at old Thermopylae, but our Kansas plainsmen fought in a ring of fire.
At day-dawn, our brave scout, Pliley, slipped away, and, after long hours among the barren hills, he found the main command.
Men never gave up hope in the plains warfare, but each of us had saved one bullet for himself, if we must lose this game. The time for that last bullet had almost come when the sight of cavalrymen on a distant ridge told us that our scout was on its way to us again. It took a hero’s heart to thread unseen the dangerous trails and find our comrades with the cavalry major and bring back aid, but Pliley did it for us–a man’s part. May the sod rest lightly where he sleeps to-day.
Meantime, on the day before, the main force of our cavalry, who had given us up for lost, had had their own long, fearful struggle. In the early morning, Lieutenant Stahl, scouting forward in an open plain, rushed back to give warning of Indians everywhere. And they were everywhere–a thousand strong against a feeble hundred caught in their midst. They rode like centaurs, and their aim was deadly true as they poured down, a murderous avalanche, from every hillslope. Their ponies’ tails, sweeping the ground, lengthened by long horse-hair braids, with sticks thrust through at intervals by way of ornament; their waving blankets, and streamered lances held aloft; the savage roar from ten hundred throats; the mad impetus of their furious charge through clouds of dust and rifle smoke–all made the valley of the Prairie Dog seem but a seething hell bursting with fiendins shouts, shot through with quivering arrows, shattered by bullets, rocked with the thunderous beat of horses’ hoofs, trampling it into one great maelstrom of blood and dirt.
All day, with neither food nor water, amid bewildering bluffs and gorges, alive with savage warriors, the cavalrymen had striven desperately. Night fell, and in the clear moonlight they forced their way across the Prairie Dog, and neither man nor horse dared to stop to drink because an instant’s pause meant death.
And the evening and the morning were the first day. And the second was like unto it, albeit we were no longer a triangle, made up of wagon-train here and main command there, and our twenty-nine–less two lost ones–under Captain Jenness, at a third point. Before noon, our force was all united and we joined hands for the finish.
Beverly and I rode side by side all day. Everywhere around us the half-breed, Charlie Bent, dashed boldly on his big, white horse calling us cowardly dogs and taunting us with lack of marksmanship.
“I’m getting tired of that fellow, Gail. I’ll pick his horse out from under him pretty soon, see if I don’t.” My cousin called to me as Bent’s insolent cry burst forth:
“Come out, and let me show you how to shoot.”
Beverly leaped out toward the Indian horde surrounding Bent. He raised his carbine, and with steady aim, fired far across the field of battle, the cleanest shot I ever saw. Years ago my cousin had urged Uncle Esmond to let him practise shooting on horseback. He was a master of the art now. Charlie Bent’s splendid white steed fell headlong, hurling its rider to the ground and dragging him, face downward, in the dirt.
I cannot paint that day’s deeds with my pen, nor ever artist lived whose brush could reproduce it. If we should lose here, it meant the turning of the clock from morning back to midnight on the Kansas plains.
Between this and the safety of the prairies stood fewer than a hundred and fifty men, against a thousand warriors, led by cunning half-breeds skilled in the white man’s language and the red man’s fiendishness.
If we should lose–We did not go out there to lose. When each man does a man’s part there is no failure possible at last.
As the sun sank toward late afternoon, the savage force massed for its great, crushing blow that should annihilate us. The strong center, made up of the flower of every tribe engaged, was on the crest of a long, westward-reaching slope, a splendid company of barbaric warriors–strong, eager, vengeful, doggedly determined to finish now the struggle with the power they hated.
The air was very clear, and in its crystal distances we could see every movement and hear each command.
The valley rang with the taunts and jeers and threats and mocking laughter of our foes, daring us to come out and meet them face to face, like men. And we went out and met them face to face, like men.
A little force of soldiery fighting, not for ourselves, but for the hearthstones of a nobler people, our cavalry swung up that long, western slope in the face of a murderous fire, into the very heart of Cheyenne strength, enforced by all the iron of the allied tribes. I marvel at it now, when, in solid phalanx, our foes might easily have mowed us down like a thin line of standing grain; for their numbers seemed unending, while flight on flight of arrows and fierce sheets of rifle-fire swept our ranks as we rode on to death or victory. But each man’s face among us there was bright with courage, and with our steady force unchecked we swept right on to the very crest of the high slope, scattering the enemy, at last, like wind-blown autumn leaves, until upon our guidons victory rested and the long day was won.
XX
GONE OUT
I wander alone at dead of night,
But ever before me I see a light, In darkest hours more clear, more bright; And the hope that I bear fails never.
FREDRICH RUeCKERT.
The waters of the Smoky Hill flowed yellow, flecked with foam, beside our camp, where, in a little grove of cottonwood trees, we rested from a long day’s march. The heat of a late Kansas summer day was fanned away at twilight by the cool prairie breeze. There was an appealing something in the air that evening hour that made me homesick. So I went down beside the river to fight out my daily battle and let the wide spaces of the landscape soothe me, and all the opal tints of sunset skies and the soft radiance of a prairie twilight bring me their inspiration.
Each day my heart-longing for the girl I must not love grew stronger. I wondered, as I sat here to-night, what trail would open for me when Beverly and Eloise should meet again, as lovers must meet some time. We had not once spoken her name between us, Bev and I, in all the days and nights since we had been in service on the plains.
As I sat lonely, musing vaguely of a score of things that all ran back to one fair face, Beverly dropped down beside me. His face was grave and his eyes had a gentle, pleading look, something strange and different from the man whose moods I knew.
“I’m homesick, Gail.” He smiled as he spoke, and all the boy of all the years was in that smile.
“So am I, Bev. It must be in the water here,” I replied, lightly.
But neither one misunderstood the other.
“I’d like to see Little Lees to-night. Wouldn’t you?” he asked, suddenly.
The question startled me. Maybe my cousin wanted to confide in me here. I would not be selfish with him.
“Yes, I always like to see her. Why to-night, though?” I asked, encouragingly.
Beverly looked steadily into my face.
“I want to tell you something, Gail. I haven’t dared to speak before, but something tells me I should speak to-night,” he said slowly.
I looked away along the winding valley of the Smoky Hill. I must hear it some time. Why be a coward now?
“Say on, I’m always ready to hear anything from you, Beverly.”
I tried to speak firmly, and I hoped my voice did not seem faltering to him. He sat silent a long while. Then he rose and straightened to his full height–a splendid form of strength and wholesomeness and grace.
“I’ll tell you some time soon, but not to-night. Honor is something with me yet.”
And so he left me.
I dreamed of him that night with Eloise. And all of us were glad. I wakened suddenly. Beverly was standing near me. He turned and walked away, his upright form and gait, even in the faint light, individually Bev’s own. I saw him lie down and draw his blanket about him, then sit up a moment, then nestle down again. Something went wrong with sleep and me for a long time, and once I called out, softly:
“Bev, can’t you sleep?”
“Oh, shut up! Not if you fidget about me,” he replied, with the old happy-go-lucky toss of the head and careless tone.
It was dim dawn when I wakened. My cousin was sleeping calmly just a few feet away. An irresistible longing to speak to him overcame me and I slipped across and gently kicked the slumbering form. Two cavalry blankets rolled apart. A note pinned to the edge of one caught my eye. I stooped to read:
DEAR GAIL, Don’t hate me. I’m sick of army life. They will call me a coward and if they get me they will shoot me for a deserter. I have disgraced the Clarenden name. You’ll never see me again. Good-bye, old boy.
BEV.
Deserter!
The yells of all the tribes in the battle on the Prairie Dog Creek shrieked not so fiercely in my ears as that word rang now. And all the valley of the Smoky Hill echoed and re-echoed it.
Deserter!
My Beverly–who never told a lie, nor feared a danger, nor ever, except in self-defense, hurt a creature God had made. I could bury Bev, or stand beside him on his wedding-day. But Beverly disgraced! O, God of mercy toward all cowards, pity him!
I sat down beside the blankets I had kicked apart and looked back over my cousin’s life. It offered me no help. I thought of Eloise–and his longing to see her on the night before; of his struggle to tell me something. I knew now what that something was. Poor boy!
He was not a boy, he was a man–strong, fearless, happy-hearted. How could the plains make cowards out of such as he? They had made a man of Jondo, who had all excuse to play the coward. The mystery of the human mind is a riddle past my reading–and I had always thought of Beverly’s as an open book. The only one to whom I could turn now was not Eloise, nor my uncle, nor Mat nor Rex, but Jondo, John Doe, the nameless man, with whom Esmond Clarenden had walked all these years and for whose sake he had rescued Eloise St. Vrain. They had “toted together,” as Aunty Boone had said. Oh, Aunty Boone with dull eyes of prophecy! I could hear her soft voice saying:
“If you get into trouble, Mr. Bev, I come, hot streaks, to help you.”
She could not come “hot streaks” now, for Beverly had deserted. But there was Jondo.
I wrote at once to him, inclosing the crumpled note, and then, as one who walks with neither sight nor feeling any more, I rode the plains and did a man’s part in that Eighteenth Cavalry campaign of ’67. The days went slowly by, bringing the long, bright autumn beauty to the plains and turning all the elms to gold along the creek at Burlingame. Time took away the sharp edge from our grief and shame, and left the dull pain that wears deeper and deeper, unnoticed by us; and all of us who had loved Beverly lived on and were cheerful for one another’s sake.
When Jondo–as only Jondo could–bore the news of my letter to Esmond Clarenden, he made no reply, but sat like an image of stone. Rex Krane broke down and sobbed as if his heart would break. But Mat, calm, poised, and always merciful, merely said:
“We must wait awhile.”
It was many days before she broke the news to Eloise St. Vrain, who only smiled and said:
“Gail is mistaken. Beverly couldn’t desert.”
It was when the word came to Aunty Boone that the storm broke. They told me afterward that her face was terrible to see, and that her eyes grew dull and narrow. She went out to the bluff’s edge and sat staring up the valley of the Kaw as if to see into the hidden record of the coming years.
One October day, when the Kranes and Eloise sat with my uncle and Jondo in the soft afternoon air, looking out at the beauty of the Missouri bluffs, Aunty Boone loomed up before them suddenly.
“I got somebody’s fortune, just come clear before me,” she declared, in her soft voice. “Lemme see you’ hand, Little Lees!”
Eloise put her shapely white hand upon the big, black paw.
Aunty Boone patted it gently, the first and last caress she ever gave to any of us.
“You’ goin’ to get a letter from a dark man. You’ goin’ to take a long journey. And somebody goin’ with you. An’ the one tellin’ this is goin’ away, jus’ one more voyage to desset sands again, and see Africy and her own kingdom. Whoo-ee!”
Never before, in all the years that we had known her, had she expressed a wish for her early home across he seas. Her voice trailed off weirdly, and she gazed at the Kaw Valley for a long moment. Then she said, in a low tone that thrilled her listeners with its vibrant power:
“Bev ain’t no deserter. He’s gone out! Jus’ gone out. Whoo-ee!”
She disappeared around the corner of the house and stood long in the little side porch where Beverly had kissed Little Blue Flower one night in the “Moon of the Peach-Blossom,” and Eloise had found them there, and I had unwittingly heard what was said.
“Is there no variation in palmistry?” Rex Krane asked. “I never knew a gypsy in all my life who read a different set of prophecies. It’s always the dark man–I’m light (darn the luck)–and a journey and a letter. But I thought maybe an African seer, a sort of Voodo, hoodoo, bugaboo, would have it a light man and a legacy and company coming, instead of you taking a journey, Eloise.”
Eloise smiled.
“You musn’t envy me my good fortune, Rex,” she declared. “Aunty Boone says she is going back to Africa, too. You’ll need a new cook, Uncle Esmond. Let me apply for the place right now.”
My uncle smiled affectionately on her.
“I could give you a trial, as I gave her. I remember I told her if she could cook good meals I’d keep her; if not, she’d leave. Do you want to take the risk?”
“That’s where you’ll get your journey of the prophecy, Eloise,” Jondo suggested.
“Well, you leave out the best part of it all,” Mat broke in. “She added that Beverly isn’t a deserter, he’s just ‘gone out.’ Why don’t you believe it all, serious or frivolous?”
A shadow lifted from the faces there as a glimpse of hope came slowly in.
“And as to letters, Eloise,” Uncle Esmond said, “I must beg your pardon. I have one here for you that I had forgotten. It came this morning.”
“See if it isn’t from a dark man, inviting you to take a journey,” Rex suggested.
“It must be, it’s from Santa Fe,” Eloise said, opening the letter eagerly.
Aunty Boone had come back again and was standing by the corner of the veranda, half hidden by vines, watching Eloise with steady eyes. The girl’s face grew pale, then deadly white, and her big, dark eyes were opened wide as she dropped the letter and looked at the faces about her.
“It is from Father Josef,” she gasped. “He writes of Little Blue Flower somewhere in Hopi-land. He asks me to go to Santa Fe at once for her sake. And it says, too–” The voice faltered and Eloise turned to Esmond Clarenden. “It says that Beverly is there somewhere and he wants you. Read it, Uncle Esmond.”
As Eloise rose and laid the letter in my uncle’s hand, Aunty Boone, hidden by the vines, muttered in her soft, strange tone:
“He’s jus’ gone out. Thank Jupiter! He’s jus’ gone out. I’m goin’, hot streaks, to help him, too. Then I go to my own desset where I’m honin’ o to be, an’ stay there till the judgment Day. Whoo-ee!”
In the early morning of a rare October day upon the plains I sat on my cavalry horse beside Fort Hays, waiting for one last word from my superior officer, Colonel Moore. He was my uncle’s friend, and he had been kind to the Clarenden boys, as military kindness runs.
“You are honorably discharged,” he said. “Take these letters to Fort Dodge. You will meet your friends there, and have some safeguard from there on, by order of General Sheridan. God bless you, Gail. You have ridden well. I wish you a safe journey, and I hope you’ll find your cousin soon. He was a splendid boy until this happened. He may be cleared some day.”
“He is splendid still to me in spite of everything,” I replied.
“Yes, yes,” my colonel responded. “Never a Clarenden disgraced the name before. That is why General Sheridan is granting you a squad to help you. It is a great thing to have a good name. Good-by.”
“Good-by. I thank you a thousand times,” I said, saluting him.
“And I thank you. A chain, you know, is as strong as its weakest link. A cavalry troop is as able as its soldiers make it.”
He turned his horse about, and I rode off alone across the lonely plains a hundred miles away toward old Fort Dodge, beside the Arkansas River. Jondo and Rex were to meet me there for one more trip on the long Santa Fe Trail.
Late September rains had blessed the valley of the Arkansas. The level land about Fort Dodge showed vividly green against the yellow sand-hills across the river, and the brown, barren bluffs westward, where a little city would one day rise in pretty picturesqueness. The scene was like the Garden of Eden to my eyes when I broke through the rough ridges to the north on the last lap of my long ride thither and hurried down to the fort. I grant I did not appear like one who had a right to enter Eden, for I was as brown as a Malayan. Nearly four months of hard riding, sleeping on the ground, with a sky-cover, eating buffalo meat, and drinking the dregs of slow-drying pools, had made a plainsman of me, of the breed that long since disappeared. Golf-sticks and automobile steering-wheels are held by hands to-day no less courageous than those that swung the carbine into place, and flung aside the cavalry bridle-rein in a wild onslaught in our epic day. Each age grows men, flanked by the coward and the reckless daredevil.
Rex Krane was first to recognize me when I reached the fort.
“Oh, we are all here but Mat: Clarenden, Jondo, Aunty Boone, and Little Lees; and a squad of half a dozen cavalry men are ready to go with us.” Rex drawled in his old Yankee fashion, hiding an aching heart underneath his jovial greeting.
“All of us!” I exclaimed.
“Yes. Here they all come!” Rex retorted.
They all came, but I saw only one, veiling the joy in my eyes as best I could. For with the face of Eloise before me, I knew the hardest battle of my life was calling me to colors. I had forgotten how womanly she was, or else her summer by the blessed prairies that lap up to the edge of the quiet town of Burlingame had brought her peace and helped her to put away sad memories of her mother.
Behind her–a black background for her fair, golden head–was Aunty Boone.
“Our girl was called to Santa Fe, and Daniel here goes with her. I couldn’t stay behind, of course,” my uncle said. “The Comanches are making trouble all along the Cimarron, and we will go up the Arkansas by the old trail route. It is farther, but the soldiers say much safer right now, and maybe just as quick for us. There is no load of freight to hinder us–two wagons and our mounts. Besides, the cavalrymen have some matters to look after near the mountains, or we might not have had their protection granted us.”
The beauty of that early autumn on the plains and mountains lingers in my memory still, though half a century has passed since that journey on the old, long trail to Santa Fe.
At the closing of an Indian summer day we pitched our camp outside the broken walls of old Fort Bent. Every day found me near Eloise, although the same barrier was between us that had risen up the day she left me in the ruined chapel by the San Christobal River. Every day I longed to tell her what Beverly had said to me the night he–went out. It was due her that she should know how tenderly he had thought of her.
The night was irresistible, soft and balmy for the time of year, as that night had been long ago when we children were marooned inside this stronghold. A thin, growing moon hung in the crystal heavens and all the shadowy places were softened with gray tones. Jondo and Uncle Esmond and Rex Krane were talking together. Aunty Boone was clearing up after the evening meal. The soldiers were about their tasks or pastimes. Only Eloise and I were left beside the camp-fire.
“Let’s go and find the place where we spent our last evening here, Little Lees,” I said, determined to-night to tell her of Beverly.
“And just as many other places as we can remember,” Eloise replied.
We clambered over heaps of fallen stone in the wide doorway, and stood inside the half-roofless ruin that had been a stronghold at the wilderness crossroads.
The outer walls were broken here and there. The wearing elements were slowly separating the inner walls and sagging roofs. Heaps of debris lay scattered about. Over the caving well the well-sweep stuck awry, marking a place of danger. Everywhere was desolation and slow destruction.
We sat down on some fallen timbers in the old court and looked about us.
“It was a pity that Colonel Bent should have blown up this splendid fortress, and all because the Government wouldn’t pay him his price for it,” I declared.
“Destroyed what he had built so carefully, and what was so useful,” Eloise commented. “Sometimes we wreck our lives in the same way.”
I have said the twilight seemed to fit her best, although at all times she was fair. But to-night she was a picture in her traveling dress of golden brown, with soft, white folds about her throat. I wondered if she thought of Beverly as she spoke. It hurt me so to be harsh with his memory.
“Yes, Charlie Bent blew up all that the Colonel built into him, of education and the ways of cultured folks–a leader of a Dog Indian band, he is a piece of manhood wrecked. And by the way,” I went on, “Beverly shot his beautiful white horse on the Prairie Dog Creek. You should have seen that shot. It was the cleanest piece of long-range marksmanship I ever saw. He hated Bev for that.”
“Maybe he gloats over our lost Beverly to-day. He is only ‘gone out’ to me,” Eloise said softly.
“Let me tell you something, Little Lees. Beverly and I never spoke of you–you can guess why–until that last night beside the Smoky Hill. He wanted to tell me something that night.”
“And did he?” Eloise asked, eagerly.
“No. He said honor was something with him still. I thought he meant to tell me of himself and you. Forgive me. I do not want any confidences not freely given. But now I know it was the struggle in which he went down that night that he wanted to tell me about. He said first, ‘I’m homesick. I’d like to see Little Lees.’ And his eyes were full of sympathy as he looked at me.”
“Did he say anything more?” Eloise’s voice was almost a whisper.
“That was all. I thought that night I should hunt a lonely trail–when he went home to claim–happiness. But now I feel that I could live