be dreadful to be sent to sea!”
“I don’t know. I’d as lief be there as anywhere else, if I can’t see you!”
“But you will see me sometimes. We can’t meet any more as we go to school; but we’ll see each other often, Andrew.”
These words lifted much of the heavy weight that pressed on the feelings of the boy.
“When will we see each other?” he asked.
“I don’t know,” replied Emily. “Father said we musn’t meet going to school; but there will be other chances. Good-by! I wouldn’t like father to see me here, for then he would think me a very disobedient girl.”
And saying this, Emily turned and ran fleetly away. Andrew’s feelings were relieved from the pressure that rested upon them. Still he felt angry and indignant at Mr. Winters, and this state increasing rather than subsiding, tended to encourage other states of mind that were not good. With a feeling of rebellion in his heart he returned home, where he found no difficulty in provoking some reaction, and in falling under the quickly excited displeasure of his father, who was ever more inclined to seek than overlook causes of reproof. The consequence was, that when he left home for school in the afternoon he felt little inclination to attend, and, after a slight debate, yielded to this inclination. A little forbearance and kindness would have softened the child’s feelings, and prompted him to enter the right way. But the iron hand was never relaxed, and there was no room beneath it for the crushed heart of the boy to swell with better impulses.
At supper time, on that evening, the boy was absent. He should have been at home nearly two hours before.
“Where is Andrew?” asked Mr. Howland, as they gathered at the table.
“I’m sure I don’t know,” replied Mrs. Howland, in a voice touched with a deeper concern than usual.
“Has he been home since school was dismissed?”
“No.”
“Was there ever such a boy!” exclaimed Mr. Howland.
“Most probably he has been kept in,” suggested the mother.
“Edward, go round to the house of his teacher and ask if he was dismissed at five o’clock,” said Mr. Howland.
Edward left the table and went on his errand. He soon returned with word that Andrew had not been to school all day.
Knife and fork fell from the hands of Mr. Howland, and the mother’s face instantly grew pale.
“I felt troubled about him all day,” murmured the latter.
“He was home at dinner time?” said Mr. Howland, as he pushed his chair back from the table.
“Yes.”
“Oh dear!–oh dear! What is to become of him? I’ve tried everything in my power to restrain him from evil, but all is of no avail.”
Just at this moment the street-door bell was rung very violently. As each one paused to listen, and the room became perfectly silent, the murmur of many voices could be heard in the street. For a few moments all was breathless expectation. The sound of the servant’s feet, as she moved along the passage to the door, throbbed on each heart, and then all sprung from their chairs, as a cry of distress was uttered by the servant, followed by men’s voices, and the entrance of a crowd of people.
Poor Mrs. Howland sunk to the floor, nerveless, while Mr. Howland sprung quickly out of the room. The story was soon told. Andrew had been out on the river with some other boys in a boat, from which he had fallen into the water, and was now brought home to his parents, to all appearance, lifeless. It proved in the end that vitality was only suspended; after an hour’s unremitted effort, by a skillful physician, the circle of life went on again.
The shock of this event somewhat subdued the mind of Mr. Howland. He felt utterly discouraged about the boy. While in this state of discouragement, he refrained from saying anything to him about his bad conduct. Indeed, in view of this second narrow escape from death, his feelings were a good deal softened toward Andrew, and something like pity took the place of anger. During the two days that the lad was convalescing, his father said little to him; but what little he did say was spoken kindly, and with more of a parental sentiment therein than had been apparent for years. Electrically did this sentiment reach the heart of Andrew. Once when Mr. Howland took his hand, and asked in a kind voice how he felt, tears rushed to his eyes, and his lips quivered so that he could not reply. This was perceived by Mr. Howland, and he felt that his boy was not altogether given over to hardness of heart. In that moment Andrew promised in his own mind, that in future he would be a more obedient boy.
Unhappily, Mr. Howland attributed this subdued and better state of feeling in his son, to the narrow escape from drowning that he had had, and not to the real cause–the change of his own manner toward him. Through the feeble moving of sympathy and kindness in his own heart, there was the beginning of power over the perverse boy, and this power might have been exercised, had the father possessed enough of wisdom and self-denial, until he had gained a complete control over him. But alas! he did not possess this wisdom and self-denial. He was a hard man, and believed in no virtue but that of force. He could drive, but not lead. He could hold with an iron hand, but not restrain by a voice full of the power of kindness. Before the close of the second day he spoke harshly to Andrew, and did, thereby, such violence to the boy’s feelings, that he turned his face from him and wept.
On the third day after the accident Andrew went back to school, and continued, for a time, to go punctually and to attend (sic) dilligently to his studies. But soon the angry reaction of his father, against little acts of thoughtlessness or disobedience, threw him back into his old state, and he was as bad as ever.
CHAPTER VII.
THUS the struggle went on, Mr. Howland’s power to control his boy growing less and less every year. Naturally, considering the relation of the two families of Mr. Howland and Mr. Winters, and the bad reputation of the son of the former, the intercourse between Andrew and Emily was more and more restricted. Still their friendship for each other remained, to a certain extent, undiminished, and they met as often as favorable circumstances would permit. To Emily, the kind feelings entertained for the wayward boy proved sources of frequent unhappiness. Few opportunities for speaking against him were omitted by her parents, and she never heard his name coupled with words of censure without feeling pain. One half that was said of him she did not believe; for she saw more of the bright side of his character than did any one else.
As before intimated, by the time Emily gained her sixteenth year, she had developed so far toward womanhood, that Andrew, who still remained a slender boy in appearance, felt his heart tremble as he looked upon her, and thought of the distance this earlier development had placed between them. And even a greater distance was beginning to exist–the distance that lies between a pure mind and one that is corrupt. As Andrew grew older, he grew worse, and the sphere of his spiritual quality began to be felt, oppressively, at times, by Emily, during the periods of their brief intercourse. Moreover, she was ever hearing some evil thing laid to his charge. At length their intimate intercourse came to an end, and, with the termination of this, was removed the last restraint that held the lad in bounds of external propriety. The cause of this termination we will relate: As Andrew grew older, he grew more and more self-willed, and strayed farther and farther from the right way. Social in his feelings, he sought the companionship of boys of his own age, and by the time he was seventeen, had formed associations of a very dangerous character. Though positively forbidden by his father to be out after night, he disregarded the injunction, and went from home almost every evening. At home there was nothing to attract him; nothing to give him pleasure. A shadow was ever on the brow of his father, and this threw a gloom over the entire household. But, abroad, among his companions, he found a hundred things to interest him. All license tends toward further extremes. It was not long before Andrew found ten o’clock at night too early for him. The theatre was a place positively interdicted by his parents; and, restrained by some lingering respect for his mother’s feelings, Andrew had, up to the age of seventeen, resisted the strong desire he felt to see a play. At last, however, he yielded to temptation, and went to the theatre. On returning home about eleven o’clock, he found his father sitting up for him. To the stern interrogation as to where he had been so late, he replied with equivocation, and finally with direct falsehood.
“Andrew,” said Mr. Howland, at length, speaking with unusual severity of tone, and with a deliberation and emphasis that indicated a higher degree of earnestness than usual, “if you are out again until after ten o’clock, you remain out all night. To this my mind is fully made up. So act your own good pleasure.”
The father and son then separated.
Ten o’clock came on the next night, and Andrew had not returned. For the half hour preceding the stroke of the clock, Mr. Howland had walked the floor uneasily, with his ear harkening anxiously for the sound of the bell that marked his son’s return; and, as the time drew nearer and nearer, he half repented the utterance of a law, that, if broken, could not, he feared, but result in injury to the disobedient boy. At last the clock struck ten. He paused and stood listening for over a minute; then he resumed his walk again, and continued his measured paces for over ten minutes longer, intending to give his erring son the benefit of that space of time. But he yielded thus much in his favor in vain. Anger at this deliberate disobedience of a positive order then displaced a portion of anxiety, and he closed, mentally, the door upon his child for that night.
Of his purpose, Mr. Howland said nothing to his wife. He hoped that she would be asleep before Andrew returned, if he returned at all before morning. But in this his hope was not realized. The fact of Andrew’s having staid out so late on the night before had troubled her all day, and she had made up her mind to sit up for him now until he came home.
“Come, Esther, it is time to go to bed,” said Mr. Howland to his wife, seeing that she made no motion towards retiring.
“You go. I will sit up for Andrew,” was replied.
“Andrew can’t come in, to-night,” said Mr. Howland.
The mother sprung to her feet instantly; her face flushing, and then becoming very pale.
“I told him, last night, that if he staid out again until after ten o’clock, there would be no admission for him until morning. And I shall assuredly keep my word!”
“Oh, Andrew! Don’t, don’t do this!” pleaded the unhappy mother, in a low, choking voice. “Would you turn an erring son from your door, when danger is hovering around him?”
“He turns himself away. The act is his, not mine,” replied Mr. Howland, coldly.
As he spoke, the bell rung.
“There he is, now!” exclaimed the mother, starting toward the door.
“Esther!” Mr. Howland stept in front of his wife, and, looking sternly in her face, added, “Havn’t I just said that there was no entrance for him, to-night?”
“But it’s early! It’s only a few minutes after ten,” eagerly replied the mother.
“It’s past ten o’clock, and that settles the matter,” returned Mr. Howland.
“But where will he go?” asked the mother.
“To the Station House, if he can find no better place. To-morrow he will most probably have a higher appreciation of the comforts of home.”
As Mr. Howland closed this sentence, the bell rung again.
“Andrew! I must let him in!” exclaimed the mother, in a tone of anguish, and she made a movement to pass her husband. But a strong hand was instantly laid upon her arm, and a stern voice said–
“Don’t interfere with me in this matter, Esther! As the father of that wayward boy, it is my duty to control him.”
“This is driving him from his home; not controlling him!”
“I’ll bear the responsibility of what I am doing,” said Mr. Howland, impatiently. “Why will you interfere with me in this way?”
“Is he not _my_ son also?” inquired Mrs. Howland, passing, in her distress of mind, beyond the ordinary spirit of her intercourse with her self-willed husband.
“I am his father,” coldly replied the latter, “and knowing my duty toward him, shall certainly do it.”
The bell was rung again at this moment, and more loudly than before.
“Oh, Andrew! let me beg of you to open the door!” And Mrs. Howland clasped her hands imploringly, and lifted her eyes running over with tears to her husband’s face.
“It cannot be opened to-night, Esther!” was the firm reply. “Have I not said this over and over again. Why will you continue these importunities? They are of no avail.”
A loud knocking on the street door was now heard. By this time, a servant who had retired came down from her room and was moving along the passage, when Mr. Howland intercepted her, with the question–
“Where are you going?”
“Some one rung the bell,” replied the servant.
“Never mind; go back to your room. You needn’t open the door.”
“Andrew isn’t in yet,” said the servant, respectfully.
“Didn’t I say, go back to your room?” returned Mr. Howland, in a sharp voice.
Twice more the bell was rung, and twice more the knocking was repeated. Then all remained silent.
“Come, Esther!” said Mr. Howland to his wife, who was sitting on a sofa, with her face buried in her hands. “Let us go up stairs. It is late.”
The mother did not stir.
“Esther! did you hear me?”
Slowly, more like a moving automaton than a living creature, did Mrs. Howland arise from her place, and follow her husband up to their chamber. There, without uttering a word, she partially disrobed herself, and getting into bed, buried her tearful face in a pillow. Mr. Howland was soon by her side. Both lay without moving for nearly half an hour, and then the heavy respiration of the husband told that he was asleep. The moment this was apparent, Mrs. Howland, who had lain as still as if locked in deep slumber, crept softly from the bed, and then, with a quick, eager motion, commenced putting on a wrapper. This done, she drew a pair of slippers on her feet, glided noiselessly from the room, and hurried down to the street door, which she softly opened.
The mother had hoped to find her erring son still there. But, as she looked anxiously forth into the darkness, no human form was perceived.
“Andrew!” she called, in a low voice, as she stepped from the door, and threw her eyes up and down the street: “Andrew!”
But all was silent. Descending to the pavement, she passed along a few yards to the steps of the next house, a faint hope in her mind that Andrew might have seated himself there in his disappointment and fallen asleep. But this hope was not realized. Then she passed on to the next house, and the next, with the same purpose and the same result. She was near the corner of the street, when the sound of a closing door fell upon her ear, and the thought that the wind might have shut her own door upon her, filled her with sudden alarm. Running back, she found that what she had feared was too true. She was alone in the street, half-dressed and with her head uncovered, and the door, which closed with a dead-latch, shut against her.
To ring the bell was Mrs. Howland’s first impulse. But no one answered to the summons. Every ear was sealed in slumber, and, even were that not the case, no one would come down, unless her husband should awaken, and discover that she was not by his side. Again and again she pulled the bell. But eagerly though she listened, with her ear to the door, not the slightest movement was heard within.
While the mother shrunk close to the door in a listening attitude, the sound of a slow, heavy step was heard approaching along the street. Soon the form of a man came in view, and in a little while he was in front of Mrs. Howland, where he paused, and after standing and looking at her for a few moments, said,
“What’s the matter here?”
Mrs. Howland trembled so, that she could make no answer.
The man put his hand on the iron railing, and lifted one foot upon the stone steps leading to the door of the house, saying as he did so,
“Do you live here?”
“Yes!” was replied in a low, frightened voice.
Mrs. Howland now looking at the man more closely, perceived, by his dress, that he was one of the night policemen, and her heart took instant courage.
“Oh,” said she, forgetting, for the moment, the unpleasant circumstances by which she was surrounded, and turning to the man as she spoke, “have you seen anything of my son–of Mr. Howland’s son–about here to-night?”
“Mrs. Howland! Is it possible!” replied the man, in a respectful voice. Then he added, “I saw him go down the street about half an hour ago.”
“Did you! And do you know where he has gone?”
“No, ma’am. He passed on out of sight.”
A low moan escaped the mother’s lips at this intelligence. A few moments she stood silent, and then placed her hand upon the bell-pull and rung for admittance.
“Is the door locked?” asked the watchman, manifesting surprise.
“No; the wind blew it to, and it has become fastened with the dead-latch.”
Both stood silent for some time, but no one answered the bell. The night dews were falling upon the mother’s head, and the night air penetrating her thin garments. A shiver ran through her frame, and she felt a constriction of the chest as if she had inhaled sulphur. Again she rung the bell.
“Does no one know of your being out?” asked the watchman.
“All are asleep in the house,” replied Mrs. Howland.
At this the watchman came up the steps, and struck two or three heavy blows upon the door with his mace, the sound of which went reverberating through the house, and startling Mr. Howland from his slumber. But not perceiving immediately that his wife was absent from her place by his side, and thinking that his son had renewed his efforts to gain admission, the latter did not make a motion to rise. In a few moments, however, the repeated strokes of the mace, to which was added the loud call of a man in the street below caused him to start up in bed. He then perceived that his wife was not by his side. With an exclamation, he sprang upon the floor, and throwing up the window, called out–
“Who’s there?”
“Come down and open the door,” was answered by the watchman.
“Who wants to come in?” asked Mr. Howland, his mind beginning by this time to get a little clear from the confusion into which it was at first thrown.
“I do,” replied a voice that threw all into bewilderment again.
“Bless me! What does this mean!” exclaimed Mr. Howland, aloud, yet speaking to himself.
“Open the door, quickly,” called out Mrs. Howland, in a tone of distress. “Come down and let me in.”
Hurriedly Mr. Howland now dressed himself and went down. As he opened the door, his wife glided past him, and ran up stairs. The watchman retired without speaking to the confused and astonished husband, who, recovering his presence of mind, reclosed the door and followed his wife to their chamber.
“Esther! What is the meaning of all this?” asked Mr. Howland, with much severity of manner.
But there was no reply.
“Will you speak?” said he, in a tone of authority.
The home-tyrant had gone a step too far. The meek, patient, long-suffering, much enduring wife, was in no state of mind to bear further encroachments in the direction from which they were now coming. Suddenly she raised herself up from whence she had fallen across the bed, and looking at her husband with an expression that caused him to step back a pace, involuntarily answered.
“By what authority do you speak to me thus?”
“By the authority vested in me as your husband,” was promptly answered.
“I was on God’s errand, Mr. Howland; searching after the weak, the simple, and the erring! Have you anything to say against the mission? Does your authority reach above His?”
And the mother, lifting her hand, pointed trembling finger upward, while she fixed an eye upon her husband so steady that his own sunk beneath its gaze.
For the space of nearly a minute, the attitude of neither changed, nor was the silence broken. Twice during the time did Mr. Howland lift his eyes to those of his wife, and each time did they fall, after a few moments, under the strange half-defiant look they encountered. At last he said firmly, yet in a more subdued, though rebuking voice,
“This to me, Esther?”
“Am I not a mother?” was asked in response to this, yet without a perceptible tremor in her voice.
“You are a wife, as well as a mother,” replied Mr. Howland, “and, as a wife, are under a sacred obligation to regard the authority committed to your husband by God.”
“Have I not just said to you,” returned Mrs. Howland, “that I was on God’s errand? Does your authority go beyond His?”
“When did He speak to you?” There was a covert sneer in the tone with which this half impious interrogation was made.
“I heard his still, small voice in my mother’s heart,” replied Mrs. Howland, meekly, “and I went forth obedient thereto, to seek the straying child you had so harshly and erringly turned from your door: thus does God shut the door of Heaven against no wandering one who comes to it and knocks for entrance.”
“Esther! I will not hear such language from your lips!” There was an unsteadiness in the voice of Mr. Howland, that marked the effect his wife’s unexpected and searching words had produced.
“Then do not seek to stand between me and my duty as a mother,” was her firm reply. “Too long, already, have you placed yourself between me and this duty. But that time is past.”
As Mrs. Howland uttered these words, she passed across the room to a window, which she threw up, and leaning her body out, looked earnestly up and down the street. For a reaction like this Mr. Howland was not prepared. He was, in fact, utterly confounded. Had there been the smallest sign of irresolution on the part of his wife–the nearest appearance of weakness in the will so suddenly opposed to his own–he would have known what to do. But nothing of this was apparent, and he hesitated about advancing again to the contest, while there was so strong a doubt as to the issue.
For a long time Mr. Howland moved about the room, while his wife continued to sit, listening, at the window.
“Come, Esther,” said the former, at length, in a voice greatly changed from its tone when he last spoke. “You had better retire. It is useless to remain there. Besides, you are in danger of taking cold. The air is damp and chilly.”
“You can retire–I shall sleep none, to-night,” was answered to this. And then Mrs. Howland looked again from the window. “Where–where can he have gone?” she said aloud, though speaking to herself. “My poor, unhappy boy!”
Mr. Howland made no answer to this. He had no satisfying intelligence to offer, nor any words of comfort that it would be of avail to speak.
Thus the greater portion of that long remembered night was passed–Mrs. Howland sitting at the window, vainly waiting and watching for her son, and Mr. Howland walking the floor of the room, his mind given up to troubled and rebuking thoughts. In his hardness and self-will he had justified himself up to this in his course of conduct pursued toward his children; but he was in doubt now. A question as to whether he had been right or not had come into his mind, and disturbed him to the very centre.
CHAPTER VIII.
WHEN Mr. Howland threatened his son with exclusion from the house, if he were away at ten o’clock, Andrew’s feelings were in a state of reaction against his father, and he said to himself, in a rebellious spirit–
“We’ll see if you will.”
But after growing cooler, he came into a better state of mind; and, in view of consequences such as he knew would be visited on him, decided not to come in contact with his father in this particular–at least not for the present. If turned from his own door at midnight, where was he to find shelter? This question he could not answer to his own satisfaction.
After supper, on the evening succeeding that in which he had visited the theatre, Andrew left home and went to an engine-house. in the neighborhood, where he joined about a dozen lads and young men as idle and aimless as himself. With these he spent an hour or two, entering into their vicious and debasing conversation, when a person with whom he had gone to see the play on the previous evening, proposed to him to go around to the theatre again. Andrew objected that he had no money, but the other said that he could easily procure checks, and volunteered to ask for them. Still Andrew, whose thoughts were on the passing time, refused to go. He meant to be home before the clock struck ten.
“Come round with me, then,” urged the lad.
“What time is it?” asked Andrew.
“Only a little after nine o’clock,” was replied.
“Are you certain?”
“Oh, yes. I heard the clock strike a short time ago. It isn’t more than a quarter past nine.”
“I thought it was later than that.”
“No. It’s early yet; so, come along. I want to talk to you.”
Thus urged, Andrew went with the boy. The theatre was some distance away. Just as they reached it, a clock was heard to strike.
“Bless me!” exclaimed Andrew.
Three–four–five–six–seven–eight–nine–TEN!” And, as he uttered the last word, he started back the way he had come, running at full speed. It was ten o’clock–the hour he was required to be at home, under penalty of having the door closed against him. How troubled he felt! How strongly his heart beat! He had not intended to disregard his father’s command in this instance. In fact, during the day, he had reflected more than usual, and many good resolutions had formed themselves in his mind.
“I wish I could be better,” he said to himself involuntarily, a great many times. And then he would sigh as he thought of the difficulties that were in his way. At dinner time he came to the table with his feelings a good deal subdued. But it so happened, that, during the morning, Mr. Howland had heard of some impropriety of which he had been guilty a month previous, and felt called upon to reprimand him, therefore, with considerable harshness. The consequence was, that the boy left the table without finishing his dinner, at which his father became very much incensed. The angry feelings of the latter had not subsided when tea-time came, and he met the family at their evening meal with the clouded face he too often wore. The supper hour passed in silence. After leaving the table, Andrew, to whom the sphere of the house was really oppressive, from its entire want of cheerfulness and mutual good feeling, went out to seek the companionship of those who were more congenial.
“There’s nothing pleasant here,” he said, as he stood in the door, half disposed to leave the house. “If there only was! But I won’t think of it!” he added with impulsive quickness; and, as he murmured these words, he descended the steps to the street, and walked slowly away.
Thus, it will be seen, the wayward boy was virtually driven out by the harshness and want of sympathy which prevailed at home, to seek the society of those who presented a more attractive exterior, but who were walking in the paths of evil, and whose steps tended to destruction.
But, though thus thrust out, as it were, from the circle of safety, Andrew still preserved his intention of being at home at the hour beyond which his father had warned him not to be away. It has been seen how, through an error as to time, he was betrayed into unintentional transgression. Not an instant did he pause on his return from the theatre, but ran all the way homeward at a rapid speed. Arriving at the door, he pulled the bell, and then stood panting from excitement. For a short time he waited, in trembling anxiety, but no one answered his summons. Then he rung the bell more violently than before. Still none came to let him in, and his heart began to fail him.
“Surely father don’t mean to keep me out!” said he to himself. “He wouldn’t do that. Where am I to go for shelter at this hour?”
And again he pulled the bell, causing it to ring longer and louder than before. Then he leaned close to the door and listened, but no sound reached his ears. Growing impatient, he next tried knocking. All his efforts to gain admission, however, proved unavailing; and ceasing at last to ring or knock, he sat down upon the stone steps, and covering his face with his hands, wept bitterly. For over a quarter of an hour he remained seated at the threshold of his father’s house, from which he had been excluded. During that period, much of his previous life passed in review before him, and the conclusions of the boy’s mind were at last expressed in these words–
“I believe father hates the very sight of me! He says I’m going to ruin, and so I am; but he is driving me there. What does he think I’m going to do, to-night? If he cared for me, would he let me sleep in the streets? I have tried to do right, but it was of no use. When I tried the hardest, he was the crossest, and made me do wrong whether I would or not. I don’t care what becomes of me now!”
As Andrew uttered these last words, a reckless spirit seized him, and starting up, he walked away with a firm step. But he had gone only a block or two, before his mind again became oppressed with a sense of his houseless condition, and pausing, he murmured, in a sad under tone–
“Where shall I go?”
For a little while he stood irresolute, and then moved on again. For several squares farther he walked, with no definite purpose in his mind, when he came to a row of three or four unfinished houses, the door of one of which was partially opened; at least so much so, that it was only necessary to pull off a narrow strip of board in order to effect an entrance. With the sight of these houses came the suggestion to the mind of Andrew that he might find a place to sleep therein for the night, and acting upon this, he passed up the plank leading to the door least securely fastened, and soon succeeded in getting it open. But, just as he stepped within, a heavy hand was laid upon him from behind, and a rough voice said–
“What are you doing here, sir?”
Turning, Andrew found himself in the custody of a policeman.
For a few moments every power of mind and body forsook the unhappy boy, and he stood shrinking and stammering before the officer–thus confirming a suspicion of intended incendiarism in the mind of that functionary.
“Come! you must go with me.” And the officer commenced moving down the plank that connected the door with the ground, drawing Andrew after him.
“I was only going to sleep there,” said the frightened boy, as soon as the power of speech had returned.
“Of course,” returned the policeman, “I understand all that. But I’ll find a better place in which you can spend the night. So come along with me.”
Remonstrance on the part of Andrew was all in vain, and so, watching an opportunity, he made an effort to escape. But he ran only a few yards before he was tripped up by the officer, when falling, he struck his forehead on the curb-stone, wounding it severely.
“Look here!” said the officer, in a resolute voice, passing his heavy mace before the eyes of Andrew; “if you try this again I’ll knock you senseless!”
Then grasping his arm more firmly, he added–
“Move along quickly!”
With his head aching severely from the fall, and the blood trickling down his face from the wound on his forehead, Andrew walked along by the side of the officer, who continued to keep hold of him. In passing under a gas-lamp, they met a lady and gentleman. The former Andrew recognized at a glance, and she knew him, even with his bloody face, and uttered a cry of surprise and alarm. It was Emily Winters returning with her father from the house of a friend, where they had stayed to an unusually late hour. The officer was about pausing, but Andrew sprung forward, saying as he did so, in an under tone–
“Don’t stop!”
At the same instant Mr. Winters urged on his daughter, and the parties were separated in a moment.
“Unhappy boy!” said the father of Emily, who had also recognized Andrew, “his folly and evil are meeting a just but severe return. His poor mother!–when she hears of this it will almost break her heart. What an affliction to have such a son!”
“Did you see the blood on his face?” asked Emily, in a choking voice, while her hand shook so violently, as it rested on the arm of, her father, that he felt the tremor in every nerve.
“I did,” he replied.
“What was the matter? He must be badly hurt. What could have done it?”
“He’s been quarreling with some one, I presume,” coldly replied Mr. Winters, who did not like the interest his daughter manifested.
Emily made no reply to this, and they walked the rest of the way home in silence.
CHAPTER IX.
IT was within an hour of daylight when Mrs. Howland, worn down by her long vigil, fell asleep, and an hour after the sun had risen, before her troubled slumber was broken. Then starting up, she eagerly inquired of her husband, who had already arisen, and was walking about the room, if Andrew had yet returned. Mr. Howland merely shook his head.
Soon after, breakfast was announced, and the family assembled at the table; but one place was vacant.
“Where is Andrew?” asked Mary.
No answer was made to this question; and Mary saw by the expression of her parents faces, that to repeat it would not be agreeable. A few moments afterward the bell rung. As the steps of a servant were heard moving along the passage toward the door, Mr. and Mrs. Howland sat listening in breathless expectation. Soon the servant came down, and said that a man wished to see Mr. Howland.
At these words the latter started up from the table and left the room. At the street door he found a man, whose appearance indicated his attachment to the police of the city.
“Mr. Howland!” said he, respectfully, yet with the air of a man who had something not very agreeable to communicate.
“That is my name,” replied Mr. Howland, striving, but in vain, to assume an air of unconcern.
“You are wanted at the Mayor’s office,” said the policeman.
“For what purpose?” was inquired.
“Your son is before his Honor, on a charge of attempting to set fire to a row of new buildings last night.”
At this intelligence, Mr. Howland uttered an exclamation of distress, and stepping back a pace or two, leaned heavily against the wall.
“Well! What is wanted with me?” asked the unhappy father, recovering himself, after a few moments.
“To go his bail,” replied the officer. “The Mayor demands a thousand dollars bail, in default of which, he will have to go to prison and there await his trial.”
“Let him go to prison!” said Mr. Howland, in a severe tone of voice. He was beginning to regain his self-possession.
“No, Andrew!” came firmly from the lips of Mrs. Howland, who had followed her husband, unperceived, to the door, and who had heard the dreadful charge preferred against her son. “Don’t say that! Go and save him from the disgrace and wrong that now hang over his head–and go quickly!”
“Yes, Mr. Howland,” said the officer, “your lady is right. You should not let him go to prison. That will do him no good. And, moreover, he may be innocent of the crime laid to his charge.”
“He must be innocent. My boy has many faults, but he would not be guilty of a crime like this,” said Mrs. Howland. “Oh, Mr. Howland! go! go quickly and save him from these dreadful consequences. If you do not, I must fly to him. They shall not imprison my poor boy!”
“This is folly, Esther!” returned Mr. Howland, severely. “He has got himself, by his bad conduct, into the hands of the law, and it will do him good to feel its iron grip. I am clear for letting him at least go to prison, and remain there for a few days. By that time he will be sick enough of his folly.”
“I would not advise this,” suggested the officer. “Depend upon it, if his present position is of no avail toward working change for the better–sending him to prison will harden, rather than reform him.”
“Andrew!” said Mrs. Howland, with a firmness and decision of tone that marked a high degree of resolution on her part–“if you do not go his bail, I will find some person who will.”
“Esther!” The offended husband fixed a look of stern rebuke upon his wife; but her large eyes looked steadily into his, and he saw in them, not rebellion, or anger–but a spirit that his own heart told him instinctively, it would be folly for him to oppose. That look determined his action.
“I’ll go with you,” said he, after pausing a few moments, turning to the officer as he spoke.
The charge brought against Andrew by the watchman, was an intention to set fire to the buildings in which he found him. Several unfinished houses had been burned of late, and there was some excitement in the public mind thereat. Had it not been for this, Andrew might have made his way into the building where he intended to sleep, without, in all probability, attracting attention. Unfortunately for him, a few matches were found in one of his pockets. This fact, added to his attempt to escape, and the rather exaggerated statement of the watchman, caused the Mayor to look upon the case as one that ought to go before the Court. He accordingly decided to require an appearance, under bail.
Not a word was spoken to Andrew by his stern father, on the arrival of the latter at the Mayor’s office. Mr. Howland looked at the evidence which went to support the charge of intended incendiarism against his son, and to his mind, prejudiced as it was against that son, the evidence was conclusive. In fact, the watchman’s eyes had seen rather more, than in reality, was to be seen, and his testimony was strongly colored.
The required security given, Mr. Howland, without turning toward his son, or speaking to him, left the office.
“You can go home, young man,” said the Mayor, addressing Andrew.
“Oh, sir!” exclaimed the unhappy boy, in a distressed tone–“I am not guilty of this thing. Father turned me from the door because I was not at home at ten o’clock, and I had no place to sleep.”
“Disobedience to parents ever brings trouble,” replied the Mayor, in a voice of admonition. “Go home, and try to behave better in future. If innocent, you will no doubt be able to make it so appear when your trial comes on before the Court.”
Slowly the lad arose, and with a troubled and downcast look, retired from the office.
“Where is Andrew?” eagerly asked the mother, as Mr. Howland entered the house, after returning from the errand upon which he had gone.
“I left him at the Mayor’s office,” was coldly replied.
“Did you go his bail?”
“Yes.”
“Why didn’t he come home with you?”
“I didn’t ask him.”
“Andrew!”
Mr. Howland started at the tone of voice with which his name was pronounced. Again there was an expression in the eyes of his wife that subdued him.
“I gave bail for his appearance at Court, and then came away. He will, no doubt, be home in a few minutes,” he replied. “But I do not wish to hold any intercourse with him; for he has disgraced both himself and me.”
“Is he not your son?” asked the mother, solemnly.
“He is not a son worthy of affection and regard.”
“Andrew! when the sons of men wandered far away from God, and broke all his laws, did He turn from them as you have turned from this erring boy? No! All day long He stretched forth His hands to them, and said, in a voice full of infinite kindness, ‘Return unto Me; why will you die?’ It is not Godlike to be angry at those who sin against us; but Godlike to draw them back with cords of love from error. Oh, Andrew! you have wronged this boy!”
“Esther! I will not hear the utterance of such language from any one!” exclaimed Mr. Howland, whose imperious nature could ill brook an accusation like this.
“I have uttered only what I believe to be true,” answered the wife, in a milder tone, yet with a firmness that showed her spirit to be unsubdued. No further words passed between them. Half an hour afterward, up to which time Andrew had not come home, Mr. Howland left the house and went to his place of business.
Time passed on until nearly noon, and yet Andrew was still away. Mrs. Howland, whose mind was in a state of strong excitement, could bear her suspense and fear no longer, and she resolved to go out and seek for her wandering son. She had dressed herself, and was just taking up her bonnet, as the door of her room opened, and Andrew came in, looking pale and distressed. Across his forehead was a deep, red mark, the scar left by the wound he received, when he fell on the pavement, in the attempt to escape from the watchman.
“My son!” exclaimed Mrs. Howland, in a voice that thrilled the poor boy’s heart–for it was full of sympathy and tenderness–and then she threw her arms around his neck and kissed him.
Overcome by this reception, Andrew wept aloud. As soon as he could speak, he said–
“Indeed, indeed, mother! I am innocent. You wouldn’t let me in last night, and I was going to sleep in the building, when the watchman came and said I meant to set it on fire! I’m bad enough, mother, but not so wicked as that! Why should I set a house on fire?”
“I didn’t believe it for a moment, Andrew,” replied Mrs. Howland. “But, oh! isn’t it dreadful?”
“I’m not to blame, mother,” said the weeping boy. “I didn’t mean to stay out later than ten. But I was deceived in the time. I was a good way off when the clock struck, and I ran home as fast as I could. I’m sure it wasn’t ten minutes after when I rang the bell. But nobody would let me in; not even _you_, mother–and I thought so hard of _that!_”
With what a pang did these last words go through the heart of Mrs. Howland.
“I wanted to let you in,” replied the mother, “but your father said that I must not do so.”
“And so you left me to sleep in the streets,” said the boy, with much bitterness. “I couldn’t have turned a dog off in that way!”
“Don’t, don’t speak so, Andrew! You will break my heart!” returned the mother, sobbing, “I did open the door for you, but you were not there.”
“I knocked and rung a good while.”
“I know. But I had to wait until your father was asleep. Then I went down, but it was too late.”
“Yes–yes, it was too late,” said Andrew, speaking now in a firmer voice. “And it is too late now. I am to be tried as a felon, and it may be, will be sent to the State Prison. Oh, dear!”
And he covered his face with his hands, and sobbed.
What little comfort she had to offer her unhappy child, was offered by Mrs. Howland. But few rays of light came through the heavy clouds that enveloped both of their hearts.
At dinner time, Andrew declined meeting his father at the table.
“Go and tell him,” said the unyielding man, when the servant, who had been sent to his room to call him to dinner, came back and said that he did not wish to come down, “that he cannot have a mouthful to eat unless he comes to the table.”
“No, no, Andrew–don’t say that!” quickly spoke Mrs. Howland.
“I do say it, and I mean it,” replied Mr. Howland, fixing his eyes rebukingly upon his wife.
Mrs. Howland answered nothing. But her purpose to stand between her unrelenting husband and wandering son, was none the less fixed; and in her countenance Mr. Howland read this distinctly. Accordingly, so soon as the latter had left the house, she took food to Andrew, who still remained in his room, at the same time that she expressed to him her earnest wish that he would meet the family at the tea-table in the evening.
“I don’t want to meet father,” he replied to this. “He will only frown upon me.”
“He is, of course, very much fretted at this occurrence,” said the mother. “And you cannot much wonder at it, Andrew.”
“He is more to blame than I am,” was answered in an indignant tone.
“Don’t speak of your father in that way, my son,” said the mother, a gentle reproof in her voice.
“I speak as I feel, mother. Is it not so?”
An argument on this subject Mrs. Howland would not hold with her boy, and she therefore changed it; but she did not cease her appeals to both his reason and his feelings, until he yielded to her wishes. At supper time he joined the family at table–it was his first meeting with his father since morning. Oh, what an intense desire did he feel for a kind reception from his stern parent! It seemed to him that such a reception would soften everything harsh and rebellious, and cause him to throw himself at his feet, and make the humblest confessions of error, and the most truthful promise of future well doing. Alas! for the repentant boy! no such reception awaited him. His father did not so much as turn his eyes upon his son, and, during the meal, maintained a frigid silence. Andrew ate but a few mouthfuls. He had no appetite for food. On leaving the table, he went into one of the parlors, whither he was followed in a little while, by his younger brother, Edward, who was, by nature, almost as hard and unsympathsizing as his father. It was the first time, on that day, that the two boys had been alone.
“Set a house on fire!” said Edward, in a half-sneering, half-censorious, tantalizing voice.
“If you say that again, I’ll knock you down!” fell sharply from the lips of Andrew, in whom his father’s repulsive coldness was beginning to awaken bad feelings.
“Set a house on fire!” repeated Edward, in a tone still more aggravating.
The words had scarcely left his tongue, ere the open hand of his brother came along side of his head, with a force that knocked him across the room. At this instant Mr. Howland entered. He made no inquiry as to the cause of the blow he saw struck, but took it for granted that it was an unprovoked assault of Andrew upon his brother. Yielding to the impulse of the moment, he caught the former by the arm, in a fierce grip, and struck him with his open hand, as he had struck his brother, repeating the blow three or four times.
Andrew neither shrunk from the blows, cried out, nor offered the smallest resistance, but stood firmly, until his incensed father had satisfied his outraged feelings.
“You forgot, I suppose, that I could strike also?” said the latter angrily, when he released his son from the tight grasp, with which he held him.
“No sir,” replied Andrew, with a calmness that surprized, yet still more incensed his father; “I thought nothing about it. I punished Edward as he deserved; and if he says to me what he did just now, will repeat the punishment, if it cost me my life.”
“Silence!” cried Mr. Howland.
“I said nothing but the truth,” spoke up Edward.
“What did you say?” inquired the father.
“I told him that he’d set a house on fire.”
“And lied when he said it,” calmly and deliberately spoke Andrew.
“Silence! I’ll have no such language in my presence!” angrily retorted Mr. Howland.
“It is bad enough to be accused falsely by a lying policeman,” said Andrew, “but to have the charge repeated by my own brother is more than I can or will bear. And I warn Edward, in your presence, not to try the experiment again. If he does he will not escape so lightly.”
“Silence, I say!”
Andrew remained silent.
“Edward, leave the room,” said Mr. Howland. There was little sternness in his voice, as he thus spoke to his favorite boy.
The lad retired. For several minutes Mr. Howland walked the floor, and Andrew who had seated himself, waited in a calm, defiant spirit, for him to renew the interview. It was at length done in these words–
“What do you expect is to become of you, sir?”
Not feeling inclined to answer such an interrogation, Andrew continued silent.
“Say!” repeated the father, “what do you think is to become of you?”
Still the boy answered not a word.
“Under bail to answer for a crime–“
“Which I never committed–nor designed to commit!” spoke up Andrew, quickly interrupting his father, and fixing his eyes upon, him with an unflinching gaze.
“It is easy to make a denial. But the evidence against you is positive.”
“The evidence against me is a positive lie!” was Andrew’s indignant response.
“I won’t be talked to in this way!” said Mr. Howland, in an offended tone. “No son of mine shall insult me!”
“A strange insult to a father, for a son to declare himself innocent of a crime falsely laid to his charge,” replied Andrew, with a strong rebuke in his voice. “A true father would be glad–“
“Silence!” again fell harshly from the lips of Mr. Howland. “Silence, I say; I will hear no such language from a son of mine!”
Without a word, Andrew arose, and, retiring from the room, took up his hat and left the house–the relation between him and his father by no means in a better position than it was before. Within a few minutes of ten o’clock the boy returned, and, being admitted, went up to his room without joining the family.
On the next morning, one or two of the daily papers contained an account of Andrew’s arrest, with his father’s name and all the particulars of the transaction. Any one reading this account, with the reporter’s comment, could not help but believe that Andrew was a desperate bad boy, and undoubtedly guilty in design of incendiarism.
“See what a disgrace you have brought upon us!” exclaimed Mr. Howland, flinging a paper, containing this mortifying intelligence in the face of his son.
The boy took up the paper, and read the paragraph referred to with a burning cheek. He made no remark, but sat for some time in a state of profound abstraction. No one guessed the thoughts that were passing through his mind, nor the utter hopelessness that was lying, with a heavy weight, upon his spirit. Before him was the image of Emily. She had seen him with his blood-disfigured face, in the hands of the watchman; and now she would see this slanderous story, and what was worse, believe it!
Some two hours subsequently, while walking along the street, Andrew perceived Emily, within a few paces of him. He looked her steadily in the face, and saw that she saw him; for a quick flush overspread her countenance. But, averting her eyes, she passed him without a further sign of recognition.
At night-fall, the boy did not return to his home.
Anxiously did the time pass with Mrs. Howland until ten o’clock, and yet he was away. Eleven–twelve–one o’clock, pealed on the ear of the watching mother, but he came not. It was all in vain that her husband remonstrated with her. His words passed her unheeded; and she remained waiting and watching, until near the hour of morning, but her waiting and watching were all in vain.
Two days passed–yet there came no tidings of the absent boy. On the third day, Mrs. Howland received the following letter:–
“MY DEAR MOTHER:–I have left my home–forever! What is to become of me, I do not know. But I can remain with you no longer. Father treats me like a dog–or worse than a dog; and he has never treated me much better. I have tried to do right a great many times; but it was of no use. The harder I tried to do right, the more he found fault with me. He was always blaming me for something I didn’t do. It is all a lie of the watchman’s about my setting the house on fire. Such a thing never entered my mind. Father (sic) would’t let me in, and I had to sleep somewhere. He wouldn’t speak a word for me in the Mayor’s office. So it’s all his fault that I am to be tried before the Court. But I’m not going to be sent to the Penitentiary. Father is my bail for a thousand dollars. I shall be sorry if he has to pay it; but it will be better for him to do that, than for me to go to the Penitentiary for nothing. So, good-by, mother, I love you! You have always been good to me. If father had been as good, I would have been a better boy. Don’t grieve about me. It’s better that I should leave home. You’ll all be happier. If I ever return to you, I will be different from what I am now. Farewell mother! Don’t forget me. I will never forget you. Don’t grieve about me. The thought of that troubles me the most. But it is better for me to go away, mother–better for us all. Farewell.
“ANDREW.”
CHAPTER X.
A YEAR elapsed before any tidings of the wanderer came. Then Mrs. Howland received a few lines from him, dated in a Southern city, where he spoke of having just arrived from South America. He had little to say of himself, beyond that he was well; and did not speak of visiting home.
After reading this letter, Mrs. Howland placed it in the hands of her husband, who read it also, and then gave it back without a remark. He checked an involuntary sigh as he did so. Not the slightest reference was made to him by his son; a fact that he did not overlook, and that he did not observe without a sense of disappointment. The long absence of his wayward boy had softened his feelings toward him; and with pain he remembered many acts of harshness that now seemed to have in them too much of the element of severity. At the term of the Court, which was held soon after Andrew went away, the Grand Jury failed to obtain sufficient evidence to justify the finding of a bill against him, and released the security given for his appearance at Court. This fact, with a previous questioning of the policeman by whom Andrew had been arrested, satisfied Mr. Howland that the boy had been unjustly suspected of an intention to commit a crime. But this conviction had come too late. The effects of that unjust accusation had already fallen in sad consequences upon the head of the poor boy; and the father could not force from his mind the painful conviction that he was, mainly, responsible for these consequences.
Another year went by, but during all the time, no further tidings came of Andrew. To his first letter, Mrs. Howland had immediately replied, urging him, by every tender consideration, to return to his home. But she had no means of knowing whether it had ever been received. Upon her the effect of his absence had been, for a time, of the most serious character. For a few weeks after he went away, both body and mind were prostrated; to this succeeded a state of mental depression, which continued so long that her friends began to fear for her reason. Not until after the lapse of a year, when she received the above-mentioned letter from her son, did her mind attain to anything like its former state. The knowledge that he was yet, alive, that he thought of her, and still cherished her memory, gave a new impulse to her fainting spirit, and a quicker motion to the circle of life. There was yet room to hope for him. But, as time went on, there came not back even a faint echo to the voice she had sent after him, her heart failed her again. Yet time, which imparts strength to all in trouble, had done its work for her also. The care and labor that ever attend the mother’s position among her children, had bent her thoughts so much away from Andrew, that, while his absence left a constant weight upon her feelings, it did not crush them down as before, into a waveless depression.
The second year of Andrew’s absence came to a close; but nothing further was heard from him. And it was the same with the third, fourth, and fifth years. In the meantime, there had been many changes in Mr. Howland’s family. Mary had married against her father’s wishes, and both herself and husband had been so unkindly treated by him on the occasion and afterward, that neither of them visited at his house.
Henry Markland, the husband of Mary, had been rather a gay young man, and this, with some other things which had come to his ears, created a prejudice in the mind of Mr. Howland against him. As to what was good in Markland, and likely to overbalance defects, he did not inquire. The hue of his prejudice colored everything. Men like Mr. Howland, who seek to bend everything into forms suited to their own narrow range of ideas, are rarely successful in attaining their ends. The principle of freedom is too deeply interwoven with all the tissues of the human mind to admit of this. From. earliest infancy there is a reaction against arbitrary power; and, those who are wise, have long since discovered that it is a much easier task to lead than force the young into right ways. Those who would truly govern children, must first learn to govern themselves. Let a parent break his own imperious will before he tries to break the will of his child; and he will be far more successful in the work he essays. to perform. But not so had Mr. Howland learned his duty in life. Without being, aware of the fact, he was a domestic tyrant, and sought to establish a family despotism. And the worst of the whole was, he did nearly all this work in the name of religion! Not that he was a hypocrite. No; Mr. Howland was sincere in his professions of piety. But he was a narrow-minded man, and did much in the name of religion, that in no way harmonized with its true character. His faith was a blind faith, and he sacrificed to the god of his imagination in the unyielding spirit of a dehumanizing superstition. Of necessity, he marred everything upon which he sought to impress the form of his own mind.
Erroneous judgment of others is almost certain to mark the conclusions of such a man’s mind; and it is no wonder that Mr. Howland erred in his conclusions respecting the true character of his daughter’s husband, who had in him many good qualities, and was sincerely attached to Mary. The great defect appertaining to him, was the fact that he was not a church member. Mr. Howland did not look past the veil of a profession, to see if there was in the ground work of the young man’s character a basis of right principles–the only true foundation upon which a religious structure can be built. Because he did not belong to the church, and make an open profession, he classed him with the irreligious, and considered him as one whose feet were moving swiftly along the road to destruction.
And so, instead of wisely seeking to win the confidence of the young man, that he might gain an influence over him for good, Mr. Howland, offended because his daughter could not obey him in a matter so vital to her happiness, angrily repulsed and insulted both of them, even after he saw that a marriage was inevitable. The consequence was, as has been mentioned, that Markland, who possessed an independent spirit, would not go to the house of his father-in-law; and Mary, resenting the wanton attacks that had been made upon her husband’s feelings in more than one or two instances, absented herself also. Mr. Howland, however much he might regret the hardness of his unavailing opposition, was not the man to yield anything; and so the breach remained open, in spite of all the grieving mother’s efforts to heal it.
Of all his children, Mr. Howland saw most to hope for in Edward, who early perceived it to be his best policy to humor his father, and, by that means, gain the ends he had in view. Cold in his temperament, he was generally able to control himself in a way to deceive his father as to the real motives that were in his heart. Thus, while Mr. Howland, by his peculiar treatment of his children, drove some of them off, he made this one a hypocrite.
Not the smallest affection existed between Edward and the other children, who knew too well the selfish and evil qualities that lay concealed beneath an external of propriety, put on especially for his father’s eyes. The mother, too, saw beneath the false exterior assumed by her son, who treated her, except when his father was present, with little respect or affection.
Martha, the youngest, was a sweet tempered girl, who had managed to keep, as a general thing, beyond the sphere of antagonism that marked the intercourse of the other children. To her mother, as she grew up, she proved a source of comfort; and she could, at almost any time, dispel by her smiles the cloud that too often rested on the brow of her morose father.
On reaching his seventeenth year, Edward had been placed in a store by his father, for the purpose of acquiring knowledge of mercantile affairs. A young man in this position, if he has any ambition to make his way in the world, soon gets his mind pretty well filled with money-making ideas, and sees the way to wealth opening in a broad vista before him. Every day he hears about this, that, and the other one, who started in business but a few years before, with little or no capital, and who are now worth their tens of thousands; and he thus learns to aspire after wealth, without being made to feel sensibly the fact, that the number who grow rich rapidly are as one to a hundred compared with those who succeed as the result of small beginnings united with long continued and untiring application. Long before Edward reached his twenty-first year, he had so fully imbibed the spirit of the atmosphere in which he breathed, that his mind was made up to go into business for himself as soon as he attained his majority. This idea Mr. Howland sought to discourage in his son; but Edward never gave it up. Soon after he was twenty-one, an offer to go into a business, that promised a large return was made, provided a few thousand dollars capital could be furnished. Not a moment did Edward rest until he had prevailed upon his father, ever too ready to yield a weak compliance to the wishes of this son, to place in his hands the amount of money required. To do this, was, at the time, no easy matter for Mr. Howland, whose own business was far from being as good as usual and whose pecuniary affairs were not in the most easy condition. Six thousand dollars was the amount of capital he was obliged to raise, and it was not accomplished without considerable sacrifice.
Edward and his partner were what are usually called “enterprising young men,” and they drove ahead in the business they had undertaken at a kind of railroad speed, calculating their profits at an exceedingly high range. It is not surprising that, by the end of the first year, they required a little more capital to help them through with their engagements, the furnishing of which fell upon Mr. Howland; who, in this emergency, passed his notes to the new firm for several (sic) thonsand dollars.
It is not our purpose to trace, step by step, the progress of this young man in the work of ruining his father and disgracing himself by dishonest practices in business. Enough, that in the course of three years, the “enterprising young men,” who made from the beginning such rapid strides toward fortune, found their course suddenly checked, and themselves involved in hopeless bankruptcy. But, with themselves rested not the evil consequences of failure; others were included in the disaster, and among them Mr. Howland, who was so badly crippled as to be obliged to call his creditors together, and solicit a reduction and extension of the claims they had against him. To Mr. Howland, this was a crushing blow. He was not only a man who strictly regarded honesty in his dealings, but he was proud of his honesty, and in his pride, had often been harsh in his judgment of others when in circumstances similar to those in which he was now placed. To be forced to ask of his creditors both a reduction and an extension, humiliated him to a degree, that for a time, almost deprived him of the power of doing business. From that time, there was a perceptible change in the man of iron. His tall, erect form seemed to shrink downward; his head bent toward his bosom, and the harsh lines on his brow and around his less tightly closed lips grew softer. His indignation against Edward was so great, when he finally comprehended the character of the transactions in which he had been engaged, involving as they did a total absence of integrity, that he turned his back upon him angrily, saying, as he did so–
“Never come into my presence again, until you come an honest man!”
On the day after this utterance of the father’s indignant feelings, Edward left the city; and it was the opinion of many that he went with a pocket full of money. They were not far wrong.
Thus, of all his children, only the youngest remained with Mr. Howland. All the rest were estranged from him; and in spite of all his efforts to push the conviction from his mind, he could not help feeling that he was to blame for the estrangement.
CHAPTER XI.
NEARLY eight years from the time Andrew Howland left his home have passed, and we now bring him before the reader as a discharged United States’ dragoon, having just concluded a five years’ service in the far West. He had enlisted, rather than steal, at a time when he found it impossible to obtain employment, and had gone through the hard and humiliating service of a trooper on our extreme frontier, under an assumed name, omitting to write home during the entire period, lest by any chance a knowledge of his position might be communicated to his mother, and (her memory had never faded) to Emily Winters. The images of these two, the only ones he loved in the world, were green in his bosom. They were drawing him homeward with a force of attraction that grew stronger and stronger as the end of his service approached. Nearly three years had elapsed since he had met any one recently from the East who was able to answer, satisfactorily, the few inquiries he ventured to make; and now he was all impatience to return.
Steadily, for a long time, had the young man looked forward to this period; and in order to have the means of effecting a thorough change in his external appearance, and to be able to support himself after his return East, until he obtained some kind of employment, he had left nearly all his pay in the hands of the disbursing officer. It now amounted to nearly two hundred dollars.
It was in Santa Fe that Andrew obtained his discharge from the United States’ service. This was soon after the conclusion of the peace with Mexico, and about the time when the first exciting news came of golden discoveries on the tributaries of the Sacramento.
On the day after Andrew received his discharge, and while making preparations for his journey eastward, a company, in which were several new recruits arrived from the Wachita. Among them he discovered a young man from P–, to whom he put the direct question.
“Do you know a Mr. Howland of your city?”
“Andrew Howland, the merchant?” inquired the young man, who was not over twenty-one years of age.
“Yes,” returned Andrew, in a tone of affected indifference.
“His store is in the same block with my father’s.”
“Indeed! What is your father’s name?”
The young man’s eyes fell to the ground, and his face became overspread with crimson.
“Winters,” he replied, at length recovering himself.
Andrew turned partly away to conceal the sudden emotion this intelligence had created. Mastering his feelings with a vigorous effort, he lifted his eyes to the countenance of the young man and at once recognized in him the brother of Emily. Restraining the eagerness he felt to press many questions, Andrew asked him about his journey from the last military post, and after getting a number of answers to which he scarcely listened, said–
“How long is it since you left P–?”
“About six months,” replied young Winters.
“Do your friends know where you are?”
“No, indeed! Nor would I have them. So, please bear that in mind. I answered your question almost on the spur of the moment.”
“Do you know anything about Mr. Howland or his family?” asked Andrew, without seeming to notice the young man’s remark.
“Nothing very particular; only that the old gentleman failed in business about a year ago.”
“Ah! How came that?”
“His son Edward broke him up.”
“His son Edward?”
“Yes. The old man set him a going in business; but he soon run himself under, and his father into the bargain. He made a terrible bad failure of it.”
“Who?”
“Edward Howland. He went off soon after, and they do say, carried his pockets full of money. And I imagine there is some truth in it. He wasn’t exactly the clear grit. Some people called him a smooth-faced hypocrite, and I guess they were not very far wrong.”
Andrew asked no more questions for some time, but sat, thoughtful, with his face so far turned away from the young man, that its expression could not be seen.
“Mrs. Howland is living, I presume?” said he, at length, in a tone as indifferent as he could assume; but which was, nevertheless, unsteady.
“Yes. She was living when I came away.”
Andrew drew a quick breath, and then his laboring chest found relief in a long expiration.
“Poor old man! I’m sorry for him,” came from his lips in a few moments afterwards. The tone was half indifferent, yet expressed some sympathy.
“Everybody seems sorry for him,” said Winters. “It has broken him down very much. He looks ten years older.”
“Is he entirely out of business?” asked Andrew.
“No; he is still going on; but he doesn’t appear to do much. I think the family is poor. They’ve sold their handsome house, and are living in a much smaller one. I heard father say that Mr. Howland had received an extension from his creditors, but that he was too much crippled to be able to go through, and would, in the end, break down entirely.”
There was another pause, and then Andrew changed the subject by asking the young man something about himself, and led on the conversation, from step to step, until he got him to mention the fact that he had a sister named Emily.
“Is she older than yourself?” inquired Andrew.
“Oh, yes. Some four years older,” was replied.
“Married, of course,” said Andrew.
The very effort he made to say this with seeming unconcern gave so unnatural an expression to his tone of voice, that young Winters looked at him with momentary surprise.
“No, she is not married,” he answered.
“She’s old enough,” said Andrew, speaking now in a tone of more real indifference.
“Yes; but she’ll probably die an old maid. She’s had two or three good offers; but no one appears just to suit her fancy. Father was very angry about her rejecting a young man some two or three years ago, who afterwards disgraced himself, and broke the heart of a young creature who had been weak enough to marry him.”
“Then I should say that your sister was a sensible girl,” remarked Andrew, in a cheerful voice.
“Yes, she is a sensible girl; and, what is more, a good girl. Ah, me! I wish I were half as sensible and half as good.”
With what a free motion did the heart of Andrew beat after receiving this intelligence!
“Is Mary Howland married?” he asked. He knew that she was, for he had seen the fact noticed in a newspaper.
“Yes; she married a Mr. Markland.”
“Who is he?”
“I don’t know much about, him. He’s a teller in one of the banks.”
“How did the family like her marriage?”
“Not at all. They don’t visit.”
“Indeed! Why?”
“Dear knows! Old Mr. Howland is a hard sort of a man when he takes up a prejudice against any one. He didn’t like Markland, and said that Mary shouldn’t marry him. She felt differently, and did marry him. The consequence was, that the old man said and did so much that was offensive, that he and Markland have had no intercourse since.”
“Mary comes home, I suppose?”
“I rather think not. I believe that she and her father have not spoken in two years. At least, so I heard sister once say.”
“That is bad! Poor man! He is unfortunate with his children.”
Andrew, as he spoke, felt that he was unfortunate, and an emotion of pity stirred along the surface of his feelings.
“Indeed he is!” said Winters, who was disposed to be communicative. “But I presume it is a good deal his own fault. They say that his harsh treatment drove his oldest son from home.”
“Ah?”
“Yes. He was a wild sort of a boy, and his father didn’t show him any mercy. The consequence was, that instead of leading him into the right way, he drove him into the wrong way. He ran off from home a great while ago, and has never been heard from since. It is thought that he is dead. I once heard father say that, with all his faults, he was the best of the bunch.”
Something interrupted the conversation of the two young men at this point, and they separated. A couple of hours afterward, as Andrew walked along one of the streets of Santa Fe, musing over the intelligence he had gleaned from young Winters, a fellow soldier, whose time of service had also just expired, met him, and said–
“You’re not going back to the States, are you?”
“Such has been my intention,” replied Andrew.
“I’m not going.”
“I thought you were.”
“I’ve altered my mind. A party sets off to-morrow for the gold regions of California, and I’m going with them.”
“Indeed! That’s a sudden change of resolution. But you don’t believe all the stories you hear of this El Dorado?
“No, not all of them. But if even the half be true, there’s a golden harvest to be reaped by all who put in the sickle.”
“Yes, the half is encouraging enough,” said Andrew, in a tone of abstraction. The fact is, since he had heard from home, his desire to return immediately was lessened. News of his father’s altered circumstances had softened his feelings toward him very much, and created a strong desire to aid him in the extremity to which he had been reduced. But he had no ability to do this. All he possessed in the world was about two hundred dollars, and it would take at least half of this to pay his passage home. Already had his thoughts been reaching Westward, as the only point where, by any possibility, he could better his fortunes to an extent that would enable him to help his father. But there was so much of apparent romance in the stories that reached his ears, that he had many strong doubts as to even the main facts reported.
“You’d better join us,” remarked the comrade.
“How many are going?” inquired Andrew.
“Seven. And we’d very much like to add you to the number.”
“I’m really half-inclined to go with you,” said Andrew, speaking with a good deal of animation in his voice.
“You’ll never regret it,” said the other. “Not only are the stories about an abundance of gold authentic, but I have good reasons for believing that the half has not been told. I talked with a man last night, who says that he knew of several instances where lumps of the precious metal, weighing several pounds, have been picked up. One man collected ten thousand dollars worth of lumps of pure gold in a week.”
“That’s a large story,” replied Andrew, smiling.
“Perhaps so; but it is not all a fabrication. At any rate, I am off to this region, and my advice to you is, to join our little party.”
“When do you start?
“To-morrow morning.”
“I’ll think about it,” said Andrew Howland.
“You must think quickly,” was answered. “There is no time to spare. It is but two hours to nightfall; and we are to be in the saddle by sunrise. So, if you conclude to join our party you have but small space left for preparation.”
Andrew stood with his eyes upon the ground for nearly a minute; then looking up, he said, in a firm voice–
“I will go.”
“And, my word for it, you’ll never repent the decision. Gathering up lumps of gold by the peck is a quicker way to fortune than dragooning it at five dollars a month–ha?”
“My anticipations lie within a much narrower circle than yours,” was quietly answered to this; “but one thing is certain, if gold is to be had in California for the mere digging, you may depend on Andrew Howland getting his share of the treasure.”
“That’s the spirit, my boy!” said the other, clapping him on the shoulder–“the very spirit of every member of our little party. And if we don’t line our pockets with the precious stuff, it will be because none is to be found.”
On the next morning, Andrew Howland started on his long and perilous journey for the region of gold, with a new impulse in his heart, and a hope in the future, such as, up to this time, he had never known. But it was not a mere selfish love of gold that was influencing him. He was acted on by a nobler feeling.
CHAPTER XII.
FROM the shock of his son’s failure, Mr. Howland did not recover. In arranging with his own creditors, he had arranged to do too much, and consequently his reduced business went on under pressure of serious embarrassment. He had sold his house, and two other pieces of property, and was living at a very moderate expense; but all this did not avail, and he saw the steady approaches of total ruin.
One day, at a time when this conviction was pressing most heavily upon him, one of the creditors of Edward, who had lost a good deal by the young man, came into the store, and asked if he had heard lately from his son.
Mr. Howland replied he had not.
“He’s in Mobile, I understand?” said the gentleman.
“I believe he is,” returned Mr. Howland.
“A correspondent of mine writes that he is in business there, and seems to have plenty of money.”
“It is only seeming, I presume,” remarked Mr. Howland.
“He says that he has purchased a handsome piece of property there.”
“It cannot be possible!” was ejaculated.
“I presume that my information is true. Now, my reason for communicating this fact to you is, that you may write to him, and demand, if he have money to invest, that he refund to you a portion of what you have paid for him, and thus save you from the greater difficulties that I too plainly see gathering around you, and out of which I do not think it is possible for you to come unaided.”
“No, sir,” was the reply of Mr. Howland, as he slowly shook his head. “If he have money, it is ill-gotten, and I cannot share it. He owes you, write to him, and demand a payment of the debt.”
“I am willing to yield my right in your favor, Mr. Howland. In your present extremity, you can make an appeal that it will be impossible for him to withstand. He may not dream of the position in which you are placed; and it is due to him that you inform him thereof. It will give him an opportunity to act above an evil and selfish spirit, and this action may be in him the beginning of a better state.”
But the father shook his head again.
“Mr. Howland,” said the other “you owe it to your son to put it in his power to act from a better principle than the one that now appears to govern him. Let him know of your great extremity, and he may compel himself to act against the selfish cupidities by which he is too plainly governed. Such action, done in violence of evil affections, may be to him the beginning of a better life. All things originate in small beginnings. There must first be a point of influx for good, as well as for bad principles. Sow this seed in your son’s mind, and it may germinate, and grow into a plant of honesty.”
Mr. Howland heaved a deep sigh, as he answered–
“This is presenting the subject in a new light; I will think about it.”
“May you think about it to good purpose,” replied the friend, earnestly.
This communication disturbed Mr. Howland greatly. He had too many good reasons for doubting his son’s integrity of character; but he was not prepared to hear of such deliberate and cruel dishonesty as this. It was but another name for robbery–a robbery, even to the ruin of his own father.
“I will demand restitution!” said the old man, impatiently, as his mind dwelt longer and longer on the subject, and his feelings grew more and more indignant. From the thought of any appeal on the ground of humanity, he revolted. It was something entirely out of keeping with his peculiar character. He could not bend to this.
So Mr. Howland wrote a pretty strong letter to his son, in which he set forth in terse language the facts he had heard, and demanded as a right, that restitution be at once made.
Weeks passed and no answer to this demand was received. In the meantime, another crisis in the affairs of Mr. Howland was rapidly approaching. Unless aid were received from some quarter, he must sink utterly prostrate under the pressure that was upon him, and again fail to meet the honorable engagements that he had made. When that crisis came, he would fall to rise no more.
Ten days only remained, and then there would come a succession of payments, amounting in all to over five thousand dollars. To meet these payments unaided, would be impossible; and there was no one now to aid the reduced and sinking merchant. There was not a friend to whom he could go for aid so substantial as was now required, for most of his business friends had already suffered to some extent by his failure, and were not in the least inclined to risk anything farther on one whose position was known to be extremely doubtful.
The nearer this second crisis came, and the more distinctly Mr. Howland was able to see its painful features, the more did his heart shrink from encountering a disaster that would involve all his worldly affairs in hopeless ruin.
In this strait, the mind of Mr. Howland kept turning, involuntarily, toward his son Edward, as toward the only resource left him on the earth; but ever as it turned thus, something in him revolted at the idea, and he strove to push it from his thoughts. He could not do this, however, for it was the straw on the surface of the waters in which he felt himself sinking.
Painfully, and with a sense of deep humiliation, did Mr. Howland at length bring himself up to the point of writing again to his son. As everything depended on the effect of this second letter, he went down into a still lower deep of humiliation, and after representing in the most vivid colors the extremity to which he was reduced, begged him, if a spark of humanity remained in his bosom, to send him the aid he needed.
With a trembling hope did the father wait, day after day, for an answer to this letter. Time passed on, and the ninth day since its transmission came and yet there was no reply.
Nervously anxious was Mr. Howland on the morning of the tenth day, for if no help came then, it was all over with him. His note for fifteen hundred dollars fell due, and must be lifted ere the stroke of three, or the end with him had come.
A few mouthfuls of food were taken at breakfast, and then Mr. Howland hurried away to the Post Office, his heart fluttering with fear and expectation. A few moments, and he would know his fate. As he came in sight of the long row of boxes, his eyes glanced eagerly toward the one in which his letters were filed up. There was something in it. In a tone of forced composure, he called out the number of his box, and received from the clerk two letters. He glanced at the post-mark of one, and read–“New York,” and at the other, and saw–“Boston.” For a moment or two his breath was suspended, and his knees smote together. Then he moved away, slowly, with such a pressure on his feelings that the weight was reproduced on his physical system, and he walked with difficulty.
The letters were from business correspondents, and in no way affected the position of extremity he occupied. For a greater part of the morning Mr. Howland sat musing at his desk, in a kind of dreamy abstraction. All effort was felt to be useless, and he made none. At dinner time he went home, and sat at the table, silent and gloomy; but he scarcely tasted food. After the meal, he returned to his store–a faint hope springing up in his mind that Edward might have submitted the aid he had asked for so humbly by private hand, or through some broker in the city, and that it would yet arrive in time to save him. Alas! this proved a vain hope. Three o’clock came, and the unredeemed note still lay in bank.
“It is all over!” murmured the unhappy man, as like the strokes of a hammer upon his heart fell the three distinct chimes that rung the knell of his business life.
Taking up a newspaper, and affecting to read, Mr. Howland sat for nearly an hour awaiting the notorial visit, which seemed long delayed. At last he saw a man enter and come walking back toward the desk at which he sat. Not doubting but that it was the Notary, he was preparing to answer–“I can’t take it, up,” when a well-dressed stranger, with a dark, sun-burnt, countenance that had in it many familiar lines, passed before him, and fixed his eyes with an earnest look upon his face. For a few moments the two men regarded each other in silence, and then the stranger reached out his hand and uttered the single word–
“Father!”
“Andrew!” responded Mr. Howland, catching eagerly hold of the offered hand.; “Andrew! my son! my son! are you yet alive?”
The great deep of the old man’s heart was suddenly broken up, and he was overwhelmed by the rising floods of emotion. His lips quivered; there was a convulsive play of all the muscles of his face; and then large tears came slowly over his cheeks. The man of iron will was melted down; he wept like a child, and his son wept with him.
Scarcely had the first strong emotions created by this meeting exhausted themselves, when another person entered the store, and advanced to where the father and son were standing. He held a small slip of paper in his hand, and as he came up to Mr. Howland, he said, holding up the piece of paper–
“Your note for fifteen hundred dollars remains unpaid.”
“I’m sorry, but I can’t lift it,” replied Mr. Howland, in a low voice that he wished not to reach the ear of his son; but Andrew heard the answer distinctly, and instantly drawing a large pocket book from his pocket, took out a roll of bank bills which he reached to his father, saying, as he did so–
“Take what you want. How timely has been my arrival!”
“My heart blesses you, my son, for this generous tender of aid in a great extremity,” said Mr. Howland in a trembling voice, as he pushed back the roll of money. “But a crisis in my affairs has just arrived, and the lifting of this note will not save me.”
“How much will save you?” asked Andrew.
“I must have five or six thousand dollars in as many days,” replied Mr. Howland.
“This package of money will serve you then, for it contains ten thousand dollars,” said Andrew. “Take it.”
“I cannot rob you thus,” returned Mr. Howland, in a broken voice, as he still drew back.
“Let me have that note, my friend.” Andrew now turned to the Notary, who did not hesitate to exchange the merchant’s promise to pay, for three five hundred dollar bills of a solvent bank.
A brief but earnest and affectionate interview then took place between Andrew and his father, which closed with a request from the former that he might be permitted to see his mother alone, and spend with her the few hours that remained until evening, before the latter joined them.
CHAPTER XIII.
IT is nine years since Mrs. Howland looked her last look on her wayward, wandering boy, and eight years since any tidings came from him to bless her yearning heart. She appears older by almost twenty years, and moves about with a quiet drooping air, as if her heart were releasing itself from its hold on earthly objects, and reaching out its tendrils for a higher and surer support. With the exception of Martha, the youngest, all her children have given her trouble. Scarcely one of the sweet hopes cherished by her heart, when they first lay in helpless innocence upon her bosom, have been realized. Disappointment–disappointment–has come at almost every step of her married life. The iron hand of her husband has crushed almost every thing. Ah! how often and often, as she breathed the chilling air of her own household, where all was constrained propriety, would her heart go back to the sunny home in which were passed the happy days of girlhood, and wish that something of the wisdom and gentleness that marked her father’s intercourse with his children could be transferred to her uncompromising husband. But that was a vain wish. The two men had been cast in far different moulds.
Martha, now in her eighteenth year, was more like her mother than any of the children, and but for the light of her presence Mrs. Howland could hardly have kept her head above the waters that were rushing around her. Toward Martha the conduct of her father had, from the first, been of a mild character compared with his action toward the other children; and this received a still farther modification, when it become apparent even to himself, that by his hardness he had estranged the affections of his elder children, and driven them away. Gentle and loving in all her actions, she gradually won her way more and more deeply into the heart of her