“So–the hour has come,” she thought bitterly, when she was left alone, “he has appealed to the only one for whose sake he knows I would lay down my very life” and out of this bitter reflection, the meaning of the strange interview she had held with her guardian so shortly before rushed upon her in an entirely new light. _Now_ she knew what Mr Rayne meant by the “favor,” which involved the sacrifice of personal feeling and inclination. Yes, _now_ she recognized herself the dupe of the man she had so proudly rejected still, in all the bitterness of her reflection she had not felt one reproach against Henry Rayne suggest itself within her. She knew him too well now, to suspect anything else than that in some way he too was tangled in deceptive webs. If a promise from her lips was spoken at his request, she knew that the motive within his heart was nothing, if not her personal happiness, her future welfare, or her gratification for the moment. Still, all that could not cancel the obstinate fact now so bare before her, that in giving her word to her guardian at the time it was sought, she had given the lie to her own heart, and had signed the death warrant of her own most sanguine hopes. Now she must leave her destiny to chance. She would keep her promise–aye, to the very letter–if nothing happened before this terrible to-morrow, she would lay her life at the feet of her benefactor, to dispose of it as he deemed best. Guy Elersley was the man she loved, the only being in the whole wide world that influenced her life, but if it were her fate to be the victim of deception then with the mightiest strength of a womans will will she would cast his image out of her heart forever. She would live for the man she loathed, a life of voluntary martyrdom. The struggle would benefit her in any case. If it were too violent an exertion for her moral nature, it would, in its pitiless mercy relieve her of her burden of life, and fold her weak hands over her broken heart forever. If, on the contrary, her moral and physical strength held bravely out to the painful end, the struggle would cease after the crisis, and leave her unburdened, unfettered, hardened, cynical, cold, selfish, but unsusceptible, and incapable of ever being influenced again by any sentiment or passion, and this terrible experience promised, in any case to visit her but once in her whole lifetime.
While she thought, she remembered the little note Guy had written her that morning, telling her to let him know when her next meeting with Vivian Standish should take place. Instinctively she rose up, as if to leave the room. What could it matter now to either her or Guy whether they had ever loved each other or not? Was it not the only misery of her life that her love had come between her and the will of her kind guardian? Duty is such a sober piece of heroism when one’s affections, one’s very heart-core are not its sacrifice. The conscientious can go bravely forth to the stern call of duty, the obedient follow out unhesitatingly its command, the virtuous seek it out to accomplish it, but when apart from these moral qualities the heart stands out, a weak victim of passion, that passion that clings to the things it loves, that lives because they live, when a heart thus circumstanced is assailed on both sides, when love and duty put forth their respective claims, who sneers because the noblest, grandest heart gives itself up vith a groan of wretched resignation to the fascination of its love? Men may talk, pens may write, bards may sing of magnanimous deeds in the abstract. In theory we are most of us saints, if we had been our neighbors, we would never have had a fault, but being each one our own miserable, unfortunate self, we must fling ourselves into the open arms of temptation, at the same moment that contrition fills our heart for the rash deed.
Of Honor Edgeworth the reader might expect wonderful moral courage. May be, he too has faith in the fallacious doctrine of worldlings–that he believes good souls have not their struggles. The world generally shrugs its shoulders in the face of the virtuous, and declares that in the hearts of the good there is no moral struggle equal to that which quakes the breast of the evil-doer, but to assure itself of its terrible error, it must play the part of the publican and learn to subdue its passions under a mask.
Honor had determined upon doing the right thing, but she was not perfect enough to stifle the burning sensations that were caused by such a determination. She turned from where she stood and walked mechanically towards the window. The ceaseless drip, drip of the rain on the frozen ground had nothing in it to comfort her, it was pitch dark, and with a shrug and a shiver, she turned wearily away with a long, sobbing sigh and left the room. She crossed the hall into the library, which was quite deserted, though the gas burned, and a bright fire cast shadows on the ceiling and walls around. Throwing herself into an arm-chair before Henry Rayne’s handsome _ecritoire,_ she drew from a tiny drawer a delicate sheet of note paper, upon which her trembling hand, traced nervously–
“My DEAR GUY–“
Then without waiting or thinking a moment, she hastily wrote on–
“I have just received the intelligence that I am to be interviewed to-morrow morning by Mr Rayne and Vivian Standish. It may be rather late to tell you now, but I did not hear of it until a few moments ago. Mr Rayne never leaves his room before eleven, when he sometimes comes down for lunch–that will probably be the hour of the interview.
“I see no earthly use in sending you this information, except that you have asked me to do so, and _you_ know best. Ever your devoted
HONOR.”
She folded it, and sealed it in a dainty little envelope, then thrusting it into her pocket she went quietly into the kitchen and closed the door.
Mrs Potts, sitting artistically on the edge of a yellow-scoured kitchen table, opened her small eyes in blank astonishment at the unexpected visitor. She was surrounded by clippings and sheets of paper, which she scolloped quite tastily to fit the broad shelves of her tidy dresser. As soon, however, as Honor crossed the threshold of her _sanctum_, she skipped down with an agility that would have done credit to a woman twenty years her junior, and wiping the palms of her accommodating hands emphatically in her blue-check apron, she advanced to receive Honor’s orders.
“Go upstairs like a good soul, Potts,” said Honor, in a hushed voice, “and walk very quietly, and tell Fitts I want him in the library.”
“I will, Miss,” the old woman said respectfully, and as she stole up the back stairway on her errand, Honor returned as softly to the library, where she stood by the window awaiting Fitts.
In another moment, the door opened, and with his most respectful bow, the man-servant entered the room. Honor’s face was serious, and her gaze searching as she asked:
“Fitts, will you do a little favor for me, without telling any one of it?”
“I’m sorry, ye’d think it needful to ask me, Miss Honor, I’d rather, ye’d kno right well, that I’m only too proud when you ordher me, let alone, axm’ me, as if I as your equals,” and the poor fellow, looking half sorry as he spoke, touched the girl’s heart.
“Well, Fitts, I must first tell you a great secret, which I am sure you will be glad to hear,” Honor said a little gaily Fitts scratched his ear and looked embarassed, “Mr. Elersley is back again in Ottawa.”
“Och don’t I hope, ’tis yerself is in airnist, Miss Honor,” the old man answered between smiles and tears, “is this really the truth?”
“Without a doubt, Fitts, and to prove it for yourself, I am going to send you to him with this little note, he is staying at the ‘Albion,’ it is not far, see him yourself, it will please you both; I do not like to ask you to go out on such a dreadful night, but the message is important.”
“It will be the powerful queer night, Miss Honor, when I’ll not like to go out on your little errands, and more particular when it’s to see Mr. Guy that I have loved since he was a lad.”
“You are a good, devoted servant, Fitts,” she answered, “go now, and don’t be long, for you may be wanted.”
The man looked proudly at himself as he thrust her dainty note carefully into his inside pocket, and without further ado left the room.
CHAPTER XXXIX.
“But bitter hours come to all,
When even truths like these will pall, Sick hearts for humbler comfort call,
The cry wrung from thy spirits’ pain, May echo on some far off plain,
And guide a wanderer home again.” –Proctor.
Next morning, it was a bright and cheerful sun that streamed mat Honor’s window, the rain had all passed away, and the air was mild and refreshing. Hastily dressing herself, Honor hurried to Mr. Rayne’s door to ascertain how he had passed the night, but as she reached it, she met Aunt Jean coming out, with her forefinger on her lip, and whispering “Sh–sh–” in such premature warning, that Honor looked bewildered as she enquired the cause.
“He is sleeping nicely now, run off, we must not disturb him, it is such a natural little sleep,” Madame d’Alberg said in a low voice.
“Oh, is that it?” Honor exclaimed in great relief, as she turned willingly away and followed Aunt Jean down the broad stairway.
They took their silent little breakfast together, and then as Jean rose, to busy herself about the morning occupations, Honor bundled up a mass of pale blue wool, which she was resolving into a cloud, and went off to the library.
How long she sat there she could hardly say–every now and then she discovered herself, with her hands resting idly on her work, and her eyes gazing vacantly into the space before her; faces, figures, scenes, were passing backward and forward, as she watched, sensations of every kind racked her whole being–but it is not surprising at all, when one considers her in her true light.
People, like her, who have a tendency to intensity in all things have it most of all, in their loves, and hatreds, and no one can understand the nature of her emotions, but those who are themselves intense lovers or intense haters. He who has all his life, loved in a calm, cool, collected sort of way, has never known the acme of moral endurance.
Maybe, the love that I allude to, is not felt more than once in a score of years, by any individual of a community, now-a-days love has been transformed as much as it was in other days, a transformer, men have invaded that dark solemn forest of the soul, where certain passions roamed in hungry fury, wild, and unfettered, these have been secured, in our day, and have been tamed and domesticated; our children play with, and fondle, these monsters, that were so dreaded in earlier centuries by gray-haired mortals; let them beware, there is a hypocrisy in this, since hypocrisy is coexistent with life in any of its phases, and some day, the petted tiger or lion will not feel like play, his old nature will seek to assert itself, and then woe to the victim of this terrible caprice.
A sudden stamping in the hall outside, brought Honor quickly back to stern reality the footsteps vanished up the stairway, and she winced uncomfortably as she told herself it was Vivian Standish. Resolving to remain where she was until sent for, she re-applied herself vigorously to her work and avoided further distraction, but what was her amazement when, a few moments later, the door behind her opened, and Henry Rayne, leaning on the arm of Vivian Standish, entered the room. A cry of genuine surprise burst from her lips, as, scattering her mass of wool-work on the floor, she rushed to her guardian’s side with joyful greetings.
“Oh, I am so glad,” she cried, “to see you downstairs this morning, how much better you must feel?”
The feeble old man tried to smile cheerfully back as he said:
“I have made this effort for your sake, my dear, whether I go back up those stairs again with a light or a heavy heart, depends on you.”
A shadow flitted over her face, then looking in supreme disgust on the man beside them, she answered,
“On _me_? Then you know very well that your heart will be as light as a feather, going back.”
“Get me a chair, Vivian, boy,” said the feeble voice of the invalid, turning toward Standish. He moved a step to do so, and had his hand on a low cushioned _fauteuil_, when Honor rushed before him and laid her hand on the other arm of the chair.
“How can you ask a stranger to serve you, when I am by,” she asked, half choked with sobs, of Henry Rayne, “What have I done to merit this?”
As she clutched the opposite side of the chair, her eyes and Vivian’s met, there was a flash of contempt and a look of defiant love, and then, with all her woman’s strength, she wrestled the chair from his strong hold, and placed it behind her guardian. She refused to sit herself, the folding-doors leading to the drawing-room were partially closed and she stood against them, toying nervously with the massive handle near her. When quiet was restored, Henry Rayne began to speak. He seemed to pass, unnoticed, the confusion of a moment before, and said in the gentlest accents, addressing the girl.
“Honor, we have come here this morning for the purpose of deciding a question which, of late, has received very serious consideration from your friend here, and myself. I am now growing old and feeble, and have all the indications of an early decay in my constitution. Since the first moment that you were given me as a responsibility and a grave charge, my mind has been in a constant worry, lest, in the smallest degree, I would not render you your due as your own father would have done. In all matters, I have tried, as well as I knew how, to place myself in that very relationship to you, and if I have not succeeded I could never know from you, for you have always been a kind, grateful, considerate daughter. What I am about to discuss now, is the very last thing, relative to you, that will abide by my decision. I have, since my recent illness, considered everything that could assist me in securing your welfare, before I go, and as well as my eager, though maybe, not overwise judgment can direct me, I think I have adopted the best plan of all, it needs only your sanction to complete it and set my mind at rest. I will not remind you of your promise to me, because, on second thought, I have learned that to ask you to sacrifice your own heart for my sake, would be enough to taunt me in the other world, so I will merely appeal, showing you that with what discretion some sixty odd years of tough experience have given me, I presume I can direct you now.”
The girl, standing motionless by the doorway, looked her guardian fully in the face; she struggled for a moment, a secret, hidden struggle, and then answered calmly: “My dear Mr Rayne, do you not know, that such an appeal as this, is unnecessary? If you have something to command of me, state it plainly, clearly, I will understand it better. You have, it is true, guided me with faultless judgment and discretion, you have been kind, and solicitous and careful from the first moment we lived together. What is it you now ask in return? What do I owe you for such devotion?”
There was a faint ring of reproach in the words, as she uttered them–something which sounded as if she had said “yes, ’tis true you have done all this for me, but was your motive no worthier than to trust to these influences, for a power over me in the future?”
A trifle sadder in his accent, Henry Rayne answered, “Do not put it like that Honor you pain me. It is not a debt–no, no! you have generously paid me, and overpaid the attention I lavished on you, but now, what I want to complete my earthly happiness is this.” He beckoned to Vivian, and taking a hand of each, was about to join them, when Honor drew hers suddenly away, and turned pale with agitation.
“I understand,” she said huskily, “you wish me to marry _that_” pointing in Vivian’s face. “Well, as there is nothing which I could refuse you, I must not refuse you this. It is well you have not asked me to love him, or to respect him, for that is beyond me, but if he wishes to secure me, after what he has learned from my own lips, he deserves that I should wed him, and the consequences of such a harmonious union.”
Vivian never moved a muscle; he sat silently, quietly listening to it all. Henry Rayne interrupted gently.
“You are excited, Honor, and hence it is you speak thus, you will think better of it later. Do you promise me, then, to accept Vivian Standish as your husband, showing your faith in my discretion, and proving yourself dutiful to the end?”
There was a pause of a second, the word was on the girl’s lips; one other moment and her destiny was sealed: but suddenly a cry of “Villain!” broke through the doorway, and simultaneously, Guy Elersley appeared on the scene.
“Villain!” he cried, collaring Vivian Standish, “how can you stand there and hear this girl give up her name and her honor, into such vile keeping. You are a coward and a blackguard, and I will prove it.”
Vivian Standish grasping the back of a chair, stared in furious amazement. Honor, with delighted surprise on her face, now stood defiantly up and looked proudly on, and Henry Rayne rubbed his misty eyes wonderingly, and peered into the face of the new-comer. An exclamation of great joy burst from Honor’s lips.
“Guy!” she cried, “you are just in time.”
“Guy!” repeated the old man, “did someone say Guy? Quick, tell me where is Guy? Guy! Guy!” and with the words the feeble head drooped upon his throbbing bosom, the eyelids closed wearily, he raised his wasted hands to his aching temples, and with a long, heavy sigh, fell backwards.
Everything else was forgotten, for the ten minutes it took to revive Mr. Rayne. Honor, trembling with fright, supported his head on her bosom, and spoke appealingly to him. After a little his eyelids quivered and opened, he breathed again and sat up.
“Are you better?” Honor asked, bending over him in great eagerness.
“Yes, my dear,” he answered kindly, “I am all right now, but where is Guy?”
“Here I am,” Guy said, advancing a step, “I hope you will pardon the manner in which I have entered your house, after years of absence, but I have come, and only just in time to vindicate the wrongs of poor, duped victims, and to rescue innocence from the foul grasp of corruption.”
“What do you mean, Guy?” his uncle asked in curious consternation.
“I mean to tell my pain and my regret at knowing that while you have forbidden the shelter and comforts of your home to those of your own blood, who have committed deeds of harmless rashness, you have been welcoming and fostering with lavish generosity under your roof a vile man–a wolf in sheep’s clothing!”
“May I, as seeming somewhat concerned, ask who this is?” Vivian interrupted in the blandest tones, laying his arm on Guy’s shoulder.
“‘Tis yourself” Guy cried, shaking him violently off, “you coward! villain! rogue!”
“Guy, you mystify me,” Henry Rayne said in strange wonder, “pray explain. Whatever can you mean by such queer conduct?”
“‘Tis a painful task, uncle, but I must do it. This man, in whom you have placed your trust, has foully wronged you. He thrust himself upon you with his deceiving manners, and you were content to take him thus. You never questioned him about the past, nor did he care to inform you of his swindling career.”
Honor trembled and turned pale. Vivian’s eyes flashed fire, and he ground his teeth, while Henry Rayne only gazed in a stupid sort of wonder, while Guy enumerated these dreadful things.
“He was not content,” Guy continued, “to shake off that past, reeking with loathsome and dishonorable crimes, but he brought his knavery within these respectable walls–he dared to pay his attentions to your ward, and speak words of forbidden love into her ears, while the crime of having enticed as young and respectable a girl from her comfortable home, to swindle her out of thousands of dollars, which she owned, yet lay unexpiated on the black chapter of his heart.”
Guy scarcely pronounced the words when Vivian Standish sprang in mad fury towards him, crying–
“Liar! slanderer!–your words are false!”
“Pardon me, sir,” Guy said, in mock courtesy, “for contradicting you, but” (going towards the door) “if you will allow me, I will prove my _false_ statements.”
All eyes followed him, and to their blank amazement, there stepped into the library from the room outside, a beautiful and sad looking young girl, plainly but neatly clad, and who was followed by two professional looking men, who stood on either side of her.
Vivian Standish gave one quick, searching glance at the features of the young girl, and Honor saw in a moment how every tinge of color died out of his face, a grey, unearthly shadow crept over it, and his features assumed a set expression of misery which almost excited her to pity.
“Do you recognize this _gentleman_, mademoiselle?” Guy said, addressing the girl, and pointing in mock civility to Vivian.
“Oh! yes, sir–I do indeed,” she answered in a sweet, melancholy voice, “it is Bijou–see! he recognizes me!”
All eyes were turned on Vivian Standish. He trembled violently. He looked up once, while they all stared him so suspiciously, and that look was directed towards Honor; he saw her clear grey eyes buried in his tell-tale face. He leaned against the tall back of a chair unsteadily, hesitated a moment, and then addressing Henry Rayne, said, in a husky and trembling voice,
“It would not avail me much to try my defence under these crushing circumstances, Mr Rayne, but at least I can have my say as well as the others. I admit that in years gone by, I was guilty of many things of which you did not suspect me, but a man is not supposed to disgrace himself for his whole life because he has at one time committed extravagant follies. I thought I had buried my past forever, or I should never have taken advantage of your hospitality as I have. Guilty as I was, I could not help being influenced by the fascination that bound me to your home–the resistless attractions of that girl,” pointing to Honor. “I leave it now, disgraced, condemned, but at least, you, who are all so blameless, can consent not to crush me entirely. In administering justice, be a little kind, my misery is bitter enough–God knows!”
Then Fifine de Maistre stepped forward and laid her hand on the shoulder of the wretched man.
“Vivian Standish,” she said, “you have wronged me, inasmuch as a man can wrong a woman; you have driven my good father to any early grave, and blighted every hope I had for the future, and though my heart lies shrivelled and dead where _you_ have left it, _I_ forgive you!”
At these words, the look of hard contempt in every eye, melted into one of glowing admiration; tears stood in Honor’s eyes, though she had worn such a merciless expression before, and Vivian Standish as he raised his face from his trembling hands, looked calmer and more resigned, he turned his eyes on the slight figure standing beside him, and said in a nervous voice of emotion,
“May God bless you, Fifine, you can never regret these words.”
Henry Rayne’s feeble voice was the next to be heard.
“This strange, painful news,” he said, “is a greater shock to me than anything else in the world that I could hear of. I have received you Standish, and treated you as an intimate friend of my family, and had you in return, confined your deceptions to myself, I might yet have forgiven you; but knowingly, to extend your treachery to that innocent and unsuspecting girl, aware, as you were that she was all in all to me, is a base ingratitude that living or dying, _I_ will never forgive. What would she have become? blighted in hopes, ruined in prospects for life, and by my urgent request too, that, she would have been very soon, but for–you,” he said, turning towards Guy, “you, my boy, have saved my heart from breaking, though I did not deserve it from you. I suppose it is too late to seek your forgiveness now after I have judged you so hastily, and punished you so severely, but God knows, I have repented of it many a time since.”
His voice broke down, into a weak sob, and he bowed his head.
“You think too harshly of me, uncle dear,” Guy said, advancing, “for I have long ago forgotten the past; the day I left your house I took my first step to good fortune, and I have never regretted your severity since, though it pained me much at the time. It has all blown happily over now, however, and I have tried in a measure to atone for the folly of my past, let us learn a lesson for the future from the misunderstanding, but in every other respect let us forget that it has ever occurred.”
“Bless you, my noble boy,” were the words his uncle answered, “you are a treasure, and I am proud to own you.”
Meantime, the other two gentlemen, stood watching the strange proceeding, until Guy, remembering them, said–addressing all present–
“These gentlemen will explain their own presence.”
Whereupon, one of them, the most respectable of the two, stated in brief, business like terms, that “he had been the family lawyer of the Bencroft’s for many years, and that previous to his recent demise, Nicholas Bencroft had laid information with him, against one Vivian Standish, for swindling him out of a considerable sum of money, and that he had come there to see the man identified by the one who knew him best–it being unnecessary now, to tell him, he concluded, that the punishment of his crime awaited him,” he then drew back to make clear the way for his companion, who, as he advanced said,
“And I sir, am the person engaged by the father of this young lady, previous to his death, to hunt up the mystery of his daughters’ disappearance. The whole catalogue of her wrongs and misfortunes being attributed to you, you are my prisoner, until your trial has taken place.”
“May God help me!” came in heart-rending tones from the bowed face of the accused man. “It has all come down upon me together,” he moaned, raising his trembling hands to his throbbing temples, then with one pitiful, appealing, contrite look he scanned the faces of all those present, and gave himself voluntarily up, a guilty man, a culprit. He was escorted out of the house where he had shone as a star in the days of his freedom, out of the spot which held all that his poor miserable heart could care for now. Vivian Standish, the bright comet of Ottawa’s gay season, seated in a corner of that covered sleigh, on that bright morning, was a hopeless, ruined man, outcast, dejected, wretched.
Fifine de Maistre, in her sad voice, spoke a touching farewell to Honor and Guy and Henry Rayne. The holy resignation of her words, and the Christian spirit in which she forgave her wrongs, had strangely edified her hearers. Mr. Rayne and Honor pressed her very hard to remain and share their hospitality longer, but this she gently declined to do, and with affectionate, grateful thanks to all, and to Guy in particular, she left the house in company with the serious looking elderly lady, who awaited her, the last but one of the interesting personages who had appeared in the closing scene of the strange drama of “a culprits life.”
When quiet was restored, and the din of accusing voices had ceased, Henry Rayne looked proudly up at the manly young fellow who stood before him, and said,
“Guy, I can never thank God sufficiently for having sent you so fortunately, in time to interrupt the course of the terrible destiny that I was forcing on to my poor little girl. A little longer would have made all the difference of a lifetime–a young life shattered and crushed in its bloom, and some day _she_ would be justified in cursing my memory and my name, after I had tried, in blind love, to secure her unalloyed happiness. I cannot live to return you, in deeds of active merit, compensation for the good you have done me–that I know and regret, but in some way I must find a means of acknowledging all I owe you, my dear boy.” Here he hesitated a little, and looking from one to the other of the young people standing before him, resumed.
“I suppose I am more unworthy than ever, to express a wish or a hope now, but let me tell you, before I die, of the wild wish that animated my heart to the very end, the gratification of which, would be the summit of my earthly expectations.”
“What is it?” and “speak it!” broke, simultaneously, from the young people’s lips.
“‘Tis this,” he said, stretching out his feeble hands, and taking one of each in their nervous clasp, “’tis to join together both those little hands, by these, my old, trembling ones, that would so unconsciously have wronged them to knit them together in one holy link, that I might fasten, with the last remnant of my lifes strength–that is the old man’s ambition now, the ambition of long ago, re-awakened and revived, the plan conceived before the clouds of dissension gathered over our happy home the plan re-conceived when the dark clouds have melted away into obscurity, and threaten us no more.”
The hands thus joined, this time lay willingly clasped together. Honor did not seek to snatch hers from the light, warm grasp that held it a prisoner, while Guy gathered in the little trembling fingers into his strong palm, as the miser does the yellow gold he has long coveted. The lovers looked meaningly at one another and then Guy, whose eyes were brimful of unspoken emotion answered his uncle saying,
“You had said you could not live to compensate me for what I have just done. Now, let me tell you that twere worth a whole life-time of wrongs and misfortunes to me, if compensation meant _this_” and with these words he brought his other hand over the willing little captive he already held in one. “It has been the dream of my life too, uncle,” he continued, “it has been the only hope that encouraged me through weary scenes of strife and disappointment, and if I can receive it from your own hand, and with your blessing, my cup of bliss vill indeed be filled to overflowing.”
“And you, little one?” Henry Rayne faltered, looking up at Honor through his tearful eyes.
“I?” the girl answered with blushing, averted face, “It is the most I had over hoped for. Therein my happiness also dwells.”
The old man bowed his head for an instant, and then raised his eyes and scanned the face of his _protegee_ curiously.
“Do you mean to tell me,” he asked in profound astonishment, “that you have loved Guy Elersley through all these years?”
“That I have,” she answered firmly.
“But–” began he.
“I know what you would say,” she interrupted quietly. “That a moment ago I was ready to sacrifice my love, to belie my heart, to crush my fondest hope–and that is true, indeed. I was a friendless, helpless, orphan child when you took me under your care, and watched me, and guided me, and gave me every comfort your happy home afforded, in everything you have proved yourself the most devoted friend in the world and knowing this, feeling, realizing this, as I did, could I on the mere account of natural prejudice, deny you the favor you asked of me so humbly? What was my love, my ambition, my hope, to my duty towards you, the representative of my dead father? Nothing at all. I did it miserably, badly, I know. I clung to my heart’s inclination with the very last breath of freedom I drew, and then when I had trampled it, though so cowardly, I felt that I had done my very best to repay you your devotedness and kindness. If destiny has pleased to show us that she was only trying us, we at least have given proof to one another of our confidence and love–but I earnestly hope that never again will destiny play the same game with our hearts.”
A low sob broke from the old man’s lips. As she finished, he drew her gently towards him, and in a voice that shook with pain and emotion, he began:
“Oh, Honor! my dear little one. How could you have tortured your poor noble little heart like this? What terrible things I must have made you do unthinkingly? and I dreaming all the while it was my boundless love alone that influenced me. But believe me, child these feeble, wrinkled hands would burn heroically over the slowest fire before they could be raised in voluntary tyranny over you. I would rather far that these dim eyes became stone blind to the light of heaven than that they should cast one glance of undue reproach upon you. Aye, and my very heart would break within me rather than it should foster one sentiment that was not love for you, and yet, feeling thus, I was driving you to ruin and wreck. Instinct taught you the terrible truth, and you would blight your life rather than not suit the whims of a thoughtless old man. How can I ever look you in the face again? Oh! my dearest child, this indeed is too much–too much–too much” and sobbing violently, the bowed head, with its snow-white locks, fell on the shoulder of the tearful girl kneeling beside the old man’s chair. In her gentlest, most childish and winning way, Honor, brightening up her countenance, said to her disconsolate guardian,
“Well, if you are really sorry, as you pretend, it is not a very good proof that you love me as much as you say.”
At this the bowed head was raised, and a glance of hopeful enquiry cast on the girl’s face.
“Well, it is this way,” Honor continued, answering it: “you see, if Vivian Standish had never been encouraged by you, he would never have come here at all, and Guy would never have been alarmed about us, and would not have come back at all, and then, of course, we would never have all been reunited. I would be a gloomy, grumbling old maid, that could never be happy, and life would have been painfully glum for the future, whereas,”–and here the old, care-worn face smiled, as it watched the good, kind features of the girl–“you brought everything to a beautiful crisis, by pretending to force another man on me, for I really don’t believe now, you meant me to marry him at all,” she said, laughing outright, and kissing away the remnants of the old man’s grief from his sorrowful face.
“You are an angel of consolation, besides everything else,” was all that Mr. Rayne could answer to her pretty speech, but he clasped again the hands of the two young people he loved, and in an earnest, pious tone, he said:
“I give you, one to another: may you live to gladden and comfort one another’s hearts, through a long, prosperous and holy life; and remember, that each time you dwell upon the memory of the old man, who was foolish, only in his wild love for you both, that he has begged of God on this day, to sanction this humble blessing by one from on high, and that the desire for your future welfares, was the very last desire he had satisfied in this life and now, my children, I will leave you, I am tired and worn out, and would like to rest. Will you each lend me an arm, as though no estrangement had ever come between us? Come! forgive the old man. Come, Honor! come, Guy! ’tis the last time I will ask you to assist me up these stairs.”
“Do not say such ugly, ominous words, dear Mr Rayne,” Honor pleaded, sliding her arm in a fond way into his, and with Guy on the other side of him, the old man, smiling happily, was assisted back to his pillows, whence, it may as well be said, he never rose again.
The excitement of Vivian Standish’s capture and arrest, with the unexpected circumstances of Guy’s return, and Honor’s great sacrifice, had only served to hasten the slow progress of a fatal illness. For days after, he weakened gradually, but hopelessly, yet filled with such a holy resignation and peaceful endurance, as could not help softening the terrible grief that would have been resistless, had he suffered without fortitude or hope.
CHAPTER XL.
Man’s uncertain life.
So like a ram-drop, hanging on the bough. Amongst ten thousand of its sparkling kindred, The remnants of some passing thunder shower, Which have their moments dropping one by one, And which shall soonest lose its perilous hold, We cannot guess.
–J Baillie
The tired, spent moments of the old year’s midnight, were crawling into eternity, the fierce December wind was sighing out its wearied farewell over the frozen streets; the thick white frosts were gathering on the window panes, in crystal shrubs and icy forests; December was howling, in a spectral voice, the ominous cry of the “Banshee,” in anticipation of the old year’s death. It was well nigh the hour of another day’s dawn, but in the house of Henry Rayne everyone was astir. In the old, familiar home, where we have intruded so often upon happy inmates in their joy, we now steal an entrance, to witness the gloom, the stillness, the oppressive silence of an awful grief. There is a wasted hand lying over the neat counterpane: it is clammy and feeble, there is a feverish brow, tossing on a downy pillow, parched lips, dim eyes, shadowy features, are now what we recognise, instead of the good- natured, smiling face of Henry Rayne, there is labored breathing, causing the weak breast to heave and fall in heavy sobs, there is the sound of stifled weeping and half muttered prayers from those who kneel around his bed. Honor is kneeling at the head, with blanched face, clutching her clasped hands nervously, while her pale lips repeat a supplication for him who is dying before her. Guy, on the opposite side, stands peering eagerly into the face of the doomed one he loves, watching and waiting for the last terrible change that will ever come. Jean d’Alberg, kneeling at the foot, with her face buried in her hands, is stifling the tears and sobs that burst from her weary eyes and breast, and at a little distance away, the two faithful servants are weeping and praying over the last of him, whom they had learned to cherish and idolize.
Suddenly the dim eyes grow somewhat bright, a sweet smile hovers around the mouth of the dying man, he makes a feeble effort to take the hand of his little girl in his. Honor sees it, and quietly lays her cold hand in his, she is conscious of a weak pressure, which almost breaks the bounds of her heroic endurance. Then the dying glance is turned on Guy, and the same effort repeated, he too lays his trembling hand in that of the dying man, beside Honor’s, with its last feeble effort they feel the hand of the man they had each loved as a parent attempt to link theirs together, when that is done he tries to move his lips, bending low over him. Honor can catch the words, “Love–one–another,” and then the voice fails, after that, she hears stray, broken syllables, “happy,” “memory,” and “at last.”
Guy, taking Honor’s hands in both his, across the death-bed, pledges his love for life in a tone so clear and loud that the dying man can hear it, for he smiles, and looks at each, and with the half-stifled words of his blessing, he closes his weary, languid eyes, and his spirit passes away.
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All the toil and worry of life have perished with that last long sigh, no more work awaits those weary hands, so Honor crosses them reverentially on the still breast. His dying smile lingered on his dear kind face, even in death, and people as they came and went wiped away a tear and said, “it was easily seen the old man had died with an unburdened conscience.” Every one regretted the demise of such an estimable man, the daily papers came out next morning and evening with lengthy obituaries and tributes to the memory of one who was known to be such a valued citizen. The funeral was one of, if not the longest, that was ever seen in the streets of Ottawa, and every man who joined the solemn procession was a genuine mourner for the kind-hearted deceased.
People stared and wondered at seeing Guy returned, but they were also very glad, for he was a universal favorite with those who had known him before.
Through all her bitter grief Honor had shed no tear, though every tinge of color had faded out of her face, and her eyes grew wild and vacant in their gaze. When the bustle, and excitement had all subsided, immediately after the death of Mr. Rayne, Honor had stolen into the room where he lay, in the depths of a handsome coffin, sleeping his eternal sleep, and throwing herself on her knees beside him, she bowed down her head until her own fair, warm cheek rested against the icy cold face of the dead man she loved, here she neither wept nor moaned, but in silent, tearless anguish mourned over her departed friend. She gently chafed the stiff, cold hands with hers, and smoothed back the silver hair from his marble brow, there was a load of crushing weight and pain and care down deep in her poor heart, but still no tear would come to her burning eyes. By and bye, when she had spent nearly an hour beside the lifeless figure she loved so fondly, Guy missed her, and suspecting her whereabouts, came stealthily to the door of the room where their dead relative lay, it was closed, but yielded to his gentle pressure, and opened noiselessly,–sure enough, there she was, still lying beside the dead smiling face, but now she was speaking, in a low, murmuring tone, such heart-rending words as brought the tears to Guy’s own eyes while he listened, unnoticed.
“Lonely?” she was saying, in a long sigh, “Oh, yes, poor Honor will often be very lonely for her dear friend and parent, she will look for him in all the dear, familiar nooks where once she loved to see him, but she will always be disappointed, he will never, never see her nor speak to her again. Oh, I might have known,” she rambled on, “that this was too much happiness for me–but dear, dear Mr Rayne, open your beautiful eyes and look at me. Just once again, in the old way–we are alone now, will you not say a little word to poor Honor?–See how I kiss you right on your dear lips, like of old, but your lips are so cold, I do not believe you feel or care for my kiss–“
Guy could stand this no longer, he feared the girl’s mind would become demented if allowed to continue in such a strain; he stole over, and putting his arms gently around her, he drew her away from the figure of the dead man–
“Honor,” he whispered, “you must come away now, this will harm you–you look so tired and ill already, you must take great care of yourself darling,–for my sake, do.” Very mechanically she obeyed, and turned away. Guy felt as if in this mutual sorrow, they had been drawn closer together than any other tie could bring them; he raised the pallid, serious face, and kissed it tenderly, saying–
“You must bear up, my darling, for you know what a great grief it would be to him, to know that you suffered so.”
“Trust me, Guy,” she answered softly, “I will brave it–but then you know, he was my father, and I loved him.”
“Yes, that is all true, my love, but you must remember he is better off, and he has left his blessing with us, for all our lives.”
“And we will merit it, Guy, will we not, he was so good, so kind, so true?”
“That we will, Honor, I swear it, I will never forget the pledge I spoke into his dying ears.”
“Nor I,” she answered, in a whisper.
They left the room together, and Honor stole away to her own quarters; she saw no more of her dear guardian after that, until the funeral day, when she pressed the last long kiss of eternal farewell on his cold, unfeeling lips, that was the scene which racked her poor tried heart with all the sharpest pangs that grief doth know she fancied, at that moment her endurance must yield, and her heart break, but she remembered dimly having been carried away to another room, and when she saw and felt again, all was over.
* * * * *
Two days after the interment of Henry Rayne, Guy and Honor sat chatting quietly together in the little sitting-room from whose window, Guy had caught the first glimpses of Honor, on that autumn evening long ago. In a close-fitting dress of heavy black, Honor looked more imposing and dignified than ever: her face was very pale, and there were deep, dark lines under her sad eyes. Guy too was serious, though handsome and careful as ever; their grief it is true, had thrown a heavy pall over the happiness of their new love, but still, each, felt, that it had served only to draw them still closer together, they were now all in all to one another.
“You are looking pale, and ill, my darling,” Guy said, rising and throwing himself on the handsome fender-stool at her feet, “I hope you are going to try and regain your former health and spirits very soon.”
“Oh, yes indeed, I intend to, Guy,” she answered sweetly, “I can do that easily, for your sake.”
“Don’t forget that you are exclusively mine, now,” he said looking straight up into her clear, gray eyes, “and very soon, I want to let every one know it too.” Honor smiled sadly.
“Foolish boy,” she said, half in soliloquy, “you will have enough of me all your life, take your time now,” while she spoke thus, she was burying her gaze in a beautiful little ring, which she twisted thoughtfully around her finger, without lifting her eyes, she said in such a serious tone.
“Guy–I hope you have not forgotten, to balance well in your mind, all the consequences and penalties of the step you are in such a hurry to take–remember that all is not so smooth and tempting as one sees it through the illusionary eyes of a first love. After all, we women, are only human and as likely to err as any one else; let us not then deceive ourselves, that sometimes in our lives, little thorns will not cross our path, and little storm-clouds obscure our bright, warm sun–if you have not prepared yourself for this, it is not now too late–better give in at the brink of a precipice than risk a fall–“
“Honor–your words are strange–maybe true, but not appropriate here, it was your voice, your example, that recalled me from the downward path of recklessness I was pursuing when I met you, I was haunted by your look, and your words always stood between me and evil, at last I fled, I ran away from temptation, I sought a new field of action, I worked in it, ever in the presence of your dear face, looking into your deep eyes, listening to your sweet voice, success awaited me, I rose, higher and higher; prosperity lavished her favors on me, I worked hard to redeem the name I had tarnished, and thanks to you, my noble darling, I have succeeded!”
“You exaggerate a woman’s influence, Guy, I admit that there are women who are grand enough for this, but they are very rare; woman, it is true, has much in her power, a great deal in her ambition, but to accomplish all that you say, one needs a loftier stimulant, a worthier motive, than a woman’s love.”
“Ah! ’tis not you who have tasted the experience,” he answered, “’tis I, and now, I answer safely, when asked by a less fortunate man, the secret of my success, ‘Go, seek the society of high-minded, noble women, you will learn your duty, from their lips, as none others can teach it,’ and believe me, Honor, this I know to have been the rescue of many, and you are the indirect source of all this good. If then, I have learned so much as a stranger to you, is it likely I can ever regret the fortunate step that will bring me under the immediate guidance of your hand and heart? Ah no! Honor, I will never again know what regret is.”
“So be it,” she answered seriously, looking into the fire, “but why I spoke, is, because so many, in fact nearly every one, enters the marriage vocation now-a-days, as though twere a trifling risk, as though to a woman it were not fraught with the sublimest responsibilities it is possible for the noblest woman to assume, as though it were indeed, nothing more, than the gratification of having secured a husband, the fuss of an elaborate trousseau or the _eclat_ of a wedding ceremony. Why are our cities so plentiful of sin and shame, and wrecked youth, if not, because of women who never considered the serious importance of their vocation as mothers, who were unworthy their title of wives, who tired of their self-assumed duties. If any of these destinies awaited me, Guy, I would rather die to-night, than risk them–the thought makes me shudder.”
“You, Honor?” he said, viewing her with very evident admiration, “such a destiny as that for _you,_ you are jesting, for since you can save, and reclaim others, you know, you are above every taint of evil yourself.”
“You still persist in your obstinate view, eh?” she said, smiling. “Well, remember, I warned you in time. I hope there will never be cause for regret in the future.”
It was growing late as they sat there talking quietly. The sun-streaks vanished from the window sill; the dark, grey shadows of twilight began to steal around them, but they scarcely heeded the change. They loved one another now with that pure and ardent love which finds all satisfaction, and all comfort in it’s own existence. They had not shown their attachment in wild enthusiasm or showy demonstration, but it is not the largest flames that burn the most intensely. The love that lies quietly, unspoken in the heart, the love that endures in silence, that strengthens in solitude, that thrives in hope, is the truest and holiest, and most exalted love of which the human heart is susceptible. Such love never dies. As it has lived, so there comes a time, sooner or later, when the heart’s dream may safely float on the surface of the deep, honest eyes, and the heart’s desire flow in fitting terms over the unsullied lips. Such a love invariably brings its own reward.
The darkness had nearly spread its thickness from ceiling to floor, when Jean d’Alberg put her head in at the sitting room door, and exclaimed,
“Well, upon my word; such ‘two spoons’ I never did see in all my life!”
Both young people looked up and smiled.
“If you’ll please to substitute two spoons for _tea_-spoons you may come to the dining-room now, for tea is quite ready,” she said, disappearing out the doorway again. Hand-in-hand Guy and Honor rose, and went out to patronize Aunt Jean’s comfortable table.
Three months after this, on a wild March morning, Guy Elersley and Honor Edgeworth became man and wife. It was a very quiet little wedding in the early, early morning, without any guests or spectators save the priest, who tied the marriage knot, Dr. and Mrs. Belford, of New York, Madame d’Alberg and Anne Palmer, or “Nanette.”
There was a tempting breakfast for the littie party after the ceremony, to prepare which, good Mrs. Potts had put the very best of her abilities to the test, and before noon of the same day, Honor and her husband, with Nanette and Aunt Jean, were rolling along to their new home.
Mrs. Potts and the faithful Fitts followed later in the season with the furniture and belongings, and all were established in a home full of pleasant distractions and promising happiness but under the same old management as ever, and bound by the same old ties of long ago.
Ottawa began to miss Henry Rayne and his household, and many a word of kind remembrance was uttered as a friendly tribute to their memory.
The wonderful story of Vivian Standish’s disgrace never found its way in detail into the gossipping circles of the capital, although there were a few who shook their heads and winked their eyes and affected to know all about it.
Josephine de Maistre had gone back to the peace and comfort of her seclusion, after the critical interview, and no one of Mr. Raynes household had betrayed the secret. There were only a few little unavoidable words afloat, by which the curious public of Ottawa could surmise why Honor Edgeworth had so coldly rejected her handsome suitor at the last moment, and why Guy Elersley had come back in the nick of time, to be reinstated in his uncle’s favor.
Honor was the recipient of many dainty notes of well-worded congratulations, and the sweetest sounding–like Miss Dash’s and Miss Reid’s–were those whose writers envied with a great bitterness the luck of Henry Rayne’s _protegee_.
I need not follow the course of events farther than this, although strongly tempted to tell of certain stylish weddings that followed this one in busy succession. My pen would be kinder, if it might, than merciless. Fate to my other heroines, who are threatened to remain “fancy free” for a deplorable number of years to come, and after that–forever.
The married life of Honor Edgeworth could not but be consistent with her single life. In peace, happiness and prosperity, and in the enjoyment of health, wealth and mutual devotedness, we leave our worthy hero and his worthy wife.
May our destinies,–as they unroll themselves from the scroll of time, be as promising, as salutary, and as well deserved as theirs.
THE END.