Robert Falconer by George MacDonald (page 5)

‘I dinna ken.’

‘Where did he die?’

‘I dinna ken.’

‘Do you remember it?’

‘No, mem.’

‘Well, if you will come to my room, you shall practise there. I shall be down-stairs with my aunt. But perhaps I may look up now and then, to see how you are getting on. I will leave the door unlocked, so that you can come in when you like. If I don’t want you, I will lock the door. You understand? You mustn’t be handling things, you know.’

”Deed, mem, ye may lippen (trust) to me. But I’m jist feared to lat ye hear me lay a finger upo’ the piana, for it’s little I cud do wi’ my fiddle, an’, for the piana! I’m feart I’ll jist scunner (disgust) ye.’

‘If you really want to learn, there will be no fear of that,’ returned Miss St. John, guessing at the meaning of the word scunner. ‘I don’t think I am doing anything wrong,’ she added, half to herself, in a somewhat doubtful tone.

”Deed no, mem. Ye’re jist an angel unawares. For I maist think sometimes that my grannie ‘ll drive me wud (mad); for there’s naething to read but guid buiks, an’ naething to sing but psalms; an’ there’s nae fun aboot the hoose but Betty; an’ puir Shargar’s nearhan’ dementit wi’ ‘t. An’ we maun pray till her whether we will or no. An’ there’s no comfort i’ the place but plenty to ate; an’ that canna be guid for onybody. She likes flooers, though, an’ wad like me to gar them grow; but I dinna care aboot it: they tak sic a time afore they come to onything.’

Then Miss St. John inquired about Shargar, and began to feel rather differently towards the old lady when she had heard the story. But how she laughed at the tale, and how light-hearted Robert went home, are neither to be told.

The next Sunday, the first time for many years, Dooble Sanny was at church with his wife, though how much good he got by going would be a serious question to discuss.

CHAPTER XXV.

THE GATES OF PARADISE.

Robert had his first lesson the next Saturday afternoon. Eager and undismayed by the presence of Mrs, Forsyth, good-natured and contemptuous–for had he not a protecting angel by him?–he hearkened for every word of Miss St. John, combated every fault, and undermined every awkwardness with earnest patience. Nothing delighted Robert so much as to give himself up to one greater. His mistress was thoroughly pleased, and even Mrs. Forsyth gave him two of her soft finger tips to do something or other with–Robert did not know what, and let them go.

About eight o’clock that same evening, his heart beating like a captured bird’s, he crept from grannie’s parlour, past the kitchen, and up the low stair to the mysterious door. He had been trying for an hour to summon up courage to rise, feeling as if his grandmother must suspect where he was going. Arrived at the barrier, twice his courage failed him; twice he turned and sped back to the parlour. A third time he made the essay, a third time stood at the wondrous door–so long as blank as a wall to his careless eyes, now like the door of the magic Sesame that led to the treasure-cave of Ali Baba. He laid his hand on the knob, withdrew it, thought he heard some one in the transe, rushed up the garret stair, and stood listening, hastened down, and with a sudden influx of determination opened the door, saw that the trap was raised, closed the door behind him, and standing with his head on the level of the floor, gazed into the paradise of Miss St. John’s room. To have one peep into such a room was a kind of salvation to the half-starved nature of the boy. All before him was elegance, richness, mystery. Womanhood radiated from everything. A fire blazed in the chimney. A rug of long white wool lay before it. A little way off stood the piano. Ornaments sparkled and shone upon the dressing-table. The door of a wardrobe had swung a little open, and discovered the sombre shimmer of a black silk dress. Something gorgeously red, a China crape shawl, hung glowing beyond it. He dared not gaze any longer. He had already been guilty of an immodesty. He hastened to ascend, and seated himself at the piano.

Let my reader aid me for a moment with his imagination–reflecting what it was to a boy like Robert, and in Robert’s misery, to open a door in his own meagre dwelling and gaze into such a room–free to him. If he will aid me so, then let him aid himself by thinking that the house of his own soul has such a door into the infinite beauty, whether he has yet found it or not.

‘Just think,’ Robert said to himself, ‘o’ me in sic a place! It’s a pailace. It’s a fairy pailace. And that angel o’ a leddy bides here, and sleeps there! I wonner gin she ever dreams aboot onything as bonny ‘s hersel’!’

Then his thoughts took another turn.

‘I wonner gin the room was onything like this whan my mamma sleepit in ‘t? I cudna hae been born in sic a gran’ place. But my mamma micht hae weel lien here.’

The face of the miniature, and the sad words written below the hymn, came back upon him, and he bowed his head upon his hands. He was sitting thus when Miss St. John came behind him, and heard him murmur the one word Mamma! She laid her hand on his shoulder. He started and rose.

‘I beg yer pardon, mem. I hae no business to be here, excep’ to play. But I cudna help thinkin’ aboot my mother; for I was born in this room, mem. Will I gang awa’ again?’

He turned towards the door.

‘No, no,’ said Miss St. John. ‘I only came to see if you were here. I cannot stop now; but to-morrow you must tell me about your mother. Sit down, and don’t lose any more time. Your grandmother will miss you. And then what would come of it?’

Thus was this rough diamond of a Scotch boy, rude in speech, but full of delicate thought, gathered under the modelling influences of the finished, refined, tender, sweet-tongued, and sweet-thoughted Englishwoman, who, if she had been less of a woman, would have been repelled by his uncouthness; if she had been less of a lady, would have mistaken his commonness for vulgarity. But she was just, like the type of womankind, a virgin-mother. She saw the nobility of his nature through its homely garments, and had been, indeed, sent to carry on the work from which his mother had been too early taken away.

‘There’s jist ae thing mem, that vexes me a wee, an’ I dinna ken what to think aboot it,’ said Robert, as Miss St. John was leaving the room. ‘Maybe ye cud bide ae minute till I tell ye.’

‘Yes, I can. What is it?’

‘I’m nearhan’ sure that whan I lea’ the parlour, grannie ‘ill think I’m awa’ to my prayers; and sae she’ll think better o’ me nor I deserve. An’ I canna bide that.’

‘What should make you suppose that she will think so?’

‘Fowk kens what ane anither’s aboot, ye ken, mem.’

‘Then she’ll know you are not at your prayers.’

‘Na. For sometimes I div gang to my prayers for a whilie like, but nae for lang, for I’m nae like ane o’ them ‘at he wad care to hear sayin’ a lang screed o’ a prayer till ‘im. I hae but ae thing to pray aboot.’

‘And what’s that, Robert?’

One of his silences had seized him. He looked confused, and turned away.

‘Never mind,’ said Miss St. John, anxious to relieve him, and establish a comfortable relation between them; ‘you will tell me another time.’

‘I doobt no, mem,’ answered Robert, with what most people would think an excess of honesty.

But Miss St. John made a better conjecture as to his apparent closeness.

‘At all events,’ she said, ‘don’t mind what your grannie may think, so long as you have no wish to make her think it. Good-night.’

Had she been indeed an angel from heaven, Robert could not have worshipped her more. And why should he? Was she less God’s messenger that she had beautiful arms instead of less beautiful wings?

He practised his scales till his unaccustomed fingers were stiff, then shut the piano with reverence, and departed, carefully peeping into the disenchanted region without the gates to see that no enemy lay in wait for him as he passed beyond them. He closed the door gently; and in one moment the rich lovely room and the beautiful lady were behind him, and before him the bare stair between two white-washed walls, and the long flagged transe that led to his silent grandmother seated in her arm-chair, gazing into the red coals–for somehow grannie’s fire always glowed, and never blazed–with her round-toed shoes pointed at them from the top of her little wooden stool. He traversed the stair and the transe, entered the parlour, and sat down to his open book as though nothing had happened. But his grandmother saw the light in his face, and did think he had just come from his prayers. And she blessed God that he had put it into her heart to burn the fiddle.

The next night Robert took with him the miniature of his mother, and showed it to Miss St. John, who saw at once that, whatever might be his present surroundings, his mother must have been a lady. A certain fancied resemblance in it to her own mother likewise drew her heart to the boy. Then Robert took from his pocket the gold thimble, and said,

‘This thimmel was my mamma’s. Will ye tak it, mem, for ye ken it’s o’ nae use to me.’

Miss St. John hesitated for a moment.

‘I will keep it for you, if you like,’ she said, for she could not bear to refuse it.

‘Na, mem; I want ye to keep it to yersel’; for I’m sure my mamma wad hae likit you to hae ‘t better nor ony ither body.’

‘Well, I will use it sometimes for your sake. But mind, I will not take it from you; I will only keep it for you.’

‘Weel, weel, mem; gin ye’ll keep it till I speir for ‘t, that’ll du weel eneuch,’ answered Robert, with a smile.

He laboured diligently; and his progress corresponded to his labour. It was more than intellect that guided him: Falconer had genius for whatever he cared for.

Meantime the love he bore his teacher, and the influence of her beauty, began to mould him, in his kind and degree, after her likeness, so that he grew nice in his person and dress, and smoothed the roughness and moderated the broadness of his speech with the amenities of the English which she made so sweet upon her tongue. He became still more obedient to his grandmother, and more diligent at school; gathered to himself golden opinions without knowing it, and was gradually developing into a rustic gentleman.

Nor did the piano absorb all his faculties. Every divine influence tends to the rounded perfection of the whole. His love of Nature grew more rapidly. Hitherto it was only in summer that he had felt the presence of a power in her and yet above her: in winter, now, the sky was true and deep, though the world was waste and sad; and the tones of the wind that roared at night about the goddess-haunted house, and moaned in the chimneys of the lowly dwelling that nestled against it, woke harmonies within him which already he tried to spell out falteringly. Miss St. John began to find that he put expressions of his own into the simple things she gave him to play, and even dreamed a little at his own will when alone with the passive instrument. Little did Mrs. Falconer think into what a seventh heaven of accursed music she had driven her boy.

But not yet did he tell his friend, much as he loved and much as he trusted her, the little he knew of his mother’s sorrows and his father’s sins, or whose the hand that had struck him when she found him lying in the waste factory.

For a time almost all his trouble about God went from him. Nor do I think that this was only because he rarely thought of him at all: God gave him of himself in Miss St. John. But words dropped now and then from off the shelves where his old difficulties lay, and they fell like seeds upon the heart of Miss St. John, took root, and rose in thoughts: in the heart of a true woman the talk of a child even will take life.

One evening Robert rose from the table, not unwatched of his grandmother, and sped swiftly and silently through the dark, as was his custom, to enter the chamber of enchantment. Never before had his hand failed to alight, sure as a lark on its nest, upon the brass handle of the door that admitted him to his paradise. It missed it now, and fell on something damp, and rough, and repellent instead. Horrible, but true suspicion! While he was at school that day, his grandmother, moved by what doubt or by what certainty she never revealed, had had the doorway walled up. He felt the place all over. It was to his hands the living tomb of his mother’s vicar on earth.

He returned to his book, pale as death, but said never a word. The next day the stones were plastered over.

Thus the door of bliss vanished from the earth. And neither the boy nor his grandmother ever said that it had been.

PART II.–HIS YOUTH.

CHAPTER I.

ROBERT KNOCKS–AND THE DOOR IS NOT OPENED.

The remainder of that winter was dreary indeed. Every time Robert went up the stair to his garret, he passed the door of a tomb. With that gray mortar Mary St. John was walled up, like the nun he had read of in the Marmion she had lent him. He might have rung the bell at the street door, and been admitted into the temple of his goddess, but a certain vague terror of his grannie, combined with equally vague qualms of conscience for having deceived her, and the approach in the far distance of a ghastly suspicion that violins, pianos, moonlight, and lovely women were distasteful to the over-ruling Fate, and obnoxious to the vengeance stored in the gray cloud of his providence, drove him from the awful entrance of the temple of his Isis.

Nor did Miss St. John dare to make any advances to the dreadful old lady. She would wait. For Mrs. Forsyth, she cared nothing about the whole affair. It only gave her fresh opportunity for smiling condescensions about ‘poor Mrs. Falconer.’ So Paradise was over and gone.

But though the loss of Miss St. John and the piano was the last blow, his sorrow did not rest there, but returned to brood over his bonny lady. She was scattered to the winds. Would any of her ashes ever rise in the corn, and moan in the ripening wind of autumn? Might not some atoms of the bonny leddy creep into the pines on the hill, whose ‘soft and soul-like sounds’ had taught him to play the Flowers of the Forest on those strings which, like the nerves of an amputated limb, yet thrilled through his being? Or might not some particle find its way by winds and waters to sycamore forest of Italy, there creep up through the channels of its life to some finely-rounded curve of noble tree, on the side that ever looks sunwards, and be chosen once again by the violin-hunter, to be wrought into a new and fame-gathering instrument?

Could it be that his bonny lady had learned her wondrous music in those forests, from the shine of the sun, and the sighing of the winds through the sycamores and pines? For Robert knew that the broad-leaved sycamore, and the sharp, needle-leaved pine, had each its share in the violin. Only as the wild innocence of human nature, uncorrupted by wrong, untaught by suffering, is to that nature struggling out of darkness into light, such and so different is the living wood, with its sweetest tones of obedient impulse, answering only to the wind which bloweth where it listeth, to that wood, chosen, separated, individualized, tortured into strange, almost vital shape, after a law to us nearly unknown, strung with strings from animal organizations, and put into the hands of man to utter the feelings of a soul that has passed through a like history. This Robert could not yet think, and had to grow able to think it by being himself made an instrument of God’s music.

What he could think was that the glorious mystery of his bonny leddy was gone for ever–and alas! she had no soul. Here was an eternal sorrow. He could never meet her again. His affections, which must live for ever, were set upon that which had passed away. But the child that weeps because his mutilated doll will not rise from the dead, shall yet find relief from his sorrow, a true relief, both human and divine. He shall know that that which in the doll made him love the doll, has not passed away. And Robert must yet be comforted for the loss of his bonny leddy. If she had had a soul, nothing but her own self could ever satisfy him. As she had no soul, another body might take her place, nor occasion reproach of inconstancy.

But, in the meantime, the shears of Fate having cut the string of the sky-soaring kite of his imagination, had left him with the stick in his hand. And thus the rest of that winter was dreary enough. The glow was out of his heart; the glow was out of the world. The bleak, kindless wind was hissing through those pines that clothed the hill above Bodyfauld, and over the dead garden, where in the summer time the rose had looked down so lovingly on the heartsease. If he had stood once more at gloaming in that barley-stubble, not even the wail of Flodden-field would have found him there, but a keen sense of personal misery and hopeless cold. Was the summer a lie?

Not so. The winter restrains, that the summer may have the needful time to do its work well; for the winter is but the sleep of summer.

Now in the winter of his discontent, and in Nature finding no help, Robert was driven inwards–into his garret, into his soul. There, the door of his paradise being walled up, he began, vaguely, blindly, to knock against other doors–sometimes against stone-walls and rocks, taking them for doors–as travel-worn, and hence brain-sick men have done in a desert of mountains. A door, out or in, he must find, or perish.

It fell, too, that Miss St. John went to visit some friends who lived in a coast town twenty miles off; and a season of heavy snow followed by frost setting in, she was absent for six weeks, during which time, without a single care to trouble him from without, Robert was in the very desert of desolation. His spirits sank fearfully. He would pass his old music-master in the street with scarce a recognition, as if the bond of their relation had been utterly broken, had vanished in the smoke of the martyred violin, and all their affection had gone into the dust-heap of the past.

Dooble Sanny’s character did not improve. He took more and more whisky, his bouts of drinking alternating as before with fits of hopeless repentance. His work was more neglected than ever, and his wife having no money to spend even upon necessaries, applied in desperation to her husband’s bottle for comfort. This comfort, to do him justice, he never grudged her; and sometimes before midday they would both be drunk–a condition expedited by the lack of food. When they began to recover, they would quarrel fiercely; and at last they became a nuisance to the whole street. Little did the whisky-hating old lady know to what god she had really offered up that violin–if the consequences of the holocaust can be admitted as indicating the power which had accepted it.

But now began to appear in Robert the first signs of a practical outcome of such truth as his grandmother had taught him, operating upon the necessities of a simple and earnest nature. Reality, however lapt in vanity, or even in falsehood, cannot lose its power. It is–the other is not. She had taught him to look up–that there was a God. He would put it to the test. Not that he doubted it yet: he only doubted whether there was a hearing God. But was not that worse? It was, I think. For it is of far more consequence what kind of a God, than whether a God or no. Let not my reader suppose I think it possible there could be other than a perfect God–perfect–even to the vision of his creatures, the faith that supplies the lack of vision being yet faithful to that vision. I speak from Robert’s point of outlook. But, indeed, whether better or worse is no great matter, so long as he would see it or what there was. He had no comfort, and, without reasoning about it, he felt that life ought to have comfort–from which point he began to conclude that the only thing left was to try whether the God in whom his grandmother believed might not help him. If the God would but hear him, it was all he had yet learned to require of his Godhood. And that must ever be the first thing to require. More demands would come, and greater answers he would find. But now–if God would but hear him! If he spoke to him but one kind word, it would be the very soul of comfort; he could no more be lonely. A fountain of glad imaginations gushed up in his heart at the thought. What if, from the cold winter of his life, he had but to open the door of his garret-room, and, kneeling by the bare bedstead, enter into the summer of God’s presence! What if God spoke to him face to face! He had so spoken to Moses. He sought him from no fear of the future, but from present desolation; and if God came near to him, it would not be with storm and tempest, but with the voice of a friend. And surely, if there was a God at all, that is, not a power greater than man, but a power by whose power man was, he must hear the voice of the creature whom he had made, a voice that came crying out of the very need which he had created. Younger people than Robert are capable of such divine metaphysics. Hence he continued to disappear from his grandmother’s parlour at much the same hour as before. In the cold, desolate garret, he knelt and cried out into that which lay beyond the thought that cried, the unknowable infinite, after the God that may be known as surely as a little child knows his mysterious mother. And from behind him, the pale-blue, star-crowded sky shone upon his head, through the window that looked upwards only.

Mrs. Falconer saw that he still went away as he had been wont, and instituted observations, the result of which was the knowledge that he went to his own room. Her heart smote her, and she saw that the boy looked sad and troubled. There was scarce room in her heart for increase of love, but much for increase of kindness, and she did increase it. In truth, he needed the smallest crumb of comfort that might drop from the table of God’s ‘feastful friends.’

Night after night he returned to the parlour cold to the very heart. God was not to be found, he said then. He said afterwards that even then ‘God was with him though he knew it not.’

For the very first night, the moment that he knelt and cried, ‘O Father in heaven, hear me, and let thy face shine upon me’–like a flash of burning fire the words shot from the door of his heart: ‘I dinna care for him to love me, gin he doesna love ilka body;’ and no more prayer went from the desolate boy that night, although he knelt an hour of agony in the freezing dark. Loyal to what he had been taught, he struggled hard to reduce his rebellious will to what he supposed to be the will of God. It was all in vain. Ever a voice within him–surely the voice of that God who he thought was not hearing–told him that what he wanted was the love belonging to his human nature, his human needs–not the preference of a court-favourite. He had a dim consciousness that he would be a traitor to his race if he accepted a love, even from God, given him as an exception from his kind. But he did not care to have such a love. It was not what his heart yearned for. It was not love. He could not love such a love. Yet he strove against it all–fought for religion against right as he could; struggled to reduce his rebellious feelings, to love that which was unlovely, to choose that which was abhorrent, until nature almost gave way under the effort. Often would he sink moaning on the floor, or stretch himself like a corpse, save that it was face downwards, on the boards of the bedstead. Night after night he returned to the battle, but with no permanent success. What a success that would have been! Night after night he came pale and worn from the conflict, found his grandmother and Shargar composed, and in the quietness of despair sat down beside them to his Latin version.

He little thought, that every night, at the moment when he stirred to leave the upper room, a pale-faced, red-eyed figure rose from its seat on the top of the stair by the door, and sped with long-legged noiselessness to resume its seat by the grandmother before he should enter. Shargar saw that Robert was unhappy, and the nearest he could come to the sharing of his unhappiness was to take his place outside the door within which he had retreated. Little, too, did Shargar, on his part, think that Robert, without knowing it, was pleading for him inside–pleading for him and for all his race in the weeping that would not be comforted.

Robert had not the vaguest fancy that God was with him–the spirit of the Father groaning with the spirit of the boy in intercession that could not be uttered. If God had come to him then and comforted him with the assurance of individual favour–but the very supposition is a taking of his name in vain–had Robert found comfort in the fancied assurance that God was his friend in especial, that some private favour was granted to his prayers, that, indeed, would have been to be left to his own inventions, to bring forth not fruits meet for repentance, but fruits for which repentance alone is meet. But God was with him, and was indeed victorious in the boy when he rose from his knees, for the last time, as he thought, saying, ‘I cannot yield–I will pray no more.’–With a burst of bitter tears he sat down on the bedside till the loudest of the storm was over, then dried his dull eyes, in which the old outlook had withered away, and trod unknowingly in the silent footsteps of Shargar, who was ever one corner in advance of him, down to the dreary lessons and unheeded prayers; but, thank God, not to the sleepless night, for some griefs bring sleep the sooner.

My reader must not mistake my use of the words especial and private, or suppose that I do not believe in an individual relation between every man and God, yes, a peculiar relation, differing from the relation between every other man and God! But this very individuality and peculiarity can only be founded on the broadest truths of the Godhood and the manhood.

Mrs. Falconer, ere she went to sleep, gave thanks that the boys had been at their prayers together. And so, in a very deep sense, they had.

And well they might have been; for Shargar was nearly as desolate as Robert, and would certainly, had his mother claimed him now, have gone on the tramp with her again. Wherein could this civilized life show itself to him better than that to which he had been born? For clothing he cared little, and he had always managed to kill his hunger or thirst, if at longer intervals, then with greater satisfaction. Wherein is the life of that man who merely does his eating and drinking and clothing after a civilized fashion better than that of the gipsy or tramp? If the civilized man is honest to boot, and gives good work in return for the bread or turtle on which he dines, and the gipsy, on the other hand, steals his dinner, I recognize the importance of the difference; but if the rich man plunders the community by exorbitant profits, or speculation with other people’s money, while the gipsy adds a fowl or two to the produce of his tinkering; or, once again, if the gipsy is as honest as the honest citizen, which is not so rare a case by any means as people imagine, I return to my question: Wherein, I say, is the warm house, the windows hung with purple, and the table covered with fine linen, more divine than the tent or the blue sky, and the dipping in the dish? Why should not Shargar prefer a life with the mother God had given him to a life with Mrs. Falconer? Why should he prefer geography to rambling, or Latin to Romany? His purposelessness and his love for Robert alone kept him where he was.

The next evening, having given up his praying, Robert sat with his Sallust before him. But the fount of tears began to swell, and the more he tried to keep it down, the more it went on swelling till his throat was filled with a lump of pain. He rose and left the room. But he could not go near the garret. That door too was closed. He opened the house door instead, and went out into the street. There, nothing was to be seen but faint blue air full of moonlight, solid houses, and shining snow. Bareheaded he wandered round the corner of the house to the window whence first he had heard the sweet sounds of the pianoforte. The fire within lighted up the crimson curtains, but no voice of music came forth. The window was as dumb as the pale, faintly befogged moon overhead, itself seeming but a skylight through which shone the sickly light of the passionless world of the dead. Not a form was in the street. The eyes of the houses gleamed here and there upon the snow. He leaned his elbow on the window-sill behind which stood that sealed fountain of lovely sound, looked up at the moon, careless of her or of aught else in heaven or on earth, and sunk into a reverie, in which nothing was consciously present but a stream of fog-smoke that flowed slowly, listlessly across the face of the moon, like the ghost of a dead cataract. All at once a wailful sound arose in his head. He did not think for some time whether it was born in his brain, or entered it from without. At length he recognized the Flowers of the Forest, played as only the soutar could play it. But alas! the cry responsive to his bow came only from the auld wife–no more from the bonny leddy! Then he remembered that there had been a humble wedding that morning on the opposite side of the way; in the street department of the jollity of which Shargar had taken a small share by firing a brass cannon, subsequently confiscated by Mrs. Falconer. But this was a strange tune to play at a wedding! The soutar half-way to his goal of drunkenness, had begun to repent for the fiftieth time that year, had with his repentance mingled the memory of the bonny leddy ruthlessly tortured to death for his wrong, and had glided from a strathspey into that sorrowful moaning. The lament interpreted itself to his disconsolate pupil as he had never understood it before, not even in the stubble-field; for it now spoke his own feelings of waste misery, forsaken loneliness. Indeed Robert learned more of music in those few minutes of the foggy winter night and open street, shut out of all doors, with the tones of an ancient grief and lamentation floating through the blotted moonlight over his ever-present sorrow, than he could have learned from many lessons even of Miss St. John. He was cold to the heart, yet went in a little comforted.

Things had gone ill with him. Outside of Paradise, deserted of his angel, in the frost and the snow, the voice of the despised violin once more the source of a sad comfort! But there is no better discipline than an occasional descent from what we count well-being, to a former despised or less happy condition. One of the results of this taste of damnation in Robert was, that when he was in bed that night, his heart began to turn gently towards his old master. How much did he not owe him, after all! Had he not acted ill and ungratefully in deserting him? His own vessel filled to the brim with grief, had he not let the waters of its bitterness overflow into the heart of the soutar? The wail of that violin echoed now in Robert’s heart, not for Flodden, not for himself, but for the debased nature that drew forth the plaint. Comrades in misery, why should they part? What right had he to forsake an old friend and benefactor because he himself was unhappy? He would go and see him the very next night. And he would make friends once more with the much ‘suffering instrument’ he had so wrongfully despised.

CHAPTER II.

THE STROKE.

The following night, he left his books on the table, and the house itself behind him, and sped like a grayhound to Dooble Sanny’s shop, lifted the latch, and entered.

By the light of a single dip set on a chair, he saw the shoemaker seated on his stool, one hand lying on the lap of his leathern apron, his other hand hanging down by his side, and the fiddle on the ground at his feet. His wife stood behind him, wiping her eyes with her blue apron. Through all its accumulated dirt, the face of the soutar looked ghastly, and they were eyes of despair that he lifted to the face of the youth as he stood holding the latch in his hand. Mrs. Alexander moved towards Robert, drew him in, and gently closed the door behind him, resuming her station like a sculptured mourner behind her motionless husband.

‘What on airth’s the maitter wi’ ye, Sandy?’ said Robert.

‘Eh, Robert!’ returned the shoemaker, and a tone of affection tinged the mournfulness with which he uttered the strange words–‘eh, Robert! the Almichty will gang his ain gait, and I’m in his grup noo.’

‘He’s had a stroke,’ said his wife, without removing her apron from her eyes.

‘I hae gotten my pecks (blows),’ resumed the soutar, in a despairing voice, which gave yet more effect to the fantastic eccentricity of conscience which from the midst of so many grave faults chose such a one as especially bringing the divine displeasure upon him: ‘I hae gotten my pecks for cryin’ doon my ain auld wife to set up your bonny leddy. The tane’s gane a’ to aise an’ stew (ashes and dust), an’ frae the tither,’ he went on, looking down on the violin at his feet as if it had been something dead in its youth–‘an’ frae the tither I canna draw a cheep, for my richt han’ has forgotten her cunnin’ Man, Robert, I canna lift it frae my side.’

‘Ye maun gang to yer bed,’ said Robert, greatly concerned.

‘Ow, ay, I maun gang to my bed, and syne to the kirkyaird, and syne to hell, I ken that weel eneuch. Robert, I lea my fiddle to you. Be guid to the auld wife, man–better nor I hae been. An auld wife’s better nor nae fiddle.’

He stooped, lifted the violin with his left hand, gave it to Robert, rose, and made for the door. They helped him up the creaking stair, got him half-undressed, and laid him in his bed. Robert put the violin on the top of a press within sight of the sufferer, left him groaning, and ran for the doctor. Having seen him set out for the patient’s dwelling, he ran home to his grandmother.

Now while Robert was absent, occasion had arisen to look for him: unusual occurrence, a visitor had appeared, no less a person than Mr. Innes, the school-master. Shargar had been banished in consequence from the parlour, and had seated himself outside Robert’s room, never doubting that Robert was inside. Presently he heard the bell ring, and then Betty came up the stair, and said Robert was wanted. Thereupon Shargar knocked at the door, and as there was neither voice nor hearing, opened it, and found, with a well-known horror, that he had been watching an empty room. He made no haste to communicate the fact. Robert might return in a moment, and his absence from the house not be discovered. He sat down on the bedstead and waited. But Betty came up again, and before Shargar could prevent her, walked into the room with her candle in her hand. In vain did Shargar intreat her to go and say that Robert was coming. Betty would not risk the danger of discovery in connivance, and descended to open afresh the fountain of the old lady’s anxiety. She did not, however, betray her disquietude to Mr. Innes.

She had asked the school-master to visit her, in order that she might consult him about Robert’s future. Mr. Innes expressed a high opinion of the boy’s faculties and attainments, and strongly urged that he should be sent to college. Mrs. Falconer inwardly shuddered at the temptations to which this course would expose him; but he must leave home or be apprentice to some trade. She would have chosen the latter, I believe, but for religion towards the boy’s parents, who would never have thought of other than a profession for him. While the school-master was dwelling on the argument that he was pretty sure to gain a good bursary, and she would thus be relieved for four years, probably for ever, from further expense on his account, Robert entered.

‘Whaur hae ye been, Robert?’ asked Mrs. Falconer.

‘At Dooble Sanny’s,’ answered the boy.

‘What hae ye been at there?’

‘Helpin’ him till ‘s bed.’

‘What’s come ower him?’

‘A stroke.’

‘That’s what comes o’ playin’ the fiddle.’

‘I never heard o’ a stroke comin’ frae a fiddle, grannie. It comes oot o’ a clood whiles. Gin he had hauden till ‘s fiddle, he wad hae been playin’ her the nicht, in place o’ ‘s airm lyin’ at ‘s side like a lang lingel (ligneul–shoemaker’s thread).’

‘Hm!’ said his grandmother, concealing her indignation at this freedom of speech, ‘ye dinna believe in God’s judgments!’

‘Nae upo’ fiddles,’ returned Robert.

Mr. Innes sat and said nothing, with difficulty concealing his amusement at this passage of arms.

It was but within the last few days that Robert had become capable of speaking thus. His nature had at length arrived at the point of so far casting off the incubus of his grandmother’s authority as to assert some measure of freedom and act openly. His very hopelessness of a hearing in heaven had made him indifferent to things on earth, and therefore bolder. Thus, strange as it may seem, the blessing of God descended on him in the despair which enabled him to speak out and free his soul from the weight of concealment. But it was not despair alone that gave him strength. On his way home from the shoemaker’s he had been thinking what he could do for him; and had resolved, come of it what might, that he would visit him every evening, and try whether he could not comfort him a little by playing upon his violin. So that it was loving-kindness towards man, as well as despair towards God, that gave him strength to resolve that between him and his grandmother all should be above-board from henceforth.

‘Nae upo’ fiddles,’ Robert had said.

‘But upo’ them ‘at plays them,’ returned his grandmother.

‘Na; nor upo’ them ‘at burns them,’ retorted Robert–impudently it must be confessed; for every man is open to commit the fault of which he is least capable.

But Mrs. Falconer had too much regard to her own dignity to indulge her feelings. Possibly too her sense of justice, which Falconer always said was stronger than that of any other woman he had ever known, as well as some movement of her conscience interfered. She was silent, and Robert rushed into the breach which his last discharge had effected.

‘An’ I want to tell ye, grannie, that I mean to gang an’ play the fiddle to puir Sanny ilka nicht for the best pairt o’ an hoor; an’ excep’ ye lock the door an’ hide the key, I will gang. The puir sinner sanna be desertit by God an’ man baith.’

He scarcely knew what he was saying before it was out of his mouth; and as if to cover it up, he hurried on.

‘An’ there’s mair in ‘t.–Dr. Anderson gae Shargar an’ me a sovereign the piece. An’ Dooble Sanny s’ hae them, to haud him ohn deid o’ hunger an’ cauld.’

‘What for didna ye tell me ‘at Dr. Anderson had gien ye sic a sicht o’ siller? It was ill-faured o’ ye–an’ him as weel.’

”Cause ye wad hae sent it back till ‘im; an’ Shargar and me we thocht we wad raither keep it.’

‘Considerin’ ‘at I’m at sae muckle expense wi’ ye baith, it wadna hae been ill-contrived to hae brocht the siller to me, an’ latten me du wi’ ‘t as I thocht fit.–Gang na awa’, laddie,’ she added, as she saw Robert about to leave the room.

‘I’ll be back in a minute, grannie,’ returned Robert.

‘He’s a fine lad, that!’ said Mr. Innes; ‘an’ guid ‘ll come o’ ‘m, and that ‘ll be heard tell o’.’

‘Gin he had but the grace o’ God, there wadna be muckle to compleen o’,’ acquiesced his grandmother.

‘There’s time eneuch for that, Mrs. Faukner. Ye canna get auld heids upo’ young shoothers, ye ken.’

”Deed for that maitter, ye may get mony an auld heid upo’ auld shoothers, and nae a spark o’ grace in ‘t to lat it see hoo to lay itsel’ doon i’ the grave.’

Robert returned before Mr. Innes had made up his mind as to whether the old lady intended a personal rebuke.

‘Hae, grannie,’ he said, going up to her, and putting the two sovereigns in her white palm.

He had found some difficulty in making Shargar give up his, else he would have returned sooner.

‘What’s this o’ ‘t, laddie?’ said Mrs. Falconer. ‘Hoots! I’m nae gaein’ to tak yer siller. Lat the puir soutar-craturs hae ‘t. But dinna gie them mair nor a shillin’ or twa at ance–jist to haud them in life. They deserve nae mair. But they maunna sterve. And jist ye tell them, laddie, at gin they spen’ ae saxpence o’ ‘t upo’ whusky, they s’ get nae mair.’

‘Ay, ay, grannie,’ responded Robert, with a glimmer of gladness in his heart. ‘And what aboot the fiddlin’, grannie?’ he added, half playfully, hoping for some kind concession therein as well.

But he had gone too far. She vouchsafed no reply, and her face grew stern with offence. It was one thing to give bread to eat, another to give music and gladness. No music but that which sprung from effectual calling and the perseverance of the saints could be lawful in a world that was under the wrath and curse of God. Robert waited in vain for a reply.

‘Gang yer wa’s,’ she said at length. ‘Mr. Innes and me has some business to mak an en’ o’, an’ we want nae assistance.’

Robert rejoined Shargar, who was still bemoaning the loss of his sovereign. His face brightened when he saw its well-known yellow shine once more, but darkened again as soon as Robert told him to what service it was now devoted.

‘It’s my ain,’ he said, with a suppressed expostulatory growl.

Robert threw the coin on the floor.

‘Tak yer filthy lucre!’ he exclaimed with contempt, and turned to leave Shargar alone in the garret with his sovereign.

‘Bob!’ Shargar almost screamed, ‘tak it, or I’ll cut my throat.’

This was his constant threat when he was thoroughly in earnest.

‘Cut it, an’ hae dune wi’ ‘t,’ said Robert cruelly.

Shargar burst out crying.

‘Len’ me yer knife, than, Bob,’ he sobbed, holding out his hand.

Robert burst into a roar of laughter, caught up the sovereign from the floor, sped with it to the baker’s, who refused to change it because he had no knowledge of anything representing the sum of twenty shillings except a pound-note, succeeded in getting silver for it at the bank, and then ran to the soutar’s.

After he left the parlour, the discussion of his fate was resumed and finally settled between his grandmother and the school-master. The former, in regard of the boy’s determination to befriend the shoemaker in the matter of music as well as of money, would now have sent him at once to the grammar-school in Old Aberdeen, to prepare for the competition in the month of November; but the latter persuaded her that if the boy gave his whole attention to Latin till the next summer, and then went to the grammar-school for three months or so, he would have an excellent chance of success. As to the violin, the school-master said, wisely enough:

‘He that will to Cupar maun to Cupar; and gin ye kep (intercept) him upo’ the shore-road, he’ll tak to the hill-road; an’ I s’ warran’ a braw lad like Robert ‘ll get mony a ane in Ebberdeen ‘ll be ready eneuch to gie him a lift wi’ the fiddle, and maybe tak him into waur company nor the puir bed-ridden soutar; an’ wi’ you an’ me to hing on to the tail o’ ‘im like, he canna gang ower the scar (cliff) afore he learns wit.’

‘Hm!’ was the old lady’s comprehensive response.

It was further arranged that Robert should be informed of their conclusion, and so roused to effort in anticipation of the trial upon which his course in life must depend.

Nothing could have been better for Robert than the prospect of a college education. But his first thought at the news was not of the delights of learning nor of the honourable course that would ensue, but of Eric Ericson, the poverty-stricken, friendless descendant of yarls and sea-rovers. He would see him–the only man that understood him! Not until the passion of this thought had abated, did he begin to perceive the other advantages before him. But so practical and thorough was he in all his proposals and means, that ere half-an-hour was gone, he had begun to go over his Rudiments again. He now wrote a version, or translation from English into Latin, five times a week, and read Caeser, Virgil, or Tacitus, every day. He gained permission from his grandmother to remove his bed to his own garret, and there, from the bedstead at which he no longer kneeled, he would often rise at four in the morning, even when the snow lay a foot thick on the skylight, kindle his lamp by means of a tinder-box and a splinter of wood dipped in sulphur, and sitting down in the keen cold, turn half a page of Addison into something as near Ciceronian Latin as he could effect. This would take him from an hour and a half to two hours, when he would tumble again into bed, blue and stiff, and sleep till it was time to get up and go to the morning school before breakfast. His health was excellent, else it could never have stood such treatment.

CHAPTER III.

‘THE END CROWNS ALL’.

His sole relaxation almost lay in the visit he paid every evening to the soutar and his wife. Their home was a wretched place; but notwithstanding the poverty in which they were now sunk, Robert soon began to see a change, like the dawning of light, an alba, as the Italians call the dawn, in the appearance of something white here and there about the room. Robert’s visits had set the poor woman trying to make the place look decent. It soon became at least clean, and there is a very real sense in which cleanliness is next to godliness. If the people who want to do good among the poor would give up patronizing them, would cease from trying to convert them before they have gained the smallest personal influence with them, would visit them as those who have just as good a right to be here as they have, it would be all the better for both, perhaps chiefly for themselves.

For the first week or so, Alexander, unable either to work or play, and deprived of his usual consolation of drink, was very testy and unmanageable. If Robert, who strove to do his best, in the hope of alleviating the poor fellow’s sufferings–chiefly those of the mind–happened to mistake the time or to draw a false note from the violin, Sandy would swear as if he had been the Grand Turk and Robert one of his slaves. But Robert was too vexed with himself, when he gave occasion to such an outburst, to mind the outburst itself. And invariably when such had taken place, the shoemaker would ask forgiveness before he went. Holding out his left hand, from which nothing could efface the stains of rosin and lamp-black and heel-ball, save the sweet cleansing of mother-earth, he would say,

‘Robert, ye’ll jist pit the sweirin’ doon wi’ the lave (rest), an’ score ‘t oot a’thegither. I’m an ill-tongued vratch, an’ I’m beginnin’ to see ‘t. But, man, ye’re jist behavin’ to me like God himsel’, an’ gin it warna for you, I wad jist lie here roarin’ an’ greitin’ an’ damnin’ frae mornin’ to nicht.–Ye will be in the morn’s night–willna ye?’ he would always end by asking with some anxiety.

‘Of coorse I will,’ Robert would answer.

‘Gude nicht, than, gude nicht.–I’ll try and get a sicht o’ my sins ance mair,’ he added, one evening. ‘Gin I could only be a wee bit sorry for them, I reckon he wad forgie me. Dinna ye think he wad, Robert?’

‘Nae doobt, nae doobt,’ answered Robert hurriedly. ‘They a’ say ‘at gin a man repents the richt gait, he’ll forgie him.’

He could not say more than ‘They say,’ for his own horizon was all dark, and even in saying this much he felt like a hypocrite. A terrible waste, heaped thick with the potsherds of hope, lay outside that door of prayer which he had, as he thought, nailed up for ever.

‘An’ what is the richt gait?’ asked the soutar.

”Deed, that’s mair nor I ken, Sandy,’ answered Robert mournfully.

‘Weel, gin ye dinna ken, what’s to come o’ me?’ said Alexander anxiously.

‘Ye maun speir at himsel’,’ returned Robert, ‘an’ jist tell him ‘at ye dinna ken, but ye’ll do onything ‘at he likes.’

With these words he took his leave hurriedly, somewhat amazed to find that he had given the soutar the strange advice to try just what he had tried so unavailingly himself. And stranger still, he found himself, before he reached home, praying once more in his heart–both for Dooble Sanny and for himself. From that hour a faint hope was within him that some day he might try again, though he dared not yet encounter such effort and agony.

All this time he had never doubted that there was God; nor had he ventured to say within himself that perhaps God was not good; he had simply come to the conclusion that for him there was no approach to the fountain of his being.

In the course of a fortnight or so, when his system had covered over its craving after whisky, the irritability of the shoemaker almost vanished. It might have been feared that his conscience would then likewise relax its activity; but it was not so: it grew yet more tender. He now began to give Robert some praise, and make allowances for his faults, and Robert dared more in consequence, and played with more spirit. I do not say that his style could have grown fine under such a master, but at least he learned the difference between slovenliness and accuracy, and between accuracy and expression, which last is all of original that the best mere performer can claim.

One evening he was scraping away at Tullochgorum when Mr. Maccleary walked in. Robert ceased. The minister gave him one searching glance, and sat down by the bedside. Robert would have left the room.

‘Dinna gang, Robert,’ said Sandy, and Robert remained.

The clergyman talked very faithfully as far as the shoemaker was concerned; though whether he was equally faithful towards God might be questioned. He was one of those prudent men, who are afraid of dealing out the truth freely lest it should fall on thorns or stony places. Hence of course the good ground came in for a scanty share too. Believing that a certain precise condition of mind was necessary for its proper reception, he would endeavour to bring about that condition first. He did not know that the truth makes its own nest in the ready heart, and that the heart may be ready for it before the priest can perceive the fact, seeing that the imposition of hands confers, now-a-days at least, neither love nor common-sense. He therefore dwelt upon the sins of the soutar, magnifying them and making them hideous, in the idea that thus he magnified the law, and made it honourable, while of the special tenderness of God to the sinner he said not a word. Robert was offended, he scarcely knew why, with the minister’s mode of treating his friend; and after Mr. Maccleary had taken a far kinder leave of them than God could approve, if he resembled his representation, Robert sat still, oppressed with darkness.

‘It’s a’ true,’ said the soutar; ‘but, man Robert, dinna ye think the minister was some sair upo’ me?’

‘I duv think it,’ answered Robert.

‘Something beirs ‘t in upo’ me ‘at he wadna be sae sair upo’ me himsel’. There’s something i’ the New Testament, some gait, ‘at’s pitten ‘t into my heid; though, faith, I dinna ken whaur to luik for ‘t. Canna ye help me oot wi’ ‘t, man?’

Robert could think of nothing but the parable of the prodigal son. Mrs. Alexander got him the New Testament, and he read it. She sat at the foot of the bed listening.

‘There!’ cried the soutar, triumphantly, ‘I telled ye sae! Not ae word aboot the puir lad’s sins! It was a’ a hurry an’ a scurry to get the new shune upo’ ‘im, an’ win at the calfie an’ the fiddlin’ an’ the dancin’.–O Lord,’ he broke out, ‘I’m comin’ hame as fest ‘s I can; but my sins are jist like muckle bauchles (shoes down at heel) upo’ my feet and winna lat me. I expec’ nae ring and nae robe, but I wad fain hae a fiddle i’ my grup when the neist prodigal comes hame; an’ gin I dinna fiddle weel, it s’ no be my wyte.–Eh, man! but that is what I ca’ gude, an’ a’ the minister said–honest man–‘s jist blether till ‘t.–O Lord, I sweir gin ever I win up again, I’ll put in ilka steek (stitch) as gin the shune war for the feet o’ the prodigal himsel’. It sall be gude wark, O Lord. An’ I’ll never lat taste o’ whusky intil my mou’–nor smell o’ whusky intil my nose, gin sae be ‘at I can help it–I sweir ‘t, O Lord. An’ gin I binna raised up again–‘

Here his voice trembled and ceased, and silence endured for a short minute. Then he called his wife.

‘Come here, Bell. Gie me a kiss, my bonny lass. I hae been an ill man to you.’

‘Na, na, Sandy. Ye hae aye been gude to me–better nor I deserved. Ye hae been naebody’s enemy but yer ain.’

‘Haud yer tongue. Ye’re speykin’ waur blethers nor the minister, honest man! I tell ye I hae been a damned scoon’rel to ye. I haena even hauden my han’s aff o’ ye. And eh! ye war a bonny lass whan I merried ye. I hae blaudit (spoiled) ye a’thegither. But gin I war up, see gin I wadna gie ye a new goon, an’ that wad be something to make ye like yersel’ again. I’m affrontet wi’ mysel’ ‘at I had been sic a brute o’ a man to ye. But ye maun forgie me noo, for I do believe i’ my hert ‘at the Lord’s forgien me. Gie me anither kiss, lass. God be praised, and mony thanks to you! Ye micht hae run awa’ frae me lang or noo, an’ a’body wad hae said ye did richt.–Robert, play a spring.’

Absorbed in his own thoughts, Robert began to play The Ewie wi’ the Crookit Horn.

‘Hoots! hoots!’ cried Sandy angrily. ‘What are ye aboot? Nae mair o’ that. I hae dune wi’ that. What’s i’ the heid o’ ye, man?’

‘What’ll I play than, Sandy?’ asked Robert meekly.

‘Play The Lan’ o’ the Leal, or My Nannie’s awa,’, or something o’ that kin’. I’ll be leal to ye noo, Bell. An’ we winna pree o’ the whusky nae mair, lass.’

‘I canna bide the smell o’ ‘t,’ cried Bell, sobbing.

Robert struck in with The Lan’ o’ the Leal. When he had played it over two or three times, he laid the fiddle in its place, and departed–able just to see, by the light of the neglected candle, that Bell sat on the bedside stroking the rosiny hand of her husband, the rhinoceros-hide of which was yet delicate enough to let the love through to his heart.

After this the soutar never called his fiddle his auld wife.

Robert walked home with his head sunk on his breast. Dooble Sanny, the drinking, ranting, swearing soutar, was inside the wicket-gate; and he was left outside for all his prayers, with the arrows from the castle of Beelzebub sticking in his back. He would have another try some day–but not yet–he dared not yet.

Henceforth Robert had more to do in reading the New Testament than in the fiddle to the soutar, though they never parted without an air or two. Sandy continued hopeful and generally cheerful, with alternations which the reading generally fixed on the right side for the night. Robert never attempted any comments, but left him to take from the word what nourishment he could. There was no return of strength to the helpless arm, and his constitution was gradually yielding.

The rumour got abroad that he was a ‘changed character,’–how is not far to seek, for Mr. Maccleary fancied himself the honoured instrument of his conversion, whereas paralysis and the New Testament were the chief agents, and even the violin had more share in it than the minister. For the spirit of God lies all about the spirit of man like a mighty sea, ready to rush in at the smallest chink in the walls that shut him out from his own–walls which even the tone of a violin afloat on the wind of that spirit is sometimes enough to rend from battlement to base, as the blast of the rams’ horns rent the walls of Jericho. And now to the day of his death, the shoemaker had need of nothing. Food, wine, and delicacies were sent him by many who, while they considered him outside of the kingdom, would have troubled themselves in no way about him. What with visits of condolence and flattery, inquiries into his experience, and long prayers by his bedside, they now did their best to send him back among the swine. The soutar’s humour, however, aided by his violin, was a strong antidote against these evil influences.

‘I doobt I’m gaein’ to dee, Robert,’ he said at length one evening as the lad sat by his bedside.

‘Weel, that winna do ye nae ill,’ answered Robert, adding with just a touch of bitterness–‘ye needna care aboot that.’

‘I do not care aboot the deein’ o’ ‘t. But I jist want to live lang eneuch to lat the Lord ken ‘at I’m in doonricht earnest aboot it. I hae nae chance o’ drinkin’ as lang’s I’m lyin’ here.’

‘Never ye fash yer heid aboot that. Ye can lippen (trust) that to him, for it’s his ain business. He’ll see ‘at ye’re a’ richt. Dinna ye think ‘at he’ll lat ye aff.’

‘The Lord forbid,’ responded the soutar earnestly. ‘It maun be a’ pitten richt. It wad be dreidfu’ to be latten aff. I wadna hae him content wi’ cobbler’s wark.–I hae ‘t,’ he resumed, after a few minutes’ pause; ‘the Lord’s easy pleased, but ill to saitisfee. I’m sair pleased wi’ your playin’, Robert, but it’s naething like the richt thing yet. It does me gude to hear ye, though, for a’ that.’

The very next night he found him evidently sinking fast. Robert took the violin, and was about to play, but the soutar stretched out his one left hand, and took it from him, laid it across his chest and his arm over it, for a few moments, as if he were bidding it farewell, then held it out to Robert, saying,

‘Hae, Robert. She’s yours.–Death’s a sair divorce.–Maybe they ‘ll hae an orra3 fiddle whaur I’m gaein’, though. Think o’ a Rothieden soutar playin’ afore his grace!’

Robert saw that his mind was wandering, and mingled the paltry honours of earth with the grand simplicities of heaven. He began to play The Land o’ the Leal. For a little while Sandy seemed to follow and comprehend the tones, but by slow degrees the light departed from his face. At length his jaw fell, and with a sigh, the body parted from Dooble Sanny, and he went to God.

His wife closed mouth and eyes without a word, laid the two arms, equally powerless now, straight by his sides, then seating herself on the edge of the bed, said,

‘Dinna bide, Robert. It’s a’ ower noo. He’s gang hame. Gin I war only wi’ ‘im wharever he is!’

She burst into tears, but dried her eyes a moment after, and seeing that Robert still lingered, said,

‘Gang, Robert, an’ sen’ Mistress Downie to me. Dinna greit–there’s a gude lad; but tak yer fiddle an’ gang. Ye can be no more use.’

Robert obeyed. With his violin in his hand, he went home; and, with his violin still in his hand, walked into his grandmother’s parlour.

‘Hoo daur ye bring sic a thing into my hoose?’ she said, roused by the apparent defiance of her grandson. ‘Hoo daur ye, efter what’s come an’ gane?’

”Cause Dooble Sanny’s come and gane, grannie, and left naething but this ahint him. And this ane’s mine, whase ever the ither micht be. His wife’s left wi’oot a plack, an’ I s’ warran’ the gude fowk o’ Rothieden winna mak sae muckle o’ her noo ‘at her man’s awa’; for she never was sic a randy as he was, an’ the triumph o’ grace in her ‘s but sma’, therefore. Sae I maun mak the best ‘at I can o’ the fiddle for her. An’ ye maunna touch this ane, grannie; for though ye way think it richt to burn fiddles, ither fowk disna; and this has to do wi’ ither fowk, grannie; it’s no atween you an’ me, ye ken,’ Robert went on, fearful lest she might consider herself divinely commissioned to extirpate the whole race of stringed instruments,–‘for I maun sell ‘t for her.’

‘Tak it oot o’ my sicht,’ said Mrs. Falconer, and said no more.

He carried the instrument up to his room, laid it on his bed, locked his door, put the key in his pocket, and descended to the parlour.

‘He’s deid, is he?’ said his grandmother, as he re-entered.

‘Ay is he, grannie,’ answered Robert. ‘He deid a repentant man.’

‘An’ a believin’?’ asked Mrs. Falconer.

‘Weel, grannie, I canna say ‘at he believed a’ thing ‘at ever was, for a body michtna ken a’ thing.’

‘Toots, laddie! Was ‘t savin’ faith?’

‘I dinna richtly ken what ye mean by that; but I’m thinkin’ it was muckle the same kin’ o’ faith ‘at the prodigal had; for they baith rase an’ gaed hame.’

”Deed, maybe ye’re richt, laddie,’ returned Mrs. Falconer, after a moment’s thought. ‘We’ll houp the best.’

All the remainder of the evening she sat motionless, with her eyes fixed on the rug before her, thinking, no doubt, of the repentance and salvation of the fiddler, and what hope there might yet be for her own lost son.

The next day being Saturday, Robert set out for Bodyfauld, taking the violin with him. He went alone, for he was in no mood for Shargar’s company. It was a fine spring day, the woods were budding, and the fragrance of the larches floated across his way. There was a lovely sadness in the sky, and in the motions of the air, and in the scent of the earth–as if they all knew that fine things were at hand which never could be so beautiful as those that had gone away. And Robert wondered how it was that everything should look so different. Even Bodyfauld seemed to have lost its enchantment, though his friends were as kind as ever. Mr. Lammie went into a rage at the story of the lost violin, and Miss Lammie cried from sympathy with Robert’s distress at the fate of his bonny leddy. Then he came to the occasion of his visit, which was to beg Mr. Lammie, when next he went to Aberdeen, to take the soutar’s fiddle, and get what he could for it, to help his widow.

‘Poor Sanny!’ said Robert, ‘it never cam’ intil ‘s heid to sell her, nae mair nor gin she had been the auld wife ‘at he ca’d her.’

Mr. Lammie undertook the commission; and the next time he saw Robert, handed him ten pounds as the result of the negotiation. It was all Robert could do, however, to get the poor woman to take the money. She looked at it with repugnance, almost as if it had been the price of blood. But Robert having succeeded in overcoming her scruples, she did take it, and therewith provide a store of sweeties, and reels of cotton, and tobacco, for sale in Sanny’s workshop. She certainly did not make money by her merchandise, for her anxiety to be honest rose to the absurd; but she contrived to live without being reduced to prey upon her own gingerbread and rock.

CHAPTER IV.

THE ABERDEEN GARRET.

Miss St. John had long since returned from her visit, but having heard how much Robert was taken up with his dying friend, she judged it better to leave her intended proposal of renewing her lessons alone for the present. Meeting him, however, soon after Alexander’s death, she introduced the subject, and Robert was enraptured at the prospect of the re-opening of the gates of his paradise. If he did not inform his grandmother of the fact, neither did he attempt to conceal it; but she took no notice, thinking probably that the whole affair would be effectually disposed of by his departure. Till that period arrived, he had a lesson almost every evening, and Miss St. John was surprised to find how the boy had grown since the door was built up. Robert’s gratitude grew into a kind of worship.

The evening before his departure for Bodyfauld–whence his grandmother had arranged that he should start for Aberdeen, in order that he might have the company of Mr. Lammie, whom business drew thither about the same time–as he was having his last lesson, Mrs. Forsyth left the room. Thereupon Robert, who had been dejected all day at the thought of the separation from Miss St. John, found his heart beating so violently that he could hardly breathe. Probably she saw his emotion, for she put her hand on the keys, as if to cover it by showing him how some movement was to be better effected. He seized her hand and lifted it to his lips. But when he found that instead of snatching it away, she yielded it, nay gently pressed it to his face, he burst into tears, and dropped on his knees, as if before a goddess.

‘Hush, Robert! Don’t be foolish,’ she said, quietly and tenderly. ‘Here is my aunt coming.’

The same moment he was at the piano again, playing My Bonny Lady Ann, so as to astonish Miss St. John, and himself as well. Then he rose, bade her a hasty good-night, and hurried away.

A strange conflict arose in his mind at the prospect of leaving the old place, on every house of whose streets, on every swell of whose surrounding hills he left the clinging shadows of thought and feeling. A faintly purpled mist arose, and enwrapped all the past, changing even his grayest troubles into tales of fairyland, and his deepest griefs into songs of a sad music. Then he thought of Shargar, and what was to become of him after he was gone. The lad was paler and his eyes were redder than ever, for he had been weeping in secret. He went to his grandmother and begged that Shargar might accompany him to Bodyfauld.

‘He maun bide at hame an’ min’ his beuks,’ she answered; ‘for he winna hae them that muckle langer. He maun be doin’ something for himsel’.’

So the next morning the boys parted–Shargar to school, and Robert to Bodyfauld–Shargar left behind with his desolation, his sun gone down in a west that was not even stormy, only gray and hopeless, and Robert moving towards an east which reflected, like a faint prophecy, the west behind him tinged with love, death, and music, but mingled the colours with its own saffron of coming dawn.

When he reached Bodyfauld he marvelled to find that all its glory had returned. He found Miss Lammie busy among the rich yellow pools in her dairy, and went out into the garden, now in the height of its summer. Great cabbage roses hung heavy-headed splendours towards purple-black heartseases, and thin-filmed silvery pods of honesty; tall white lilies mingled with the blossoms of currant bushes, and at their feet the narcissi of old classic legend pressed their warm-hearted paleness into the plebeian thicket of the many-striped gardener’s garters. It was a lovely type of a commonwealth indeed, of the garden and kingdom of God. His whole mind was flooded with a sense of sunny wealth. The farmer’s neglected garden blossomed into higher glory in his soul. The bloom and the richness and the use were all there; but instead of each flower was a delicate ethereal sense or feeling about that flower. Of these how gladly would he have gathered a posy to offer Miss St. John! but, alas! he was no poet; or rather he had but the half of the poet’s inheritance–he could see: he could not say. But even if he had been full of poetic speech, he would yet have found that the half of his posy remained ungathered, for although we have speech enough now to be ‘cousin to the deed,’ as Chaucer says it must always be, we have not yet enough speech to cousin the tenth part of our feelings. Let him who doubts recall one of his own vain attempts to convey that which made the oddest of dreams entrancing in loveliness–to convey that aroma of thought, the conscious absence of which made him a fool in his own eyes when he spoke such silly words as alone presented themselves for the service. I can no more describe the emotion aroused in my mind by a gray cloud parting over a gray stone, by the smell of a sweetpea, by the sight of one of those long upright pennons of striped grass with the homely name, than I can tell what the glory of God is who made these things. The man whose poetry is like nature in this, that it produces individual, incommunicable moods and conditions of mind–a sense of elevated, tender, marvellous, and evanescent existence, must be a poet indeed. Every dawn of such a feeling is a light-brushed bubble rendering visible for a moment the dark unknown sea of our being which lies beyond the lights of our consciousness, and is the stuff and region of our eternal growth. But think what language must become before it will tell dreams!–before it will convey the delicate shades of fancy that come and go in the brain of a child!–before it will let a man know wherein one face differeth from another face in glory! I suspect, however, that for such purposes it is rather music than articulation that is needful–that, with a hope of these finer results, the language must rather be turned into music than logically extended.

The next morning he awoke at early dawn, hearing the birds at his window. He rose and went out. The air was clear and fresh as a new-made soul. Bars of mottled cloud were bent across the eastern quarter of the sky, which lay like a great ethereal ocean ready for the launch of the ship of glory that was now gliding towards its edge. Everything was waiting to conduct him across the far horizon to the south, where lay the stored-up wonder of his coming life. The lark sang of something greater than he could tell; the wind got up, whispered at it, and lay down to sleep again; the sun was at hand to bathe the world in the light and gladness alone fit to typify the radiance of Robert’s thoughts. The clouds that formed the shore of the upper sea were already burning from saffron into gold. A moment more and the first insupportable sting of light would shoot from behind the edge of that low blue hill, and the first day of his new life would be begun. He watched, and it came. The well-spring of day, fresh and exuberant as if now first from the holy will of the Father of Lights, gushed into the basin of the world, and the world was more glad than tongue or pen can tell. The supernal light alone, dawning upon the human heart, can exceed the marvel of such a sunrise.

And shall life itself be less beautiful than one of its days? Do not believe it, young brother. Men call the shadow, thrown upon the universe where their own dusky souls come between it and the eternal sun, life, and then mourn that it should be less bright than the hopes of their childhood. Keep thou thy soul translucent, that thou mayest never see its shadow; at least never abuse thyself with the philosophy which calls that shadow life. Or, rather would I say, become thou pure in heart, and thou shalt see God, whose vision alone is life.

Just as the sun rushed across the horizon he heard the tramp of a heavy horse in the yard, passing from the stable to the cart that was to carry his trunk to the turnpike road, three miles off, where the coach would pass. Then Miss Lammie came and called him to breakfast, and there sat the farmer in his Sunday suit of black, already busy. Robert was almost too happy to eat; yet he had not swallowed two mouthfuls before the sun rose unheeded, the lark sang unheeded, and the roses sparkled with the dew that bowed yet lower their heavy heads, all unheeded. By the time they had finished, Mr. Lammie’s gig was at the door, and they mounted and followed the cart. Not even the recurring doubt and fear that hollowness was at the heart of it all, for that God could not mean such reinless gladness, prevented the truth of the present joy from sinking deep into the lad’s heart. In his mind he saw a boat moored to a rock, with no one on board, heaving on the waters of a rising tide, and waiting to bear him out on the sea of the unknown. The picture arose of itself: there was no paradise of the west in his imagination, as in that of a boy of the sixteenth century, to authorize its appearance. It rose again and again; the dew glittered as if the light were its own; the sun shone as he had never seen him shine before; the very mare that sped them along held up her head and stepped out as if she felt it the finest of mornings. Had she also a future, poor old mare? Might there not be a paradise somewhere? and if in the furthest star instead of next-door America, why, so much the more might the Atlantis of the nineteenth century surpass Manoa the golden of the seventeenth!

The gig and the cart reached the road together. One of the men who had accompanied the cart took the gig; and they were left on the road-side with Robert’s trunk and box–the latter a present from Miss Lammie.

Their places had been secured, and the guard knew where he had to take them up. Long before the coach appeared, the notes of his horn, as like the colour of his red coat as the blindest of men could imagine, came echoing from the side of the heathery, stony hill under which they stood, so that Robert turned wondering, as if the chariot of his desires had been coming over the top of Drumsnaig, to carry him into a heaven where all labour was delight. But round the corner in front came the four-in-hand red mail instead. She pulled up gallantly; the wheelers lay on their hind quarters, and the leaders parted theirs from the pole; the boxes were hoisted up; Mr. Lammie climbed, and Robert scrambled to his seat; the horn blew; the coachman spake oracularly; the horses obeyed; and away went the gorgeous symbol of sovereignty careering through the submissive region. Nor did Robert’s delight abate during the journey–certainly not when he saw the blue line of the sea in the distance, a marvel and yet a fact.

Mrs. Falconer had consulted the Misses Napier, who had many acquaintances in Aberdeen, as to a place proper for Robert, and suitable to her means. Upon this point Miss Letty, not without a certain touch of design, as may appear in the course of my story, had been able to satisfy her. In a small house of two floors and a garret, in the old town, Mr. Lammie took leave of Robert.

It was from a garret window still, but a storm-window now that Robert looked–eastward across fields and sand-hills, to the blue expanse of waters–not blue like southern seas, but slaty blue, like the eyes of northmen. It was rather dreary; the sun was shining from overhead now, casting short shadows and much heat; the dew was gone up, and the lark had come down; he was alone; the end of his journey was come, and was not anything very remarkable. His landlady interrupted his gaze to know what he would have for dinner, but he declined to use any discretion in the matter. When she left the room he did not return to the window, but sat down upon his box. His eye fell upon the other, a big wooden cube. Of its contents he knew nothing. He would amuse himself by making inquisition. It was nailed up. He borrowed a screwdriver and opened it. At the top lay a linen bag full of oatmeal; underneath that was a thick layer of oat-cake; underneath that two cheeses, a pound of butter, and six pots of jam, which ought to have tasted of roses, for it came from the old garden where the roses lived in such sweet companionship with the currant bushes; underneath that, &c.; and underneath, &c., a box which strangely recalled Shargar’s garret, and one of the closets therein. With beating heart he opened it, and lo, to his marvel, and the restoration of all the fair day, there was the violin which Dooble Sanny had left him when he forsook her for–some one or other of the queer instruments of Fra Angelico’s angels?

In a flutter of delight he sat down on his trunk again and played the most mournful of tunes. Two white pigeons, which had been talking to each other in the heat on the roof, came one on each side of the window and peeped into the room; and out between them, as he played, Robert saw the sea, and the blue sky above it. Is it any wonder that, instead of turning to the lying pages and contorted sentences of the Livy which he had already unpacked from his box, he forgot all about school, and college, and bursary, and went on playing till his landlady brought up his dinner, which he swallowed hastily that he might return to the spells of his enchantress!

CHAPTER V.

THE COMPETITION.

I could linger with gladness even over this part of my hero’s history. If the school work, was dry it was thorough. If that academy had no sweetly shadowing trees; if it did stand within a parallelogram of low stone walls, containing a roughly-gravelled court; if all the region about suggested hot stones and sand–beyond still was the sea and the sky; and that court, morning and afternoon, was filled with the shouts of eager boys, kicking the football with mad rushings to and fro, and sometimes with wounds and faintings–fit symbol of the equally resultless ambition with which many of them would follow the game of life in the years to come. Shock-headed Highland colts, and rough Lowland steers as many of them were, out of that group, out of the roughest of them, would emerge in time a few gentlemen–not of the type of your trim, self-contained, clerical exquisite–but large-hearted, courteous gentlemen, for whom a man may thank God. And if the master was stern and hard, he was true; if the pupils feared him, they yet cared to please him; if there might be found not a few more widely-read scholars than he, it would be hard to find a better teacher.

Robert leaned to the collar and laboured, not greatly moved by ambition, but much by the hope of the bursary and the college life in the near distance. Not unfrequently he would rush into the thick of the football game, fight like a maniac for one short burst, and then retire and look on. He oftener regarded than mingled. He seldom joined his fellows after school hours, for his work lay both upon his conscience and his hopes; but if he formed no very deep friendships amongst them, at least he made no enemies, for he was not selfish, and in virtue of the Celtic blood in him was invariably courteous. His habits were in some things altogether irregular. He never went out for a walk; but sometimes, looking up from his Virgil or his Latin version, and seeing the blue expanse in the distance breaking into white under the viewless wing of the summer wind, he would fling down his dictionary or his pen, rush from his garret, and fly in a straight line, like a sea-gull weary of lake and river, down to the waste shore of the great deep. This was all that stood for the Arabian Nights of moon-blossomed marvel; all the rest was Aberdeen days of Latin and labour.

Slowly the hours went, and yet the dreaded, hoped-for day came quickly. The quadrangle of the stone-crowned college grew more awful in its silence and emptiness every time Robert passed it; and the professors’ houses looked like the sentry-boxes of the angels of learning, soon to come forth and judge the feeble mortals who dared present a claim to their recognition. October faded softly by, with its keen fresh mornings, and cold memorial green-horizoned evenings, whose stars fell like the stray blossoms of a more heavenly world, from some ghostly wind of space that had caught them up on its awful shoreless sweep. November came, ‘chill and drear,’ with its heartless, hopeless nothingness; but as if to mock the poor competitors, rose, after three days of Scotch mist, in a lovely ‘halcyon day’ of ‘St. Martin’s summer,’ through whose long shadows anxious young faces gathered in the quadrangle, or under the arcade, each with his Ainsworth’s Dictionary, the sole book allowed, under his arm. But when the sacrist appeared and unlocked the public school, and the black-gowned professors walked into the room, and the door was left open for the candidates to follow, then indeed a great awe fell upon the assembly, and the lads crept into their seats as if to a trial for life before a bench of the incorruptible. They took their places; a portion of Robertson’s History of Scotland was given them to turn into Latin; and soon there was nothing to be heard in the assembly but the turning of the leaves of dictionaries, and the scratching of pens constructing the first rough copy of the Latinized theme.

It was done. Four weary hours, nearly five, one or two of which passed like minutes, the others as if each minute had been an hour, went by, and Robert, in a kind of desperation, after a final reading of the Latin, gave in his paper, and left the room. When he got home, he asked his landlady to get him some tea. Till it was ready he would take his violin. But even the violin had grown dull, and would not speak freely. He returned to the torture–took out his first copy, and went over it once more. Horror of horrors! a maxie!–that is a maximus error. Mary Queen of Scots had been left so far behind in the beginning of the paper, that she forgot the rights of her sex in the middle of it, and in the accusative of a future participle passive–I do not know if more modern grammarians have a different name for the growth–had submitted to be dum, and her rightful dam was henceforth and for ever debarred.

He rose, rushed out of the house, down through the garden, across two fields and a wide road, across the links, and so to the moaning lip of the sea–for it was moaning that night. From the last bulwark of the sandhills he dropped upon the wet sands, and there he paced up and down–how long, God only, who was watching him, knew–with the low limitless form of the murmuring lip lying out and out into the sinking sky like the life that lay low and hopeless before him, for the want at most of twenty pounds a year (that was the highest bursary then) to lift him into a region of possible well-being. Suddenly a strange phenomenon appeared within him. The subject hitherto became the object to a new birth of consciousness. He began to look at himself. ‘There’s a sair bit in there,’ he said, as if his own bosom had been that of another mortal. ‘What’s to be dune wi’ ‘t? I doobt it maun bide it. Weel, the crater had better bide it quaietly, and no cry oot. Lie doon, an’ hand yer tongue. Soror tua haud meretrix est, ye brute!’ He burst out laughing, after a doubtful and ululant fashion, I dare say; but he went home, took up his auld wife, and played ‘Tullochgorum’ some fifty times over, with extemporized variations.

The next day he had to translate a passage from Tacitus; after executing which somewhat heartlessly, he did not open a Latin book for a whole week. The very sight of one was disgusting to him. He wandered about the New Town, along Union Street, and up and down the stairs that led to the lower parts, haunted the quay, watched the vessels, learned their forms, their parts and capacities, made friends with a certain Dutch captain whom he heard playing the violin in his cabin, and on the whole, notwithstanding the wretched prospect before him, contrived to spend the week with considerable enjoyment. Nor does an occasional episode of lounging hurt a life with any true claims to the epic form.

The day of decision at length arrived. Again the black-robed powers assembled, and again the hoping, fearing lads–some of them not lads, men, and mere boys–gathered to hear their fate. Name after name was called out;–a twenty pound bursary to the first, one of seventeen to the next, three or four of fifteen and fourteen, and so on, for about twenty, and still no Robert Falconer. At last, lagging wearily in the rear, he heard his name, went up listlessly, and was awarded five pounds. He crept home, wrote to his grandmother, and awaited her reply. It was not long in coming; for although the carrier was generally the medium of communication, Miss Letty had contrived to send the answer by coach. It was to the effect that his grandmother was sorry that he had not been more successful, but that Mr. Innes thought it would be quite worth while to try again, and he must therefore come home for another year.

This was mortifying enough, though not so bad as it might have been. Robert began to pack his box. But before he had finished it he shut the lid and sat upon it. To meet Miss St. John thus disgraced, was more than he could bear. If he remained, he had a chance of winning prizes at the end of the session, and that would more than repair his honour. The five pound bursars were privileged in paying half fees; and if he could only get some teaching, he could manage. But who would employ a bejan when a magistrand might be had for next to nothing? Besides, who would recommend him? The thought of Dr. Anderson flashed into his mind, and he rushed from the house without even knowing where he lived.

CHAPTER VI.

DR. ANDERSON AGAIN.

At the Post-office he procured the desired information at once. Dr. Anderson lived in Union Street, towards the western end of it.

Away went Robert to find the house. That was easy. What a grand house of smooth granite and wide approach it was! The great door was opened by a man-servant, who looked at the country boy from head to foot.

‘Is the doctor in?’ asked Robert.

‘Yes.’

‘I wad like to see him.’

‘Wha will I say wants him?’

‘Say the laddie he saw at Bodyfauld.’

The man left Robert in the hall, which was spread with tiger and leopard skins, and had a bright fire burning in a large stove. Returning presently, he led him through noiseless swing-doors covered with cloth into a large library. Never had Robert conceived such luxury. What with Turkey carpet, crimson curtains, easy-chairs, grandly-bound books and morocco-covered writing-table, it seemed the very ideal of comfort. But Robert liked the grandeur too much to be abashed by it.

‘Sit ye doon there,’ said the servant, ‘and the doctor ‘ill be wi’ ye in ae minute.’

He was hardly out of the room before a door opened in the middle of the books, and the doctor appeared in a long dressing-gown. He looked inquiringly at Robert for one moment, then made two long strides like a pair of eager compasses, holding out his hand.

‘I’m Robert Faukner,’ said the boy. ‘Ye’ll min’, maybe, doctor, ‘at ye war verra kin’ to me ance, and tellt me lots o’ stories–at Bodyfauld, ye ken.’

‘I’m very glad to see you, Robert,’ said Dr. Anderson. ‘Of course I remember you perfectly; but my servant did not bring your name, and I did not know but it might be the other boy–I forget his name.’

‘Ye mean Shargar, sir. It’s no him.’

‘I can see that,’ said the doctor, laughing, ‘although you are altered. You have grown quite a man! I am very glad to see you,’ he repeated, shaking hands with him again. ‘When did you come to town?’

‘I hae been at the grammer school i’ the auld toon for the last three months,’ said Robert.

‘Three months!’ exclaimed Dr. Anderson. ‘And never came to see me till now! That was too bad of you, Robert.’

‘Weel, ye see, sir, I didna ken better. An’ I had a heap to do, an’ a’ for naething, efter a’. But gin I had kent ‘at ye wad like to see me, I wad hae likit weel to come to ye.’

‘I have been away most of the summer,’ said the doctor; ‘but I have been at home for the last month. You haven’t had your dinner, have you?’

‘Weel, I dinna exackly ken what to say, sir. Ye see, I wasna that sharp-set the day, sae I had jist a mou’fu’ o’ breid and cheese. I’m turnin’ hungry, noo, I maun confess.’

The doctor rang the bell.

‘You must stop and dine with me.–Johnston,’ he continued, as his servant entered, ‘tell the cook that I have a gentleman to dinner with me to-day, and she must be liberal.’

‘Guidsake, sir!’ said Robert, ‘dinna set the woman agen me.’

He had no intention of saying anything humorous, but Dr. Anderson laughed heartily.

‘Come into my room till dinner-time,’ he said, opening the door by which he had entered.

To Robert’s astonishment, he found himself in a room bare as that of the poorest cottage. A small square window, small as the window in John Hewson’s, looked out upon a garden neatly kept, but now ‘having no adorning but cleanliness.’ The place was just the benn end of a cottage. The walls were whitewashed, the ceiling was of bare boards, and the floor was sprinkled with a little white sand. The table and chairs were of common deal, white and clean, save that the former was spotted with ink. A greater contrast to the soft, large, richly-coloured room they had left could hardly be imagined. A few bookshelves on the wall were filled with old books. A fire blazed cheerily in the little grate. A bed with snow-white coverlet stood in a recess.

‘This is the nicest room in the house, Robert,’ said the doctor. ‘When I was a student like you–‘

Robert shook his head,

‘I’m nae student yet,’ he said; but the doctor went on:

‘I had the benn end of my father’s cottage to study in, for he treated me like a stranger-gentleman when I came home from college. The father respected the son for whose advantage he was working like a slave from morning till night. My heart is sometimes sore with the gratitude I feel to him. Though he’s been dead for thirty years–would you believe it, Robert?–well, I can’t talk more about him now. I made this room as like my father’s benn end as I could, and I am happier here than anywhere in the world.’

By this time Robert was perfectly at home. Before the dinner was ready he had not only told Dr. Anderson his present difficulty, but his whole story as far back as he could remember. The good man listened eagerly, gazed at the boy with more and more of interest, which deepened till his eyes glistened as he gazed, and when a ludicrous passage intervened, welcomed the laughter as an excuse for wiping them. When dinner was announced, he rose without a word and led the way to the dining-room. Robert followed, and they sat down to a meal simple enough for such a house, but which to Robert seemed a feast followed by a banquet. For after they had done eating–on the doctor’s part a very meagre performance–they retired to his room again, and then Robert found the table covered with a snowy cloth, and wine and fruits arranged upon it.

It was far into the night before he rose to go home. As he passed through a thick rain of pin-point drops, he felt that although those cold granite houses, with glimmering dead face, stood like rows of sepulchres, he was in reality walking through an avenue of homes. Wet to the skin long before he reached Mrs. Fyvie’s in the auld toon, he was notwithstanding as warm as the under side of a bird’s wing. For he had to sit down and write to his grandmother informing her that Dr. Anderson had employed him to copy for the printers a book of his upon the Medical Boards of India, and that as he was going to pay him for that and other work at a rate which would secure him ten shillings a week, it would be a pity to lose a year for the chance of getting a bursary next winter.

The doctor did want the manuscript copied; and he knew that the only chance of getting Mrs. Falconer’s consent to Robert’s receiving any assistance from him, was to make some business arrangement of the sort. He wrote to her the same night, and after mentioning the unexpected pleasure of Robert’s visit, not only explained the advantage to himself of the arrangement he had proposed, but set forth the greater advantage to Robert, inasmuch as he would thus be able in some measure to keep a hold of him. He judged that although Mrs. Falconer had no great opinion of his religion, she would yet consider his influence rather on the side of good than otherwise in the case of a boy else abandoned to his own resources.

The end of it all was that his grandmother yielded, and Robert was straightway a Bejan, or Yellow-beak.

Three days had he been clothed in the red gown of the Aberdeen student, and had attended the Humanity and Greek class-rooms. On the evening of the third day he was seated at his table preparing his Virgil for the next, when he found himself growing very weary, and no wonder, for, except the walk of a few hundred yards to and from the college, he had had no open air for those three days. It was raining in a persistent November fashion, and he thought of the sea, away through the dark and the rain, tossing uneasily. Should he pay it a visit? He sat for a moment,

This way and that dividing the swift mind,4

when his eye fell on his violin. He had been so full of his new position and its requirements, that he had not touched it since the session opened. Now it was just what he wanted. He caught it up eagerly, and began to play. The power of the music seized upon him, and he went on playing, forgetful of everything else, till a string broke. It was all too short for further use. Regardless of the rain or the depth of darkness to be traversed before he could find a music-shop, he caught up his cap, and went to rush from the house.

His door opened immediately on the top step of the stair, without any landing. There was a door opposite, to which likewise a few steps led immediately up. The stairs from the two doors united a little below. So near were the doors that one might stride across the fork. The opposite door was open, and in it stood Eric Ericson.

CHAPTER VII.

ERIC ERICSON.

Robert sprang across the dividing chasm, clasped Ericson’s hand in both of his, looked up into his face, and stood speechless. Ericson returned the salute with a still kindness–tender and still. His face was like a gray morning sky of summer from whose level cloud-fields rain will fall before noon.

‘So it was you,’ he said, ‘playing the violin so well?’

‘I was doin’ my best,’ answered Robert. ‘But eh! Mr. Ericson, I wad hae dune better gin I had kent ye was hearkenin’.’

‘You couldn’t do better than your best,’ returned Eric, smiling.

‘Ay, but yer best micht aye grow better, ye ken,’ persisted Robert.

‘Come into my room,’ said Ericson. ‘This is Friday night, and there is nothing but chapel to-morrow. So we’ll have talk instead of work.’

In another moment they were seated by a tiny coal fire in a room one side of which was the slope of the roof, with a large, low skylight in it looking seawards. The sound of the distant waves, unheard in Robert’s room, beat upon the drum of the skylight, through all the world of mist that lay between it and them–dimly, vaguely–but ever and again with a swell of gathered force, that made the distant tumult doubtful no more.

‘I am sorry I have nothing to offer you,’ said Ericson.

‘You remind me of Peter and John at the Beautiful Gate of the temple,’ returned Robert, attempting to speak English like the Northerner, but breaking down as his heart got the better of him. ‘Eh! Mr. Ericson, gin ye kent what it is to me to see the face o’ ye, ye wadna speyk like that. Jist lat me sit an’ leuk at ye. I want nae mair.’

A smile broke up the cold, sad, gray light of the young eagle-face. Stern at once and gentle when in repose, its smile was as the summer of some lovely land where neither the heat nor the sun shall smite them. The youth laid his hand upon the boy’s head, then withdrew it hastily, and the smile vanished like the sun behind a cloud. Robert saw it, and as if he had been David before Saul, rose instinctively and said,

‘I’ll gang for my fiddle.–Hoots! I hae broken ane o’ the strings. We maun bide till the morn. But I want nae fiddle mysel’ whan I hear the great water oot there.’

‘You’re young yet, my boy, or you might hear voices in that water–! I’ve lived in the sound of it all my days. When I can’t rest at night, I hear a moaning and crying in the dark, and I lie and listen till I can’t tell whether I’m a man or some God-forsaken sea in the sunless north.’

‘Sometimes I believe in naething but my fiddle,’ answered Robert.

‘Yes, yes. But when it comes into you, my boy! You won’t hear much music in the cry of the sea after that. As long as you’ve got it at arm’s length, it’s all very well. It’s interesting then, and you can talk to your fiddle about it, and make poetry about it,’ said Ericson, with a smile of self-contempt. ‘But as soon as the real earnest comes that is all over. The sea-moan is the cry of a tortured world then. Its hollow bed is the cup of the world’s pain, ever rolling from side to side and dashing over its lip. Of all that might be, ought to be, nothing to be had!–I could get music out of it once. Look here. I could trifle like that once.’

He half rose, then dropped on his chair. But Robert’s believing eyes justified confidence, and Ericson had never had any one to talk to. He rose again, opened a cupboard at his side, took out some papers, threw them on the table, and, taking his hat, walked towards the door.

‘Which of your strings is broken?’ he asked.

‘The third,’ answered Robert.

‘I will get you one,’ said Ericson; and before Robert could reply he was down the stair. Robert heard him cough, then the door shut, and he was gone in the rain and fog.

Bewildered, unhappy, ready to fly after him, yet irresolute, Robert almost mechanically turned over the papers upon the little deal table. He was soon arrested by the following verses, headed

A NOONDAY MELODY.

Everything goes to its rest;
The hills are asleep in the noon;
And life is as still in its nest
As the moon when she looks on a moon In the depths of a calm river’s breast
As it steals through a midnight in June.

The streams have forgotten the sea
In the dream of their musical sound; The sunlight is thick on the tree,
And the shadows lie warm on the ground– So still, you may watch them and see
Every breath that awakens around.

The churchyard lies still in the heat, With its handful of mouldering bone;
As still as the long stalk of wheat In the shadow that sits by the stone,
As still as the grass at my feet
When I walk in the meadows alone.

The waves are asleep on the main,
And the ships are asleep on the wave; And the thoughts are as still in my brain As the echo that sleeps in the cave;
All rest from their labour and pain– Then why should not I in my grave?

His heart ready to burst with a sorrow, admiration, and devotion, which no criticism interfered to qualify, Robert rushed out into the darkness, and sped, fleet-footed, along the only path which Ericson could have taken. He could not bear to be left in the house while his friend was out in the rain.

He was sure of joining him before he reached the new town, for he was fleet-footed, and there was a path only on one side of the way, so that there was no danger of passing him in the dark. As he ran he heard the moaning of the sea. There must be a storm somewhere, away in the deep spaces of its dark bosom, and its lips muttered of its far unrest. When the sun rose it would be seen misty and gray, tossing about under the one rain cloud that like a thinner ocean overspread the heavens–tossing like an animal that would fain lie down and be at peace but could not compose its unwieldy strength.

Suddenly Robert slackened his speed, ceased running, stood, gazed through the darkness at a figure a few yards before him.

An old wall, bowed out with age and the weight behind it, flanked the road in this part. Doors in this wall, with a few steps in front of them and more behind, led up into gardens upon a slope, at the top of which stood the houses to which they belonged. Against one of these doors the figure stood with its head bowed upon its hands. When Robert was within a few feet, it descended and went on.

‘Mr. Ericson!’ exclaimed Robert. ‘Ye’ll get yer deith gin ye stan’ that gait i’ the weet.’

‘Amen,’ said Ericson, turning with a smile that glimmered wan through the misty night. Then changing his tone, he went on: ‘What are you after, Robert?’

‘You,’ answered Robert. ‘I cudna bide to be left my lane whan I micht be wi’ ye a’ the time–gin ye wad lat me. Ye war oot o’ the hoose afore I weel kent what ye was aboot. It’s no a fit nicht for ye to be oot at a’, mair by token ‘at ye’re no the ablest to stan’ cauld an’ weet.’

‘I’ve stood a great deal of both in my time,’ returned Ericson; ‘but come along. We’ll go and get that fiddle-string.’

‘Dinna ye think it wad be fully better to gang hame?’ Robert ventured to suggest.

‘What would be the use? I’m in no mood for Plato to-night,’ he answered, trying hard to keep from shivering.

‘Ye hae an ill cauld upo’ ye,’ persisted Robert; ‘an’ ye maun be as weet ‘s a dishcloot.’

Ericson laughed–a strange, hollow laugh.

‘Come along,’ he said. ‘A walk will do me good. We’ll get the string, and then you shall play to me. That will do me more good yet.’

Robert ceased opposing him, and they walked together to the new town. Robert bought the string, and they set out, as he thought, to