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Robbery Under Arms, by Rolf Boldrewood
[pen name for Thomas Alexander Browne, an Australian writer. 1826-1915.]
[Note on text: Italicized words or phrases are capitalised.
Some obvious errors have been corrected, as noted at the end of the text.]
Robbery Under Arms
A Story of Life and Adventure in the Bush and in the Goldfields of Australia
By Rolf Boldrewood
(Pseudonym of Thomas Alexander Browne)
Author of `The Miner's Right', `The Squatter's Dream',
`A Colonial Reformer', etc.
Preface to New Edition
I dedicate this `ower true tale' of the wilder aspects of Australian life
to my old comrade R. Murray Smith, late Agent-General in London
for the colony of Victoria, with hearty thanks for the time and trouble
he has devoted to its publication. I trust it will do no discredit
to the rising reputation of Australian romance. But though presented
in the guise of fiction, this chronicle of the Marston family
must not be set down by the reader as wholly fanciful or exaggerated.
Much of the narrative is literally true, as can be verified
by official records. A lifelong residence in Australia may be accepted
as a guarantee for fidelity as to local colour and descriptive detail.
I take this opportunity of acknowledging the prompt and liberal
recognition of the tale by the proprietors of the `Sydney Mail',
but for which it might never have seen the light.
117 Collins Street West,
Melbourne, 12th December 1888.
Robbery Under Arms
by Rolf Boldrewood
(Pseudonym of Thomas Alexander Browne)
My name's Dick Marston, Sydney-side native. I'm twenty-nine years old,
six feet in my stocking soles, and thirteen stone weight.
Pretty strong and active with it, so they say. I don't want to blow
-- not here, any road -- but it takes a good man to put me on my back,
or stand up to me with the gloves, or the naked mauleys.
I can ride anything -- anything that ever was lapped in horsehide --
swim like a musk-duck, and track like a Myall blackfellow.
Most things that a man can do I'm up to, and that's all about it.
As I lift myself now I can feel the muscle swell on my arm
like a cricket ball, in spite of the -- well, in spite of everything.
The morning sun comes shining through the window bars;
and ever since he was up have I been cursing the daylight, cursing myself,
and them that brought me into the world. Did I curse mother,
and the hour I was born into this miserable life?
Why should I curse the day? Why do I lie here, groaning;
yes, crying like a child, and beating my head against the stone floor?
I am not mad, though I am shut up in a cell. No. Better for me if I was.
But it's all up now; there's no get away this time; and I, Dick Marston,
as strong as a bullock, as active as a rock-wallaby,
chock-full of life and spirits and health, have been tried for bush-ranging
-- robbery under arms they call it -- and though the blood
runs through my veins like the water in the mountain creeks,
and every bit of bone and sinew is as sound as the day I was born,
I must die on the gallows this day month.
Die -- die -- yes, die; be strung up like a dog, as they say.
I'm blessed if ever I did know of a dog being hanged, though,
if it comes to that, a shot or a bait generally makes an end of 'em
in this country. Ha, ha! Did I laugh? What a rum thing it is
that a man should have a laugh in him when he's only got
twenty-nine days more to live -- a day for every year of my life.
Well, laughing or crying, this is what it has come to at last.
All the drinking and recklessness; the flash talk and the idle ways;
the merry cross-country rides that we used to have, night or day,
it made no odds to us; every man well mounted, as like as not
on a racehorse in training taken out of his stable within the week;
the sharp brushes with the police, when now and then a man was wounded
on each side, but no one killed. That came later on, worse luck.
The jolly sprees we used to have in the bush townships,
where we chucked our money about like gentlemen, where all the girls
had a smile and a kind word for a lot of game upstanding chaps,
that acted like men, if they did keep the road a little lively.
Our `bush telegraphs' were safe to let us know when the `traps'
were closing in on us, and then -- why the coach would be `stuck up'
a hundred miles away, in a different direction, within twenty-four hours.
Marston's gang again! The police are in pursuit! That's what we'd see
in the papers. We had 'em sent to us regular; besides having the pick of 'em
when we cut open the mail bags.
And now -- that chain rubbed a sore, curse it! -- all that racket's over.
It's more than hard to die in this settled, infernal, fixed sort of way,
like a bullock in the killing-yard, all ready to be `pithed'.
I used to pity them when I was a boy, walking round the yard,
pushing their noses through the rails, trying for a likely place to jump,
stamping and pawing and roaring and knocking their heads
against the heavy close rails, with misery and rage in their eyes,
till their time was up. Nobody told THEM beforehand, though!
Have I and the likes of me ever felt much the same, I wonder,
shut up in a pen like this, with the rails up, and not a place
a rat could creep through, waiting till our killing time was come?
The poor devils of steers have never done anything but ramble off the run
now and again, while we -- but it's too late to think of that.
It IS hard. There's no saying it isn't; no, nor thinking what a fool,
what a blind, stupid, thundering idiot a fellow's been,
to laugh at the steady working life that would have helped him up,
bit by bit, to a good farm, a good wife, and innocent little kids about him,
like that chap, George Storefield, that came to see me last week.
He was real rightdown sorry for me, I could tell, though Jim and I
used to laugh at him, and call him a regular old crawler of a milker's calf
in the old days. The tears came into his eyes reg'lar like a woman
as he gave my hand a squeeze and turned his head away.
We was little chaps together, you know. A man always feels that, you know.
And old George, he'll go back -- a fifty-mile ride, but what's that
on a good horse? He'll be late home, but he can cross the rock ford
the short way over the creek. I can see him turn his horse loose
at the garden-gate, and walk through the quinces that lead up to the cottage,
with his saddle on his arm. Can't I see it all, as plain as if I was there?
And his wife and the young 'uns 'll run out when they hear father's horse,
and want to hear all the news. When he goes in there's his meal
tidy and decent waiting for him, while he tells them about
the poor chap he's been to see as is to be scragged next month.
Ha! ha! what a rum joke it is, isn't it?
And then he'll go out in the verandah, with the roses growin'
all over the posts and smellin' sweet in the cool night air. After that
he'll have his smoke, and sit there thinkin' about me, perhaps, and old days,
and what not, till all hours -- till his wife comes and fetches him in.
And here I lie -- my God! why didn't they knock me on the head
when I was born, like a lamb in a dry season, or a blind puppy --
blind enough, God knows! They do so in some countries, if the books say true,
and what a hell of misery that must save some people from!
Well, it's done now, and there's no get away. I may as well make
the best of it. A sergeant of police was shot in our last scrimmage,
and they must fit some one over that. It's only natural.
He was rash, or Starlight would never have dropped him that day.
Not if he'd been sober either. We'd been drinking all night
at that Willow Tree shanty. Bad grog, too! When a man's half drunk
he's fit for any devilment that comes before him. Drink! How do you think
a chap that's taken to the bush -- regularly turned out, I mean,
with a price on his head, and a fire burning in his heart night and day --
can stand his life if he don't drink? When he thinks of what
he might have been, and what he is! Why, nearly every man he meets
is paid to run him down, or trap him some way like a stray dog
that's taken to sheep-killin'. He knows a score of men, and women too,
that are only looking out for a chance to sell his blood on the quiet
and pouch the money. Do you think that makes a chap mad and miserable,
and tired of his life, or not? And if a drop of grog will take him
right out of his wretched self for a bit why shouldn't he drink?
People don't know what they are talking about. Why, he is that miserable
that he wonders why he don't hang himself, and save the Government
all the trouble; and if a few nobblers make him feel as if he might have
some good chances yet, and that it doesn't so much matter after all,
why shouldn't he drink?
He does drink, of course; every miserable man, and a good many women
as have something to fear or repent of, drink. The worst of it is
that too much of it brings on the `horrors', and then the devil,
instead of giving you a jog now and then, sends one of his imps
to grin in your face and pull your heartstrings all day and all night long.
By George, I'm getting clever -- too clever, altogether, I think.
If I could forget for one moment, in the middle of all the nonsense,
that I was to die on Thursday three weeks! die on Thursday three weeks!
die on Thursday! That's the way the time runs in my ears
like a chime of bells. But it's all mere bosh I've been reading
these long six months I've been chained up here -- after I was committed
for trial. When I came out of the hospital after curing me of that wound
-- for I was hit bad by that black tracker -- they gave me some books to read
for fear I'd go mad and cheat the hangman. I was always fond of reading,
and many a night I've read to poor old mother and Aileen
before I left the old place. I was that weak and low, after I took the turn,
and I felt glad to get a book to take me away from sitting, staring,
and blinking at nothing by the hour together. It was all very well then;
I was too weak to think much. But when I began to get well again
I kept always coming across something in the book that made me
groan or cry out, as if some one had stuck a knife in me.
A dark chap did once -- through the ribs -- it didn't feel so bad,
a little sharpish at first; why didn't he aim a bit higher?
He never was no good, even at that. As I was saying, there'd be
something about a horse, or the country, or the spring weather --
it's just coming in now, and the Indian corn's shooting after the rain,
and I'LL never see it; or they'd put in a bit about the cows
walking through the river in the hot summer afternoons;
or they'd go describing about a girl, until I began to think
of sister Aileen again; then I'd run my head against the wall,
or do something like a madman, and they'd stop the books for a week;
and I'd be as miserable as a bandicoot, worse and worse a lot,
with all the devil's tricks and bad thoughts in my head,
and nothing to put them away.
I must either kill myself, or get something to fill up my time till the day --
yes, the day comes. I've always been a middling writer,
tho' I can't say much for the grammar, and spelling, and that,
but I'll put it all down, from the beginning to the end,
and maybe it'll save some other unfortunate young chap
from pulling back like a colt when he's first roped, setting himself against
everything in the way of proper breaking, making a fool of himself generally,
and choking himself down, as I've done.
The gaoler -- he looks hard -- he has to do that, there's more than one or two
within here that would have him by the throat, with his heart's blood running,
in half a minute, if they had their way, and the warder was off guard.
He knows that very well. But he's not a bad-hearted chap.
`You can have books, or paper and pens, anything you like,' he said,
`you unfortunate young beggar, until you're turned off.'
`If I'd only had you to see after me when I was young,' says I ----
`Come; don't whine,' he said, then he burst out laughing.
`You didn't mean it, I see. I ought to have known better.
You're not one of that sort, and I like you all the better for it.'
. . . . .
Well, here goes. Lots of pens, a big bottle of ink, and ever so much
foolscap paper, the right sort for me, or I shouldn't have been here.
I'm blessed if it doesn't look as if I was going to write copies again.
Don't I remember how I used to go to school in old times;
the rides there and back on the old pony; and pretty little Grace Storefield
that I was so fond of, and used to show her how to do her lessons.
I believe I learned more that way than if I'd had only myself to think about.
There was another girl, the daughter of the poundkeeper,
that I wanted her to beat; and the way we both worked, and I coached her up,
was a caution. And she did get above her in her class. How proud we were!
She gave me a kiss, too, and a bit of her hair. Poor Gracey!
I wonder where she is now, and what she'd think if she saw me here to-day.
If I could have looked ahead, and seen myself -- chained now like a dog,
and going to die a dog's death this day month!
Anyhow, I must make a start. How do people begin when they set to work
to write their own sayings and doings? There's been a deal more doing
than talking in my life -- it was the wrong sort -- more's the pity.
Well, let's see; his parents were poor, but respectable. That's what
they always say. My parents were poor, and mother was as good a soul
as ever broke bread, and wouldn't have taken a shilling's worth
that wasn't her own if she'd been starving. But as for father,
he'd been a poacher in England, a Lincolnshire man he was,
and got sent out for it. He wasn't much more than a boy, he said,
and it was only for a hare or two, which didn't seem much.
But I begin to think, being able to see the right of things a bit now,
and having no bad grog inside of me to turn a fellow's head upside down,
as poaching must be something like cattle and horse duffing --
not the worst thing in the world itself, but mighty likely to lead to it.
Dad had always been a hard-working, steady-going sort of chap,
good at most things, and like a lot more of the Government men,
as the convicts were always called round our part, he saved some money
as soon as he had done his time, and married mother, who was
a simple emigrant girl just out from Ireland. Father was a square-built,
good-looking chap, I believe, then; not so tall as I am by three inches,
but wonderfully strong and quick on his pins. They did say
as he could hammer any man in the district before he got old and stiff.
I never saw him `shape' but once, and then he rolled into a man
big enough to eat him, and polished him off in a way that showed me
-- though I was a bit of a boy then -- that he'd been at the game before.
He didn't ride so bad either, though he hadn't had much of it
where he came from; but he was afraid of nothing, and had a quiet way
with colts. He could make pretty good play in thick country,
and ride a roughish horse, too.
Well, our farm was on a good little flat, with a big mountain in front,
and a scrubby, rangy country at the back for miles. People often asked him
why he chose such a place. `It suits me,' he used to say, with a laugh,
and talk of something else. We could only raise about enough
corn and potatoes, in a general way, for ourselves from the flat;
but there were other chances and pickings which helped to make the pot boil,
and them we'd have been a deal better without.
First of all, though our cultivation paddock was small,
and the good land seemed squeezed in between the hills,
there was a narrow tract up the creek, and here it widened out
into a large well-grassed flat. This was where our cattle ran,
for, of course, we had a team of workers and a few milkers when we came.
No one ever took up a farm in those days without a dray and a team,
a year's rations, a few horses and milkers, pigs and fowls,
and a little furniture. They didn't collar a 40-acre selection,
as they do now -- spend all their money in getting the land
and squat down as bare as robins -- a man with his wife and children
all under a sheet of bark, nothing on their backs, and very little
in their bellies. However, some of them do pretty well,
though they do say they have to live on 'possums for a time.
We didn't do much, in spite of our grand start.
The flat was well enough, but there were other places in the gullies
beyond that that father had dropped upon when he was out shooting.
He was a tremendous chap for poking about on foot or on horseback,
and though he was an Englishman, he was what you call a born bushman.
I never saw any man almost as was his equal. Wherever he'd been once,
there he could take you to again; and what was more,
if it was in the dead of the night he could do it just the same.
People said he was as good as a blackfellow, but I never saw one
that was as good as he was, all round. In a strange country, too.
That was what beat me -- he'd know the way the creek run,
and noticed when the cattle headed to camp, and a lot of things
that other people couldn't see, or if they did, couldn't remember again.
He was a great man for solitary walks, too -- he and an old dog he had,
called Crib, a cross-bred mongrel-looking brute, most like
what they call a lurcher in England, father said. Anyhow, he could do
most anything but talk. He could bite to some purpose, drive cattle or sheep,
catch a kangaroo, if it wasn't a regular flyer, fight like a bulldog,
and swim like a retriever, track anything, and fetch and carry,
but bark he wouldn't. He'd stand and look at dad as if he worshipped him,
and he'd make him some sign and off he'd go like a child that's got a message.
Why he was so fond of the old man we boys couldn't make out.
We were afraid of him, and as far as we could see he never patted
or made much of Crib. He thrashed him unmerciful as he did us boys.
Still the dog was that fond of him you'd think he'd like to die for him
there and then. But dogs are not like boys, or men either -- better, perhaps.
Well, we were all born at the hut by the creek, I suppose,
for I remember it as soon as I could remember anything.
It was a snug hut enough, for father was a good bush carpenter,
and didn't turn his back to any one for splitting and fencing,
hut-building and shingle-splitting; he had had a year or two at sawing, too,
but after he was married he dropped that. But I've heard mother say
that he took great pride in the hut when he brought her to it first,
and said it was the best-built hut within fifty miles.
He split every slab, cut every post and wallplate and rafter himself,
with a man to help him at odd times; and after the frame was up,
and the bark on the roof, he camped underneath and finished every bit of it
-- chimney, flooring, doors, windows, and partitions -- by himself.
Then he dug up a little garden in front, and planted a dozen or two
peaches and quinces in it; put a couple of roses -- a red and a white one --
by the posts of the verandah, and it was all ready for his pretty Norah,
as she says he used to call her then. If I've heard her tell
about the garden and the quince trees and the two roses once,
I've heard her tell it a hundred times. Poor mother! we used to get round her
-- Aileen, and Jim, and I -- and say, `Tell us about the garden, mother.'
She'd never refuse; those were her happy days, she always said.
She used to cry afterwards -- nearly always.
The first thing almost that I can remember was riding the old pony, 'Possum,
out to bring in the milkers. Father was away somewhere,
so mother took us all out and put me on the pony, and let me have a whip.
Aileen walked alongside, and very proud I was. My legs stuck out straight
on the old pony's fat back. Mother had ridden him up when she came --
the first horse she ever rode, she said. He was a quiet little old roan,
with a bright eye and legs like gate-posts, but he never fell down with
us boys, for all that. If we fell off he stopped still and began to feed,
so that he suited us all to pieces. We soon got sharp enough
to flail him along with a quince stick, and we used to bring up the milkers,
I expect, a good deal faster than was good for them.
After a bit we could milk, leg-rope, and bail up for ourselves,
and help dad brand the calves, which began to come pretty thick.
There were only three of us children -- my brother Jim, who was two years
younger than I was, and then Aileen, who was four years behind him.
I know we were both able to nurse the baby a while after she came,
and neither of us wanted better fun than to be allowed to watch her,
or rock the cradle, or as a great treat to carry her a few steps.
Somehow we was that fond and proud of her from the first
that we'd have done anything in the world for her. And so we would now
-- I was going to say -- but that poor Jim lies under a forest oak
on a sandhill, and I -- well, I'm here, and if I'd listened to her advice
I should have been a free man. A free man! How it sounds, doesn't it?
with the sun shining, and the blue sky over your head,
and the birds twittering, and the grass beneath your feet!
I wonder if I shall go mad before my time's up.
Mother was a Roman Catholic -- most Irishwomen are; and dad was a Protestant,
if he was anything. However, that says nothing. People that don't talk much
about their religion, or follow it up at all, won't change it for all that.
So father, though mother tried him hard enough when they were first married,
wouldn't hear of turning, not if he was to be killed for it,
as I once heard him say. `No!' he says, `my father and grandfather,
and all the lot, was Church people, and so I shall live and die.
I don't know as it would make much matter to me, but such as my notions is,
I shall stick to 'em as long as the craft holds together.
You can bring up the girl in your own way; it's made a good woman of you,
or found you one, which is most likely, and so she may take her chance.
But I stand for Church and King, and so shall the boys,
as sure as my name's Ben Marston.'
Father was one of those people that gets shut of a deal of trouble
in this world by always sticking to one thing. If he said he'd do
this or that he always did it and nothing else. As for turning him,
a wild bull half-way down a range was a likelier try-on.
So nobody ever bothered him after he'd once opened his mouth.
They knew it was so much lost labour. I sometimes thought
Aileen was a bit like him in her way of sticking to things.
But then she was always right, you see.
So that clinched it. Mother gave in like a wise woman, as she was.
The clergyman from Bargo came one day and christened me and Jim --
made one job of it. But mother took Aileen herself in the spring cart
all the way to the township and had her christened in the chapel,
in the middle of the service all right and regular, by Father Roche.
There's good and bad of every sort, and I've met plenty that were no chop
of all churches; but if Father Roche, or Father anybody else,
had any hand in making mother and Aileen half as good as they were,
I'd turn to-morrow, if I ever got out again. I don't suppose
it was the religion that made much difference in our case,
for Patsey Daly and his three brothers, that lived on the creek higher up,
were as much on the cross as men could be, and many a time
I've seen them ride to chapel and attend mass, and look as if
they'd never seen a `clearskin' in their lives. Patsey was hanged afterwards
for bush-ranging and gold robbery, and he had more than one man's blood
to answer for. Now we weren't like that; we never troubled the church
one way or the other. We knew we were doing what we oughtn't to do,
and scorned to look pious and keep two faces under one hood.
By degrees we all grew older, began to be active and able to do
half a man's work. We learned to ride pretty well -- at least,
that is we could ride a bare-backed horse at full gallop
through timber or down a range; could back a colt just caught and have him
as quiet as an old cow in a week. We could use the axe and the cross-cut saw,
for father dropped that sort of work himself, and made Jim and I
do all the rough jobs of mending the fences, getting firewood,
milking the cows, and, after a bit, ploughing the bit of flat
we kept in cultivation.
Jim and I, when we were fifteen and thirteen -- he was bigger for his age
than I was, and so near my own strength that I didn't care
about touching him -- were the smartest lads on the creek, father said --
he didn't often praise us, either. We had often ridden over to help
at the muster of the large cattle stations that were on the side of the range,
and not more than twenty or thirty miles from us.
Some of our young stock used to stray among the squatters' cattle,
and we liked attending the muster because there was plenty of
galloping about and cutting out, and fun in the men's hut at night,
and often a half-crown or so for helping some one away
with a big mob of cattle or a lot for the pound. Father didn't go himself,
and I used to notice that whenever we came up and said we were
Ben Marston's boys both master and super looked rather glum, and then appeared
not to think any more about it. I heard the owner of one of these stations
say to his managing man, `Pity, isn't it? fine boys, too.'
I didn't understand what they meant. I do now.
We could do a few things besides riding, because, as I told you before,
we had been to a bit of a school kept by an old chap that had once seen
better days, that lived three miles off, near a little bush township.
This village, like most of these places, had a public-house
and a blacksmith's shop. That was about all. The publican kept the store,
and managed pretty well to get hold of all the money that was made
by the people round about, that is of those that were `good drinking men'.
He had half-a-dozen children, and, though he was not up to much,
he wasn't that bad that he didn't want his children to have the chance
of being better than himself. I've seen a good many crooked people in my day,
but very few that, though they'd given themselves up as a bad job,
didn't hope a bit that their youngsters mightn't take after them.
Curious, isn't it? But it is true, I can tell you. So Lammerby,
the publican, though he was a greedy, sly sort of fellow, that bought things
he knew were stolen, and lent out money and charged everybody two prices
for the things he sold 'em, didn't like the thought of his children
growing up like Myall cattle, as he said himself, and so he fished out this
old Mr. Howard, that had been a friend or a victim or some kind of pal of his
in old times, near Sydney, and got him to come and keep school.
He was a curious man, this Mr. Howard. What he had been or done
none of us ever knew, but he spoke up to one of the squatters
that said something sharp to him one day in a way that showed us boys
that he thought himself as good as he was. And he stood up straight
and looked him in the face, till we hardly could think he was the same man
that was so bent and shambling and broken-down-looking most times.
He used to live in a little hut in the township all by himself.
It was just big enough to hold him and us at our lessons.
He had his dinner at the inn, along with Mr. and Mrs. Lammerby.
She was always kind to him, and made him puddings and things when he was ill.
He was pretty often ill, and then he'd hear us our lessons at the bedside,
and make a short day of it.
Mostly he drank nothing but tea. He used to smoke a good deal
out of a big meerschaum pipe with figures on it that he used to show us
when he was in a good humour. But two or three times a year
he used to set-to and drink for a week, and then school was left off
till he was right. We didn't think much of that. Everybody, almost,
that we knew did the same -- all the men -- nearly all, that is --
and some of the women -- not mother, though; she wouldn't have touched
a drop of wine or spirits to save her life, and never did to her dying day.
We just thought of it as if they'd got a touch of fever or sunstroke,
or broke a rib or something. They'd get over it in a week or two,
and be all right again.
All the same, poor old Mr. Howard wasn't always on the booze,
not by any manner of means. He never touched a drop of anything,
not even ginger-beer, while he was straight, and he kept us all going
from nine o'clock in the morning till three in the afternoon,
summer and winter, for more than six years. Then he died, poor old chap --
found dead in his bed one morning. Many a basting he gave me and Jim
with an old malacca cane he had with a silver knob to it. We were all
pretty frightened of him. He'd say to me and Jim and the other boys,
`It's the best chance of making men of yourselves you ever had,
if you only knew it. You'll be rich farmers or settlers,
perhaps magistrates, one of these days -- that is, if you're not hanged.
It's you, I mean,' he'd say, pointing to me and Jim and the Dalys;
`I believe some of you WILL be hanged unless you change a good deal.
It's cold blood and bad blood that runs in your veins,
and you'll come to earn the wages of sin some day. It's a strange thing,'
he used to say, as if he was talking to himself, `that the girls are so good,
while the boys are delivered over to the Evil One, except a case
here and there. Look at Mary Darcy and Jane Lammerby,
and my little pet Aileen here. I defy any village in Britain
to turn out such girls -- plenty of rosy-cheeked gigglers --
but the natural refinement and intelligence of these little damsels
Well, the old man died suddenly, as I said, and we were all very sorry,
and the school was broken up. But he had taught us all
to write fairly and to keep accounts, to read and spell decently,
and to know a little geography. It wasn't a great deal,
but what we knew we knew well, and I often think of what he said,
now it's too late, we ought to have made better use of it.
After school broke up father said Jim and I knew quite as much
as was likely to be any good to us, and we must work for our living
like other people. We'd always done a pretty fair share of that,
and our hands were hard with using the axe and the spade,
let alone holding the plough at odd times and harrowing, helping father
to kill and brand, and a lot of other things, besides getting up
while the stars were in the sky so as to get the cows milked early,
before it was time to go to school.
All this time we had lived in a free kind of way -- we wanted for nothing.
We had plenty of good beef, and a calf now and then. About this time
I began to wonder how it was that so many cattle and horses
passed through father's hands, and what became of them.
I hadn't lived all my life on Rocky Creek, and among some of
the smartest hands in that line that old New South Wales ever bred,
without knowing what `clearskins' and `cross' beasts meant,
and being well aware that our brand was often put on a calf
that no cow of ours ever suckled. Don't I remember well the first calf
I ever helped to put our letters on? I've often wished I'd defied father,
then taken my licking, and bolted away from home. It's that very calf
and the things it led to that's helped to put me where I am!
Just as I sit here, and these cursed irons rattle whenever I move my feet,
I can see that very evening, and father and the old dog
with a little mob of our crawling cattle and half-a-dozen head of strangers,
cows and calves, and a fat little steer coming through the scrub
to the old stockyard.
It was an awkward place for a yard, people used to say; scrubby and stony
all round, a blind sort of hole -- you couldn't see till you were right
on the top of it. But there was a `wing' ran out a good way
through the scrub -- there's no better guide to a yard like that --
and there was a sort of track cattle followed easy enough once you were round
the hill. Anyhow, between father and the dog and the old mare he always rode,
very few beasts ever broke away.
These strange cattle had been driven a good way, I could see.
The cows and calves looked done up, and the steer's tongue was out --
it was hottish weather; the old dog had been `heeling' him up too,
for he was bleeding up to the hocks, and the end of his tail was bitten off.
He was a savage old wretch was Crib. Like all dogs that never bark
-- and men too -- his bite was all the worse.
`Go and get the brands -- confound you -- don't stand there
frightening the cattle,' says father, as the tired cattle,
after smelling and jostling a bit, rushed into the yard.
`You, Jim, make a fire, and look sharp about it. I want to brand
old Polly's calf and another or two.' Father came down to the hut
while the brands were getting ready, and began to look at the harness-cask,
which stood in a little back skillion. It was pretty empty;
we had been living on eggs, bacon, and bread and butter for a week.
`Oh, mother! there's such a pretty red calf in the yard,' I said,
`with a star and a white spot on the flank; and there's a yellow steer
fat enough to kill!'
`What!' said mother, turning round and looking at father with her eyes staring
-- a sort of dark blue they were -- people used to say mine and Jim's
were the same colour -- and her brown hair pushed back off her face,
as if she was looking at a ghost. `Is it doing that again you are,
after all you promised me, and you so nearly caught -- after the last one?
Didn't I go on my knees to ye to ask ye to drop it and lead a good life,
and didn't ye tell me ye'd never do the like again? And the poor
innocent children, too, I wonder ye've the heart to do it.'
It came into my head now to wonder why the sergeant and two policemen
had come down from Bargo, very early in the morning, about three months ago,
and asked father to show them the beef in his cask, and the hide
belonging to it. I wondered at the time the beast was killed
why father made the hide into a rope, and before he did that
had cut out the brand and dropped it into a hot fire. The police saw
a hide with our brand on, all right -- killed about a fortnight.
They didn't know it had been taken off a cancered bullock,
and that father took the trouble to `stick' him and bleed him
before he took the hide off, so as it shouldn't look dark.
Father certainly knew most things in the way of working on the cross.
I can see now he'd have made his money a deal easier, and no trouble of mind,
if he'd only chosen to go straight.
When mother said this, father looked at her for a bit
as if he was sorry for it; then he straightened himself up,
and an ugly look came into his face as he growled out --
`You mind your own business; we must live as well as other people.
There's squatters here that does as bad. They're just like
the squires at home; think a poor man hasn't a right to live.
You bring the brand and look alive, Dick, or I'll sharpen ye up a bit.'
The brand was in the corner, but mother got between me and it,
and stretched out her hand to father as if to stop me and him.
`In God's name,' she cried out, `aren't ye satisfied
with losing your own soul and bringing disgrace upon your family,
but ye must be the ruin of your innocent children?
Don't touch the brand, Dick!'
But father wasn't a man to be crossed, and what made it worse
he had a couple of glasses of bad grog in him. There was an old villain
of a shanty-keeper that lived on a back creek. He'd been there
as he came by and had a glass or two. He had a regular savage temper,
father had, though he was quiet enough and not bad to us when he was right.
But the grog always spoiled him.
He gave poor mother a shove which sent her reeling against the wall,
where she fell down and hit her head against the stool, and lay there.
Aileen, sitting down in the corner, turned white, and began to cry,
while father catches me a box on the ear which sends me kicking,
picks up the brand out of the corner, and walks out, with me after him.
I think if I'd been another year or so older I'd have struck back --
I felt that savage about poor mother that I could have gone at him myself --
but we had been too long used to do everything he told us; and somehow,
even if a chap's father's a bad one, he don't seem like other men to him.
So, as Jim had lighted the fire, we branded the little red heifer calf first
-- a fine fat six-months-old nugget she was -- and then three bull calves,
all strangers, and then Polly's calf, I suppose just for a blind.
Jim and I knew the four calves were all strangers, but we didn't know
the brands of the mothers; they all seemed different.
After this all was made right to kill a beast. The gallows was ready rigged
in a corner of the yard; father brought his gun and shot the yellow steer.
The calves were put into our calf-pen -- Polly's and all --
and all the cows turned out to go where they liked.
We helped father to skin and hang up the beast, and pretty late it was
when we finished. Mother had laid us out our tea and gone to bed with Aileen.
We had ours and then went to bed. Father sat outside and smoked
in the starlight. Hours after I woke up and heard mother crying.
Before daylight we were up again, and the steer was cut up and salted
and in the harness-cask soon after sunrise. His head and feet
were all popped into a big pot where we used to make soup for the pigs,
and by the time it had been boiling an hour or two there was no fear
of any one swearing to the yellow steer by `head-mark'.
We had a hearty breakfast off the `skirt', but mother wouldn't touch a bit,
nor let Aileen take any; she took nothing but a bit of bread and a cup of tea,
and sat there looking miserable and downcast. Father said nothing,
but sat very dark-looking, and ate his food as if nothing was the matter.
After breakfast he took his mare, the old dog followed; there was no need
to whistle for him -- it's my belief he knew more than many a Christian --
and away they went. Father didn't come home for a week --
he had got into the habit of staying away for days and days together.
Then things went on the old way.
So the years went on -- slow enough they seemed to us sometimes --
the green winters, pretty cold, I tell you, with frost and hail-storms,
and the long hot summers. We were not called boys any longer, except by
mother and Aileen, but took our places among the men of the district.
We lived mostly at home, in the old way; sometimes working pretty hard,
sometimes doing very little. When the cows were milked and the wood chopped,
there was nothing to do for the rest of the day. The creek was that close
that mother used to go and dip the bucket into it herself, when she
wanted one, from a little wooden step above the clear reedy waterhole.
Now and then we used to dig in the garden. There was reaping and corn-pulling
and husking for part of the year; but often, for weeks at a time,
there was next to nothing to do. No hunting worth much --
we were sick of kangarooing, like the dogs themselves, that as they grew old
would run a little way and then pull up if a mob came, jump, jump, past them.
No shooting, except a few ducks and pigeons. Father used to laugh
at the shooting in this country, and say they'd never have poachers here --
the game wasn't worth it. No fishing, except an odd codfish,
in the deepest waterholes; and you might sit half a day without a bite.
Now this was very bad for us boys. Lads want plenty of work,
and a little play now and then to keep them straight. If there's none,
they'll make it; and you can't tell how far they'll go when they once start.
Well, Jim and I used to get our horses and ride off quietly in the afternoon,
as if we were going after cattle; but, in reality, as soon as we were
out of sight of mother, to ride over to that old villain,
Grimes, the shanty-keeper, where we met the young Dalys,
and others of the same sort -- talked a good deal of nonsense and gossip;
what was worse played at all-fours and euchre, which we had learned
from an American harvest hand, at one of the large farms.
Besides playing for money, which put us rather into trouble sometimes,
as we couldn't always find a half-crown if we lost it,
we learned another bad habit, and that was to drink spirits.
What burning nasty stuff I thought it at first; and so did we all!
But every one wanted to be thought a man, and up to all kinds of wickedness,
so we used to make it a point of drinking our nobbler, and sometimes
treating the others twice, if we had cash.
There was another family that lived a couple of miles off,
higher up the creek, and we had always been good friends with them,
though they never came to our house, and only we boys went to theirs.
They were the parents of the little girl that went to school with us,
and a boy who was a year older than me.
Their father had been a gardener at home, and he married a native girl
who was born somewhere about the Hawkesbury, near Windsor.
Her father had been a farmer, and many a time she told us how sorry she was
to go away from the old place, and what fine corn and pumpkins they grew;
and how they had a church at Windsor, and used to take
their hay and fruit and potatoes to Sydney, and what a grand place Sydney was,
with stone buildings called markets for people to sell
fruit and vegetables and poultry in; and how you could walk down
into Lower George Street and see Sydney Harbour, a great shining
salt-water plain, a thousand times as big as the biggest waterhole,
with ships and boats and sailors, and every kind of strange thing upon it.
Mrs. Storefield was pretty fond of talking, and she was always fond of me,
because once when she was out after the cows, and her man was away,
and she had left Grace at home, the little thing crawled down to the waterhole
and tumbled in. I happened to be riding up with a message for mother,
to borrow some soap, when I heard a little cry like a lamb's, and there was
poor little Gracey struggling in the water like a drowning kitten,
with her face under. Another minute or two would have finished her,
but I was off the old pony and into the water like a teal flapper.
I had her out in a second or two, and she gasped and cried a bit,
but soon came to, and when Mrs. Storefield came home she first cried over her
as if she would break her heart, and kissed her, and then she kissed me,
and said, `Now, Dick Marston, you look here. Your mother's a good woman,
though simple; your father I don't like, and I hear many stories about him
that makes me think the less we ought to see of the lot of you the better.
But you've saved my child's life to-day, and I'll be a friend
and a mother to you as long as I live, even if you turn out bad,
and I'm rather afraid you will -- you and Jim both --
but it won't be my fault for want of trying to keep you straight;
and John and I will be your kind and loving friends as long as we live,
no matter what happens.'
After that -- it was strange enough -- but I always took
to the little toddling thing that I'd pulled out of the water.
I wasn't very big myself, if it comes to that, and she seemed to have
a feeling about it, for she'd come to me every time I went there,
and sit on my knee and look at me with her big brown serious eyes
-- they were just the same after she grew up -- and talk to me
in her little childish lingo. I believe she knew all about it,
for she used to say, `Dick pull Gracey out of water;' and then she'd
throw her arms round my neck and kiss me, and walk off to her mother.
If I'd let her drown then, and tied a stone round my neck
and dropped through the reeds to the bottom of the big waterhole,
it would have been better for both of us.
When John came home he was nearly as bad as the old woman,
and wanted to give me a filly, but I wouldn't have it, boy as I was.
I never cared for money nor money's worth, and I was not going to be paid
for picking a kid out of the water.
George Storefield, Gracey's brother, was about my own age.
He thought a lot of what I'd done for her, and years afterwards
I threatened to punch his head if he said anything more about it.
He laughed, and held out his hand.
`You and I might have been better friends lately,' says he;
`but don't you forget you've got another brother besides Jim --
one that will stick to you, too, fair weather or foul.'
I always had a great belief in George, though we didn't get on over well,
and often had fallings out. He was too steady and hardworking altogether
for Jim and me. He worked all day and every day, and saved
every penny he made. Catch him gaffing! -- no, not for a sixpence.
He called the Dalys and Jacksons thieves and swindlers, who would be
locked up, or even hanged, some day, unless they mended themselves.
As for drinking a glass of grog, you might just as soon ask him
to take a little laudanum or arsenic.
`Why should I drink grog,' he used to say -- `such stuff, too, as you get
at that old villain Grimes's -- with a good appetite and a good conscience?
I'm afraid of no man; the police may come and live on my ground
for what I care. I work all day, have a read in the evening,
and sleep like a top when I turn in. What do I want more?'
`Oh, but you never see any life,' Jim said; `you're just like
an old working bullock that walks up to the yoke in the morning
and never stops hauling till he's let go at night. This is a free country,
and I don't think a fellow was born for that kind of thing and nothing else.'
`This country's like any other country, Jim,' George would say,
holding up his head, and looking straight at him with his steady gray eyes;
`a man must work and save when he's young if he don't want to be
a beggar or a slave when he's old. I believe in a man enjoying himself
as well as you do, but my notion of that is to have a good farm,
well stocked and paid for, by and by, and then to take it easy,
perhaps when my back is a little stiffer than it is now.'
`But a man must have a little fun when he is young,' I said.
`What's the use of having money when you're old and rusty,
and can't take pleasure in anything?'
`A man needn't be so very old at forty,' he says then,
`and twenty years' steady work will put all of us youngsters
well up the ladder. Besides, I don't call it fun getting half-drunk
with a lot of blackguards at a low pothouse or a shanty,
listening to the stupid talk and boasting lies of a pack of loafers and worse.
They're fit for nothing better; but you and Jim are. Now, look here,
I've got a small contract from Mr. Andrews for a lot of fencing stuff.
It will pay us wages and something over. If you like to go in with me,
we'll go share and share. I know what hands you both are
at splitting and fencing. What do you say?'
Jim, poor Jim, was inclined to take George's offer. He was that good-hearted
that a kind word would turn him any time. But I was put out
at his laying it down so about the Dalys and us shantying and gaffing,
and I do think now that some folks are born so as they can't do without
a taste of some sort of fun once in a way. I can't put it out clear,
but it ought to be fixed somehow for us chaps that haven't got
the gift of working all day and every day, but can do two days' work in one
when we like, that we should have our allowance of reasonable fun and pleasure
-- that is, what we called pleasure, not what somebody thinks
we ought to take pleasure in. Anyway, I turned on George rather rough,
and I says, `We're not good enough for the likes of you, Mr. Storefield.
It's very kind of you to think of us, but we'll take our own line
and you take yours.'
`I'm sorry for it, Dick, and more sorry that you take huff at an old friend.
All I want is to do you good, and act a friend's part. Good-bye --
some day you'll see it.'
`You're hard on George,' says Jim, `there's no pleasing you to-day;
one would think there were lots of chaps fighting how to give us a lift.
Good-bye, George, old man; I'm sorry we can't wire in with you;
we'd soon knock out those posts and rails on the ironbark range.'
`You'd better stop, Jim, and take a hand in the deal,' says I
(or, rather, the devil, for I believe he gets inside a chap at times),
`and then you and George can take a turn at local-preaching
when you're cut out. I'm off.' So without another word
I jumped on to my horse and went off down the hill, across the creek,
and over the boulders the other side, without much caring where I was going.
The fact was, I felt I had acted meanly in sneering at a man
who only said what he did for my good; and I wasn't at all sure
that I hadn't made a breach between Gracey and myself,
and, though I had such a temper when it was roused that all the world
wouldn't have stopped me, every time I thought of not seeing that girl again
made my heart ache as if it would burst.
I was nearly home before I heard the clatter of a horse's feet,
and Jim rode up alongside of me. He was just the same as ever,
with a smile on his face. You didn't often see it without one.
I knew he had come after me, and had given up his own fancy for mine.
`I thought you were going to stay and turn good,' I said. `Why didn't you?'
`It might have been better for me if I had,' he said,
`but you know very well, Dick, that whatever turns up,
whether it's for good or evil, you and I go together.'
We looked at one another for a moment. Our eyes met. We didn't say anything;
but we understood one another as well as if we had talked for a week.
We rode up to the door of our cottage without speaking. The sun had set,
and some of the stars had come out, early as it was, for it was late autumn.
Aileen was sitting on a bench in the verandah reading,
mother was working away as usual at something in the house.
Mother couldn't read or write, but you never caught her sitting
with her hands before her. Except when she was asleep I don't think
she ever was quite still.
Aileen ran out to us, and stood while we let go our horses,
and brought the saddles and bridles under the verandah.
`I'm glad you're come home for one thing,' she said. `There is a message
from father. He wants you to meet him.'
`Who brought it?' I said.
`One of the Dalys -- Patsey, I think.'
`All right,' said Jim, kissing her as he lifted her up
in his great strong arms. `I must go in and have a gossip with the old woman.
Aileen can tell me after tea. I daresay it's not so good that it won't keep.'
Mother was that fond of both of us that I believe, as sure as I sit here,
she'd have put her head on the block, or died in any other way
for either of her boys, not because it was her duty,
but glad and cheerful like, to have saved us from death or disgrace.
I think she was fonder of us two than she was of Aileen.
Mothers are generally fonder of their sons. Why I never could see;
and if she thought more of one than the other it was Jim.
He was the youngest, and he had that kind of big, frolicsome,
loving way with him, like a Newfoundland pup about half-grown.
I always used to think, somehow, nobody ever seemed to be able
to get into a pelter with Jim, not even father, and that was a thing
as some people couldn't be got to believe. As for mother and Aileen,
they were as fond of him as if he'd been a big baby.
So while he went to sit down on the stretcher, and let mother
put her arms round his neck and hug him and cry over him,
as she always did if he'd been away more than a day or two,
I took a walk down the creek with Aileen in the starlight,
to hear all about this message from father. Besides, I could see
that she was very serious over it, and I thought there might be
something in it more than common.
`First of all, did you make any agreement with George Storefield?' she said.
`No; why should I? Has he been talking to you about me?
What right has he to meddle with my business?'
`Oh, Dick, don't talk like that. Anything that he said
was only to do you a kindness, and Jim.'
`Hang him, and his kindness too,' I said. `Let him keep it
for those that want it. But what did he tell you?'
`He said, first of all,' answered poor Aileen, with the tears in her eyes,
and trying to take hold of my hand, `that he had a contract
for fencing timber, which he had taken at good prices, which he would share
with you and Jim; that he knew you two and himself could finish it
in a few weeks, and that he expected to get the contract for the timber
for the new bridge at Dargo, which he would let you go shares in too.
He didn't like to speak about that, because it wasn't certain;
but he had calculated all the quantities and prices,
and he was sure you would make 70 or 80 Pounds each before Christmas.
Now, was there any harm in that; and don't you think it was very good of him
to think of it?'
`Well, he's not a bad fellow, old George,' I said, `but he's a little too fond
of interfering with other people's business. Jim and I are quite able
to manage our own affairs, as I told him this evening, when I refused
to have anything to do with his fencing arrangement.'
`Oh, Dick, did you?' she said. `What a pity! I made sure
Jim would have liked it so, for only last week he said
he was sick and tired of having nothing to do -- that he should soon lose
all his knack at using tools that he used to be so proud of.
Didn't he say he'd like to join George?'
`He would, I daresay, and I told him to do as he liked.
I came away by myself, and only saw him just before we crossed the range.
He's big enough and old enough to take his own line.'
`But you know he thinks so much of you,' she groaned out,
`that he'd follow you to destruction. That will be the end of it,
depend upon it, Dick. I tell you so now; you've taken to bad ways;
you'll have his blood on your head yet.'
`Jim's old enough and big enough to take care of himself,' I said sulkily.
`If he likes to come my way I won't hinder him; I won't try to persuade him
one way or the other. Let him take his own line; I don't believe
in preaching and old women's talk. Let a man act and think for himself.'
`You'll break my heart and poor mother's, too,' said Aileen,
suddenly taking both my hands in hers. `What has she done but love us
ever since we were born, and what does she live for? You know she has
no pleasure of any kind, you know she's afraid every morning she wakes
that the police will get father for some of his cross doings;
and now you and Jim are going the same wild way, and what ever --
what ever will be the end of it?'
Here she let go my hands, and sobbed and cried as if she was a child again,
much as I remember her doing one day when my kangaroo dog killed
her favourite cat. And Aileen was a girl that didn't cry much generally,
and never about anything that happened to herself; it was always about
somebody else and their misfortunes. She was a quiet girl, too,
very determined, and not much given to talking about what she was going to do;
but when she made up her mind she was sure to stick to it. I used to think
she was more like father than any of us. She had his coloured hair and eyes,
and his way of standing and looking, as if the whole world
wouldn't shift him. But she'd mother's soft heart for all that,
and I took the more notice of her crying and whimpering this time
because it was so strange for her.
If any one could have seen straight into my heart just then I was regularly
knocked over, and had two minds to go inside to Jim and tell him
we'd take George's splitting job, and start to tackle it first thing
to-morrow morning; but just then one of those confounded night-hawks
flitted on a dead tree before us and began his `hoo-ho',
as if it was laughing at me. I can see the place now --
the mountain black and dismal, the moon low and strange-looking,
the little waterhole glittering in the half-light, and this dark bird
hooting away in the night. An odd feeling seemed to come over my mind,
and if it had been the devil himself standing on the dead limb
it could not have had a worse effect on me as I stopped there,
uncertain whether to turn to the right or the left.
We don't often know in this world sometimes whether we are turning off
along a road where we shall never come back from, or whether we can go
just a little way and look at the far-off hills and new rivers,
and come home safe.
I remember the whole lot of bad-meaning thoughts coming with a rush
over my heart, and I laughed at myself for being so soft as to choose
a hard-working, pokey kind of life at the word of a slow fellow like George,
when I might be riding about the country on a fine horse,
eating and drinking of the best, and only doing what people said
half the old settlers had made their money by.
Poor Aileen told me afterwards that if she'd thought for a moment
I could be turned she'd have gone down on her knees and never got up
till I promised to keep straight and begin to work at honest daily labour
like a man -- like a man who hoped to end his days in a good house,
on a good farm, with a good wife and nice children round him,
and not in a prison cell. Some people would call the first,
after years of honest work, and being always able to look every one
in the face, being more of a man than the other. But people have
different ways and different ideas.
`Come, Ailie,' I said, `are you going to whine and cry all night?
I shall be afraid to come home if you're going to be like this.
What's the message from father?'
She wiped away her tears, and, putting her hand on my shoulder,
looked steadily into my face.
`Poor boy -- poor, dear Dick,' she said, `I feel as if I should see
that fresh face of yours looking very different some day or other.
Something tells me that there's bad luck before you. But never mind,
you'll never lose your sister if the luck's ever so bad. Father sent word
you and Jim were to meet him at Broken Creek and bring your whips with you.'
`What in the world's that for?' I said, half speaking to myself.
`It looks as if there was a big mob to drive, and where's he to get a big mob
there in that mountainous, beastly place, where the cattle all bolt
like wallabies, and where I never saw twenty head together?'
`He's got some reason for it,' said Aileen sorrowfully. `If I were you
I wouldn't go. It's no good, and father's trying now to drag you and Jim
into the bad ways he's been following these years.'
`How do you know it's so bad?' said I. `How can a girl like you know?'
`I know very well,' she said. `Do you think I've lived here all these years
and don't know things? What makes him always come home after dark,
and be that nervous every time he sees a stranger coming up
you'd think he was come out of gaol? Why has he always got money,
and why does mother look so miserable when he's at home,
and cheer up when he goes away?'
`He may get jobs of droving or something,' I said. `You have no right
to say that he's robbing, or something of that sort, because he doesn't care
about tying himself to mother's apron-string.'
Aileen laughed, but it was more like crying.
`You told me just now,' she said -- oh! so sorrowfully --
`that you and Jim were old enough to take a line of your own.
Why don't you do it now?'
`And tell father we'll have nothing more to do with him!'
`Why not?' she said, standing up straight before me, and facing me
just as I saw father face the big bullock-driver before he knocked him down.
`Why not? You need never ask him for another meal; you can earn
an easy living in half-a-dozen ways, you and Jim. Why should you let him
spoil your life and ruin your soul for evermore?'
`The priest put that into your head,' I said sneeringly;
`Father Doyle -- of course he knows what they'll do with a fellow
after he's dead.'
`No!' she said, `Father Doyle never said a word about you
that wasn't good and kind. He says mother's a good Catholic,
and he takes an interest in you boys and me because of her.'
`He can persuade you women to do anything,' I said, not that I had
any grudge against poor old Father Doyle, who used to come riding
up the rough mountain track on his white horse, and tiring his old bones,
just `to look after his flock,' as he said -- and nice lambs
some of them were -- but I wanted to tease her and make her break off
with this fancy of hers.
`He never does, and couldn't persuade me, except for my good,' said she,
getting more and more roused, and her black eyes glowed again,
`and I'll tell you what I'll do to prove it. It's a sin,
but if it is I'll stand by it, and now I'll swear it (here she knelt down),
as Almighty God shall help me at the last day, if you and Jim
will promise me to start straight off up the country and take bush-work
till shearing comes on, and never to have any truck with cross chaps
and their ways, I'll turn Protestant. I'll go to church with you,
and keep to it till I die.'
Wasn't she a trump? I've known women that would give up a lot
for a man they were sweet on, and wives that would follow their husbands about
like spaniels, and women that would lie and deceive and all but rob and murder
for men they were fond of, and sometimes do nearly as much
to spite other women. But I don't think I ever knew a woman
that would give up her religion for any one before, and it's not
as if she wasn't staunch to her own faith. She was as regular
in her prayers and crossings and beads and all the rest of it
as mother herself, and if there ever was a good girl in the whole world
she was one. She turned faint as she said this, and I thought she was going
to drop down. If anything could have turned me then it would have been this.
It was almost like giving her life for ours, and I don't think
she'd have valued hers two straws if she could have saved us.
There's a great deal said about different kinds of love in this world,
but I can't help thinking that the love between brothers and sisters
that have been brought up together and have had very few other people
to care about is a higher, better sort than any other in the world.
There's less selfishness about it -- no thought but for the other's good.
If that can be made safe, death and pain and poverty and misery
are all little things. And wasn't I fond of Aileen, in spite of all
my hardness and cross-grained obstinacy? -- so fond that I was just going
to hug her to me and say, `Take it all your own way, Ailie dear,'
when Jim came tearing out of the hut, bareheaded, and stood listening
to a far-off sound that caught all our ears at once. We made out
the source of it too well -- far too well.
What was the noise at that hour of the night?
It was a hollow, faint, distant roaring that gradually kept getting louder.
It was the strange mournful bellowing that comes from a drove of cattle
forced along an unknown track. As we listened the sound came clearly
on the night wind, faint, yet still clearly coming nearer.
`Cattle being driven,' Jim cried out; `and a big mob too. It's father --
for a note. Let's get our horses and meet him.'
`All right,' said I, `he must have got there a day before his time.
It is a big mob and no mistake. I wonder where they're taking them to.'
Aileen shrugged her shoulders and walked in to mother with a look
of misery and despair on her face such as I never saw there before.
She knew it was no use talking to me now. The idea of going out
to meet a large lot of unknown cattle had strongly excited us,
as would have been the case with every bush-bred lad. All sorts of wonders
passed through our minds as we walked down the creek bank,
with our bridles in our hands, towards where our horses usually fed.
One was easy to catch, the other with a little management was secured.
In ten minutes we were riding fast through the dark trees and fallen timber
towards the wild gullies and rock-strewed hills of Broken Creek.
It was not more than an hour when we got up to the cattle.
We could hear them a good while before we saw them. `My word,' said Jim,
`ain't they restless. They can't have come far, or they wouldn't roar so.
Where can the old man have "touched" for them?'
`How should I know?' I said roughly. I had a kind of idea,
but I thought he would never be so rash.
When we got up I could see the cattle had been rounded up in a flat with
stony ridges all round. There must have been three or four hundred of them,
only a man and a boy riding round and wheeling them every now and then.
Their horses were pretty well knocked up. I knew father at once,
and the old chestnut mare he used to ride -- an animal with legs like timbers
and a mule rump; but you couldn't tire her, and no beast that ever was calved
could get away from her. The boy was a half-caste that father
had picked up somewhere; he was as good as two men any day.
`So you've come at last,' growled father, `and a good thing too.
I didn't expect to be here till to-morrow morning. The dog came home,
I suppose -- that's what brought you here, wasn't it?
I thought the infernal cattle would beat Warrigal and me,
and we'd have all our trouble for nothing.'
`Whose cattle are they, and what are you going to do with them?'
`Never you mind; ask no questions, and you'll see all about it to-morrow.
I'll go and take a snooze now; I've had no sleep for three nights.'
With our fresh horses and riding round so we kept the cattle easily enough.
We did not tell Warrigal he might go to rest, not thinking
a half-caste brat like him wanted any. He didn't say anything,
but went to sleep on his horse, which walked in and out among the angry cattle
as he sat on the saddle with his head down on the horse's neck.
They sniffed at him once or twice, some of the old cows,
but none of them horned him; and daylight came rather quicker
than one would think.
Then we saw whose cattle they were; they had all Hunter's and Falkland's
brands on, which showed that they belonged to Banda and Elingamah stations.
`By George!' says Jim, `they're Mr. Hunter's cattle, and all these circle dots
belong to Banda. What a mob of calves! not one of them branded!
What in the world does father intend to do with them?'
Father was up, and came over where we stood with our horses in our hands
before we had time to say more. He wasn't one of those
that slept after daylight, whether he had work to do or not.
He certainly COULD work; daylight or dark, wet or dry, cold or hot,
it was all one to father. It seems a pity what he did was no use to him,
as it turned out; for he was a man, was old dad, every inch of him.
`Now, boys,' he said, quite brisk and almost good-natured for him,
`look alive and we'll start the cattle; we've been long enough here;
let 'em head up that gully, and I'll show you something
you've never seen before for as long as you've known Broken Creek Ranges.'
`But where are you going to take 'em to?' I said. `They're all
Mr. Hunter's and Mr. Falkland's; the brands are plain enough.'
`Are the calves branded, you blasted fool?' he said, while the black look
came over his face that had so often frightened me when I was a child.
`You do what I tell you if you've any pluck and gumption about you;
or else you and your brother can ride over to Dargo Police Station
and "give me away" if you like; only don't come home again, I warn you,
sons or no sons.'
If I had done what I had two minds to do -- for I wasn't afraid of him then,
savage as he looked -- told him to do his own duffing and ridden away with Jim
there and then -- poor Jim, who sat on his horse staring at both of us,
and saying nothing -- how much better it would have been for all of us,
the old man as well as ourselves; but it seemed as if it wasn't to be.
Partly from use, and partly from a love of danger and something new,
which is at the bottom of half the crime in the bush districts,
I turned my horse's head after the cattle, which were now beginning
to straggle. Jim did the same on his side. How easy is it for chaps
to take the road to hell! for that was about the size of it,
and we were soon too busy to think about much else.
The track we were driving on led along a narrow rocky gully
which looked as if it had been split up or made out of a crack in the earth
thousands of years ago by an earthquake or something of that kind.
The hills were that steep that every now and then some of the young cattle
that were not used to that sort of country would come sliding down and bellow
as if they thought they were going to break their necks.
The water rushed down it like a torrent in wet winters,
and formed a sort of creek, and the bed of it made what track there was.
There were overhanging rocks and places that made you giddy to look at,
and some of these must have fallen down and blocked up the creek
at one time or other. We had to scramble round them the best way we could.
When we got nearly up to the head of the gully -- and great work it was
to force the footsore cattle along, as we couldn't use our whips overmuch --
Jim called out --
`Why, here comes old Crib. Who'd have thought he'd have seen the track?
Well done, old man. Now we're right.'
Father never took any notice of the poor brute as he came limping
along the stones. Woman or child, horse or dog, it's the same old thing --
the more any creature loves a man in this world the worse they're treated.
It looks like it, at any rate. I saw how it was; father had given Crib
a cruel beating the night before, when he was put out for some
trifling matter, and the dog had left him and run home. But now
he had thought better of it, and seen our tracks and come to work and slave,
with his bleeding feet -- for they were cut all to pieces --
and got the whip across his back now and then for his pains.
It's a queer world!
When we got right to the top of this confounded gully, nearly dead-beat
all of us, and only for the dog heeling them up every now and then,
and making his teeth nearly meet in them, without a whimper,
I believe the cattle would have charged back and beat us.
There was a sort of rough table-land -- scrubby and stony and thick it was,
but still the grass wasn't bad in summer, when the country below
was all dried up. There were wild horses in troops there,
and a few wild cattle, so Jim and I knew the place well;
but it was too far and too much of a journey for our own horses to go often.
`Do you see that sugar-loaf hill with the bald top, across the range?'
said father, riding up just then, as we were taking it easy a little.
`Don't let the cattle straggle, and make straight for that.'
`Why, it's miles away,' said Jim, looking rather dismal.
`We could never get 'em there.'
`We're not going there, stupid,' says father; `that's only the line to keep.
I'll show you something about dinner-time that'll open your eyes a bit.'
Poor Jim brightened up at the mention of dinner-time, for, boylike,
he was getting very hungry, and as he wasn't done growing
he had no end of an appetite. I was hungry enough for the matter of that,
but I wouldn't own to it.
`Well, we shall come to somewhere, I suppose,' says Jim, when father was gone.
`Blest if I didn't think he was going to keep us wandering
in this blessed Nulla Mountain all day. I wish I'd never seen
the blessed cattle. I was only waiting for you to hook it
when we first seen the brands by daylight, and I'd ha' been off
like a brindle "Mickey" down a range.'
`Better for us if we had,' I said; `but it's too late now.
We must stick to it, I suppose.'
We had kept the cattle going for three or four miles
through the thickest of the country, every now and then steering our course
by the clear round top of Sugarloaf, that could be seen for miles round,
but never seemed to get any nearer, when we came on a rough sort of log-fence,
which ran the way we were going.
`I didn't think there were any farms up here,' I said to Jim.
`It's a "break",' he said, almost in a whisper. `There's a "duffing-yard"
somewhere handy; that's what's the matter.'
`Keep the cattle along it, anyway. We'll soon see what it leads to.'
The cattle ran along the fence, as if they expected to get
to the end of their troubles soon. The scrub was terribly thick in places,
and every now and then there was a break in the fence,
when one of us had to go outside and hunt them until we came to the next bit.
At last we came to a little open kind of flat, with the scrub
that thick round it as you couldn't hardly ride through it,
and, just as Jim said, there was the yard.
It was a `duffing-yard' sure enough. No one but people who had cattle to hide
and young stock they didn't want other people to see branded
would have made a place there.
Just on the south side of the yard, which was built of great heavy
stringy-bark trees cut down in the line of the fence, and made up
with limbs and logs, the range went up as steep as the side of a house.
The cattle were that tired and footsore -- half their feet were bleeding,
poor devils -- that they ran in through the sliprails and began to lay down.
`Light a fire, one of you boys,' says father, putting up the heavy sliprails
and fastening them. `We must brand these calves before dark. One of you
can go to that gunyah, just under the range where that big white rock is,
and you'll find tea and sugar and something to eat.'
Jim rushed off at once, while I sulkily began to put
some bark and twigs together and build a fire.
`What's the use of all this cross work?' I said to father; `we're bound
to be caught some day if we keep on at it. Then there'll be no one left
to take care of mother and Aileen.'
He looked rather struck at this, and then said quietly --
`You and your brother can go back now. Never say I kept you
against your will. You may as well lend a hand to brand these calves;
then you may clear out as soon as you like.'
Well, I didn't quite like leaving the old chap in the middle of the work
like that. I remember thinking, like many another young fool, I suppose,
that I could draw back in time, just after I'd tackled this job.
Draw back, indeed! When does a man ever get the chance of doing that,
once he's regularly gone in for any of the devil's work and wages?
He takes care there isn't much drawing back afterwards. So I said --
`We may as well give you a hand with this lot; but we'll go home then,
and drop all this duffing work. It don't pay. I'm old enough to know that,
and you'll find it out yet, I expect, father, yourself.'
`The fox lives long, and gives the hounds many a long chase
before he's run into,' he said, with a grim chuckle. `I swore I'd be
revenged on 'em all when they locked me up and sent me out here
for a paltry hare; broke my old mother's heart, so it did. I've had a pound
for every hair in her skin, and I shall go on till I die. After all,
if a man goes to work cautious and runs mute it's not so easy to catch him
in this country, at any rate.'
Jim at this came running out of the cave with a face of joy,
a bag of ship-biscuit, and a lot of other things.
`Here's tea and sugar,' he said; `and there's biscuits and jam,
and a big lump of cheese. Get the fire right, Dick, while I get some water.
We'll soon have some tea, and these biscuits are jolly.'
The tea was made, and we all had a good meal. Father found
a bottle of rum, too; he took a good drink himself, and gave Jim and me
a sip each. I felt less inclined to quarrel with father after that.
So we drafted all the calves into a small pen-yard, and began to put
our brand on them as quick as we could catch 'em.
A hundred and sixty of 'em altogether -- all ages, from a month old
to nearly a year. Fine strong calves, and in rare condition, too.
We could see they were all belonging to Mr. Hunter and Mr. Falkland.
How they came to leave them all so long unbranded I can't say.
Very careless they often are on these large cattle-stations,
so that sharp people like father and the Dalys, and a lot more,
get an easy chance at them.
Whatever father was going to do with them all when he had branded 'em,
we couldn't make out.
`There's no place to tail or wean 'em,' whispered Jim. `We're not above
thirty miles from Banda in a straight line. These cows are dead sure
to make straight back the very minute they're let out,
and very nice work it'll look with all these calves with our brand on
sucking these cows.'
Father happened to come round for a hot brand just as Jim finished.
`Never you mind about the weaning,' he snarled. `I shan't ask you
to tail them either. It wouldn't be a nice job here, would it?'
and father actually laughed. It wasn't a very gay kind of a laugh,
and he shut up his mouth with a sort of snap again.
Jim and I hadn't seen him laugh for I don't know how long,
and it almost frightened us.
As Jim said, it wouldn't do to let the cattle out again.
If calves are weaned, and have only one brand on, it is very hard for any man
to swear that they are not the property of the man to whom that brand belongs.
He may believe them to be his, but may never have seen them in his life;
and if he has seen them on a camp or on the run, it's very hard to swear
to any one particular red or spotted calf as you would to a horse.
The great dart is to keep the young stock away from their mothers
until they forget one another, and then most of the danger is past.
But if calves with one man's brand on are seen sucking another man's cows,
it is pretty plain that the brand on the calves has been put on
without the consent of the owner of the cows -- which is cattle-stealing;
a felony, according to the Act 7 and 8 George IV, No. 29,
punishable with three years' imprisonment, with hard labour
on the roads of the colony or other place, as the Judge may direct.
There's a lot of law! How did I learn it? I had plenty of time
in Berrima Gaol -- worse luck -- my first stretch. But it was
after I'd done the foolishness, and not before.
`Now then, you boys!' says father, coming up all of a sudden like,
and bringing out his words as if it was old times with us,
when we didn't know whether he'd hit first and talk afterwards,
or the other way on, `get out the lot we've just branded,
and drive 'em straight for that peak, where the water shines
dripping over the stones, right again the sun, and look slippy;
we're burning daylight, and these cows are making row enough, blast 'em!
to be heard all the way to Banda. I'll go on and steady the lead;
you keep 'em close up to me.'
Father mounted the old mare. The dog stopped behind; he knew
he'd have to mind the tail -- that is the hindmost cattle -- and stop 'em
from breaking or running clear away from the others. We threw down the rails.
Away the cattle rushed out, all in a long string. You'd 'a thought
no mortal men could 'a kept 'em in that blind hole of a place.
But father headed 'em, and turned 'em towards the peak.
The dog worried those that wanted to stay by the yard or turn another way.
We dropped our whip on 'em, and kept 'em going. In five minutes
they were all a-moving along in one mob at a pretty sharpish trot
like a lot of store cattle. Father knew his way about,
whether the country was thick or open. It was all as one to him.
What a slashing stockman he would have made in new country,
if he only could have kept straight.
It took us an hour's hard dinkum to get near the peak. Sometimes it was
awful rocky, as well as scrubby, and the poor devils of cattle
got as sore-footed as babies -- blood up to the knee, some of 'em;
but we crowded 'em on; there was no help for it.
At last we rounded up on a flat, rocky, open kind of a place;
and here father held up his hand.
`Let 'em ring a bit; some of their tongues are out. These young things
is generally soft. Come here, Dick.' I rode up, and he told me
to follow him.
We walked our horses up to the edge of the mountain and looked over.
It was like the end of the world. Far down there was a dark, dreadful drop
into a sort of deep valley below. You couldn't see the bottom of it.
The trees on the mountain side looked like bushes, and they were
big ironbarks and messmates too. On three sides of us was this awful,
desolate-looking precipice -- a dreary, gloomy, God-forsaken kind of spot.
The sky got cloudy, and the breeze turned cold and began to murmur and whistle
in an odd, unnatural kind of way, while father, seeing how scared and puzzled
I was, began to laugh. I shuddered. A thought crossed my mind
that it might be the Enemy of Souls, in his shape, going to carry us off
for doing such a piece of wickedness.
`Looks queer, doesn't it?' says father, going to the brink and kicking down
a boulder, that rolled and crashed down the steep mountain side,
tearing its way through scrub and heath till it settled down
in the glen below. `It won't do for a man's horse to slip, will it, boy?
And yet there's a track here into a fine large paddock, open and clear, too,
where I'm going to put these cattle into.'
I stared at him, without speaking, thinking was he mad.
`No! the old man isn't mad, youngster,' he said; `not yet, at least.
I'm going to show you a trick that none of you native boys are up to,
smart as you think yourselves.' Here he got off the old mare,
and began to lead her to the edge of the mountain.
`Now, you rally the cattle well after me,' he said; `they'll follow
the old mare after a bit. I left a few cows among 'em on purpose,
and when they "draw" keep 'em going well up, but not too fast.'
He had lengthened the bridle of the mare, and tied the end
of a light tether rope that he had round her neck to it.
I saw her follow him slowly, and turn down a rocky track that seemed to lead
straight over a bluff of the precipice.
However, I gave the word to `head on'. The dog had started rounding 'em up
as soon as he saw the old mare walk towards the mountain side,
and the cattle were soon crushed up pretty close to the mare's heels.
Mind this, that they were so footsore and tender about the hoofs
that they could not have run away from us on foot if they had tried.
After `ringing' a bit, one of the quiet cows followed up the old mare
that was walking step by step forward, and all the rest followed her
like sheep. Cattle will do that. I've seen a stockrider,
when all the horses were dead beat, trying to get fat cattle
to take a river in flood, jump off and turn his horse loose into the stream.
If he went straight, and swam across, all the cattle would follow him
Well, when the old mare got to the bluff she turned short round to the right,
and then I saw that she had struck a narrow path down a gully
that got deeper and deeper every yard we went. There was just room
for a couple or three calves to go abreast, and by and by all of 'em
was walking down it like as if they was the beasts agoing into Noah's Ark.
It wound and wound and got deeper and deeper till the walls of rock
were ever so far above our heads. Our work was done then; the cattle
had to walk on like sheep in a race. We led our horses behind them,
and the dog walked along, saving his sore feet as well as he could,
and never tried to bite a beast once he got within the walls.
He looked quite satisfied, and kept chuckling almost to himself.
I really believe I've seen dogs laugh. Once upon a time I've read of
they'd have taken poor Crib for a familiar spirit, and hanged or burnt him.
Well, he knew a lot, and no mistake. I've seen plenty of Christians
as he could buy and sell, and no trouble to him. I'm dashed if the old mare,
too, didn't take a pleasure in working cattle on the cross.
She was the laziest old wretch bringing up the cows at home,
or running in the horses. Many a time Jim and I took a turn out of her
when father didn't know. But put her after a big mob of cattle
-- she must have known they couldn't be ours -- and she'd clatter down a range
like the wall of a house, and bite and kick the tail cattle if they didn't get
out of her way. They say dogs and horses are all honest, and it's only us
as teaches 'em to do wrong. My notion's they're a deal like ourselves,
and some of 'em fancies the square racket dull and safe, while some takes
a deal kindlier to the other. Anyhow, no cattle-duffer in the colonies
could have had a better pair of mates than old Sally and Crib,
if the devil himself had broken 'em in special for the trade.
It was child's play now, as far as the driving went. Jim and I walked along,
leading our horses and yarning away as we used to do when we were little chaps
bringing in the milkers.
`My word, Dick, dad's dropped into a fine road through
this thundering mountain, hasn't he? I wonder where it leads to?
How high the rock-walls are getting above us!' he says. `I know now.
I think I heard long ago from one of the Crosbies of a place in the ranges
down towards behind the Nulla Mountain, "Terrible Hollow".
He didn't know about it himself, but said an old stockman told him about it
when he was drunk. He said the Government men used to hide
the cattle and horses there in old times, and that it was never found out.'
`Why wasn't it found out, Jim? If the old fellow "split" about it
some one else would get to know.'
`Well, old Dan said that they killed one man that talked of telling;
the rest were too frightened after that, and they all swore a big oath
never to tell any one except he was on the cross.'
`That's how dad come to know, I suppose,' said Jim. `I wish he never had.
I don't care about those cross doings. I never did. I never seen any good
come out of them yet.'
`Well, we must go through with it now, I suppose. It won't do
to leave old dad in the lurch. You won't, will you, Jim?'
`You know very well I won't,' says Jim, very soberlike. `I don't like it
any the more for that. But I wish father had broke his leg,
and was lying up at home, with mother nursing him, before he found out
this hell-hole of a place.'
`Well, we're going to get out of it, and soon too. The gully seems
getting wider, and I can see a bit of open country through the trees.'
`Thank God for that!' says Jim. `My boots'll part company soon,
and the poor devils of calves won't have any hoofs either,
if there's much more of this.'
`They're drawing faster now. The leading cattle are beginning to run.
We're at the end of the drive.'
So it was. The deep, rocky gully gradually widened into
an open and pretty smooth flat; this, again, into a splendid little plain,
up to the knees in grass; a big natural park, closed round on every side
with sandstone rockwalls, as upright as if they were built,
and a couple of thousand feet above the place where we stood.
This scrub country was crossed by two good creeks; it was
several miles across, and a trifle more in length. Our hungry weaners
spread out and began to feed, without a notion of their mothers
they'd left behind; but they were not the only ones there.
We could see other mobs of cattle, some near, some farther off;
horses, too; and the well-worn track in several ways showed
that this was no new grazing ground.
Father came riding back quite comfortable and hearty-like for him.
`Welcome to Terrible Hollow, lads,' says he. `You're the youngest chaps
it has ever been shown to, and if I didn't know you were the right stuff,
you'd never have seen it, though you're my own flesh and blood.
Jump off, and let your horses go. They can't get away, even if they tried;
they don't look much like that.'
Our poor nags were something like the cattle, pretty hungry and stiff.
They put their heads down to the thick green grass, and went in at it
with a will.
`Bring your saddles along with you,' father said, `and come after me.
I'll show you a good camping place. You deserve a treat
after last night's work.'
We turned back towards the rocky wall, near to where we had come in,
and there, behind a bush and a big piece of sandstone that had fallen down,
was the entrance to a cave. The walls of it were quite clean
and white-looking, the floor was smooth, and the roof was pretty high,
well blackened with smoke, too, from the fires which had been lighted in it
for many a year gone by.
A kind of natural cellar had been made by scooping out the soft sandstone
behind a ledge. From this father took a bag of flour and corn-meal.
We very soon made some cakes in the pan, that tasted well, I can tell you.
Tea and sugar too, and quart pots, some bacon in a flour-bag;
and that rasher fried in the pan was the sweetest meat I ever ate
in all my born days.
Then father brought out a keg and poured some rum into a pint pot.
He took a pretty stiff pull, and then handed it to us. `A little of it
won't hurt you, boys,' he said, `after a night's work.'
I took some -- not much; we hadn't learned to drink then --
to keep down the fear of something hanging over us. A dreadful fear it is.
It makes a coward of every man who doesn't lead a square life,
let him be as game as he may.
Jim wouldn't touch it. `No,' he said, when I laughed at him,
`I promised mother last time I had more than was good for me at Dargo Races
that I wouldn't touch it again for two years; and I won't either.
I can stand what any other man can, and without the hard stuff, either.'
`Please yourself,' said father. `When you're ready we'll have a ride
through the stock.'
We finished our meal, and a first-rate one it was. A man never has
the same appetite for his meals anywhere else that he has in the bush,
specially if he has been up half the night. It's so fresh,
and the air makes him feel as if he'd ate nothing for a week.
Sitting on a log, or in the cave, as we were, I've had the best meal
I've ever tasted since I was born. Not like the close-feeling,
close-smelling, dirty-clean graveyard they call a gaol.
But it's no use beginning on that. We were young men, and free, too. Free!
By all the devils in hell, if there are devils -- and there must be
to tempt a man, or how could he be so great a fool, so blind a born idiot,
as to do anything in this world that would put his freedom in jeopardy?
And what for? For folly and nonsense. For a few pounds he could earn
with a month's honest work and be all the better man for it.
For a false woman's smile that he could buy, and ten like her,
if he only kept straight and saving. For a bit of sudden pride
or vanity or passion. A short bit of what looks like pleasure,
against months and years of weariness, and cold and heat, and dull half-death,
with maybe a dog's death at the end!
I could cry like a child when I think of it now. I have cried
many's the time and often since I have been shut up here,
and dashed my head against the stones till I pretty nigh knocked
all sense and feeling out of it, not so much in repentance, though I don't say
I feel sorry, but to think what a fool, fool, fool I'd been. Yes, fool,
three times over -- a hundred times -- to put my liberty and life
against such a miserable stake -- a stake the devil that deals the pack
is so safe to win at the end.
I may as well go on. But I can't help breaking out sometimes
when I hear the birds calling to one another as they fly over the yard,
and know it's fresh air and sun and green grass outside
that I never shall see again. Never see the river rippling under
the big drooping trees, or the cattle coming down in the twilight
to drink after the long hot day. Never, never more! And whose fault is it?
Who have I to blame? Perhaps father helped a bit; but I knew better,
and no one is half as much to blame as myself.
Where were we? Oh, at the cave-mouth, coming out with our bridles
in our hands to catch our horses. We soon did that, and then we rode away
to the other cattle. They were a queer lot, in fine condition,
but all sorts of ages and breeds, with every kind of brand and ear-mark.
Lots of the brands we didn't know, and had never heard of.
Some had no brands at all -- full-grown beasts, too;
that was a thing we had very seldom seen. Some of the best cattle
and some of the finest horses -- and there were some real plums
among the horses -- had a strange brand, JJ.
`Who does the JJ brand belong to?' I said to father.
`They're the pick of the lot, whose ever they are.'
Father looked black for a bit, and then he growled out, `Don't you ask
too many questions, lad. There's only four living men besides yourselves
knows about this place; so take care and don't act foolishly,
or you'll lose a plant that may save your life, as well as keep you in cash
for many a year to come. That brand belongs to Starlight,
and he was the only man left alive of the men that first found it and used it
to put away stock in. He wanted help, and told me five years ago.
He took in a half-caste chap, too, against my will. He helped him
with that last lot of cattle that you noticed.'
`But where did those horses come from?' Jim said. `I never hardly saw
such a lot before. All got the JJ brand on, too, and nothing else;
all about three year old.'
`They were brought here as foals,' says father, `following their mothers.
Some of them was foaled here; and, of course, as they've only the one brand on
they never can be claimed or sworn to. They're from some of Mr. Maxwell's
best thoroughbred mares, and their sire was Earl of Atheling, imported.
He was here for a year.'
`Well, they might look the real thing,' said Jim, his eyes brightening
as he gazed at them. `I'd like to have that dark bay colt with the star.
My word, what a forehand he's got; and what quarters, too. If he can't gallop
I'll never say I know a horse from a poley cow.'
`You shall have him, or as good, never fear, if you stick to your work,'
says father. `You mustn't cross Starlight, for he's a born devil
when he's taken the wrong way, though he talks so soft. The half-caste
is an out-and-out chap with cattle, and the horse doesn't stand on four legs
that he can't ride -- and make follow him, for the matter of that.
But he's worth watching. I don't believe in him myself.
And now ye have the lot.'
`And a d----d fine lot they are,' I said, for I was vexed with Jim
for taking so easy to the bait father held out to him about the horse.
`A very smart crowd to be on the roads inside of five years,
and drag us in with 'em.'
`How do you make that out?' says father. `Are you going to turn dog,
now you know the way in? Isn't it as easy to carry on for a few years more
as it was twenty years ago?'
`Not by a long chalk,' I said, for my blood was up, and I felt as if
I could talk back to father and give him as good as he sent,
and all for Jim's sake. Poor Jim! He'd always go to the mischief
for the sake of a good horse, and many another `Currency' chap
has gone the same way. It's a pity for some of 'em that a blood horse
was ever foaled.
`You think you can't be tracked,' says I, `but you must bear in mind
you haven't got to do with the old-fashioned mounted police
as was potterin' about when this "bot" was first hit on.
There's chaps in the police getting now, natives or all the same,
as can ride and track every bit as well as the half-caste
you're talking about. Some day they'll drop on the track of a mob
coming in or getting out, and then the game will be all up.'
`You can cut it if you like now,' said father, looking at me curious like.
`Don't say I dragged you in. You and your brother can go home,
and no one will ever know where you were; no more than if you'd gone
to the moon.'
Jim looked at the brown colt that just came trotting up as dad
finished speaking -- trotting up with his head high and his tail stuck out
like a circus horse. If he'd been the devil in a horsehide
he couldn't have chosen a better moment. Then his eyes began to glitter.
We all three looked at each other. No one spoke. The colt stopped,
turned, and galloped back to his mates like a red flyer with the dogs
close behind him.
It was not long. We all began to speak at once. But in that time
the die was cast, the stakes were down, and in the pool
were three men's lives.
`I don't care whether we go back or not,' says Jim; `I'll do either way
that Dick likes. But that colt I must have.'
`I never intended to go back,' I said. `But we're three d----d fools
all the same -- father and sons. It'll be the dearest horse you ever bought,
Jim, old man, and so I tell you.'
`Well, I suppose it's settled now,' says father; `so let's have no more chat.
We're like a pack of old women, blessed if we ain't.'
After that we got on more sociably. Father took us all over the place,
and a splendid paddock it was -- walled all round but where we had come in,
and a narrow gash in the far side that not one man in a thousand
could ever hit on, except he was put up to it; a wild country for miles
when you did get out -- all scrub and rock, that few people ever had call
to ride over. There was splendid grass everywhere, water, and shelter.
It was warmer, too, than the country above, as you could see
by the coats of the cattle and horses.
`If it had only been honestly come by,' Jim said, `what a jolly place
it would have been!'
Towards the north end of the paddock was a narrow gully
with great sandstone walls all round, and where it narrowed
the first discoverers had built a stockyard, partly with dry stone walls
and partly with logs and rails.
There was no trouble in getting the cattle or horses into this,
and there were all kinds of narrow yards and pens for branding the stock
if they were clearskins, and altering or `faking' the brands
if they were plain. This led into another yard, which opened into
the narrowest part of the gully. Once in this, like the one they came down,
and the cattle or horses had no chance but to walk slowly up,
one behind the other, till they got on the tableland above.
Here, of course, every kind of work that can be done to help disguise cattle
was done. Ear-marks were cut out and altered in shape,
or else the whole ear was cropped off; every letter in the alphabet
was altered by means of straight bars or half-circles, figures, crosses,
everything you could think of.
`Mr. Starlight is an edicated man,' said father. `This is all his notion;
and many a man has looked at his own beast, with the ears altered
and the brand faked, and never dreamed he ever owned it.
He's a great card is Starlight. It's a pity he ever took
to this kind of life.'
Father said this with a kind of real sorrow that made me look at him
to see if the grog had got into his head; just as if his life, mine, and Jim's
didn't matter a straw compared to this man's, whoever he was, that had had
so many better chances than we had and had chucked 'em all away.
But it's a strange thing that I don't think there's any place in the world
where men feel a more real out-and-out respect for a gentleman
than in Australia. Everybody's supposed to be free and equal now;
of course, they couldn't be in the convict days. But somehow a man
that's born and bred a gentleman will always be different from other men
to the end of the world. What's the most surprising part of it
is that men like father, who have hated the breed and suffered by them, too,
can't help having a curious liking and admiration for them.
They'll follow them like dogs, fight for them, shed their blood,
and die for them; must be some sort of a natural feeling.
Whatever it is, it's there safe enough, and nothing can knock it out of
nine-tenths of all the men and women you meet. I began to be uneasy
to see this wonderful mate of father's, who was so many things at once --
a cattle-stealer, a bush-ranger, and a gentleman.
After we'd fairly settled to stay, father began to be more pleasant
than he'd ever been before. We were pretty likely, he said,
to have a visit from Starlight and the half-caste in a day or two,
if we'd like to wait. He was to meet him at the Hollow
on purpose to help him out with the mob of fat bullocks we had looked at.
Father, it appears, was coming here by himself when he met
this outlying lot of Mr. Hunter's cattle, and thought he and old Crib
could bring them in by themselves. And a mighty good haul it was.
Father said we should share the weaners between the three of us;
that meant 50 Pounds a piece at least. The devil always helps beginners.
We put through a couple of days pleasantly enough, after our
hardish bit of work. Jim found some fish-hooks and a line,
and we caught plenty of mullet and eels in the deep, clear waterholes.
We found a couple of double-barrelled guns, and shot ducks enough
to last us a week. No wonder the old frequenters of the Hollow
used to live here for a month at a time, having great times of it
as long as their grog lasted; and sometimes having the tribe of blacks
that inhabited the district to make merry and carouse with them,
like the buccaneers of the Spanish Main that I've read about, till the plunder
was all gone. There were scrawls on the wall of the first cave we had been in
that showed all the visitors had not been rude, untaught people;
and Jim picked up part of a woman's dress splashed with blood,
and in one place, among some smouldering packages and boxes,
a long lock of woman's hair, fair, bright-brown, that looked
as if the name of Terrible Hollow might not have been given
to this lonely, wonderful glen for nothing.
We spent nearly a week in this way, and were beginning to get
rather sick of the life, when father, who used always to be looking
at a bare patch in the scrub above us, said --
`They're coming at last.'
`Who are coming -- friends?'
`Why, friends, of course. That's Starlight's signal. See that smoke?
The half-caste always sends that up -- like the blacks in his mother's tribe,
`Any cattle or horses with them?' said Jim.
`No, or they'd send up two smokes. They'll be here about dinner-time,
so we must get ready for them.'
We had plenty of time to get ourselves or anything else ready.
In about four hours we began to look at them through a strong spyglass
which father brought out. By and by we got sight of two men coming along
on horseback on the top of the range the other side of the far wall.
They wasn't particularly easy to see, and every now and then
we'd lose sight of 'em as they got into thick timber or behind rocks.
Father got the spyglass on to 'em at last, pretty clear,
and nearly threw it down with an oath.
`By ----!' he says, `I believe Starlight's hurt somehow.
He's so infernal rash. I can see the half-caste holding him on.
If the police are on his tracks they'll spring the plant here,
and the whole thing'll be blown.'
We saw them come to the top of the wall, as it were, then they stopped
for a long while, then all of a sudden they seemed to disappear.
`Let's go over to the other side,' says father; `they're coming
down the gully now. It's a terrible steep, rough track,
worse than the other. If Starlight's hurt bad he'll never ride down.
But he has the pluck of the devil, sure enough.'
We rode over to the other side, where there was a kind of gully
that came in, something like the one we came in by, but rougher,
and full of gibbers (boulders). There was a path, but it looked as if cattle
could never be driven or forced up it. We found afterwards that they had
an old pack bullock that they'd trained to walk up this, and down, too,
when they wanted him, and the other cattle followed in his track,
as cattle will.
Father showed us a sort of cave by the side of the track,
where one man, with a couple of guns and a pistol or two,
could have shot down a small regiment as they came down one at a time.
We stayed in there by the track, and after about half-an-hour
we heard the two horses coming down slowly, step by step,
kicking the stones down before them. Then we could hear a man groaning,
as if he couldn't bear the pain, and partly as if he was trying to smother it.
Then another man's voice, very soft and soothing like,
trying to comfort another.
`My head's a-fire, and these cursed ribs are grinding against one another
every step of this infernal ladder. Is it far now?' How he groaned then!
`Just got the bottom; hold on a bit longer and you'll be all right.'
Just then the leading horse came out into the open before the cave.
We had a good look at him and his rider. I never forgot them.
It was a bad day I ever saw either, and many a man had cause to say the same.
The horse held up his head and snorted as he came abreast of us,
and we showed out. He was one of the grandest animals I'd ever seen,
and I afterwards found he was better than he looked. He came stepping
down that beastly rocky goat-track, he, a clean thoroughbred that ought
never to have trod upon anything rougher than a rolled training track,
or the sound bush turf. And here he was with a heavy weight on his back
-- a half-dead, fainting man, that couldn't hold the reins --
and him walking down as steady as an old mountain bull or a wallaroo
on the side of a creek bank.
I hadn't much time to look him over. I was too much taken up with the rider,
who was lying forward on his chest across a coat rolled round and strapped
in front of the saddle, and his arms round the horse's neck.
He was as pale as a ghost. His eyes -- great dark ones they were, too --
were staring out of his head. I thought he was dead, and called out
to father and Jim that he was.
They ran up, and we lifted him off after undoing some straps and a rope.
He was tied on (that was what the half-caste was waiting for
at the top of the gully). When we laid him down his head fell back,
and he looked as much like a corpse as if he had been dead a day.
Then we saw he had been wounded. There was blood on his shirt,
and the upper part of his arm was bandaged.
`It's too late, father,' said I; `he's a dead man. What pluck
he must have had to ride down there!'
`He's worth two dead 'uns yet,' said father, who had his hand on his pulse.