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Will you come with me into the chamber of memory
and lift your eyes to the painted windows where the figures
and scenes of childhood appear? Perhaps by looking with
kindly eyes at those from out my past, long wished-for
visions of your own youth will appear to heal the wounds
from which you suffer, and to quiet your stormy and
restless heart.











YOUNG people believe very little
that they hear about the compen-
sations of growing old, and of living
over again in memory the events of the
past. Yet there really are these com-
pensations and pleasures, and although
they are not so vivid and breathless as
the pleasures of youth, they have some-
thing delicate and fine about them that
must be experienced to be appreciated.

Few of us would exchange our mem-
ories for those of others. They have
become a part of our personality, and
we could not part with them without
losing something of ourselves. Neither
would we part with our own particular
childhood, which, however difficult it
may have been at times, seems to each
of us more significant than the child-
hood of any one else. I can run over
in my mind certain incidents of my
childhood as if they were chapters in a
much-loved book, and when I am wake-
ful at night, or bored by a long journey,
or waiting for some one in the railway-
station, I take them out and go over
them again.

Nor is my book of memories without
its illustrations. I can see little vil-
lages, and a great city, and forests and
planted fields, and familiar faces; and
all have this advantage: they are not
fixed and without motion, like the pic-
tures in the ordinary book. People
are walking up the streets of the vil-
lage, the trees are tossing, the tall
wheat and corn in the fields salute me.
I can smell the odour of the gathered
hay, and the faces in my dream-book
smile at me.

Of all of these memories I like best
the one in the pine forest.

I was at that age when children think
of their parents as being all-powerful.
I could hardly have imagined any cir-
cumstances, however adverse, that my
father could not have met with his
strength and wisdom and skill. All chil-
dren have such a period of hero-wor-
ship, I suppose, when their father
stands out from the rest of the world
as the best and most powerful man
living. So, feeling as I did, I was made
happier than I can say when my father
decided, because I was looking pale and
had a poor appetite, to take me out of
school for a while, and carry me with
him on a driving trip. We lived in
Michigan, where there were, in the days
of which I am writing, not many rail-
roads; and when my father, who was
attorney for a number of wholesale mer-
cantile firms in Detroit, used to go
about the country collecting money due,
adjusting claims, and so on, he had no
choice but to drive.

And over what roads! Now it was
a strip of corduroy, now a piece of well-
graded elevation with clay subsoil and
gravel surface, now a neglected stretch
full of dangerous holes; and worst of
all, running through the great forests,
long pieces of road from which the
stumps had been only partly extracted,
and where the sunlight barely pene-
trated. Here the soaked earth became
little less than a quagmire.

But father was too well used to hard
journeys to fear them, and I felt that,
in going with him, I was safe from all
possible harm. The journey had all the
allurement of an adventure, for we
would not know from day to day where
we should eat our meals or sleep at
night. So, to provide against trouble,
we carried father's old red-and-blue-
checked army blankets, a bag of feed
for Sheridan, the horse, plenty of bread,
bacon, jam, coffee and prepared cream;
and we hung pails of pure water and
buttermilk from the rear of our buggy.

We had been out two weeks without
failing once to eat at a proper table or
to sleep in a comfortable bed. Some-
times we put up at the stark-looking ho-
tels that loomed, raw and uninviting,
in the larger towns; sometimes we had
the pleasure of being welcomed at a
little inn, where the host showed us a
personal hospitality; but oftener we
were forced to make ourselves "paying
guests" at some house. We cared noth-
ing whether we slept in the spare rooms
of a fine frame "residence" or crept
into bed beneath the eaves of the attic
in a log cabin. I had begun to feel that
our journey would be almost too tame
and comfortable, when one night some-
thing really happened.

Father lost his bearings. He was
hoping to reach the town of Gratiot by
nightfall, and he attempted to make a
short cut. To do this he turned into
a road that wound through a magnifi-
cent forest, at first of oak and butter-
nut, ironwood and beech, then of
densely growing pines. When we en-
tered the wood it was twilight, but no
sooner were we well within the shadow
of these sombre trees than we were
plunged in darkness, and within half an
hour this darkness deepened, so that
we could see nothing -- not even the

"The sun doesn't get in here the
year round," said father, trying his
best to guide the horse through the
mire. So deep was the mud that it
seemed as if it literally sucked at the
legs of the horse and the wheels of the
buggy, and I began to wonder if we
should really be swallowed, and to fear
that we had met with a difficulty that
even my father could not overcome. I
can hardly make plain what a tragic
thought that was! The horse began to
give out sighs and groans, and in the
intervals of his struggles to get on, I
could feel him trembling. There was
a note of anxiety in father's voice as
he called out, with all the authority and
cheer he could command, to poor Sheri-
dan. The wind was rising, and the long
sobs of the pines made cold shivers run
up my spine. My teeth chattered,
partly from cold, but more from fright.

"What are we going to do?" I asked,
my voice quivering with tears.

"Well, we aren't going to cry, what-
ever else we do!" answered father,
rather sharply. He snatched the
lighted lantern from its place on the
dashboard and leaped out into the road.
I could hear him floundering round in
that terrible mire and soothing the
horse. The next thing I realised was
that the horse was unhitched, that fa-
ther had -- for the first time during our
journey -- laid the lash across Sheri-
dan's back, and that, with a leap of in-
dignation, the horse had reached the
firm ground of the roadside. Father
called out to him to stand still, and a
moment later I found myself being
swung from the buggy into father's
arms. He staggered along, plunging
and almost falling, and presently I, too,
stood beneath the giant pines.

"One journey more," said father,
"for our supper, and then we'll bivouac
right here."

Now that I was away from the buggy
that was so familiar to me, and that
seemed like a little movable piece of
home, I felt, as I had not felt before,
the vastness of the solitude. Above me
in the rising wind tossed the tops of the
singing trees; about me stretched the
soft blackness; and beneath the dense,
interlaced branches it was almost as
calm and still as in a room. I could see
that the clouds were breaking and the
stars beginning to come out, and that
comforted me a little.

Father was keeping up a stream of
cheerful talk.

"Now, sir," he was saying to Sheri-
dan, "stand still while I get this har-
ness off you. I'll tie you and blanket
you, and you can lie or stand as you
please. Here's your nose-bag, with
some good supper in it, and if you don't
have drink, it's not my fault. Anyway,
it isn't so long since you got a good nip
at the creek."

I was watching by the faint light of
the lantern, and noticing how unnat-
ural father and Sheridan looked. They
seemed to be blocked out in a rude kind
of way, like some wooden toys I had at

"Here we are," said father, "like
Robinson Crusoes. It was hard luck
for Robinson, not having his little girl
along. He'd have had her to pick up
sticks and twigs to make a fire, and that
would have been a great help to him."

Father began breaking fallen
branches over his knee, and I groped
round and filled my arms again and
again with little fagots. So after a few
minutes we had a fine fire crackling in
a place where it could not catch the
branches of the trees. Father had
scraped the needles of the pines to-
gether in such a way that a bare rim of
earth was left all around the fire, so that
it could not spread along the ground;
and presently the coffee-pot was over
the fire and bacon was sizzling in the
frying-pan. The good, hearty odours
came out to mingle with the delicious
scent of the pines, and I, setting out
our dishes, began to feel a happiness
different from anything I had ever

Pioneers and wanderers and soldiers
have joys of their own -- joys of which
I had heard often enough, for there had
been more stories told than read in our
house. But now for the first time I
knew what my grandmother and my
uncles had meant when they told me
about the way they had come into the
wilderness, and about the great happi-
ness and freedom of those first days. I,
too, felt this freedom, and it seemed to
me as if I never again wanted walls to
close in on me. All my fear was gone,
and I felt wild and glad. I could not
believe that I was only a little girl. I
felt taller even than my father.

Father's mood was like mine in a
way. He had memories to add to his
emotion, but then, on the other hand,
he lacked the sense of discovery I had,
for he had known often such feelings
as were coming to me for the first time.
When he was a young man he had been
a colporteur for the American Bible So-
ciety among the Lake Superior Indians,
and in that way had earned part of the
money for his course at the University
of Michigan; afterward he had gone
with other gold-seekers to Pike's Peak,
and had crossed the plains with oxen,
in the company of many other adven-
turers; then, when President Lincoln
called for troops, he had returned to
enlist with the Michigan men, and had
served more than three years with Mc-
Clellan and Grant.

So, naturally, there was nothing he
did not know about making himself
comfortable in the open. He knew all
the sorrow and all the joy of the home-
less man, and now, as he cooked, he be-
gan to sing the old songs -- "Marching
Through Georgia," and "Bury Me Not
on the Lone Prairie," and "In the
Prison Cell I Sit." He had been in a
Southern prison after the Battle of the
Wilderness, and so he knew how to sing
that song with particular feeling.

I had heard war stories all my life,
though usually father told such tales in
a half-joking way, as if to make light of
everything he had gone through. But
now, as we ate there under the tossing
pines, and the wild chorus in the tree-
tops swelled like a rising sea, the spirit
of the old days came over him. He was
a good "stump speaker," and he knew
how to make a story come to life, and
never did all his simple natural gifts
show themselves better than on this
night, when he dwelt on his old cam-

For the first time I was to look into
the heart of a kindly natured man,
forced by terrible necessity to go
through the dread experience of war.
I gained an idea of the unspeakable
homesickness of the man who leaves
his family to an unimagined fate, and
sacrifices years in the service of his
country. I saw that the mere foregoing
of roof and bed is an indescribable dis-
tress; I learned something of what the
palpitant anxiety before a battle must
be, and the quaking fear at the first
rattle of bullets, and the half-mad rush
of determination with which men force
valour into their faltering hearts; I
was made to know something of the
blight of war -- the horror of the battle-
field, the waste of bounty, the ruin of

Then, rising above this, came stories
of devotion, of brotherhood, of service
on the long, desolate marches, of cour-
age to the death of those who fought
for a cause. I began to see wherein
lay the highest joy of the soldier, and
of how little account he held himself,
if the principle for which he fought
could be preserved. I heard for the
first time the wonderful words of Lin-
coln at Gettysburg, and learned to re-
peat a part of them.

I was only eight, it is true, but emo-
tion has no age, and I understood then
as well as I ever could, what heroism
and devotion and self-forgetfulness
mean. I understood, too, the meaning
of the words "our country," and my
heart warmed to it, as in the older times
the hearts of boys and girls warmed
to the name of their king. The new
knowledge was so beautiful that I
thought then, and I think now, that
nothing could have served as so fit an
accompaniment to it as the shouting of
those pines. They sang like heroes,
and in their swaying gave me fleeting
glimpses of the stars, unbelievably
brilliant in the dusky purple sky, and
half-obscured now and then by drifting

By and by we lay down, not far apart,
each rolled in an army blanket, frayed
with service. Our feet were to the fire
-- for it was so that soldiers lay, my fa-
ther said -- and our heads rested on
mounds of pine-needles.

Sometimes in the night I felt my fa-
ther's hand resting lightly on my shoul-
ders to see that I was covered, but in
my dreams he ceased to be my father
and became my comrade, and I was a
drummer boy, -- I had seen the play,
"The Drummer Boy of the Rappahan-
nock," -- marching forward, with set
teeth, in the face of battle.

Whatever could redeem war and
make it glorious seemed to flood my
soul. All that was highest, all that was
noble in that dreadful conflict came to
me in my sleep -- to me, the child who
had been born when my father was at
"the front." I had a strange baptism
of the spirit. I discovered sorrow and
courage, singing trees and stars. I was
never again to think that the fireside
and fireside thoughts made up the whole
of life.

My father lies with other soldiers by
the Pacific; the forest sings no more;
the old army blankets have disap-
peared; the memories of the terrible
war are fading, -- happily fading, -- but
they all live again, sometimes, in my
memory, and I am once more a child,
with thoughts as proud and fierce and
beautiful as Valkyries.



AMONG the pictures that I see
when I look back into the past, is
the one where I, a sullen, egotistic per-
son nine years old, stood quite alone in
the world. To he sure, there were fa-
ther and mother in the house, and there
were the other children, and not one
among them knew I was alone. The
world certainly would not have re-
garded me as friendless or orphaned.
There was nothing in my mere appear-
ance, as I started away to school in my
clean ginghams, with my well-brushed
hair, and embroidered school-bag, to
lead any one to suppose that I was a
castaway. Yet I was -- I had discovered
this fact, hidden though it might be
from others.

I was no longer loved. Father and
mother loved the other children; but not
me. I might come home at night, fairly
bursting with important news about
what had happened in class or among
my friends, and try to relate my little
histories. But did mother listen? Not
at all. She would nod like a mandarin
while I talked, or go on turning the
leaves of her book, or writing her letter.
What I said was of no importance to

Father was even less interested. He
frankly told me to keep still, and went
on with the accounts in which he was
so absurdly interested, or examined
"papers" -- stupid-looking things done
on legal cap, which he brought home
with him from the office. No one kissed
me when I started away in the morn-
ing; no one kissed me when I came home
at night. I went to bed unkissed. I
felt myself to be a lonely and misunder-
stood child -- perhaps even an adopted

Why, I knew a little girl who, when
she went up to her room at night, found
the bedclothes turned back, and the
shade drawn, and a screen placed so as
to keep off drafts. And her mother
brushed her hair twenty minutes by the
clock each night, to make it glossy; and
then she sat by her bed and sang softly
till the girl fell asleep.

I not only had to open my own bed,
but the beds for the other children, and
although I sometimes felt my mother's
hand tucking in the bedclothes round
me, she never stooped and kissed me on
the brow and said, "Bless you, my
child." No one, in all my experience,
had said, "Bless you, my child." When
the girl I have spoken of came into the
room, her mother reached out her arms
and said, before everybody, "Here
comes my dear little girl." When I
came into a room, I was usually told to
do something for somebody. It was
"Please see if the fire needs more
wood," or "Let the cat in, please," or
"I'd like you to weed the pansy bed be-
fore supper-time."

In these circumstances, life hardly
seemed worth living. I decided that I
had made a mistake in choosing my
family. It did not appreciate me, and
it failed to make my young life glad.
I knew my young life ought to be glad.
And it was not. It was drab, as drab
as Toot's old rain-coat.

Toot was "our coloured boy." That
is the way we described him. Father
had brought him home from the war,
and had sent him to school, and then
apprenticed him to a miller. Toot did
"chores" for his board and clothes,
but was soon to be his own man, and to
be paid money by the miller, and to
marry Tulula Darthula Jones, a nice
coloured girl who lived with the Cut-

The time had been when Toot had
been my self-appointed slave. Almost
my first recollections were of his carry-
ing me out to see the train pass, and
saying, "Toot, toot!" in imitation of
the locomotive; so, although he had
rather a splendid name, I called him
"Toot," and the whole town followed
my example. Yes, the time had been
when Toot saw me safe to school, and
slipped little red apples into my pocket,
and took me out while he milked the
cow, and told me stories and sang me
plantation songs. Now, when he passed,
he only nodded. When I spoke to him
about his not giving me any more ap-
ples, he said:

"Ah reckon they're your pa's ap-
ples, missy. Why, fo' goodness' sake,
don' yo' he'p yo'se'f?"

But I did not want to help myself.
I wanted to be helped -- not because I
was lazy, but because I wanted to be
adored. I was really a sort of fairy
princess, -- misplaced, of course, in a
stupid republic, -- and I wanted life con-
ducted on a fairy-princess basis. It was
a game I wished to play, but it was one
I could not play alone, and not a soul
could I find who seemed inclined to play
it with me.

Well, things went from bad to worse.
I decided that if mother no longer loved
me, I would no longer tell her things.
So I did not. I got a hundred in spell-
ing for twelve days running, and did
not tell her! I broke Edna Grantham's
mother's water-pitcher, and kept the
fact a secret. The secret was, indeed,
as sharp-edged as the pieces of the
broken pitcher had been; I cried under
the bedclothes, thinking how sorry Mrs.
Grantham had been, and that mother
really ought to know. Only what was
the use? I no longer looked to her to
help me out of my troubles.

I had no need now to have father and
mother tell me to hurry up and finish
my chatter, for I kept all that hap-
pened to myself. I had a new "intimate
friend," and did not so much as men-
tion her. I wrote a poem and showed
it to my teacher, but not to my unin-
terested parents. And when I climbed
the stairs at night to my room, I swelled
with loneliness and anguish and resent-
ment, and the hot tears came to my eyes
as I heard father and mother laughing
and talking together and paying no at-
tention to my misery. I could hear
Toot, who used to be making all sorts
of little presents for me, whistling as
he brought in the wood and water, and
then "cleaned up" to go to see his
Tulula, with never a thought of me.
And I said to myself that the best thing
I could do was to grow up and get
away from a place where I was no
longer wanted.

No one noticed my sufferings further
than sometimes to say impatiently,
"What makes you act so strange,
child?" And to that, of course, I an-
swered nothing, for what I had to say
would not, I felt, be understood.

One morning in June I left home with
my resentment burning fiercely within
me. I had not cared for the things we
had for breakfast, for I was half-ill
with fretting and with the closeness of
the day, but my lack of appetite had
been passed by with the remark that
any one was likely not to have an ap-
petite on such a close day. But I was
so languid, and so averse to taking up
the usual round of things, that I begged
mother to let me stay at home. She
shook her head decidedly.

"You've been out of school too many
days already this term," she said.
"Run along now, or you'll he late!"

"Please --" I began, for my head
really was whirling, although, quite as
much, perhaps, from my perversity as
from any other cause. Mother turned
on me one of her "lastword" glances.

"Go to school without another word,"
she said, quietly.

I knew that quiet tone, and I went.
And now I was sure that all was over
between my parents and myself. I be-
gan to wonder if I need really wait till
I was grown up before leaving home.
So miserably absorbed was I in think-
ing of this, and in pitying myself with
a consuming pity, that everything at
school seemed to pass like the shadow
of a dream. I blundered in whatever
I tried to do, was sharply scolded for
not hearing the teacher until she had
spoken my name three times, and was
holding on to myself desperately in my
effort to keep back a flood of tears,
when I became aware that something
was happening.

There suddenly was a perfect silence
in the room -- the sort of silence that
makes the heart beat too fast. The
mist swimming before me did not, I per-
ceived, come from my own eyes, but
from the changing colour of the air, the
usual transparency of which was being
tinged with yellow. The sultriness of
the day was deepening, and seemed to
carry a threat with it.

"Something is going to happen,"
thought I, and over the whole room
spread the same conviction. Electric
currents seemed to snap from one con-
sciousness to another. We dropped our
books, and turned our eyes toward the
western windows, to look upon a
changed world. It was as if we peered
through yellow glass. In the sky soft-
looking, tawny clouds came tumbling
along like playful cats -- or tigers. A
moment later we saw that they were
not playful, but angry; they stretched
out claws, and snarled as they did so.
One claw reached the tall chimneys of
the schoolhouse, another tapped at the
cupola, one was thrust through the wall
near where I sat.

Then it grew black, and there was a
bellowing all about us, so that the com-
mands of the teacher and the screams
of the children barely could be heard.
I knew little or nothing. My shoulder
was stinging, something had hit me on
the side of the head, my eyes were full
of dust and mortar, and my feet were
carrying me with the others along the
corridor, down the two flights of wide
stairs. I do not think we pushed each
other or were reckless. My recollec-
tion is only of many shadowy figures
flying on with sure feet out of the build-
ing that seemed to be falling in upon us.

Presently we were out on the land-
ing before the door, with one more
flight of steps before us, that reached
to the street. Something so strong that
it might not be denied gathered me up
in invisible arms, whirled me round
once or twice and dropped me, not un-
gently, in the middle of the road. And
then, as I struggled to my knees and,
wiping the dust from my eyes, looked
up, I saw dozens of others being lifted
in the same way, and blown off into the
yard or the street. The larger ones
were trying to hold on to the smaller,
and the teachers were endeavouring to
keep the children from going out of the
building, but their efforts were of no
avail. The children came on, and were
blown about like leaves.

Then I saw what looked like a high
yellow wall advancing upon me -- a roar-
ing and fearsome mass of driven dust,
sticks, debris. It came over me that my
own home might be there, in strips and
fragments, to beat me down and kill
me; and with the thought came a swift
little vision out of my geography of the
Arabs in a sand-storm on the desert. I
gathered up my fluttering dress skirt,
held it tight about my head, and lay flat
upon the ground.

It seemed as if a long time passed,
a time in which I knew very little ex-
cept that I was fighting for my breath
as I never had fought for anything.
There were more hurts and bruises
now, but they did not matter. Just to
draw my own breath in my own way
seemed to be the only thing in the
world that was of any account. And
then there was a shaft of flame, an ear-
splitting roar, and the rain was upon
us in sheets, in streams, in visible riv-

I imagined that it would last a long
time, and wondered in a daze how I
could get home in a rain like that --
for I should have to face it. I could
see that in a few seconds the gutters
had begun to race, the road where I
lay was a stream, and then -- then the
rain ceased. Never was anything so
astonishing. The sky came out blue,
tattered rags of cloud raced across it,
and I had time to conclude that, whip-
ped and almost breathless though I
was, I was still alive.

And then I saw a curious sight. Down
the street in every direction came rush-
ing hatless men and women. Here and
there a wild-eyed horse was being
lashed along. All the town was coming.
They were in their work clothes, in
their slippers, in their wrappers -- they
were in anything and everything. Some
of them sobbed as they ran, some called
aloud names that I knew. They were
fathers and mothers looking for their

And who was that -- that woman with
a white face, with hair falling about her
shoulders, where it had fallen as she
ran -- that woman whose breath came
between her teeth strangely and who
called my name over and over, bleat-
ingly, as a mother sheep calls its lamb?
At first I did not recognise her, and
then, at last, I knew. And that creature
with the rolling eyes and the curious
ash-coloured face who, mumbling some-
thing over and over in his throat, came
for me, and snatched me up and wiped
my face free of mud, and felt of me
here and there with trembling hands --
who was he?

And breaking out of the crowd of
men who had come running from the
street of stores and offices, was an-
other strange being, with a sort of bat-
tle light in his eyes, who, seeing me,
gathered me to him and bore me away
toward home. Looking back, I could
see the woman I knew following, lean-
ing on the arm of the boy with the roll-
ing eyes, whose eyes had ceased to roll,
and who was quite recognisable now as

A happiness that was almost as ter-
rible as sorrow welled up in my heart.
I did not weep, or laugh, or talk. All
I had experienced had carried me be-
yond mere excitement into exultation.
I exulted in life, in love. My conceit
and sulkiness died in that storm, as did
many another thing. I was alive. I
was loved. I said it over and over to
myself silently, in "my heart's deep
core," while mother washed me with
trembling hands in my own dear room,
bound up my hurts, braided my hair,
and put me, in a fresh night-dress, into
my bed. I do not recall that we talked
to each other, but in every caress of
her hands as she worked I felt the un-
spoken assurances of a love such as I
had not dreamed of.

Father had gone running back to the
school to see if he could be of any as-
sistance to his neighbours, and had
taken Toot with him, but they were
back presently to say that beyond a few
sharp injuries and broken bones, no
harm had been done to the children. It
was considered miraculous that no one
had been killed or seriously injured,
and I noticed that father's voice trem-
bled as he told of it, and that mother
could not answer, and that Toot sobbed
like a big silly boy.

Then as we talked together, behold,
a second storm was upon us -- a sharp
black blast of wind and rain, not ter-
rifying, like the other, but with an
"I've-come-to-spend-the-day" sort of

But no one seemed to mind very
much. I was carried down to the sit-
ting-room. Toot busied himself com-
ing and going on this errand and on
that, fastening the doors, closing the
windows, running out to see to the ani-
mals, and coming back again. Father
and mother set the table. They kept
close together; and now and then they
looked over at me, without saying any-
thing, but with shining eyes.

The storm died down to a quiet rain.
From the roof of the porch the drops
fell in silver strings, like beads. Then
the sun came out and turned them into
shining crystal. The birds began to
sing again, and when we threw open the
windows delicious odours of fresh earth
and flowering shrub greeted us. Mother
began to sing as she worked. And I
sank softly to sleep, thrilled with the
marvels of the world -- not of the tem-
pest, but of the peace.

The sweet familiarity of the faces
and the walls and the furniture and the
garden was like a blessing. There was
not a chair there that I would have ex-
changed for any other chair -- not a tree
that I would have parted with -- not a
custom of that simple, busy place that
I would have changed. I knew now all
my stupidity -- and my good fortune.



WHEN I look back upon the village
where I lived as a child, I can-
not remember that there were any divi-
sions in our society. This group went
to the Congregational church, and that
to the Presbyterian, but each family
felt itself to be as good as any other,
and even if, ordinarily, some of them
withdrew themselves in mild exclusive-
ness, on all occasions of public celebra-
tion, or when in trouble, we stood to-
gether in the pleasantest and most un-
affected democracy.

There were only the "Bad Madi-
gans" outside the pale.

The facts about the Bad Madigans
were, no doubt, serious enough, but the
fiction was even more appalling. As to
facts, the father drank, the mother fol-
lowed suit, the appearance of the house
--a ramshackle old place beyond the
fair-grounds -- was a scandal; the chil-
dren could not be got to go to school
for any length of time, and, when they
were there, each class in which they
were put felt itself to be in disgrace,
and the dislike focused upon the in-
truders, sent them, sullen and hateful,
back to their lair. And, indeed, the
Madigan house seemed little more than
a lair. It had been rather a fine house
once, and had been built for the oc-
cupancy of the man who owned the fair-
grounds; but he choosing finally to live
in the village, had permitted the house
to fall into decay, until only a family
with no sense of order or self-respect
would think of occupying it.

When there occurred one of the rare
burglaries in the village, when anything
was missing from a clothes-line, or a
calf or pig disappeared, it was gen-
erally laid to the Madigans. Unac-
counted-for fires were supposed to be
their doing; they were accorded respon-
sibility for vicious practical jokes; and
it was generally felt that before we
were through with them they would
commit some blood-curdling crime.

When, as sometimes happened, I had
met one of the Bad Madigans on the
road, or down on the village street, my
heart had beaten as if I was face to
face with a company of banditti; but
I cannot say that this excitement was
caused by aversion alone. The truth
was, the Bad Madigans fascinated me.
They stood out from all the others,
proudly and disdainfully like Robin
Hood and his band, and I could not get
over the idea that they said: "Fetch
me yonder bow!" to each other; or,
"Go slaughter me a ten-tined buck!" I
felt that they were fortunate in not be-
ing held down to hours like the rest of
us. Out of bed at six-thirty, at table
by seven, tidying bedroom at seven-
thirty, dusting sitting-room at eight, on
way to school at eight-thirty, was not
for "the likes of them!" Only we,
slaves of respectability and of an inor-
dinate appetite for order, suffered such
monotony and drabness to rule. I knew
the Madigan boys could go fishing
whenever they pleased, that the Madi-
gan girls picked the blackberries before
any one else could get out to them, that
every member of the family could pack
up and go picnicking for days at a
time, and that any stray horse was
likely to be ridden bareback, within an
inch of its life, by the younger mem-
bers of the family.

Only once however, did I have a
chance to meet one of these modern
Visigoths face to face, and the feelings
aroused by that incident remained the
darling secret of my youth. I dared tell
no one, and I longed, yet feared, to have
the experience repeated. But it never
was! It happened in this way:

On a certain Sunday afternoon in
May, my father and mother and I went
to Emmons' Woods. To reach Em-
mons' Woods, you went out the back
door, past the pump and the currant
bushes, then down the path to the
chicken-houses, and so on, by way of
the woodpile, to the south gate. After
that, you went west toward the clover
meadows, past the house where the
Crazy Lady lived -- here, if you were
alone, you ran -- and then, reaching the
verge of the woods, you took your
choice of climbing a seven-rail fence or
of walking a quarter of a mile till you
came to the bars. The latter was much
better for the lace on a Sunday petti-

Once in Emmons' Woods, there was
enchantment. An eagle might come --
or a blue heron. There had been bears
in Emmons' Woods -- bears with roll-
ing eyes and red mouths from which
their tongues lolled. There was one
place for pinky trillium, and another
for gentians; one for tawny adders'
tongues, and another for yellow Dutch-
man's breeches. In the sap-starting
season, the maples dripped their lus-
cious sap into little wooden cups; later,
partridges nested in the sun-burned
grass. There was no lake or river, but
there was a pond, swarming with a
vivacious population, and on the hard-
baked clay of the pond beach the green
beetles aired their splendid changeable
silks and sandpipers hopped ridicu-

It was, curiously enough, easier to
run than to walk in Emmons' Woods,
and even more natural to dance than to
run. One became acquainted with
squirrels, established intimacies with
chipmunks, and was on some sort of
civil relation with blackbirds. And,
oh, the tossing green of the young wil-
lows, where the lilac distance melted
into the pale blue of the sky! And, oh,
the budding of the maples and the fring-
ing of the oaks; and, oh, the blossom-
ing of the tulip trees and the garner-
ing of the chestnuts! And then, the
wriggling things in the grass; the pro-
cession of ants; the coquetries of the
robins; and the Beyond, deepening,
deepening into the forest where it was
safe only for the woodsmen to go.

On this particular Sunday one of us
was requested not to squeal and run
about, and to remember that we wore
our best shoes and need not mess them
unnecessarily. It was hard to be re-
minded just when the dance was getting
into my feet, but I tried to have Sun-
day manners, and went along in the still
woods, wondering why the purple col-
ours disappeared as we came on and
what had been distance became near-
ness. There was a beautiful, aching
vagueness over everything, and it was
not strange that father, who had
stretched himself on the moss, and
mother, who was reading Godey's La-
dies' Book, should presently both of
them be nodding. So, that being a well-
established fact -- I established it by
hanging over them and staring at their
eyelids -- it seemed a good time for me
to let the dance out of my toes. Still
careful of my fresh linen frock, and
remembering about the best shoes, I
went on, demurely, down the green al-
leys of the wood. Now I stepped on
patches of sunshine, now in pools of
shadow. I thought of how naughty I
was to run away like this, and of what
a mistake people made who said I was
a good, quiet, child. I knew that I
looked sad and prim, but I really hated
my sadness and primness and good-
ness, and longed to let out all the in-
teresting, wild, naughty thoughts there
were in me. I wanted to act as if I were
bewitched, and to tear up vines and
wind them about me, to shriek to the
echoes, and to scold back at the squir-
rels. I wanted to take off my clothes
and rush into the pond, and swim like
a fish, or wriggle like a pollywog. I
wanted to climb trees and drop from
them; and, most of all -- oh, with what
longing -- did I wish to lift myself above
the earth and fly into the bland blue

I came to a hollow where there was
a wonderful greenness over everything,
and I said to myself that I would be
bewitched at last. I would dance and
whirl and call till, perhaps, some kind
of a creature as wild and wicked and
wonderful as I, would come out of the
woods and join me. So I forgot about
the fresh linen frock, and wreathed my-
self with wild grape-vine; I cared noth-
ing for my fresh braids and wound
trillium in my hair; and I ceased to re-
member my new shoes, and whirled
around and around in the leafy mould,
singing and shouting.

I grew madder and madder. I seemed
not to be myself at all, but some sort
of a wood creature; and just when the
trees were looking larger than ever they
did before, and the sky higher up, a
girl came running down from a sort of
embankment where a tornado had made
a path for itself and had hurled some
great chestnuts and oaks in a tumbled
mass. The girl came leaping down the
steep sides of this place, her arms out-
spread, her feet bare, her dress no more
than a rag the colour of the tree-trunks.
She had on a torn green jacket, which
made her seem more than ever like
some one who had just stepped out of
a hollow tree, and, to my unspeakable
happiness, she joined me in my dance.

I shall never forget how beautiful she
was, with her wild tangle of dark hair,
and her deep blue eyes and ripe lips.
Her cheeks were flaming red, and her
limbs strong and brown. She did not
merely shout and sing; she whistled,
and made calls like the birds, and cawed
like a crow, and chittered like a squir-
rel, and around and around the two of
us danced, crazy as dervishes with the
beauty of the spring and the joy of be-
ing free.

By and by we were so tired we had
to stop, and then we sat down panting
and looked at each other. At that we
laughed, long and foolishly, but, after
a time, it occurred to us that we had
many questions to ask.

"How did you get here?" I asked the

"I was walking my lone," she said,
speaking her words as if there was a
rich thick quality to them, "and I
heard you screeling."

"Won't you get lost, alone like

"I can't get lost, "she sighed. "I 'd
like to, but I can't."

"Where do you live?"

"Beyant the fair-grounds."

"You're not -- not Norah Madigan?"

She leaned back and clasped her
hands behind her head. Then she
smiled at me teasingly.

"I am that," she said, showing her
perfect teeth.

I caught my breath with a sharp
gasp. Ought I to turn back to my par-
ents? Had I been so naughty that I
had called the naughtiest girl in the
whole county out to me?

But I could not bring myself to leave
her. She was leaning forward and
looking at me now with mocking eyes.

"Are you afraid?" she demanded.

"Afraid of what?" I asked, knowing
quite well what she meant.

"Of me?" she retorted.

At that second an agreeable truth
overtook me. I leaned forward, too,
and put my hand on hers.

"Why, I like you!" I cried. She be-
gan laughing again, but this time there
was no mockery in it. She ran her fin-
gers over the embroidery on my linen
frock, she examined the lace on my pet-
ticoat, looked at the bows on my shoes,
and played delicately with the locket
dangling from the slender chain around
my neck.

"Do you know -- other girls?" she al-
most whispered.

I nodded. "Lots and lots of 'em,"
I said. "Don't you?"

She shook her head in wistful denial.

"Us Madigans," she said, "keeps to
ourselves." She said it so haughtily
that for a moment I was almost per-
suaded into thinking that they lived
their solitary lives from choice. But,
glancing up at her, I saw a blush that
covered her face, and there were tears
in her eyes.

"Well, anyway," said I quickly, "we
know each other."

"Yes," she cried, "we do that!"

She got up, then, and ran to a great
tree from which a stout grape-vine was
swinging, and pulling at it with her
strong arms, she soon had it made into
a practical swing.

"Come!" she called -- "come, let's
swing together!"

She helped me to balance myself on
the rope-like vine, and, placing her feet
outside of mine, showed me how to
"work up" till we were sweeping with
a fine momentum through the air. We
shrieked with excitement, and urged
each other on to more and more frantic
exertions. We were like two birds, but
to birds flying is no novelty. With us
it was, which made us happier than
birds. But I, for my part, was no more
delighted with my swift flights through
the air than I was with the shining eyes
and flashing teeth of the girl opposite
me. I liked her strength, and the way
in which her body bent and swayed.
Once more, she seemed like a wood-
child -- a wild, mad, gay creature from
the tree. I felt as if I had drawn a play-
mate from elf-land, and I liked her a
thousand times better than those
proper little girls who came to see me
of a Saturday afternoon.

Well, there we were, rocking and
screaming, and telling each other that
we were hawks, and that we were fly-
ing high over the world, when the anx-
ious and austere voice of my mother
broke upon our ears. We tried to stop,
but that was not such an easy matter
to do, and as we twisted and writhed,
to bring our grape-vine swing to a
standstill, there was a slow rending and
breaking which struck terror to our

"Jump!" commanded Norah --
"jump! the vine's breaking!" We
leaped at the same moment, she safely.
My foot caught in a stout tendril, and
I fell headlong, scraping my forehead
on the ground and tearing a triangular
rent in the pretty, new frock. Mother
came running forward, and the expres-
sion on her face was far from being
the one I liked to see.

"What have you been doing?" she
demanded. "I thought you were get-
ting old enough and sensible enough to
take care of yourself!"

I must have been a depressing sight,
viewed with the eyes of a careful
mother. Blood and mould mingled on
my face, my dress needed a laundress
as badly as a dress could, and my shoes
were scratched and muddy.

"And who is this girl?" asked
mother. I had become conscious that
Norah was at my feet, wiping off my
shoes with her queer little brown frock.

"It's a new friend of mine," gasped
I, beginning to see that I must lose her,
and hoping the lump in my throat
wouldn't get any bigger than it was.

"What is her name?" asked mother.
I had no time to answer. The girl did

"I'm Norah Madigan," she said.
Her tone was respectful, and, maybe,
sad. At any rate, it had a curious

"Norah Mad-i-gan?" asked mother
doubtfully, stringing out the word.

"Yessum," said a low voice. "Good-
bye, mum."

"Oh, Norah!" cried I, a strange pain
stabbing my heart. "Come to see
me --"

But my mother's voice broke in, firm
and kind.

"Good-bye, Norah," said she.

I saw Norah turn and run up among
the trees, almost as swiftly and silently
as a hare. Once, she turned to look
back. I was watching, and caught the
chance to wave my hand to her.

"Come!" commanded mother, and
we went back to where father was sit-

"What do you think!" said mother.
"I found the child playing with one of
the Bad Madigans. Isn't she a sight!"

The lump in my throat swelled to a
terrible size; something buzzed in my
ears, and I heard some one weeping.
For a second or two I didn't realise that
it was myself.

"Well, never mind, dear," said
mother's voice soothingly. "The frock
will wash, and the tear will mend, and
the shoes will black. Yes, and the
scratches will heal."

"It isn't that," I sobbed. "Oh, oh,
it isn't that!"

"What is it, then, for goodness
sake?" asked mother.

But I would not tell. I could not
tell. How could I say that the daughter
of the Bad Madigans was the first real
and satisfying playmate I had ever



AS I remember the boys and girls
who grew up with me, I think of
them as artists, or actors, or travellers,
or rich merchants. Each of us, by the
time we were half through grammar
school, had selected a career. So far
as I recollect, this career had very lit-
tle to do with our abilities. We merely
chose something that suited us. Our
energy and our vanity crystallised into
particular shapes. There was a sort of
religion abroad in the West at that time
that a person could do almost anything
he set out to do. The older people, as
well as the children, had an idea that
the world was theirs -- they all were
Monte Cristos in that respect.

As for me, I had decided to be an

At the time of making this decision,
I was nine years of age, decidedly thin
and long drawn out, with two brown
braids down my back, and a terrific
shyness which I occasionally overcame
with such a magnificent splurge that
those who were not acquainted with my
peculiarities probably thought me a
shamefully assertive child.

I based my oratorical aspirations
upon my having taken the prize a num-
ber of times in Sunday-school for learn-
ing the most New Testament verses,
and upon the fact that I always could
make myself heard to the farthest cor-
ner of the room. I also felt that I had
a great message to deliver to the world
when I got around it, though in this, I
was in no way different from several
of my friends. I had noticed a number
of things in the world that were not
quite right, and which I thought needed
attention, and I believed that if I were
quite good and studied elocution, in a
little while I should be able to set my
part of the world right, and perhaps
even extend my influence to adjoining

Meantime I practised terrible vocal
exercises, chiefly consisting of a rau-
cous "caw" something like a crow's
favourite remark, and advocated by my
teacher in elocution for no reason that
I can now remember; and I stood be-
fore the glass for hours at a time mak-
ing grimaces so as to acquire the "ac-
tor's face," till my frightened little sis-
ters implored me to turn back into my-
self again.

It was a great day for me when I
was asked to participate in the Harvest
Home Festival at our church on
Thanksgiving Day. I looked upon it as
the beginning of my career, and bought
crimping papers so that my hair could
be properly fluted. Of course, I wanted
a new dress for the occasion, and I
spent several days in planning the kind
of a one I thought best suited to such a
memorable event. I even picked out the
particular lace pattern I wanted for the
ruffles. This was before I submitted the
proposition to Mother, however. When
I told her about it she said she could
see no use in getting a new dress and
going to all the trouble of making it
when my white one with the green
harps was perfectly good.

This was such an unusual dress and
had gone through so many vicissitudes,
that I really was devotedly attached to
it. It had, in the beginning, belonged
to my Aunt Bess, and in the days of
its first glory had been a sheer Irish
linen lawn, with tiny green harps on it
at agreeable intervals. But in the
course of time, it had to be sent to the
wash-tub, and then, behold, all the lit-
tle lovely harps followed the example
of the harp that "once through Tara's
hall the soul of music shed," and dis-
appeared! Only vague, dirty, yellow
reminders of their beauty remained,
not to decorate, but to disfigure the
fine fabric.

Aunt Bess, naturally enough, felt ir-
ritated, and she gave the goods to
mother, saying that she might be able
to boil the yellow stains out of it and
make me a dress. I had gone about
many a time, like love amid the ruins,
in the fragments of Aunt Bess's splen-
dour, and I was not happy in the
thought of dangling these dimmed re-
minders of Ireland's past around with
me. But mother said she thought I'd
have a really truly white Sunday best
dress out of it by the time she was
through with it. So she prepared a
strong solution of sodium and things,
and boiled the breadths, and every little
green harp came dancing back as if
awaiting the hand of a new Dublin poet.
The green of them was even more
charming than it had been at first, and
I, as happy as if I had acquired the
golden harp for which I then vaguely
longed, went to Sunday-school all that
summer in this miraculous dress of
and became so used to being asked if I
were Irish that my heart exulted when
I found that I might -- fractionally --
claim to be, and that one of the Fenian
martyrs had been an ancestor. For a
year, even, after that discovery of the
Fenian martyr, ancestors were a fa-
vorite study of mine.

Well, though the dress became some-
thing more than familiar to the eyes
of my associates, I was so attached to
it that I felt no objection to wearing
it on the great occasion; and, that be-
ing settled, all that remained was to
select the piece which was to reveal my
talents to a hitherto unappreciative --
or, perhaps I should say, unsuspecting
-- group of friends and relatives. It
seemed to me that I knew better than
my teacher (who had agreed to select
the pieces for her pupils) possibly
could what sort of a thing best repre-
sented my talents, and so, after some
thought, I selected "Antony and Cleo-
patra," and as I lagged along the too-
familiar road to school, avoiding the
companionship of my acquaintances, I

I am dying, Egypt, dying!
Ebbs the crimson life-tide fast,
And the dark Plutonian shadows
Gather on the evening blast.

Sometimes I grew so impassioned, so
heedless of all save my mimic sorrow
and the swing of the purple lines, that
I could not bring myself to modify my
voice, and the passers-by heard my
shrill tones vibrating with:

As for thee, star-eyed Egyptian!
Glorious sorceress of the Nile!
Light the path to Stygian horrors
With the splendour of thy smile.

I wiped dishes to the rhythm of such
phrases as "scarred and veteran le-
gions," and laced my shoes to the music
of "Though no glittering guards sur-
round me."

Confident that no one could fail to
see the beauty of these lines, or the pro-
priety of the identification of myself
with Antony, I called upon my Sunday-
school teacher, Miss Goss, to report. I
never had thought of Miss Goss as a
blithe spirit. She was associated in my
mind with numerous solemn occasions,
and I was surprised to find that on this
day she unexpectedly developed a trait
of breaking into nervous laughter. I
had got as far as "Should the base ple-
beian rabble --" when Miss Goss broke
down in what I could not but regard as
a fit of giggles, and I ceased abruptly.

She pulled herself together after a
moment or two, and said if I would fol-
low her to the library she thought she
could find something -- here she hesi-
tated, to conclude with, "more within
the understanding of the other chil-
dren." I saw that she thought my feel-
ings were hurt, and as I passed a mir-
ror I feared she had some reason to
think so. My face was uncommonly
flushed, and a look of indignation had
crept, somehow, even into my braids,
which, having been plaited too tightly,
stuck out in crooks and kinks from the
side of my head. Incidentally, I was
horrified to notice how thin I was --
thin, even for a dying Antony -- and my
frock was so outgrown that it hardly
covered my knees. "Ridiculous!" I
said under my breath, as I confronted
this miserable figure -- so shamefully in-
significant for the vicarious emotions
which it had been housing. "Ridicu-

I hated Miss Goss, and must have
shown it in my stony stare, for she put
her arm around me and said it was a
pity I had been to all the trouble to
learn a poem which was -- well, a trifle
too -- too old -- but that she hoped to find
something equally "pretty" for me to
speak. At the use of that adjective in
connection with William Lytle's lines, I
wrenched away from her grasp and
stood in what I was pleased to think a
haughty calm, awaiting her directions.

She took from the shelves a little vol-
ume of Whittier, bound in calf, hand-
ling it as tenderly as if it were a price-
less possession. Some pressed violets
dropped out as she opened it, and she
replaced them with devotional fingers.
After some time she decided upon a
lyric lament entitled "Eva." I was
asked to run over the verses, and found
them remarkably easy to learn; fatally
impossible to forget. I presently arose
and with an impish betrayal of the pov-
erty of rhyme and the plethora of sen-
timent, repeated the thing relentlessly.

O for faith like thine, sweet Eva,

Lighting all the solemn reevah [river],

And the blessings of the poor,

Wafting to the heavenly shoor [shore].

"I do think," said Miss Goss gently,
"that if you tried, my child, you might
manage the rhymes just a little better."

"But if you're born in Michigan," I
protested, "how can you possibly make
'Eva' rhyme with 'never' and 'be-

"Perhaps it is a little hard," Miss
Goss agreed, and still clinging to her
Whittier, she exhumed "The Pump-
kin," which she thought precisely fitted
for our Harvest Home festival. This
was quite another thing from "Eva,"
and I saw that only hours of study
would fix it in my mind. I went to my
home, therefore, with "The Pumpkin"
delicately transcribed in Miss Goss's
running hand, and I tried to get some
comfort from the foreign allusions glit-
tering through Whittier's kindly verse.
As the days went by I came to have a
certain fondness for those homely lines:

O -- fruit loved of boyhood! -- the old days re-

When wood grapes were purpling and brown

nuts were falling!
When wild, ugly faces we carved in the skin,
Glaring out through the dark with a candle

When we laughed round the corn-heap, with

hearts all in tune,
Our chair a broad pumpkin -- our lantern the

Telling tales of the fairy who travelled like

In a pumpkin-shell coach, with two rats for her


On all sides this poem was considered
very fitting, and I went to the festival
with that comfortable feeling one has
when one is moving with the majority
and is wearing one's best clothes.

I sat rigid with expectancy while my
schoolmates spoke their "pieces" and
sang their songs. With frozen faces
they faced each other in dialogues, lost
their quavering voices, and stumbled
down the stairs in their anguish of
spirit. I pitied them, and thought how
lucky it was that my memory never
failed me, and that my voice carried so
well that I could arouse even old Elder
Waite from his slumbers.

Then my turn came. My crimps
were beautiful; the green harps danced
on my freshly-ironed frock, and I had
on my new chain and locket. I relied
upon a sort of mechanism in me to say:
O greenly and fair in the lands of the sun,
The vines of the gourd and the rich melon run.

In this seemly manner Whittier's ode
to the pumpkin began. I meant to go
on to verses which I knew would de-
light my audience -- to references to the
"crook-necks" ripening under the Sep-
tember sun; and to Thanksgiving gath-
erings at which all smiled at the reun-
ion of friends and the bounty of the board.

What moistens the lip and brightens the eye!
What calls back the past like the rich pumpkin pie!

I was sure these lines would meet
with approval, and having "come down
to the popular taste," I was prepared
to do my best to please.

After a few seconds, when the golden
pumpkins that lined the stage had
ceased to dance before my eyes, I
thought I ought to begin to "get hold
of my audience." Of course, my mem-
ory would be giving me the right words,
and my facile tongue running along re-
liably, but I wished to demonstrate that
"ability" which was to bring me fa-
vour and fame. I listened to my own
words and was shivered into silence. I
was talking about "dark Plutonian
shadows"; I was begging "Egypt" to
let her arms enfold me -- I was, indeed,
in the very thick of the forbidden poem.
I could hear my thin, aspiring voice
reaching out over that paralysed audi-
ence with:

Though my scarred and veteran legions
Bear their eagles high no more;
And my wrecked and scattered galleys
Strew dark Actium's fatal shore.

My tongue seemed frozen, or some
kind of a ratchet at the base of it had
got out of order. For a moment -- a
moment can be the little sister of eter-
nity -- I could say nothing. Then I
found myself in the clutches of the in-
stinct for self-preservation. I felt it in
me to stop the giggles of the girls on
the front seat; to take the patronising
smiles out of the tolerant eyes of the
grown people. Maybe my voice lost
something of its piping insistence and
was touched with genuine feeling; per-
haps some faint, faint spark of the di-
vine fire which I longed to fan into a
flame did flicker in me for that one time.
I had the indescribable happiness of
seeing the smiles die on the faces of my
elders, and of hearing the giggles of my
friends cease.

I went to my seat amid what I was
pleased to consider "thunders of ap-
plause," and by way of acknowledg-
ment, I spoke, with chastened propri-
ety, Whittier's ode to the pumpkin.

I cannot remember whether or not I
was scolded. I'm afraid, afterward,
some people still laughed. As for me,
oddly enough, my oratorical aspira-
tions died. I decided there were other
careers better fitted to one of my
physique. So I had to go to the trouble
of finding another career; but just what
it was I have forgotten.



IT is extraordinary, when you come
to think of it, how very few days,
out of all the thousands that have
passed, lift their heads from the grey
plain of the forgotten -- like bowlders in
a level stretch of country. It is not
alone the unimportant ones that are for-
gotten; but, according to one's elders,
many important ones have left no mark
in the memory. It seems to me, as I
think it over, that it was the days that
affected the emotions that dwell with
me, and I suppose all of us must be the
same in this respect.

Among those which I am never to
forget is the day when Aunt Cordelia
came to visit us -- my mother's aunt,
she was -- and when I discovered evil,
and tried to understand what the use
of it was.

Great-aunt Cordelia was, as I often
and often had been told, not only much
travelled, rich and handsome, but good
also. She was, indeed, an important
personage in her own city, and it
seemed to be regarded as an evidence
of unusual family fealty that she
should go about, now and then, briefly
visiting all of her kinfolk to see how
they fared in the world. I ought to
have looked forward to meeting her, but
this, for some perverse reason, I did
not do. I wished I might run away
and hide somewhere till her visit was
over. It annoyed me to have to clean
up the play-room on her account, and
to help polish the silver, and to comb
out the fringe of the tea napkins. I
liked to help in these tasks ordinarily,
but to do it for the purpose of coming
up to a visiting -- and probably, a con-
descending -- goddess, somehow made
me cross.

Among other hardships, I had to take
care of my little sister Julie all day. I
loved Julie. She had soft golden-
brown curls fuzzing around on her
head, and mischievous brown eyes --
warm, extra-human eyes. There was a
place in the back of her neck, just below
the point of her curls, which it was a
privilege to kiss; and though she could
not yet talk, she had a throaty, beauti-
ful little exclamation, which cannot be
spelled any more than a bird note, with
which she greeted all the things she
liked -- a flower, or a toy, or mother.
But loving Julie as she sat in mother's
lap, and having to care for her all of
a shining Saturday, were two quite dif-
ferent things. As the hours wore along
I became bored with looking at the
golden curls of my baby sister; I had
no inclination to kiss the "honey-spot"
in the back of her neck; and when she
fretted from heat and teething and my
perfunctory care, I grew angry.

I knew mother was busy making cus-
tards and cakes for Aunt Cordelia, and
I longed to be in watching these pleas-
ing operations. I thought -- but what
does it matter what I thought? I was
bad! I was so bad that I was glad I
was bad. Perhaps it was nerves. May-
be I really had taken care of the baby
too long. But however that may be, for
the first time in my life I enjoyed the
consciousness of having a bad disposi-
tion -- or perhaps I ought to say that I
felt a fiendish satisfaction in the discov-
ery that I had one.

Along in the middle of the afternoon
three of the girls in the neighbourhood
came over to play. They had their
dolls, and they wanted to "keep house"
in the "new part" of our home. We
were living in a roomy and comfortable
"addition," which had, oddly enough,
been built before the building to which
it was finally to serve as an annex. That
is to say, it had been the addition be-
fore there was anything to add it to.
By this time, however, the new house
was getting a trifle old, as it waited for
the completion of its rather dispropor-
tionate splendours; splendours which
represented the ambitions rather than
the achievements of the family. It tow-
ered, large, square, imposing, with hints
of M. Mansard's grandiose architectu-
ral ideas in its style, in the very centre
of a village block of land. From the
first, it exercised a sort of "I dreamt I
dwelt in marble halls" effect upon me,
and in a vague way, at the back of my
mind, floated the idea that when we
passed from our modest home into
this commanding edifice, well-trained
servants mysteriously would appear,
beautiful gowns would be found await-
ing my use in the closets, and father
and mother would be able to take their
ease, something after the fashion of the
"landed gentry" of whom I had read
in Scotch and English books. The ceil-
ings of the new house were so high, the
sweep of the stairs so dramatic, the size
of the drawing-rooms so copious, that
perhaps I hardly was to be blamed for
expecting a transformation scene.

But until this new life was realised,
the clean, bare rooms made the best of
all possible play-rooms, and with the
light streaming in through the trees,
and falling, delicately tinged with
green, upon the new floors, and with
the scent of the new wood all about, it
was a place of indefinable enchantment.
I was allowed to play there all I pleased
-- except when I had Julie. There were
unguarded windows and yawning stair-
holes, and no steps as yet leading from
the ground to the great opening where
the carved front door was some time
to be. Instead, there were planks, in-
clined at a steep angle, beneath which
lay the stones of which the foundation
to the porch were to be made. Jagged
pieces of yet unhewn sandstone they
were, with cruel edges.

But to-day when the girls said, "Oh,
come!" my newly discovered badness
echoed their words. I wanted to go
with them. So I went.

Out of the corner of my eye I could
see father in the distance, but I
wouldn't look at him for fear he would
be magnetised into turning my way.
The girls had gone up, and I followed,
with Julie in my arms. Did I hear
father call to me to stop? He always
said I did, but I think he was mistaken.
Perhaps I merely didn't wish to hear
him. Anyway, I went on, balancing
myself as best I could. The other girls
had reached the top, and turned to look
at us, and I knew they were afraid. I
think they would have held out their
hands to help me, but I had both arms
clasped about Julie. So I staggered on,
got almost to the top, then seemed sub-
merged beneath a wave of fears -- mine
and those of the girls -- and fell! As
I went, I curled like a squirrel around
Julie, and when I struck, she was still
in my grasp and on top of me. But she
rolled out of my relaxing clutch after
that, and when father and mother came
running, she was lying on the stones.
They thought she had fallen that way,
and as the breath had been fairly
knocked out of her little body, so that
she was not crying, they were more
frightened than ever, and ran with her
to the house, wild with apprehension.

As for me, I got up somehow and fol-
owed. I decided no bones were broken,
but I was dizzy and faint, and aching
from bruises. I saw my little friends
running down the plank and making off
along the poplar drive, white-faced and
panting. I knew they thought Julie
was dead and that I'd be hung. I had
the same idea.

When we got to the sitting-room I
had a strange feeling of never having
seen it before. The tall stove, the
green and oak ingrain carpet, the green
rep chairs, the what-not with its shells,
the steel engravings on the walls,
seemed absolutely strange. I sat down
and counted the diamond-shaped figures
on the oilcloth in front of the stove;
and after a long time I heard Julie cry,
and mother say with immeasurable re-

"Aside from a shaking up, I don't
believe she's a bit the worse."

Then some one brought me a cupful
of cold water and asked me if I was
hurt. I shook my head and would not
speak. I then heard, in simple and em-
phatic Anglo-Saxon the opinions of my
father and mother about a girl who
would put her little sister's life in dan-
ger, and would disobey her parents.
And after that I was put in my moth-
er's bedroom to pass the rest of the
day, and was told I needn't expect to
come to the table with the others.

I accepted my fate stoically, and be-
ing permitted to carry my own chair
into the room, I put it by the western
window, which looked across two miles
of meadows waving in buckwheat, in
clover and grass, and sat there in a cu-
rious torpor of spirit. I was glad to
be alone, for I had discovered a new
idea -- the idea of sin. I wished to be
left to myself till I could think out what
it meant. I believed I could do that by
night, and, after I had got to the root
of the matter, I could cast the whole
ugly thing out of my soul and be good
all the rest of my life.

There was a large upholstered chair
standing in front of me, and I put my
head down on the seat of that and
thought and thought. My thoughts
reached so far that I grew frightened,
and I was relieved when I felt the little
soft grey veils drawing about me which
I knew meant sleep. It seemed to me
that I really ought to weep -- that the
circumstances were such that I should
weep. But sleep was sweeter than
tears, and not only the pain in my mind
but the jar and bruise of my body
seemed to demand that oblivion. So I
gave way to the impulse, and the grey
veils wrapped around and around me
as a spider's web enwraps a fly. And
for hours I knew nothing.

When I awoke it was the close of day.
Long tender shadows lay across the
fields, the sky had that wonderful clear-
ness and kindness which is like a hu-
man eye, and the soft wind puffing in
at the window was sweet with field
fragrance. A glass of milk and a plate
with two slices of bread lay on the win-
dow sill by me, as if some one had
placed them there from the outside. I
could hear birds settling down for the
night, and cheeping drowsily to each
other. My cat came on the scene and,
seeing me, looked at me with serious,
expanding eyes, twitched her whiskers
cynically, and passed on. Presently I
heard the voices of my family. They
were re-entering the sitting-room. Sup-
per was over -- supper, with its cold
meats and shining jellies, its "floating
island" and its fig cake. I could hear
a voice that was new to me. It was
deeper than my mother's, and its ac-
cent was different. It was the sort of
a voice that made you feel that its
owner had talked with many different
kinds of people, and had contrived to
hold her own with all of them. I knew
it belonged to Aunt Cordelia. And now
that I was not to see her, I felt my curi-
osity arising in me. I wanted to look
at her, and still more I wished to ask
her about goodness. She was rich and
good! Was one the result of the other?
And which came first? I dimly per-
ceived that if there had been more
money in our house there would have
been more help, and I would not have
been led into temptation -- baby would
not have been left too long upon my
hands. However, after a few moments
of self-pity, I rejected this thought. I
knew I really was to blame, and it oc-
curred to me that I would add to my
faults if I tried to put the blame on any-
body else.

Now that the first shock was over and
that my sleep had refreshed me, I be-
gan to see what terrible sorrow had
been mine if the fall had really injured
Julie; and a sudden thought shook me.
She might, after all, have been hurt in
some way that would show itself later
on. I yearned to look upon her, to see
if all her sweetness and softness was in-
tact. It seemed to me that if I could
not see her the rising grief in me would
break, and I would sob aloud. I didn't
want to do that. I had no notion to
call any attention to myself whatever,
but see the baby I must. So, softly,
and like a thief, I opened the door com-
municating with the little dressing-
room in which Julie's cradle stood. The
curtain had been drawn and it was al-
most dark, but I found my way to
Julie's bassinet. I could not quite see
her, but the delicate odour of her
breath came up to me, and I found her
little hand and slipped my finger in it.
It was gripped in a baby pressure, and
I stood there enraptured, feeling as if
a flower had caressed me. I was
thrilled through and through with hap-
piness, and with love for this little crea-
ture, whom my selfishness might have
destroyed. There was nothing in what
had happened during this moment or
two when I stood by her side to assure
me that all was well with her; but I did
so believe, and I said over and over:
"Thank you, God! Thank you, God!"

And now my tears began to flow.
They came in a storm -- a storm I could
not control, and I fled back to mother's
room, and stood there before the west
window weeping as I never had wept

The quiet loveliness of the closing
day had passed into the splendour of
the afterglow. Mighty wings as of
bright angels, pink and shining white,
reached up over the sky. The vault was
purple above me, and paled to lilac, then
to green of unimaginable tenderness.
Now I quenched my tears to look, and
then I wept again, weeping no more for
sorrow and loneliness and shame than
for gratitude and delight in beauty. So
fair a world! What had sin to do with
it? I could not make it out.

The shining wings grew paler, faded,
then darkened; the melancholy sound
of cow-bells stole up from the common.
The birds were still; a low wind rustled
the trees. I sat thinking my young
"night thoughts" of how marvellous it
was for the sun to set, to rise, to keep
its place in heaven -- of how wrapped
about with mysteries we were. What
if the world should start to falling
through space? Where would it land?
Was there even a bottom to the uni-
verse? "World without end" might
mean that there was neither an end to
space nor yet to time. I shivered at
thought of such vastness.

Suddenly light streamed about me,
warm arms enfolded me.

"Mother!" I murmured, and slipped
from the unknown to the dear familiar-
ity of her shoulder.

It was, I soon perceived, a silk-clad
shoulder. Mother had on her best
dress; nay, she wore her coral pin and
ear-rings. Her lace collar was scented
with Jockey Club, and her neck, into
which I was burrowing, had the inde-
scribable something that was not quite
odour, not all softness, but was com-
pounded of these and meant mother.
She said little to me as she drew me
away and bathed my face, brushed and
plaited my hair, and put on my clean
frock. But we felt happy together. I
knew she was as glad to forgive as I
was to be forgiven.

In a little while she led me, blinking,
into the light. A tall stranger, a lady
in prune-coloured silk, sat in the high-
backed chair.

"This is my eldest girl, Aunt Cor-
delia," said my mother. I went for-
ward timidly, wondering if I were
really going to be greeted by this per-
son who must have heard such terrible
reports of me. I found myself caught
by the hands and drawn into the em-
brace of this new, grand acquaintance.

"Well, I've been wanting to see
you," said the rich, kind voice. "They
say you look as I did at your age. They
say you are like me!"

Like her -- who was good! But no
one referred to this difference or said
anything about my sins. When we were
sorry, was evil, then, forgotten and sin
forgiven? A weight as of iron dropped
from my spirit. I sank with a sigh on
the hassock at my aunt's feet. I was
once more a member of society.



IT was time to say good-bye.

I had been down to my little
brother's grave and watered the sorrel
that grew on it -- I thought it was sor-
row, and so tended it; and I had walked
around the house and said good-bye to
every window, and to the robin's nest,
and to my playhouse in the shed. I
had put a clean ribbon on the cat's neck,
and kissed my doll, and given presents
to my little sisters. Now, shivering be-
neath my new grey jacket in the chill
of the May morning air, I stood ready
to part with my mother. She was a
little flurried with having just ironed
my pinafores and collars, and with hav-
ing put the last hook on my new Stuart
plaid frock, and she looked me over
with rather an anxious eye. As for me,
I thought my clothes charming, and I
loved the scarlet quill in my grey hat,
and the set of my new shoes. I hoped,
above all, that no one would notice that
I was trembling and lay it down to fear.

Of course, I had been away before.
It was not the first time I had left
everything to take care of itself. But
this time I was going alone, and that
gave rather a different aspect to things.
To go into the country for a few days,
or even to Detroit, in the company of
a watchful parent, might be called a
"visit"; but to go alone, partly by
train and partly by stage, and to arrive
by one's self, amounted to "travel." I
had an aunt who had travelled, and I
felt this morning that love of travel
ran in the family. Probably even
Aunt Cordelia had been a trifle nervous,
at first, when she started out for Ha-
waii, say, or for Egypt.

Mother and I were both fearful that
the driver of the station 'bus hadn't
really understood that he was to call.
First she would ask father, and then I
would ask him, if he was quite sure the
man understood, and father said that
if the man could understand English
at all -- and he supposed he could -- he
had understood that. Father was right
about it, too, for just when we -- that is,
mother and I -- were almost giving up,
the 'bus horses swung in the big gate
and came pounding up the drive be-
tween the Lombardy poplars, which
were out in their yellow-green spring
dress. They were a bay team with a
yellow harness which clinked splendidly
with bone rings, and the 'bus was as
yellow as a pumpkin, and shaped not
unlike one, so that I gave it my instant
approval. It was precisely the sort of
vehicle in which I would have chosen
to go away. So absorbed was I in it
that, though I must have kissed mother,
I have really no recollection of it; and
it was only when we were swinging out
of the gate, and I looked back and saw
her standing in the door watching us,
that a terrible pang came over me, so
that for one crazy moment I thought
I was going to jump out and run back
to her.

But I held on to father's hand and
turned my face away from home with
all the courage I could summon, and we
went on through the town and out
across a lonely stretch of country to the
railroad. For we were an obstinate lit-
tle town, and would not build up to the
railroad because the railroad had re-
fused to run up to us. It was a new
station with a fine echo in it, and the
man who called out the trains had a
beautiful voice for echoes. It was cre-
ated to inspire them and to encourage
them, and I stood fascinated by the
thunderous noises he was making till
father seized me by the hand and thrust
me into the care of the train conductor.
They said something to each other in
the sharp, explosive way men have, and
the conductor took me to a seat and
told me I was his girl for the time be-
ing, and to stay right there till he came
for me at my station.

What amazed me was that the car
should be full of people. I could not
imagine where they all could be going.
It was all very well for me, who be-
longed to a family of travellers -- as wit-
ness Aunt Cordelia -- to be going on a
journey, but for these others, these
many, many others, to be wandering
around, heaven knows where, struck me
as being not right. It seemed to take
somewhat from the glory of my adven-

However, I noticed that most of them
looked poor. Their clothes were old
and ugly; their faces not those of pleas-
ure-seekers. It was very difficult to
imagine that they could afford a jour-
ney, which was, as I believed, a great
luxury. At first, the people looked to
be all of a sort, but after a little I be-
gan to see the differences, and to no-
tice that this one looked happy, and
that one sad, and another as if he had
much to do and liked it, and several
others as if they had very little idea
where they were going or why.

But I liked better to look from the
windows and to see the world. The
houses seemed quite familiar and as if
I had seen them often before. I hardly
could believe that I hadn't walked up
those paths, opened those doors and
seated myself at the tables. I felt that
if I went in those houses I would know
where everything was -- just where the
dishes were kept, and the Bible, and the
jam. It struck me that houses were
very much alike in the world, and that
led to the thought that people, too, were
probably alike. So I forgot what the
conductor had said to me about keeping
still, and I crossed over the aisle and
sat down beside a little girl who was
regrettably young, but who looked
pleasant. Her mother and grand-
mother were sitting opposite, and they
smiled at me in a watery sort of way
as if they thought a smile was expected
of them. I meant to talk to the little
girl, but I saw she was almost on the
verge of tears, and it didn't take me
long to discover what was the matter.
Her little pink hat was held on by an
elastic band, which, being put behind
her ears and under her chin, was cut-
ting her cruelly. I knew by experience
that if the band were placed in front of
her ears the tension would be lessened;
so, with the most benevolent intentions
in the world, I inserted my fingers be-
tween the rubber and her chubby
cheeks, drew it out with nervous but
friendly fingers, somehow let go of it,
and snap across her two red cheeks and
her pretty pug nose went the lacerat-
ing elastic, leaving a welt behind it!

"What do you mean, you bad girl?"
cried the mother, taking me by the
shoulders with a sort of grip I had
never felt before. "I never saw such a
child -- never!"

An old woman with a face like a hen
leaned over the back of the seat.

"What's she done? What's she
done?" she demanded. The mother
told her, as the grandmother comforted
the hurt baby.

"Go back to your seat and stay
there!" commanded the mother. "See
you don't come near here again!"

My lips trembled with the anguish I
could hardly restrain. Never had a
noble soul been more misunderstood.
Stupid beings! How dare they! Yet,
not to be liked by them -- not to be un-
derstood! That was unendurable.
Would they listen to the gentle word
that turneth away wrath? I was in-
clined to think not. I was fairly pant-
ing under my load of dismay and de-
spondency, when a large man with an
extraordinarily clean appearance sat
down opposite me. He was a study in
grey -- grey suit, tie, socks, gloves, hat,
top-coat -- yes, and eyes! He leaned
forward ingratiatingly.

"What do you think Aunt Ellen sent
me last week?" he inquired.

We seemed to be old acquaintances,
and in my second of perplexity I de-
cided that it was mere forgetfulness
that made me unable to recall just
whom he was talking about. So I only
said politely: "I don't know, I'm sure,

"Why, yes, you do!" he laughed.
"Couldn't you guess? What should
Aunt Ellen send but some of that white
maple sugar of hers; better than ever,
too. I've a pound of it along with me,
and I'd be glad to pry off a few pieces
if you'd like to eat it. You always
were so fond of Aunt Ellen's maple
sugar, you know."

The tone carried conviction. Of
course I must have been fond of it;
indeed, upon reflection, I felt that I had
been. By the time the man was back
with a parallelogram of the maple
sugar in his hand, I was convinced that
he had spoken the truth.

"Aunt Ellen certainly is a dear," he
went on. "I run down to see her every
time I get a chance. Same old rain-
barrel! Same old beehives! Same old
well-sweep! Wouldn't trade them for
any others in the world. I like every-
thing about the place -- like the 'Old
Man' that grows by the gate; and the
tomato trellis -- nobody else treats to-
matoes like flowers; and the herb gar-
den, and the cupboard with the little
wood-carvings in it that Uncle Ben
made. You remember Uncle Ben?
Been a sailor -- broke both legs -- had
'em cut off -- and sat around and carved
while Aunt Ellen taught school. Happy
they were -- no one happier. Brought
me up, you know. Didn't have a father
or mother -- just gathered me in. Good
sort, those. Uncle Ben's gone, but
Aunt Ellen's a mother to me yet.
Thinks of me, travelling, travelling,
never putting my head down in the same
bed two nights running; and here and
there and everywhere she overtakes me
with little scraps out of home. That's
Aunt Ellen for you!"

As the delicious sugar melted on my
tongue, the sorrows melted in my soul,
and I was just about to make some in-
quiries about Aunt Ellen, whose per-
sonal qualities seemed to be growing
clearer and clearer in my mind, when
my conductor came striding down the

"Where's my little girl?" he de-
manded heartily. "Ah, there she is,
just where I left her, in good company
and eating maple sugar, as I live."

"Well, she hain't bin there all the
time now, I ken tell ye that!" cried the
old woman with a face like a hen.

"Indeed, she ain't!" the other
women joined in. "She's a mischief-
makin' child, that's what she is!" said
the mother. The little girl was look-
ing over her grandmother's shoulder,
and she ran out a very red, serpent-
like tongue at me.

"She's a good girl, and almost as
fond of Aunt Ellen as I am," said the
large man, finding my pocket, and put-
ting a huge piece of maple sugar in it.

The conductor, meantime, was gath-
ering my things, and with a "Come
along, now! This is where you
change," he led me from the car. I
glanced back once, and the hen-faced
woman shook her withered brown fist
at me, and the large man waved and
smiled. The conductor and I ran as
hard as we could, he carrying my light
luggage, to a stage that seemed to be
waiting for us. He shouted some di-
rections to the driver, deposited me
within, and ran back to his train. And
I, alone again, looked about me.

We were in the heart of a little town,
and a number of men were standing
around while the horses took their fill
at the watering-trough. This accom-
plished, the driver checked up the
horses, mounted to his high seat, was
joined by a heavy young man; two gen-
tlemen entered the inside of the coach,
and we were off.

One of these gentlemen was very old.
His silver hair hung on his shoulders;
he had a beautiful flowing heard which
gleamed in the light, the kindest of
faces, lit with laughing blue eyes, and
he leaned forward on his heavy stick
and seemed to mind the plunging of
our vehicle. The other man was mid-
dle-aged, dark, silent-looking, and, I
decided, rather like a king. We all
rode in silence for a while, but by and
by the old man said kindly:

"Where are you going, my child?"

I told him.

"And whose daughter are you?" he
inquired. I told him that with pride.
"I know people all through the state,"
he said, "but I don't seem to remember
that name."

"Don't you remember my father,
sir?" I cried, anxiously, edging up
closer to him. "Not that great and
good man! Why, Abraham Lincoln
and my father are the greatest men
that ever lived!"

His head nodded strangely, as he
lifted it and looked at me with his
laughing eye.

"It's a pity I don't know him, that
being the case," he said gently. "But,
anyway, you're a lucky little girl."

"Yes," I sighed, "I am, indeed."

But my attention was taken by our
approach to what I recognised as an
"estate." A great gate with high
posts, flat on top, met my gaze, and
through this gateway I could see a drive
and many beautiful trees. A little boy
was sitting on top of one of the posts,
watching us, and I thought I never had
seen a place better adapted to viewing
the passing procession. I longed to be
on the other gatepost, exchanging confi-
dences across the harmless gulf with
this nice-looking boy, when, most unex-
pectedly, the horses began to plunge.
The next second the air was filled with
buzzing black objects.

"Bees!" said the king. It was the
first word he had spoken, and a true
word it was. Swarming bees had set-
tled in the road, and we had driven un-
aware into the midst of them. The
horses were distracted, and made blind-
ly for the gate, though they seemed
much more likely to run into the posts
than to get through the gate, I thought.
The boy seemed to think this, too, for
he shot backward, turned a somersault
in. the air, and disappeared from view.

"God bless me!" said the king.

The heavy young man on the front
seat jumped from his place and began
beating away the bees and holding the
horses by the bridles, and in a few min-
utes we were on our way. The horses
had been badly stung, and the heavy
young man looked rather bumpy. As
for us, the king had shut the stage door
at the first approach of trouble, and
we were unharmed.

After this, we all felt quite well ac-
quainted, and the old gentleman told me
some wonderful stories about going
about among the Indians and about the
men in the lumber camps and the set-
tlers on the lake islands. Afterward I
learned that he was a bishop, and a
brave and holy man whom it was a
great honour to meet, but, at the time,
I only thought of how kind he was to
pare apples for me and to tell me tales.
The king seldom spoke more than one
word at a time, but he was kind, too, in
his way. Once he said, "Sleepy?" to
me. And, again, "Hungry?" He
didn't look out at the landscape at all,
and neither did the bishop. But I ran
from one side to the other, and the last
of the journey I was taken up between
the driver and the heavy man on the
high seat.

Presently we were in a little town
with cottages almost hidden among the
trees. A blue stream ran through
green fields, and the water dashed over
a dam. I could hear the song of the
mill and the ripping of the boards.

"We're here!" said the driver.

The heavy man lifted me down, and
my young uncle came running out with
his arms open to receive me. "What a
traveller!" he said, kissing me.

"It's been a tremendously long and
interesting journey," I said.

"Yes," he answered. "Ten miles
by rail and ten by stage. I suppose
you've had a great many adventures!"

"Oh, yes!" I cried, and ached to tell
them, but feared this was not the place.
I saw my uncle respectfully helping the
bishop to alight, and heard him inquir-
ing for his health, and the bishop an-
swering in his kind, deep voice, and
saying I was indeed a good traveller
and saw all there was to see -- and a lit-
tle more. The king shook hands with
me, and this time said two words:
"Good luck." Uncle had no idea who
he was -- no one had seen him before.
Uncle didn't quite like his looks. But
I did. He was uncommon; he was dif-
ferent. I thought of all those people in
the train who had been so alike. And
then I remembered what unexpected
differences they had shown, and turned
to smile at my uncle.

"I should say I have had adven-
tures!" I cried.

"We'll get home to your aunt," he
said, "and then we'll hear all about

We crossed a bridge above the roar-
ing mill-race, went up a lane, and en-
tered Arcadia. That was the way it
seemed to me. It was really a cottage
above a stream, where youth and love
dwelt, and honour and hospitality, and
the little house was to be exchanged for
a greater one where -- though youth de-
parted -- love and honour and hospital-
ity were still to dwell.

"Travel's a great thing," said my
uncle, as he helped me off with my

"Yes," I answered, solemnly, "it is
a great privilege to see the world."

I still am of that opinion. I have
seen some odd bits of it, and I cannot
understand why it is that other jour-
neys have not quite come up to that
first one, when I heard of Aunt Ellen,
and saw the boy turn the surprised
somersault, and was welcomed by two
lovers in a little Arcadia.

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