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immoral purposes. So long as he stopped in his own bed, he could do
what he liked; so much the worse for him if he gave himself up to bad
practices. It has been remarked in Germany that it is precisely in
those institutions for young men in which the directors have taken
most pains to prevent onanism that this vice is most prevalent.

Those who had framed the regulations in our seminary were stupid
fools, who had not the slightest knowledge of either morals or human
nature. Nature has wants which must be administered to, and Tissot
is right only as far as the abuse of nature is concerned, but this
abuse would very seldom occur if the directors exercised proper
wisdom and prudence, and if they did not make a point of forbidding
it in a special and peculiar manner; young people give way to
dangerous excesses from a sheer delight in disobedience,--
a disposition very natural to humankind, since it began with Adam and

I had been in the seminary for nine or ten days, when one night I
felt someone stealing very quietly in my bed; my hand was at once
clutched, and my name whispered. I could hardly restrain my
laughter. It was my friend, who, having chanced to wake up and
finding that the lantern was out, had taken a sudden fancy to pay me
a visit. I very soon begged him to go away for fear the prefect
should be awake, for in such a case we should have found ourselves in
a very unpleasant dilemma, and most likely would have been accused of
some abominable offence. As I was giving him that good advice we
heard someone moving, and my friend made his escape; but immediately
after he had left me I heard the fall of some person, and at the same
time the hoarse voice of the prefect exclaiming:

"Ah, villain! wait until to-morrow--until to-morrow!"

After which threat he lighted the lantern and retired to his couch.

The next morning, before the ringing of the bell for rising, the
rector, followed by the prefect, entered the dormitory, and said to

"Listen to me, all of you. You are aware of what has taken place
this last night. Two amongst you must be guilty; but I wish to
forgive them, and to save their honour I promise that their names
shall not be made public. I expect every one of you to come to me
for confession before recess."

He left the dormitory, and we dressed ourselves. In the afternoon,
in obedience to his orders, we all went to him and confessed, after
which ceremony we repaired to the garden, where my friend told me
that, having unfortunately met the prefect after he left me, he had
thought that the best way was to knock him down, in order to get time
to reach his own bed without being known.

"And now," I said, "you are certain of being forgiven, for, of
course, you have wisely confessed your error?"

"You are joking," answered my friend; "why, the good rector would not
have known any more than he knows at present, even if my visit to you
had been paid with a criminal intent."

"Then you must have made a false confession: you are at all events
guilty of disobedience?"

"That may be, but the rector is responsible for the guilt, as he used

"My dear friend, you argue in a very forcible way, and the very
reverend rector must by this time be satisfied that the inmates of
our dormitory are more learned than he is himself."

No more would have been said about the adventure if, a few nights
after, I had not in my turn taken a fancy to return the visit paid by
my friend. Towards midnight, having had occasion to get out of bed,
and hearing the loud snoring of the prefect, I quickly put out the
lantern and went to lie beside my friend. He knew me at once, and
gladly received me; but we both listened attentively to the snoring
of our keeper, and when it ceased, understanding our danger, I got up
and reached my own bed without losing a second, but the moment I got
to it I had a double surprise. In the first place I felt somebody
lying in my bed, and in the second I saw the prefect, with a candle
in his hand, coming along slowly and taking a survey of all the beds
right and left. I could understand the prefect suddenly lighting a
candle, but how could I realize what I saw--namely, one of my
comrades sleeping soundly in my bed, with his back turned to me? I
immediately made up my mind to feign sleep. After two or three
shakings given by the prefect, I pretended to wake up, and my bed-
companion woke up in earnest. Astonished at finding himself in my
bed, he offered me an apology:

"I have made a mistake," he said, "as I returned from a certain place
in the dark, I found your bed empty, and mistook it for mine."

"Very likely," I answered; "I had to get up, too."

"Yes," remarked the prefect; "but how does it happen that you went to
bed without making any remark when, on your return, you found your
bed already tenanted? And how is it that, being in the dark, you did
not suppose that you were mistaken yourself?"

"I could not be mistaken, for I felt the pedestal of this crucifix of
mine, and I knew I was right; as to my companion here, I did not feel

"It is all very unlikely," answered our Argus; and he went to the
lantern, the wick of which he found crushed down.

"The wick has been forced into the oil, gentlemen; it has not gone
out of itself; it has been the handiwork of one of you, but it will
be seen to in the morning."

My stupid companion went to his own bed, the prefect lighted the lamp
and retired to his rest, and after this scene, which had broken the
repose of every pupil, I quietly slept until the appearance of the
rector, who, at the dawn of day, came in great fury, escorted by his
satellite, the prefect.

The rector, after examining the localities and submitting to a
lengthy interrogatory first my accomplice, who very naturally was
considered as the most guilty, and then myself, whom nothing could
convict of the offence, ordered us to get up and go to church to
attend mass. As soon as we were dressed, he came back, and
addressing us both, he said, kindly:

"You stand both convicted of a scandalous connivance, and it is
proved by the fact of the lantern having been wilfully extinguished.
I am disposed to believe that the cause of all this disorder is, if
not entirely innocent, at least due only to extreme thoughtlessness;
but the scandal given to all your comrades, the outrage offered to
the discipline and to the established rules of the seminary, call
loudly for punishment. Leave the room."

We obeyed; but hardly were we between the double doors of the
dormitory than we were seized by four servants, who tied our hands
behind us, and led us to the class room, where they compelled us to
kneel down before the great crucifix. The rector told them to
execute his orders, and, as we were in that position, the wretches
administered to each of us seven or eight blows with a stick, or with
a rope, which I received, as well as my companion, without a murmur.
But the moment my hands were free, I asked the rector whether I could
write two lines at the very foot of the cross. He gave orders to
bring ink and paper, and I traced the following words:

"I solemnly swear by this God that I have never spoken to the
seminarist who was found in my bed. As an innocent person I must
protest against this shameful violence. I shall appeal to the
justice of his lordship the patriarch."

My comrade in misery signed this protest with me; after which,
addressing myself to all the pupils, I read it aloud, calling upon
them to speak the truth if any one could say the contrary of what I
had written. They, with one voice, immediately declared that we had
never been seen conversing together, and that no one knew who had put
the lamp out. The rector left the room in the midst of hisses and
curses, but he sent us to prison all the same at the top of the house
and in separate cells. An hour afterwards, I had my bed, my trunk
and all my things, and my meals were brought to me every day. On the
fourth day, the Abbe Tosello came for me with instructions to bring
me to Venice. I asked him whether he had sifted this unpleasant
affair; he told me that he had enquired into it, that he had seen the
other seminarist, and that he believed we were both innocent; but the
rector would not confess himself in the wrong, and he did not see
what could be done.

I threw off my seminarist's habit, and dressed myself in the clothes
I used to wear in Venice, and, while my luggage was carried to a
boat, I accompanied the abbe to M. Grimani's gondola in which he had
come, and we took our departure. On our way, the abbe ordered the
boatman to leave my things at the Palace Grimani, adding that he was
instructed by M. Grimani to tell me that, if I had the audacity to
present myself at his mansion, his servants had received orders to
turn me away.

He landed me near the convent of the Jesuits, without any money, and
with nothing but what I had on my back.

I went to beg a dinner from Madame Manzoni, who laughed heartily at
the realization of her prediction. After dinner I called upon M.
Rosa to see whether the law could protect me against the tyranny of
my enemies, and after he had been made acquainted with the
circumstances of the case, he promised to bring me the same evening,
at Madame Orio's house, an extra-judicial act. I repaired to the
place of appointment to wait for him, and to enjoy the pleasure of my
two charming friends at my sudden reappearance. It was indeed very
great, and the recital of my adventures did not astonish them less
than my unexpected presence. M. Rosa came and made me read the act
which he had prepared; he had not had time to have it engrossed by
the notary, but he undertook to have it ready the next day.

I left Madame Orio to take supper with my brother Francois, who
resided with a painter called Guardi; he was, like me, much oppressed
by the tyranny of Grimani, and I promised to deliver him. Towards
midnight I returned to the two amiable sisters who were expecting me
with their usual loving impatience, but, I am bound to confess it
with all humility, my sorrows were prejudicial to love in spite of
the fortnight of absence and of abstinence. They were themselves
deeply affected to see me so unhappy, and pitied me with all their
hearts. I endeavoured to console them, and assured them that all my
misery would soon come to an end, and that we would make up for lost

In the morning, having no money, and not knowing where to go, I went
to St. Mark's Library, where I remained until noon. I left it with
the intention of dining with Madame Manzoni, but I was suddenly
accosted by a soldier who informed me that someone wanted to speak to
me in a gondola to which he pointed. I answered that the person
might as well come out, but he quietly remarked that he had a friend
at hand to conduct me forcibly to the gondola, if necessary, and
without any more hesitation I went towards it. I had a great dislike
to noise or to anything like a public exhibition. I might have
resisted, for the soldiers were unarmed, and I would not have been
taken up, this sort of arrest not being legal in Venice, but I did
not think of it. The 'sequere deum' was playing its part; I felt no
reluctance. Besides, there are moments in which a courageous man has
no courage, or disdains to shew it.

I enter the gondola, the curtain is drawn aside, and I see my evil
genius, Razetta, with an officer. The two soldiers sit down at the
prow; I recognize M. Grimani's own gondola, it leaves the landing and
takes the direction of the Lido. No one spoke to me, and I remained
silent. After half-an-hour's sailing, the gondola stopped before the
small entrance of the Fortress St. Andre, at the mouth of the
Adriatic, on the very spot where the Bucentaur stands, when, on
Ascension Day, the doge comes to espouse the sea.

The sentinel calls the corporal; we alight, the officer who
accompanied me introduces me to the major, and presents a letter to
him. The major, after reading its contents, gives orders to M. Zen,
his adjutant, to consign me to the guard-house. In another quarter
of an hour my conductors take their departure, and M. Zen brings me
three livres and a half, stating that I would receive the same amount
every week. It was exactly the pay of a private.

I did not give way to any burst of passion, but I felt the most
intense indignation. Late in the evening I expressed a wish to have
some food bought, for I could not starve; then, stretching myself
upon a hard camp bed, I passed the night amongst the soldiers without
closing my eyes, for these Sclavonians were singing, eating garlic,
smoking a bad tobacco which was most noxious, and drinking a wine of
their own country, as black as ink, which nobody else could swallow.

Early next morning Major Pelodoro (the governor of the fortress)
called me up to his room, and told me that, in compelling me to spend
the night in the guard-house, he had only obeyed the orders he had
received from Venice from the secretary of war. "Now, reverend sir,"
he added, "my further orders are only to keep you a prisoner in the
fort, and I am responsible for your remaining here. I give you the
whole of the fortress for your prison. You shall have a good room in
which you will find your bed and all your luggage. Walk anywhere you
please; but recollect that, if you should escape, you would cause my
ruin. I am sorry that my instructions are to give you only ten sous
a day, but if you have any friends in Venice able to send you some
money, write to them, and trust to me for the security of your
letters. Now you may go to bed, if you need rest."

I was taken to my room; it was large and on the first story, with two
windows from which I had a very fine view. I found my bed, and I
ascertained with great satisfaction that my trunk, of which I had the
keys, had not been forced open. The major had kindly supplied my
table with all the implements necessary for writing. A Sclavonian
soldier informed me very politely that he would attend upon me, and
that I would pay him for his services whenever I could, for everyone
knew that I had only ten sous a day. I began by ordering some soup,
and, when I had dispatched it, I went to bed and slept for nine
hours. When I woke, I received an invitation to supper from the
major, and I began to imagine that things, after all, would not be so
very bad.

I went to the honest governor, whom I found in numerous company. He
presented me to his wife and to every person present. I met there
several officers, the chaplain of the fortress, a certain Paoli Vida,
one of the singers of St. Mark's Church, and his wife, a pretty
woman, sister-in-law of the major, whom the husband chose to confine
in the fort because he was very jealous (jealous men are not
comfortable at Venice), together with several other ladies, not very
young, but whom I thought very agreeable, owing to their kind

Cheerful as I was by nature, those pleasant guests easily managed to
put me in the best of humours. Everyone expressed a wish to know the
reasons which could have induced M. Grimani to send me to the
fortress, so I gave a faithful account of all my adventures since my
grandmother's death. I spoke for three hours without any bitterness,
and even in a pleasant tone, upon things which, said in a different
manner, might have displeased my audience; all expressed their
satisfaction, and shewed so much sympathy that, as we parted for the
night, I received from all an assurance of friendship and the offer
of their services. This is a piece of good fortune which has never
failed me whenever I have been the victim of oppression, until I
reached the age of fifty. Whenever I met with honest persons
expressing a curiosity to know the history of the misfortune under
which I was labouring, and whenever I satisfied their curiosity, I
have inspired them with friendship, and with that sympathy which was
necessary to render them favourable and useful to me.

That success was owing to a very simple artifice; it was only to tell
my story in a quiet and truthful manner, without even avoiding the
facts which told against me. It is simple secret that many men do
not know, because the larger portion of humankind is composed of
cowards; a man who always tells the truth must be possessed of great
moral courage. Experience has taught me that truth is a talisman,
the charm of which never fails in its effect, provided it is not
wasted upon unworthy people, and I believe that a guilty man, who
candidly speaks the truth to his judge, has a better chance of being
acquitted, than the innocent man who hesitates and evades true
statements. Of course the speaker must be young, or at least in the
prime of manhood; for an old man finds the whole of nature combined
against him.

The major had his joke respecting the visit paid and returned to the
seminarist's bed, but the chaplain and the ladies scolded him. The
major advised me to write out my story and send it to the secretary
of war, undertaking that he should receive it, and he assured me that
he would become my protector. All the ladies tried to induce me to
follow the major's advice.


My Short Stay in Fort St. Andre--My First Repentance in Love Affairs
I Enjoy the Sweets of Revenge, and Prove a Clever Alibi--Arrest of
Count Bonafede--My Release--Arrival of the Bishop--Farewell to Venice

The fort, in which the Republic usually kept only a garrison of one
hundred half-pay Sclavonians, happened to contain at that time two
thousand Albanian soldiers, who were called Cimariotes.

The secretary of war, who was generally known under the title of
'sage a l'ecriture', had summoned these men from the East in
consequence of some impending promotion, as he wanted the officers to
be on the spot in order to prove their merits before being rewarded.
They all came from the part of Epirus called Albania, which belongs
to the Republic of Venice, and they had distinguished themselves in
the last war against the Turks. It was for me a new and
extraordinary sight to examine some eighteen or twenty officers, all
of an advanced age, yet strong and healthy, shewing the scars which
covered their face and their chest, the last naked and entirely
exposed through military pride. The lieutenant-colonel was
particularly conspicuous by his wounds, for, without exaggeration, he
had lost one-fourth of his head. He had but one eye, but one ear,
and no jaw to speak of. Yet he could eat very well, speak without
difficulty, and was very cheerful. He had with him all his family,
composed of two pretty daughters, who looked all the prettier in
their national costume, and of seven sons, every one of them a
soldier. This lieutenant-colonel stood six feet high, and his figure
was magnificent, but his scars so completely deformed his features
that his face was truly horrid to look at. Yet I found so much
attraction in him that I liked him the moment I saw him, and I would
have been much pleased to converse with him if his breath had not
sent forth such a strong smell of garlic. All the Albanians had
their pockets full of it, and they enjoyed a piece of garlic with as
much relish as we do a sugar-plum. After this none can maintain it
to be a poison, though the only medicinal virtue it possesses is to
excite the appetite, because it acts like a tonic upon a weak

The lieutenant-colonel could not read, but he was not ashamed of his
ignorance, because not one amongst his men, except the priest and the
surgeon, could boast greater learning. Every man, officer or
private, had his purse full of gold; half of them, at least, were
married, and we had in the fortress a colony of five or six hundred
women, with God knows how many children! I felt greatly interested
in them all. Happy idleness! I often regret thee because thou hast
often offered me new sights, and for the same reason I hate old age
which never offers but what I know already, unless I should take up a
gazette, but I cared nothing for them in my young days.

Alone in my room I made an inventory of my trunk, and having put
aside everything of an ecclesiastical character, I sent for a Jew,
and sold the whole parcel unmercifully. Then I wrote to M. Rosa,
enclosing all the tickets of the articles I had pledged, requesting
him to have them sold without any exception, and to forward me the
surplus raised by the sale. Thanks to that double operation, I was
enabled to give my Sclavonian servant the ten sous allowed to me
every day. Another soldier, who had been a hair-dresser, took care
of my hair which I had been compelled to neglect, in consequence of
the rules of the seminary. I spent my time in walking about the fort
and through the barracks, and my two places of resort were the
major's apartment for some intellectual enjoyment, and the rooms of
the Albanian lieutenant-colonel for a sprinkling of love. The
Albanian feeling certain that his colonel would be appointed
brigadier, solicited the command of the regiment, but he had a rival
and he feared his success. I wrote him a petition, short, but so
well composed that the secretary of war, having enquired the name of
the author, gave the Albanian his colonelcy. On his return to the
fort, the brave fellow, overjoyed at his success, hugged me in his
arms, saying that he owed it all to me; he invited me to a family
dinner, in which my very soul was parched by his garlic, and he
presented me with twelve botargoes and two pounds of excellent
Turkish tobacco.

The result of my petition made all the other officers think that they
could not succeed without the assistance of my pen, and I willingly
gave it to everybody; this entailed many quarrels upon me, for I
served all interests, but, finding myself the lucky possessor of some
forty sequins, I was no longer in dread of poverty, and laughed at
everything. However, I met with an accident which made me pass six
weeks in a very unpleasant condition.

On the 2nd of April, the fatal anniversary of my first appearance in
this world, as I was getting up in the morning, I received in my room
the visit of a very handsome Greek woman, who told me that her
husband, then ensign in the regiment, had every right to claim the
rank of lieutenant, and that he would certainly be appointed, if it
were not for the opposition of his captain who was against him,
because she had refused him certain favours which she could bestow
only upon her husband. She handed me some certificates, and begged
me to write a petition which she would present herself to the
secretary of war, adding that she could only offer me her heart in
payment. I answered that her heart ought not to go alone; I acted as
I had spoken, and I met with no other resistance than the objection
which a pretty woman is always sure to feign for the sake of
appearance. After that, I told her to come back at noon, and that
the petition would be ready. She was exact to the appointment, and
very kindly rewarded me a second time; and in the evening, under
pretence of some alterations to be made in the petition, she afforded
an excellent opportunity of reaping a third recompense.

But, alas! the path of pleasure is not strewn only with roses! On
the third day, I found out, much to my dismay, that a serpent had
been hid under the flowers. Six weeks of care and of rigid diet re-
established my health.

When I met the handsome Greek again, I was foolish enough to reproach
her for the present she had bestowed upon me, but she baffled me by
laughing, and saying that she had only offered me what she possessed,
and that it was my own fault if I had not been sufficiently careful.
The reader cannot imagine how much this first misfortune grieved me,
and what deep shame I felt. I looked upon myself as a dishonoured
man, and while I am on that subject I may as well relate an incident
which will give some idea of my thoughtlessness.

Madame Vida, the major's sister-in-law, being alone with me one
morning, confided in me in a moment of unreserved confidence what she
had to suffer from the jealous disposition of her husband, and his
cruelty in having allowed her to sleep alone for the last four years,
when she was in the very flower of her age.

"I trust to God," she added, "that my husband will not find out that
you have spent an hour alone with me, for I should never hear the end
of it."

Feeling deeply for her grief, and confidence begetting confidence, I
was stupid enough to tell her the sad state to which I had been
reduced by the cruel Greek woman, assuring her that I felt my misery
all the more deeply, because I should have been delighted to console
her, and to give her the opportunity of a revenge for her jealous
husband's coldness. At this speech, in which my simplicity and good
faith could easily be traced, she rose from her chair, and upbraided
me with every insult which an outraged honest woman might hurl at the
head of a bold libertine who has presumed too far. Astounded, but
understanding perfectly well the nature of my crime, I bowed myself
out of her room; but as I was leaving it she told me in the same
angry tone that my visits would not be welcome for the future, as I
was a conceited puppy, unworthy of the society of good and
respectable women. I took care to answer that a respectable woman
would have been rather more reserved than she had been in her
confidences. On reflection I felt pretty sure that, if I had been in
good health, or had said nothing about my mishap, she would have been
but too happy to receive my consolations.

A few days after that incident I had a much greater cause to regret
my acquaintance with the Greek woman. On Ascension Day, as the
ceremony of the Bucentaur was celebrated near the fort, M. Rosa
brought Madame Orio and her two nieces to witness it, and I had the
pleasure of treating them all to a good dinner in my room. I found
myself, during the day, alone with my young friends in one of the
casements, and they both loaded me with the most loving caresses and
kisses. I felt that they expected some substantial proof of my love;
but, to conceal the real state, of things, I pretended to be afraid
of being surprised, and they had to be satisfied with my shallow

I had informed my mother by letter of all I had suffered from
Grimani's treatment; she answered that she had written to him on the
subject, that she had no doubt he would immediately set me at
liberty, and that an arrangement had been entered into by which M.
Grimani would devote the money raised by Razetta from the sale of the
furniture to the settlement of a small patrimony on my youngest
brother. But in this matter Grimani did not act honestly, for the
patrimony was only settled thirteen years afterwards, and even then
only in a fictitious manner. I shall have an opportunity later on of
mentioning this unfortunate brother, who died very poor in Rome
twenty years ago.

Towards the middle of June the Cimariotes were sent back to the East,
and after their departure the garrison of the fort was reduced to its
usual number. I began to feel weary in this comparative solitude,
and I gave way to terrible fits of passion.

The heat was intense, and so disagreeable to me that I wrote to M.
Grimani, asking for two summer suits of clothes, and telling him
where they would be found, if Razetta had not sold them. A week
afterwards I was in the major's apartment when I saw the wretch
Razetta come in, accompanied by a man whom he introduced as Petrillo,
the celebrated favourite of the Empress of Russia, just arrived from
St. Petersburg. He ought to have said infamous instead of
celebrated, and clown instead of favourite.

The major invited them to take a seat, and Razetta, receiving a
parcel from Grimani's gondolier, handed it to me, saying,

"I have brought you your rags; take them."

I answered:

"Some day I will bring you a 'rigano':"

At these words the scoundrel dared to raise his cane, but the
indignant major compelled him to lower his tone by asking him whether
he had any wish to pass the night in the guard-house. Petrillo, who
had not yet opened his lips, told me then that he was sorry not to
have found me in Venice, as I might have shewn him round certain
places which must be well known to me.

"Very likely we should have met your wife in such places,"
I answered.

"I am a good judge of faces," he said, "and I can see that you are a
true gallows-bird."

I was trembling with rage, and the major, who shared my utter
disgust, told them that he had business to transact, and they took
their leave. The major assured me that on the following day he would
go to the war office to complain of Razetta, and that he would have
him punished for his insolence.

I remained alone, a prey to feelings of the deepest indignation, and
to a most ardent thirst for revenge.

The fortress was entirely surrounded by water, and my windows were
not overlooked by any of the sentinels. A boat coming under my
windows could therefore easily take me to Venice during the night and
bring me back to the fortress before day-break. All that was
necessary was to find a boatman who, for a certain amount, would risk
the galleys in case of discovery. Amongst several who brought
provisions to the fort, I chose a boatman whose countenance pleased
me, and I offered him one sequin; he promised to let me know his
decision on the following day. He was true to his time, and declared
himself ready to take me. He informed me that, before deciding to
serve me, he had wished to know whether I was kept in the fort for
any great crime, but as the wife of the major had told him that my
imprisonment had been caused by very trifling frolics, I could rely
upon him. We arranged that he should be under my window at the
beginning of the night, and that his boat should be provided with a
mast long enough to enable me to slide along it from the window to
the boat.

The appointed hour came, and everything being ready I got safely into
the boat, landed at the Sclavonian quay, ordered the boatman to wait
for me, and wrapped up in a mariner's cloak I took my way straight to
the gate of Saint-Sauveur, and engaged the waiter of a coffee-room to
take me to Razetta's house.

Being quite certain that he would not be at home at that time, I rang
the bell, and I heard my sister's voice telling me that if I wanted
to see him I must call in the morning. Satisfied with this, I went
to the foot of the bridge and sat down, waiting there to see which
way he would come, and a few minutes before midnight I saw him
advancing from the square of Saint-Paul. It was all I wanted to
know; I went back to my boat and returned to the fort without any
difficulty. At five o'clock in the morning everyone in the garrison
could see me enjoying my walk on the platform.

Taking all the time necessary to mature my plans, I made the
following arrangements to secure my revenge with perfect safety, and
to prove an alibi in case I should kill my rascally enemy, as it was
my intention to do. The day preceding the night fixed for my
expedition, I walked about with the son of the Adjutant Zen, who was
only twelve years old, but who amused me much by his shrewdness. The
reader will meet him again in the year 1771. As I was walking with
him, I jumped down from one of the bastions, and feigned to sprain my
ankle. Two soldiers carried me to my room, and the surgeon of the
fort, thinking that I was suffering from a luxation, ordered me to
keep to bed, and wrapped up the ankle in towels saturated with
camphorated spirits of wine. Everybody came to see me, and I
requested the soldier who served me to remain and to sleep in my
room. I knew that a glass of brandy was enough to stupefy the man,
and to make him sleep soundly. As soon as I saw him fast asleep, I
begged the surgeon and the chaplain, who had his room over mine, to
leave me, and at half-past ten I lowered myself in the boat.

As soon as I reached Venice, I bought a stout cudgel, and I sat
myself down on a door-step, at the corner of the street near Saint-
Paul's Square. A narrow canal at the end of the street, was, I
thought, the very place to throw my enemy in. That canal has now

At a quarter before twelve I see Razetta, walking along leisurely. I
come out of the street with rapid strides, keeping near the wall to
compel him to make room for me, and I strike a first blow on the
head, and a second on his arm; the third blow sends him tumbling in
the canal, howling and screaming my name. At the same instant a
Forlan, or citizen of Forli, comes out of a house on my left side
with a lantern in his hand. A blow from my cudgel knocks the lantern
out of his grasp, and the man, frightened out of his wits, takes to
his heels. I throw away my stick, I run at full speed through the
square and over the bridge, and while people are hastening towards
the spot where the disturbance had taken place, I jump into the boat,
and, thanks to a strong breeze swelling our sail, I get back to the
fortress. Twelve o'clock was striking as I re-entered my room
through the window. I quickly undress myself, and the moment I am in
my bed I wake up the soldier by my loud screams, telling him to go
for the surgeon, as I am dying of the colic.

The chaplain, roused by my screaming, comes down and finds me in
convulsions. In the hope that some diascordium would relieve me, the
good old man runs to his room and brings it, but while he has gone
for some water I hide the medicine. After half an hour of wry faces,
I say that I feel much better, and thanking all my friends, I beg
them to retire, which everyone does, wishing me a quiet sleep.

The next morning I could not get up in consequence of my sprained
ankle, although I had slept very well; the major was kind enough to
call upon me before going to Venice, and he said that very likely my
colic had been caused by the melon I had eaten for my dinner the day

The major returned at one o'clock in the afternoon. "I have good
news to give you," he said to me, with a joyful laugh. "Razetta was
soundly cudgelled last night and thrown into a canal."

"Has he been killed?"

"No; but I am glad of it for your sake, for his death would make your
position much more serious. You are accused of having done it."

"I am very glad people think me guilty; it is something of a revenge,
but it will be rather difficult to bring it home to me."

"Very difficult! All the same, Razetta swears he recognized you, and
the same declaration is made by the Forlan who says that you struck
his hand to make him drop his lantern. Razetta's nose is broken,
three of his teeth are gone, and his right arm is severely hurt. You
have been accused before the avogador, and M. Grimani has written to
the war office to complain of your release from the fortress without
his knowledge. I arrived at the office just in time. The secretary
was reading Grimani's letter, and I assured his excellency that it
was a false report, for I left you in bed this morning, suffering
from a sprained ankle. I told him likewise that at twelve o'clock
last night you were very near death from a severe attack of colic."

"Was it at midnight that Razetta was so well treated?"

"So says the official report. The war secretary wrote at once to M.
Grimani and informed him that you have not left the fort, and that
you are even now detained in it, and that the plaintiff is at
liberty, if he chooses, to send commissaries to ascertain the fact.
Therefore, my dear abbe, you must prepare yourself for an

"I expect it, and I will answer that I am very sorry to be innocent."

Three days afterwards, a commissary came to the fort with a clerk of
the court, and the proceedings were soon over. Everybody knew that I
had sprained my ankle; the chaplain, the surgeon, my body-servant,
and several others swore that at midnight I was in bed suffering from
colic. My alibi being thoroughly proved, the avogador sentenced
Razetta and the Forlan to pay all expenses without prejudice to my
rights of action.

After this judgment, the major advised me to address to the secretary
of war a petition which he undertook to deliver himself, and to claim
my release from the fort. I gave notice of my proceedings to M.
Grimani, and a week afterwards the major told me that I was free, and
that he would himself take me to the abbe. It was at dinnertime, and
in the middle of some amusing conversation, that he imparted that
piece of information. Not supposing him to be in earnest, and in
order to keep up the joke, I told him very politely that I preferred
his house to Venice, and that, to prove it, I would be happy to
remain a week longer, if he would grant me permission to do so. I
was taken at my word, and everybody seemed very pleased. But when,
two hours later, the news was confirmed, and I could no longer doubt
the truth of my release, I repented the week which I had so foolishly
thrown away as a present to the major; yet I had not the courage to
break my word, for everybody, and particularly his wife, had shown
such unaffected pleasure, it would have been contemptible of me to
change my mind. The good woman knew that I owed her every kindness
which I had enjoyed, and she might have thought me ungrateful.

But I met in the fort with a last adventure, which I must not forget
to relate.

On the following day, an officer dressed in the national uniform
called upon the major, accompanied by an elderly man of about sixty
years of age, wearing a sword, and, presenting to the major a
dispatch with the seal of the war office, he waited for an answer,
and went away as soon as he had received one from the governor.

After the officer had taken leave, the major, addressing himself to
the elderly gentleman, to whom he gave the title of count, told him
that his orders were to keep him a prisoner, and that he gave him the
whole of the fort for his prison. The count offered him his sword,
but the major nobly refused to take it, and escorted him to the room
he was to occupy. Soon after, a servant in livery brought a bed and
a trunk, and the next morning the same servant, knocking at my door,
told me that his master begged the honour of my company to breakfast.
I accepted the invitation, and he received me with these words:

"Dear sir, there has been so much talk in Venice about the skill with
which you proved your incredible alibi, that I could not help asking
for the honour of your acquaintance."

"But, count, the alibi being a true one, there can be no skill
required to prove it. Allow me to say that those who doubt its truth
are paying me a very poor compliment, for--"

"Never mind; do not let us talk any more of that, and forgive me.
But as we happen to be companions in misfortune, I trust you will not
refuse me your friendship. Now for breakfast."

After our meal, the count, who had heard from me some portion of my
history, thought that my confidence called for a return on his part,
and he began: "I am the Count de Bonafede. In my early days I served
under Prince Eugene, but I gave up the army, and entered on a civil
career in Austria. I had to fly from Austria and take refuge in
Bavaria in consequence of an unfortunate duel. In Munich I made the
acquaintance of a young lady belonging to a noble family; I eloped
with her and brought her to Venice, where we were married. I have
now been twenty years in Venice. I have six children, and everybody
knows me. About a week ago I sent my servant to the postoffice for
my letters, but they were refused him because he had not any money to
pay the postage. I went myself, but the clerk would not deliver me
my letters, although I assured him that I would pay for them the next
time. This made me angry, and I called upon the Baron de Taxis, the
postmaster, and complained of the clerk, but he answered very rudely
that the clerk had simply obeyed his orders, and that my letters
would only be delivered on payment of the postage. I felt very
indignant, but as I was in his house I controlled my anger, went
home, and wrote a note to him asking him to give me satisfaction for
his rudeness, telling him that I would never go out without my sword,
and that I would force him to fight whenever and wherever I should
meet him. I never came across him, but yesterday I was accosted by
the secretary of the inquisitors, who told me that I must forget the
baron's rude conduct, and go under the guidance of an officer whom he
pointed out to me, to imprison myself for a week in this fortress. I
shall thus have the pleasure of spending that time with you."

I told him that I had been free for the last twenty-four hours, but
that to shew my gratitude for his friendly confidence I would feel
honoured if he would allow me to keep him company. As I had already
engaged myself with the major, this was only a polite falsehood.

In the afternoon I happened to be with him on the tower of the fort,
and pointed out a gondola advancing towards the lower gate; he took
his spy-glass and told me that it was his wife and daughter coming to
see him. We went to meet the ladies, one of whom might once have
been worth the trouble of an elopement; the other, a young person
between fourteen and sixteen, struck me as a beauty of a new style.
Her hair was of a beautiful light auburn, her eyes were blue and very
fine, her nose a Roman, and her pretty mouth, half-open and laughing,
exposed a set of teeth as white as her complexion, although a
beautiful rosy tint somewhat veiled the whiteness of the last. Her
figure was so slight that it seemed out of nature, but her perfectly-
formed breast appeared an altar on which the god of love would have
delighted to breathe the sweetest incense. This splendid chest was,
however, not yet well furnished, but in my imagination I gave her all
the embonpoint which might have been desired, and I was so pleased
that I could not take my looks from her. I met her eyes, and her
laughing countenance seemed to say to me: "Only wait for two years,
at the utmost, and all that your imagination is now creating will
then exist in reality."

She was elegantly dressed in the prevalent fashion, with large hoops,
and like the daughters of the nobility who have not yet attained the
age of puberty, although the young countess was marriageable. I had
never dared to stare so openly at the bosom of a young lady of
quality, but I thought there was no harm in fixing my eyes on a spot
where there was nothing yet but in expectation.

The count, after having exchanged a few words in German with his
wife, presented me in the most flattering manner, and I was received
with great politeness. The major joined us, deeming it his duty to
escort the countess all over the fortress, and I improved the
excellent opportunity thrown in my way by the inferiority of my
position; I offered my arm to the young lady, and the count left us
to go to his room.

I was still an adept in the old Venetian fashion of attending upon
ladies, and the young countess thought me rather awkward, though I
believed myself very fashionable when I placed my hand under her arm,
but she drew it back in high merriment. Her mother turned round to
enquire what she was laughing at, and I was terribly confused when I
heard her answer that I had tickled her.

"This is the way to offer your arm to a lady," she said, and she
passed her hand through my arm, which I rounded in the most clumsy
manner, feeling it a very difficult task to resume a dignified
countenance. Thinking me a novice of the most innocent species, she
very likely determined to make sport of me. She began by remarking
that by rounding my arm as I had done I placed it too far from her
waist, and that I was consequently out of drawing. I told her I did
not know how to draw, and inquired whether it was one of her

"I am learning," she answered, "and when you call upon us I will shew
you Adam and Eve, after the Chevalier Liberi; I have made a copy
which has been found very fine by some professors, although they did
not know it was my work."

"Why did you not tell them?"

"Because those two figures are too naked."

"I am not curious to see your Adam, but I will look at your Eve with
pleasure, and keep your secret."

This answer made her laugh again, and again her mother turned round.
I put on the look of a simpleton, for, seeing the advantage I could
derive from her opinion of me, I had formed my plan at the very
moment she tried to teach me how to offer my arm to a lady.

She was so convinced of my simplicity that she ventured to say that
she considered her Adam by far more beautiful than her Eve, because
in her drawing of the man she had omitted nothing, every muscle being
visible, while there was none conspicuous in Eve. "It is," she
added, "a figure with nothing in it."

"Yet it is the one which I shall like best."

"No; believe me, Adam will please you most."

This conversation had greatly excited me. I had on a pair of linen
breeches, the weather being very warm.... I was afraid of the major
and the countess, who were a few yards in front of us, turning round
.... I was on thorns. To make matters worse, the young lady
stumbled, one of her shoes slipped off, and presenting me her pretty
foot she asked me to put the shoe right. I knelt on the ground, and,
very likely without thinking, she lifted up her skirt.... she had
very wide hoops and no petticoat.... what I saw was enough to strike
me dead on the spot.... When I rose, she asked if anything was the
matter with me.

A moment after, coming out of one of the casemates, her head-dress
got slightly out of order, and she begged that I would remedy the
accident, but, having to bend her head down, the state in which I was
could no longer remain a secret for her. In order to avoid greater
confusion to both of us, she enquired who had made my watch ribbon; I
told her it was a present from my sister, and she desired to examine
it, but when I answered her that it was fastened to the fob-pocket,
and found that she disbelieved me, I added that she could see for
herself. She put her hand to it, and a natural but involuntary
excitement caused me to be very indiscreet. She must have felt
vexed, for she saw that she had made a mistake in her estimate of my
character; she became more timid, she would not laugh any more, and
we joined her mother and the major who was shewing her, in a sentry-
box, the body of Marshal de Schulenburg which had been deposited
there until the mausoleum erected for him was completed. As for
myself, I felt deeply ashamed. I thought myself the first man who
had alarmed her innocence, and I felt ready to do anything to atone
for the insult.

Such was my delicacy of feeling in those days. I used to credit
people with exalted sentiments, which often existed only in my
imagination. I must confess that time has entirely destroyed that
delicacy; yet I do not believe myself worse than other men, my equals
in age and inexperience.

We returned to the count's apartment, and the day passed off rather
gloomily. Towards evening the ladies went away, but the countess
gave me a pressing invitation to call upon them in Venice.

The young lady, whom I thought I had insulted, had made such a deep
impression upon me that the seven following days seemed very long;
yet I was impatient to see her again only that I might entreat her
forgiveness, and convince her of my repentance.

The following day the count was visited by his son; he was plain-
featured, but a thorough gentleman, and modest withal. Twenty-five
years afterwards I met him in Spain, a cadet in the king's body-
guard. He had served as a private twenty years before obtaining this
poor promotion. The reader will hear of him in good time; I will
only mention here that when I met him in Spain, he stood me out that
I had never known him; his self-love prompted this very contemptible

Early on the eighth day the count left the fortress, and I took my
departure the same evening, having made an appointment at a coffee-
house in St. Mark's Square with the major who was to accompany me to
M. Grimani's house. I took leave of his wife, whose memory will
always be dear to me, and she said, "I thank you for your skill in
proving your alibi, but you have also to thank me for having
understood you so well. My husband never heard anything about it
until it was all over."

As soon as I reached Venice, I went to pay a visit to Madame Orio,
where I was made welcome. I remained to supper, and my two charming
sweethearts who were praying for the death of the bishop, gave me the
most delightful hospitality for the night.

At noon the next day I met the major according to our appointment,
and we called upon the Abbe Grimani. He received me with the air of
a guilty man begging for mercy, and I was astounded at his stupidity
when he entreated me to forgive Razetta and his companion. He told
me that the bishop was expected very soon, and that he had ordered a
room to be ready for me, and that I could take my meals with him.
Then he introduced me to M. Valavero, a man of talent, who had just
left the ministry of war, his term of office having lasted the usual
six months. I paid my duty to him, and we kept up a kind of
desultory conversation until the departure of the major. When he had
left us M. Valavero entreated me to confess that I had been the
guilty party in the attack upon Razetta. I candidly told him that
the thrashing had been my handiwork, and I gave him all the
particulars, which amused him immensely. He remarked that, as I had
perpetrated the affair before midnight, the fools had made a mistake
in their accusation; but that, after all, the mistake had not
materially helped me in proving the alibi, because my sprained ankle,
which everybody had supposed a real accident, would of itself have
been sufficient.

But I trust that my kind reader has not forgotten that I had a very
heavy weight upon my conscience, of which I longed to get rid. I had
to see the goddess of my fancy, to obtain my pardon, or die at her

I found the house without difficulty; the count was not at home. The
countess received me very kindly, but her appearance caused me so
great a surprise that I did not know what to say to her. I had
fancied that I was going to visit an angel, that I would find her in
a lovely paradise, and I found myself in a large sitting-room
furnished with four rickety chairs and a dirty old table. There was
hardly any light in the room because the shutters were nearly closed.
It might have been a precaution against the heat, but I judged that
it was more probably for the purpose of concealing the windows, the
glass of which was all broken. But this visible darkness did not
prevent me from remarking that the countess was wrapped up in an old
tattered gown, and that her chemise did not shine by its cleanliness.
Seeing that I was ill at ease, she left the room, saying that she
would send her daughter, who, a few minutes afterwards, came in with
an easy and noble appearance, and told me that she had expected me
with great impatience, but that I had surprised her at a time at
which she was not in the habit of receiving any visits.

I did not know what to answer, for she did not seem to me to be the
same person. Her miserable dishabille made her look almost ugly, and
I wondered at the impression she had produced upon me at the
fortress. She saw my surprise, and partly guessed my thoughts, for
she put on a look, not of vexation, but of sorrow which called forth
all my pity. If she had been a philosopher she might have rightly
despised me as a man whose sympathy was enlisted only by her fine
dress, her nobility, or her apparent wealth; but she endeavoured to
bring me round by her sincerity. She felt that if she could call a
little sentiment into play, it would certainly plead in her favour.

"I see that you are astonished, reverend sir, and I know the reason
of your surprise. You expected to see great splendour here, and you
find only misery. The government allows my father but a small
salary, and there are nine of us. As we must attend church on
Sundays and holidays in a style proper to our condition, we are often
compelled to go without our dinner, in order to get out of pledge the
clothes which urgent need too often obliges us to part with, and
which we pledge anew on the following day. If we did not attend
mass, the curate would strike our names off the list of those who
share the alms of the Confraternity of the Poor, and those alms alone
keep us afloat."

What a sad tale! She had guessed rightly. I was touched, but rather
with shame than true emotion. I was not rich myself, and, as I was
no longer in love, I only heaved a deep sigh, and remained as cold as
ice. Nevertheless, her position was painful, and I answered
politely, speaking with kindness and assuring her of my sympathy.
"Were I wealthy," I said, "I would soon shew you that your tale of
woe has not fallen on unfeeling ears; but I am poor, and, being at
the eve of my departure from Venice, even my friendship would be
useless to you." Then, after some desultory talk, I expressed a hope
that her beauty would yet win happiness for her. She seemed to
consider for a few minutes, and said, "That may happen some day,
provided that the man who feels the power of my charms understands
that they can be bestowed only with my heart, and is willing to
render me the justice I deserve; I am only looking for a lawful
marriage, without dreaming of rank or fortune; I no longer believe in
the first, and I know how to live without the second; for I have been
accustomed to poverty, and even to abject need; but you cannot
realize that. Come and see my drawings."

"You are very good, mademoiselle."

Alas! I was not thinking of her drawings, and I could no longer feel
interested in her Eve, but I followed her.

We came to a chamber in which I saw a table, a chair, a small toilet-
glass and a bed with the straw palliasse turned over, very likely for
the purpose of allowing the looker-on to suppose that there were
sheets underneath, but I was particularly disgusted by a certain
smell, the cause of which was recent; I was thunderstruck, and if I
had been still in love, this antidote would have been sufficiently
powerful to cure me instanter. I wished for nothing but to make my
escape, never to return, and I regretted that I could not throw on
the table a handful of ducats, which I should have considered the
price of my ransom.

The poor girl shewed me. her drawings; they were fine, and I praised
them, without alluding particularly to Eve, and without venturing a
joke upon Adam. I asked her, for the sake of saying something, why
she did not try to render her talent remunerative by learning pastel

"I wish I could," she answered, "but the box of chalks alone costs
two sequins."

"Will you forgive me if I am bold enough to offer you six?"

"Alas! I accept them gratefully, and to be indebted to you for such
a service makes me truly happy."

Unable to keep back her tears, she turned her head round to conceal
them from me, and I took that opportunity of laying the money on the
table, and out of politeness, wishing to spare her every unnecessary
humiliation, I saluted her lips with a kiss which she was at liberty
to consider a loving one, as I wanted her to ascribe my reserve to
the respect I felt for her. I then left her with a promise to call
another day to see her father. I never kept my promise. The reader
will see how I met her again after ten years.

How many thoughts crowded upon my mind as I left that house! What a
lesson! I compared reality with the imagination, and I had to give
the preference to the last, as reality is always dependent on it. I
then began to forsee a truth which has been clearly proved to me in
my after life, namely, that love is only a feeling of curiosity more
or less intense, grafted upon the inclination placed in us by nature
that the species may be preserved. And truly, woman is like a book,
which, good or bad, must at first please us by the frontispiece. If
this is not interesting, we do not feel any wish to read the book,
and our wish is in direct proportion to the interest we feel. The
frontispiece of woman runs from top to bottom like that of a book,
and her feet, which are most important to every man who shares my
taste, offer the same interest as the edition of the work. If it is
true that most amateurs bestow little or no attention upon the feet
of a woman, it is likewise a fact that most readers care little or
nothing whether a book is of the first edition or the tenth. At all
events, women are quite right to take the greatest care of their
face, of their dress, of their general appearance; for it is only by
that part of the frontispiece that they can call forth a wish to read
them in those men who have not been endowed by nature with the
privilege of blindness. And just in the same manner that men, who
have read a great many books, are certain to feel at last a desire
for perusing new works even if they are bad, a man who has known many
women, and all handsome women, feels at last a curiosity for ugly
specimens when he meets with entirely new ones. It is all very well
for his eye to discover the paint which conceals the reality, but his
passion has become a vice, and suggests some argument in favour of
the lying frontispiece. It is possible, at least he thinks so, that
the work may prove better than the title-page, and the reality more
acceptable than the paint which hides it. He then tries to peruse
the book, but the leaves have not been opened; he meets with some
resistance, the living book must be read according to established
rules, and the book-worm falls a victim to a coquetry, the monster
which persecutes all those who make a business of love. As for thee,
intelligent man, who hast read the few preceding lines, let me tell
thee that, if they do not assist in opening thy eyes, thou art lost;
I mean that thou art certain of being a victim to the fair sex to the
very last moment of thy life. If my candour does not displease thee,
accept my congratulations. In the evening I called upon Madame Orio,
as I wanted to inform her charming nieces that, being an inmate of
Grimani's house, I could not sleep out for the first night. I found
there the faithful Rosa, who told me that the affair of the alibi was
in every mouth, and that, as such celebrity was evidently caused by
a very decided belief in the untruth of the alibi itself, I ought to
fear a retaliation of the same sort on the part of Razetta, and to
keep on my guard, particularly at night. I felt all the importance of
this advice, and I took care never to go out in the evening otherwise
than in a gondola, or accompanied by some friends. Madame Manzoni
told me that I was acting wisely, because, although the judges could
not do otherwise than acquit me, everybody knew the real truth of the
matter, and Razetta could not fail to be my deadly foe.

Three or four days afterwards M. Grimani announced the arrival of
the bishop, who had put up at the convent of his order, at Saint-
Francois de Paul. He presented me himself to the prelate as a jewel
highly prized by himself, and as if he had been the only person
worthy of descanting upon its beauty.

I saw a fine monk wearing his pectoral cross. He would have reminded
me of Father Mancia if he had not looked stouter and less reserved.
He was about thirty-four, and had been made a bishop by the grace of
God, the Holy See, and my mother. After pronouncing over me a
blessing, which I received kneeling, and giving me his hand to kiss,
he embraced me warmly, calling me his dear son in the Latin language,
in which he continued to address me. I thought that, being a
Calabrian, he might feel ashamed of his Italian, but he undeceived me
by speaking in that language to M. Grimani. He told me that, as he
could not take me with him from Venice, I should have to proceed to
Rome, where Grimani would take care to send me, and that I would
procure his address at Ancona from one of his friends, called Lazari,
a Minim monk, who would likewise supply me with the means of
continuing my journey.

"When we meet in Rome," he added, "we can go together to Martorano by
way of Naples. Call upon me to-morrow morning, and have your
breakfast with me. I intend to leave the day after."

As we were on our way back to his house, M. Grimani treated me to a
long lecture on morals, which nearly caused me to burst into loud
laughter. Amongst other things, he informed me that I ought not to
study too hard, because the air in Calabria was very heavy, and I
might become consumptive from too close application to my books.

The next morning at day-break I went to the bishop. After saying his
mass, we took some chocolate, and for three hours he laid me under
examination. I saw clearly that he was not pleased with me, but I
was well enough pleased with him. He seemed to me a worthy man, and
as he was to lead me along the great highway of the Church, I felt
attracted towards him, for, at the time, although I entertained a
good opinion of my personal appearance, I had no confidence whatever
in my talents.

After the departure of the good bishop, M. Grimani gave me a letter
left by him, which I was to deliver to Father Lazari, at the Convent
of the Minims, in Ancona. M. Grimani informed me that he would send
me to that city with the ambassador from Venice, who was on the point
of sailing. I had therefore to keep myself in readiness, and, as I
was anxious to be out of his hands, I approved all his arrangements.
As soon as I had notice of the day on which the suite of the
ambassador would embark, I went to pay my last farewell to all my
acquaintances. I left my brother Francois in the school of M. Joli,
a celebrated decorative painter. As the peotta in which I was to
sail would not leave before daybreak, I spent the short night in the
arms of the two sisters, who, this time, entertained no hope of ever
seeing me again. On my side I could not forsee what would happen,
for I was abandoning myself to fate, and I thought it would be
useless to think of the future. The night was therefore spent
between joy and sadness, between pleasures and tears. As I bade them
adieu, I returned the key which had opened so often for me the road
to happiness.

This, my first love affair, did not give me any experience of the
world, for our intercourse was always a happy one, and was never
disturbed by any quarrel or stained by any interested motive. We
often felt, all three of us, as if we must raise our souls towards
the eternal Providence of God, to thank Him for having, by His
particular protection, kept from us all the accidents which might
have disturbed the sweet peace we were enjoying.

I left in the hands of Madame Manzoni all my papers, and all the
forbidden books I possessed. The good woman, who was twenty years
older than I, and who, believing in an immutable destiny, took
pleasure in turning the leaves of the great book of fate, told me
that she was certain of restoring to me all I left with her, before
the end of the following year, at the latest. Her prediction caused
me both surprise and pleasure, and feeling deep reverence for her, I
thought myself bound to assist the realization of her foresight.
After all, if she predicted the future, it was not through
superstition, or in consequence of some vain foreboding which reason
must condemn, but through her knowledge of the world, and of the
nature of the person she was addressing. She used to laugh because
she never made a mistake.

I embarked from St: Mark's landing. M. Grimani had given me ten
sequins, which he thought would keep me during my stay in the
lazzaretto of Ancona for the necessary quarantine, after which it was
not to be supposed that I could want any money. I shared Grimani's
certainty on the subject, and with my natural thoughtlessness I cared
nothing about it. Yet I must say that, unknown to everybody, I had
in my purse forty bright sequins, which powerfully contributed to
increase my cheerfulness, and I left Venice full of joy and without
one regret.

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