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rent to the knee. His enemies had done their best to ensure prejudice,
and frustrate belief. They did not see in his look what no honest man
could misread. Innocent as he knew himself, he could not help feeling
for a moment disconcerted. But his faithfulness threw him on the mercy
of the man before him.

The captain turned and sat down. The boy stood in the doorway, staring
at his reflex self in the mirror. The captain understood his
consternation.

"Come along, my poor boy," he said. "How did you get into this mess?"

"I think I know," answered Clare, "but I'm not sure."

"You must have been drunk," sighed the captain.

"Oh, no, sir!" returned Clare, with one of his radiant smiles. "I've
had but one glass of beer in my life, and I didn't like it."

The captain smiled too, and gazed at him for several moments without
speaking.

"It seems to me," he said at last, but as if he were thinking of
something quite different, "you must be in want of food."

"Oh, no, sir!" answered Clare again, "I'm used to going without."

Like a child the sport of an evil fairy, he was again the boy of the
old wanderings, in the old, hungry times. But did he ever look so lost
as in the mirror before him? he wondered.

"You haven't told me----" said the captain, and stopped short, as if
he dreaded going further.

"I will tell you anything you want to know, sir. Please ask me."

"You say you did not come on board the frigate: what am I to
understand by that?"

"That I was brought, sir, in my sleep. It wouldn't be fair, would it,
sir, to mention names, when I don't know for certain who they were
that brought me? I never knew anything till I opened my eyes, and
thought I was in----"

He paused.

"_Where_ did you think you were?" asked the captain eagerly.

"In the dome of the angels, sir," answered Clare.

The captain's face fell. He thought him an innocent, on whom rascals
had been playing a practical joke. But that made no difference! If he
were a simpleton, he might none the less be----! Was _her_ boy left
to----?

He shuddered visibly, and again was silent.

"Tell me," he said at length, "what you remember."

He meant--of the circumstances that immediately preceded his coming to
himself on board the Panther; but Clare began with the first thing his
memory presented him with. Perhaps he was yet a little dazed. He had
not got through a single sentence, when he saw that something earlier
wanted telling first; and the same thing happening again and again
within the first five minutes of his narration, sir Harry saw he had
before him a boy either of fertile imagination, or of "strange,
eventful history." But either supposition had its difficulty. If, on
the one hand, he had had the tenth part of the experiences hinted at;
if, for one thing, he had been but a single month on the tramp, how
had he kept such an innocent face, such an angelic smile? If, on the
other hand, he was making up these tales, why did he not look sharper?
and whence the angelic smile? Did the seeming innocence indicate only
such a lack of intellect as occasionally accompanies a remarkable
individual gift? He must make him begin at the beginning, and tell
everything he knew, or might pretend to know about himself!

"Stop," he said. "You told me you did not quite know your name: what
did they call you as far back as you can remember?"

"Clare Porson," answered the boy.

At the first word the captain gave a little cry, but repressed his
emotion, and went on. His face was very white, and his breath came and
went quickly.

"Why did you say you did not _quite_ know your name?"

"My father and mother called me by their name because there was nobody
to tell them what my real name was."

"Then they weren't your own father and mother that gave you the name?"

"No, sir. I'm but using theirs till I get my own. I shall one day."

"Why do you think so?"

"Don't _you_ think, sir, that everything will come right one day?"

"God grant it!" responded the captain with a groan, self-reproached
for the little faith beside the strong desire.

"Do you think it wrong, sir, to use a name that is not quite my own?"
said Clare. "People sometimes seem to think so."

"Not at all, my boy! You must have a name. You did not steal it. They
gave it you."

The look of the boy when he thus answered him, completely restored sir
Harry's confidence in his mental soundness, while both the mode and
the nature of his answer to every question he put to him, bore the
strongest impress of truth.

"If the boy be a liar," he said to himself, "I will never more trust
my kind. I will turn to the wild-beasts, and believe in panthers and
hyenas!"

"They did, sir," answered Clare. "Mr. Porson gave me his own name, and
he was a clergyman. So I thought afterwards, when I had to think about
it, that it couldn't be wrong to use it."

But how could sir Harry palter so with himself? He might have got at
the necessary facts so much quicker!

Sir Harry shrank from seeing his suddenly wakened hope, dead for many
a year, crumble before his eyes. He dared not yet drive question
close.

"Did Mr. Porson give you both your names?" he asked.

"No, sir. My mother said I brought the first with me. She said I told
them--I don't remember myself--that my name was Clare."

The captain drove back the words that threatened to break from his
lips in spite of him. His boy's name was Clarence, but his mother,
whose dearest friend was a _Clara_, called her child always _Clare_!

"I mean my second mother, sir," explained Clare; "my own mother is in
the dome of the angels."

A flash lightened from the captain's eyes, but he seemed to himself to
have gone blind. Clare saw the flash, and wondered.

Again _the dome of the angels_! The words burst into meaning. Out of
the depths of the world of life rose to his mind's eye the terrible
thing that had made him a lonely man. Again he stood with his head
thrown back, looking up at the Assumption of the Virgin painted in
that awful dome; again the earthquake seized the church, and shook the
painted heaven down upon them. He knew no more. His little boy had
been standing near him, holding his mother's hand, but staring up like
his father!

He had to force the next words from his throat.

"Where did the good people who gave you their name find you?"

"Sitting on my mother--my own mother. The angels fell down on her, and
when they went up again, she had got mixed with them, and went up
too."

Some people thought my friend Skymer "a little queer, you know!" I
leave my reader to his own thought: he will judge after his
kind. Clare's father no longer doubted his perfect faculty.

All through Clare's life, as often as the old, vague, but ever ready
vision brought back its old feelings, with them came the old thoughts,
the old forms of them, and the old words their attendant shadows; and
then Clare talked like a child.

The stern, sorrowful man hid his face In his hands.

"Grace," he murmured--and Clare knew somehow that he spoke to his
wife, "we have him again! We will never distrust him more!"

His frame heaved with the choking of his sobs.

Then Clare understood that the grand man was his father. The awe of a
perfect gladness fell upon him. He knelt before him, and laid his
hands together as in prayer.

"Why did you distrust me, father?" said the half-naked outcast.

"It was not my child, it was my father I distrusted. I am ashamed,"
said sir Harry, and clasped him in his arms.

The boy laid his blood-stained face against his father's bosom, and
his soul was in a better home than a sky full of angels, a home better
than the dome itself of all the angels, for his home was his father's
heart.

How long they remained thus I cannot tell. It seemed to both as if so
it had been from eternity, and so to eternity it would be. When a
thing is as it should be, then we know it is from eternity to
eternity. The true is.

The father relaxed at length the arms that strained his child to his
heart. Clare looked up with white, luminous face. He gazed at his
father, cried like little Ann, "You're come!" and slid to his feet. He
clasped and kissed and clung to them--would hardly let them go.

All this time the officers on the quarter-deck were wondering what the
captain could have to do with the beggarly stowaway. The panther stood
on his feet, anxiously waiting, his ears starting at every sound. He
was longing for the boy with whom he had played, panther cub with
human infant, in the years long gone by. The sweet airs of his
childhood were to the panther plainly recognizable through all the
accretions that disfigured but could not defile him. The two were the
same age. They had rolled on floor and deck together when neither
could hurt--and now neither would. For the animal was perfectly
harmless, and chained only because apt to be unseasonably
frolicsome. When they let him loose, it was a season of high jinks and
rare skylarking. Then the men had to look out! He had twice knocked a
man overboard, and had once tumbled overboard himself. But he had
never killed a creature, was always gentle with children, and might be
trusted to look after any infant.

Sir Harry raised his son, kissed him, set him on his own chair, and
retired into an inner cabin.

A knock came to the door. Clare said, "Come in." The quartermaster
entered. Instead of sir Harry, he saw the miserable stowaway, seated
in the captain's own chair. He swore at him, and ordered him out,
prepared to give him a kick as he passed.

"Out with you!" he cried. "Go for'ard. Tell the bo's'n to look out a
rope's end. I'll be after you."

"The captain told me to sit here," answered Clare, and sat.

The officer looked closer at him, begged his pardon, saluted, and
withdrew.

The father heard, and said to himself, "The boy is a gentleman: he
knows where to take his orders."

He called him into the inner cabin, and there washed him from head to
foot, rejoicing to find under his rags a skin as clean as his own.

"Now what are we to do for clothes, Clare?" said sir Harry.

"Perhaps somebody would lend me some," answered Clare. "Mayn't I be
your cabin-boy, father? You will let me be a sailor, won't you, and
sail always with you?"

"You shall be a sailor, my boy," answered sir Harry, "and sail with me
as long as God pleases. You know to obey orders!"

"I will obey the cook if you tell me, father."

"You shall obey nobody but myself," returned sir Harry; "--and the
lord high admiral," he added, with a glance upward, and a smile like
his son's.

For that day Clare kept to the captain's state-room; the next, he went
on deck in a midshipman's uniform, which he wore like a gentleman that
could obey orders.

Chapter LXVI.

The end of Clare Skymer's boyhood.

His father had a hammock slung for him in the state-room; he could not
be parted from him even when they slept.

One night sir Harry, lying awake, heard a movement in the state-room,
and got up. It was a still, star-lit night. The frigate was dreaming
away northward with all sail set. Through the windows shone the level
stars. From a beam above hung a dim lamp. He could see no one. He went
to the hammock. There was no boy in it. Then he spied him, kneeling
under the stern-windows, with his head down.

"Anything the matter, Clare?" he asked.

"No, father."

"What are you doing?"

"Trying to say _Thank you for my father!_"

"Oh, thank him, thank him, my boy!" returned sir Harry. "Thank him
with all your heart. He will give us _her_ some day!"

"Yes, father, he will!" responded Clare.

His father knelt beside him, but neither said word that the other
heard.

The next night, Clare was on the quarter-deck with his father, and
heard him give certain orders to the officers of the watch. He had
never heard orders given in such a way: he spoke so quietly, so
directly, so simply! The night was gusty and dark, threatening foul
weather. The captain measured the quarter-deck as when first Clare saw
him, but with a mien how different! He walked as slow and stately as
before, but with a look almost of triumph in his eyes, glancing often
at the clouds. The thought of having such a father made Clare tremble
with delight from head to foot. His father was the power of the
sea-planet that bore them! Him the great vessel, and all aboard of
her, obeyed! He was the life of her motions, the soul of her! At his
pleasure she bowed her obedient head, and swept over the seas! Clare's
heart swelled within him.

But this father had, the night before, knelt with him in the presence
of one unseen, worshipping and thanking a higher than himself! As the
captain of the Panther sailed his frigate through the seas, so the
great father, the father of his father, the father of all fathers, to
whom the captain kneeled as a little child, sailed through the heaven
of heavens the huge ship of the world, guided fleet upon fleet
innumerable through trackless space! And over an infinitely grander
sea than the measureless ocean of worlds, the Father was carrying
navies of human souls, every soul a world whose affairs none but the
Father could understand, through many a storm, and waterspout, and
battle with the powers of evil, safe to the haven of the children, the
Father's house! And Clare began to understand that so it was.

One day his father said to him--

"Clare, whatever you forget, whatever you remember, mind this--that
you and I and your mother are the children of one father, and that we
have all three to be good children to that father. If we do as he
tells us, he will bring us all at length to the same port. Our admiral
is Jesus Christ. We take our orders from him. But each has to sail his
own ship."

The boatswain shook in his wide shoes, but Clare never showed him the
least disfavour. He recognized at once the two officers he had seen at
the menagerie, but beyond giving each a look he could hardly mistake,
he showed no sign of having any knowledge of them.

He set himself to be a sailor, and learned fast. I need scarcely say
he was as precise in obeying any superior officer as the best sailor
on board. In a few weeks he felt and looked to the manner born--as
indeed he was, for not only his father, but his grandfather, and his
great-grandfather, and more yet of his ancestors,--how many I do not
know, were sailors.

He had had a rough shaking. The earthquake had come and gone, and come
again and gone a many times. But the shaking earth was his nurse, and
she taught him to dwell in a world that cannot be shaken.

[Illustration: Clare, Tommy, and the baby in custody.]

[Illustration: Mrs. Porson finds Clare by the side of his dead mother.]

[Illustration: Clare is heard talking to Maly.]

[Illustration: Clare makes friends during Mr. Porson's absence.]

[Illustration: The blacksmith gives Clare and Tommy a rough greeting.]

[Illustration: Clare and Abdiel at the locked pump.]

[Illustration: Clare proceeds to untie the ropes from the ring in the
bull's nose.]

[Illustration: Clare finds the advantage of a powerful friend.]

[Illustration: The gardener's discomfiture.]

[Illustration: Clare asks Miss Shotover to let him carry Ann home.]

[Illustration: Clare is found giving the shoeblack a lesson.]

[Illustration: Clare asleep in the puma's cage.]

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